MJ

Name→ Maxine Jaylyn Hale. a.k.a MJ Age →19 Career →Psychiatric Therapist Current Location→ Tree Hill Sexuality→ Heterosexual

[malachai-kai-hale]

I’ma Cluck Up Yea Boi

Kai came home that morning after not coming home things had been tough since they found out they were going to have another baby. Kai had got a 6 pack and slept in the car just cause he wanted a break and honestly he was turning back into the lazy loser he was before her. “Hey, Sweetie hows the buckaroos? Buckaroos oh yeah that’s weird.” He knew he was acting weird.

[mj-hale]

“Malachai!” She met him. “ Are you okay?! I was worried to death since what happened at the station I never heard from you...I thought-- at first you had been shot...but when you never showed up after everyone was identified.... I thought maybe you were a part of the violent act.” she had to confess because she was still concerned because Kai was acting weird.

[mj-hale]

“Is that what what I said? No it’s not! MJ.” He rolled his eyes. “I would go back and not let it happen but that’s not an option!  So what does it matter it’ll have to work it’self out why do we have to fight about it I’m just shook a little is all Alright?” He glanced over seeing Mikai and he sighed. “It’s fine. No big deal. Mikai is gonna be a big brother. Right buddy?” He tried to make it better but Mikai knew better that something was wrong.

MJ sighs, “My feelings are hurt.” She said to her husband and looked over at Mikai. “Are you happy you’re gonna be a big brother?” 

[mj-hale]

“Well excuse me for wanting to see my wife’s but more than my toddlers!” Her breathing was laughable. “I don’t know either MJ! What you want me to leave? Are you asking what to do with the baby? I don’t know about anything! being a parent has been freaking hard! Can you give me a sec I need to talk to my therapist!”

“I never said that! What are you thinking about leaving?” she was beyond frustration.  “Yes! If you were the one that had the baby growing inside you right now and had the option to do anything you wanted concerning the baby what would you do? Do you want me to terminate the pregnancy?” her tone was anger towards him. “No! I’m sorry the therapist is out you’re wife is currently available.” Mean while Mikai was watching them argue. 

[mj-hale]

“Don’t do that. I know you’re stressed out too don’t act like I’m a loose canon and you have all of your shit together it’s already hard okay How are we gonna handle him and a new born? We hardly see each other right now as it is.”

“Reference back to the test Kai because we obviously see each other!” She knew what he meant but it flew all over her. MJ started her trained relax breathing. “I don’t know...For once I don’t know.” She was selfish and thought about her career. “What is your options?”

[mj-hale]

Kai held it in for a moment and nodded before sitting Mikai down and walking out side he needed a minute. “Ah Ahh Ahhhhh!” He shook it off he was terrified. and over worked and didn’t know how that were gonna do it. “I’m okay, I’m okay.” He inhales deeply through his nose. “I need some Ritalin.” He joked. “We got this?”

MJ crossed her arms and held her tongue at Kai’s reaction. She hoped he felt better now. “Well if we don’t just know that I do got this.” 

[mj-hale]

He laughed. “Could you imagine? It’s cry would be wicked.” He turned back hearing her speak and what she said next took a second to register. His mouth opened like he was going to say something but it didn’t quite find it’s way to words. “Got it.” He made a single nod and decided it best to not get into anything until they were sure. “Later.” He left and went and picked up the meds and got a test he thought he got the right one but he still wasn’t sure. He came home that morning and handed her the test for her morning pee. You want some privacy?” Or should he stay in the bathroom?

MJ looked at the test. “To me this is a family thing and I don’t mind having you guys in here.” She was nervous because another kid wasn’t what their relationship needed now if ever. “I gotta go, “ She said and took the test with them in there with her. “Now we wait little man.” She smiled at their son. “What if you’re going to be a big brother now huh? She rubbed his head. Moments later MJ looked at the test and glanced up at Kai. “We’re pregnant!” She said laughing and passed him the test.

[mj-hale]

He laughed but sighed relief. “More than Ok. Hey if I had to listen to Celine Dion in the womb as much as he did I’d act like that too.” He teased. “Of course it’s not your fault.” He stood up and took one last bite. “I better get going before they close. I’ll see you guys later.” He scrubbed his sons head. “bye pipsqueak.” He kissed MJ. “Love you, Echo.” He was on his way out.

MJ giggles, “Hey now Celine Dion is calm it’s not like I was listening to slip knot.” She watched him stand up one of them was always leaving. Her heart still smiled and gave her butterflies hearing him say Echo. “Love you, Echo.” She went to say something else but stopped as Kai went to shut the door MJ stood up. “Kai,” her eyes looked a little anxious. “Pick up a first response test.” She looked at him trying to read his reaction. ‘I might be pregnant.”  MJ was worried this possibility would break Kai.

[mj-hale]

“Depends on what time the pharmacy closes. Can you write the prescription?”

“I already sent it over. I was just hoping you were okay with it.” MJ was releived Kai felt that something needed to give. “I feel like a bad parent for it. Did I do something that makes him act like this?”

[mj-hale]

“That’s just your abstract thinking.” He teased sighing and giving up. He tossed the crumb of a mr clean magic eraser toward the dust board of the floor and followed his wife into the kitchen picking up their son and holding him at the sink while he washed his hands. He sat him down and then took his own seat across from MJ. “Are you  asking as my wife or my psychologist?  Hectic. Sometimes Chasing grown armed me around is easier than a toddler. He don’t like his clothes so he tugs at them or I find them laying around he spits out everything I make him and he won’t use washable paints because they and I quote don’t have enough opacity. That’s where the sharpie comes from. Oh and ya know paper isn’t big enough.” He sighed. “How was your day? Am I your craziest kook?” He asked Putting salad on his plate.

“Depends on which you need me to be right now.” She said playfully. “Yeah, I know... So listen, I didn’t want it to come to this, but have you ever considered Ritalin?” She felt like a bad parent.

[malachai-kai-hale]

“You drew on the walls again?” Kai said to Mikai with a gulp of dread. “But I just used the last magic eraser. @mj-hale

[mj-hale]

MJ walked through the door about the time Kai finished his sentence. “Hi,” she glanced up removing her key from the door, Mikai ran up to her giving her a hug. “Hey buddy,” She looked over at the wall. “Did you make art on the wall again?” she sighed and walked over to Kai and tilts her head looking at the marker lines scribbled along their white walls. “I kinda like it.” She said with a smile. “Come keep me company while I make us dinner.” She said to her husband and made her way into the kitchen. It had been a long stressful day at work for her as well and now just as she was getting home the would eat and Kai would have to leave for his shift and they’d do it all again the next day. 

MJ washed the fresh kale and made a quick healthy salad with walnuts topping the green off on the plate as she passed the bowl across the table to Kai, “How was your day?” She asked, as she placed a plastic plate of green beans and carrots to their child. 

[nova-kinsley]

Our First  “Broken Family” Therapy Session

[nova-kinsley]

Dimitri knew he truly did mess her up but he also knew so much or her was born that way and she was the on in control of letting this be in control of her so it never got to him as much as it should’ve. “I’m not acting and you don’t know me you’re too abandoned in your mind to take anything else in.” She needed to deal with it and then move on but he just thought she never would and this was a waste of time. “I did love your mother and I didn’t love you for a very long time because I didn’t feel anything for you but that’s different now I love you I do.” He comments meant nothing to him and the fact that she stood up just made him wish she could lie better.  He grabbed Nova and held her trying to console her but it never worked in the past so he didn’t think it’d work now. “Just let it out I’ll still be here when you’re done.” She needed to do what she had to do.

“I can’t breathe!” She said as his arms were locked around her. Nova struggled for air but felt like her lungs were being crushed. “I-I can’t! breathe!” she struggled in his arms until he let her go and the pressure felt a little less heavy in her chest. Nova just sits where she landed on her ass in the floor.

[mj-hale]

It was hard to watch and feel so helpless was hard for MJ. “I think we’ve made good progress here. The main thing is that no one gives up. The first few session are usually the most painful.” she hoped this made them feel a little better. MJ got Dimitri alone, “I know this isn’t easy for anyone. I can’t help but feel that there’s only so much I can do for Nova... I want to recommend  psychiatric help for her. It isn’t normal that she want you the way she does. This is a different level of  acceptance and love she’s asking for. Has she been sexually abused by these men she tried to replace you with? Not necessarily but it is possible. Or she’s made an image of you in her head and you’re not living up to her expectations. What ever the case this isn’t healthy.” MJ nods. “If you need anything between now and your next appointment my phone is on 24/7 don’t hesitate. And see if you can get Ms. Turner to come back it could help everyone.” 

[nova-kinsley]

Our First  “Broken Family” Therapy Session

[nova-kinsley]

“It was another joke in passing ut We would have never done it.” Why did she do this? Ask crap like that. “You remebered correctly good girl you were so young but you knew what was up good on you.” He was proud she paid so much attention.

He looked at Nova and felt sorry for putting tears in her eyes but he was here and there wasn’t much he could do to take them away now but he was trying. “Wait so you’re So scared I’ll leave you that you give me a reason to?” He didn’t understand. “I want us to be close too And I’m trying but it’s clear we scare each other because of things we’ve done in the past, but we’ve tried the clean slate thing before but you’re too hurt to let it go so we have to get it all out. isn’t that why we’re here?” What else was Nova trying to get out of this other than love from her parents? “I know, I know that.” But yet he didn’t know what she wanted him to do and MJ seen that.

He hated she felt like she always had to ask for his love and he knew he was neglectful of her and wasn’t going to try and tell her she was wrong because her feelings were valid. “Baby you act like I didn’t care at all like it was easy for me, Nora was all I knew outside of the family I knew at the time she was my first love and my mother died thinking I would spend the rest of my life with Nora because I convinced her that I would and I was alone for years! after I let her go. I listened to what kind of fool am I for 2 years straight every night at 11:30pm and it hurt because I done it to myself but I literally felt like being with her wasn’t an option anymore even when I missed her so much my chest would ache and then I saw you and you looked like me and that made it so much worse it was so hard to push you out of my mind but I’m ashamed to say That I managed to do it because I was that selfish. I but it didn’t mean that I didn’t love her or you I wanted to love you but I promise you I’m a better father now to you than I ever would been if I had stayed.” He listened to her ask the hard questions but he wasn’t going to lie to her. “The decision I made wasn’t the best for you or your mother but it was best for me so personally, no I wouldn’t change that part, but I would change the way I handled it. I shouldn’t have cut you out and if I had the chance to change that I would in a heartbeat.” He knew that wouldn’t stop her crying.

Her answer didn’t surprise him but her other words were slightly cringingly shocking Dimitri set there speechless and his body langue was clearly uncomfortable. “I-I…” He was at a loss. “First off with the kissing which you try to do to me from time to time. I said no so obliviously the other… whatever. Is Not! going to happen. Ever.” What was wrong with her? “I feel like where I was never around to be a male figure in your life that wasn’t sexual that you got your approval, affection and love messed up baby that’s not how father daughter love works. and second that’s is so wrong I’m all for the truth but that one was got me. I don’t know how to respond. Poor Reese?” He looked at MJ. “Help.” He now would feel strange if anyone found out how He called Bekka baby and she called him Daddy in bed, but also it was weird to look at Nova and think she was having sex with Reese and possibly pretending it was her father.

Dimitri’s truth was too painful for Nova and she breaks down crying. Nova gets up and slings her wheelchair at Dimitri revealing what he already knew. Nova grunts and screams and threw a tantrum identical to Nora’s when things became to much to handle. “You’re so selfish!! I HATE YOU!! It’s you’re fault! Everything that’s wrong with me is because of you! You’re scared of me because you made me so scary! You are a monster!!!” Nova was getting ready to have a mental break that would put her in the hospital again. Dimitri wasn’t saying what she wanted him to say. He wasn’t lying. “Don’t you dare act like you loved myself or mom for one second, Lucifer.” Nova spent to much time around Ronnie and yes she is a believer now. 

[mj-hale]

MJ stood up when Nova began to throw things and she motioned at Dimitri and hugged herself and mouths for him to hold Nova, Or at least try to. Nova needed to let this out this was good but MJ needed to speak to Dimitri in private as well. 

[nova-kinsley]

Our First  “Broken Family” Therapy Session

[nova-kinsley]

“Ah No not really I guess you could say I just finally developed some. Because for a while I was kind of resentful about the situation then I left Nora and I felt like The baby was the reason I had to leave Nora because I knew she would keep her and I knew if I had to take on the responsibility that comes with having a child especially in that environment that I would… I really don’t know how to word it but I knew I wouldn’t become a man that I would or that I knew my mother would be proud of and I was so afraid of getting stuck there. I know it’s cowardly but I done it I admit that I own it I can’t change it, but time went on I started to feel guilt for leaving them alone and not knowing what they were going through I often forced myself not to think about her and how they were doing till eventually I just didn’t think about them much if at all.”

“ I think I visited her three times in 15 years I don’t even know if she remembers them because I really didn’t say much and Nora and I kind of just gave each other the cold shoulder. Then Nova showed up and I was hit in the face with the reality of it and that was hard to say the least it was embarrassing to see her because she knew what I had done, but somewhere along the line I think she got less mad at me and we started doing better then something would happen she would lash out like she does for attention and it was like normal attention stuff it was harmful to herself and to others. And one time we were doing great I was really proud of the path our relationship was on then she just came out with this big story that she was having my baby. Could have ruined my life for pretty much ever and I didn’t understand it and from then on I felt a little scared to be around her because we were doing so good then out of nowhere I could have went to jail. So Then I got annoyed and mad and scared of her so I let her do whatever she wanted after that including move out with her now husband.” He really let her get knocked up because he was busy with Bekka and pushed her off on Reese more than he would have if Bekka hadn’t been there.

“Nova if you want I will feed you with a bottle I swear it the god Ronnie didn’t go to. If that’s too far back I will do whatever you need that’s why we’re here. I do not love the twins more than you and you can come over and stay when ever you want as long as you don’t do anything harmful to anyone including yourself.”

“Did you think about abortion?” Nova wanted to Know because he said he knew that Nora was going to keep her so it must have been an option.  “I remember one time. And I think you fucked mom when you decided to visit.” 

Nova listened the rest of what Dimitri had to say. Nova was so sad. She looked at MJ. MJ looked back at Nova and softly nods letting her know it’s okay. “It’s normal to feel this way and it’s the best thing you can do. Allow yourselves to feel this. You must go through the motions. Go ahead.” MJ said knowing that they didn’t need her permission. 

Nova looks up at the ceiling trying not to cry anymore. “It’s just– We were doing good, yes. But the reason it can’t be good is because I’m afraid that he’ll cut me out again.” tears streamed down lil Nova’s face but she still remained looking up at the ceiling. “I don’t want to get attached to a relationship with him that he can so easily drop at his own will or the request of his new family.” Nova knew she was last compared to Bekka and the boy’s even if he denied this. “I want us to be close.”  She looked over at Dimitri. “NO! I’m not baby that’s not what I want. You don’t understand!” Nova shouts.

MJ interrupted, “What do you want? Do you even know? You have to communicate. He’s reached his hand out for you. I understand your scared and you don’t trust him with your feelings. I wish there was a better solution but this is part of being human. This is the only way.” 

“Yes! Of course I know what I want. I want affection. I want intimacy.” She looked at her dad. “I want you to love me without me having to ask.”

[mj-hale]

“During the time of blocking them out I assume it wasn’t as easy as a sentence makes it sound. Words can only express so much and grief isn’t something one can really say as much as it is to be expressed.” MJ said. “Don’t justify for him acting like we were dead to him!” Nova spoke up and said. “I’m sorry If my point appeared to be justifying him. I’m not here to justify anyone. I’m only trying to help.” She said honestly.  “Answer me this Dumbmitri, wouldn’t you still leave us? if you could go back in time and stop yourself would you?” Nova asked. 

MJ nods hearing Nova wanted affection. “Okay, that’s good. Thank you for expressing what you want now maybe we can work on it. Define what affection and intimacy you need from him. How much do you need? I don’t want you to feel like his affection is a reward like a treat for a dog.” MJ said and looked at Nova.

[nova-kinsley]

Our First  “Broken Family” Therapy Session

[nora-turner]

“Then start acting like it!” He watched her sit in the hall like a crazy Christopher Robin. “Well now you have and if you come back in this room you can hear it a lot more. That’s way I’m here Nora. We’re a family.” He said like Duh. Damon said as he passed by to have his session. “Then I’m goinng back and it would go a lot easier i you would come in and fix what you said, but knowing you, you spilt the beans and all you done was make it worse because you won’t go back in there to fix it.” He said disappointed and left back to the room. “We’ll be continuing without Nora today.”

Nora cries watching him walk away from her because she always had ptsd when he would walk away. If she was Bekka he would have swooped her up off the floor and carried her back in there. Nora left feeling pretty much miserable and trying to think of a reason to make it all worth it.

[mj-hale]

MJ nods, “The main focus is that you made an effort to try and bring everyone back together in this room. Good job!” She smiles. “Don’t worry Mrs. Kinsley it’s perfectly normal for the first session to go less than perfect. It’s all part of the process it’s a little corny but you really do have to fall apart to fall back together. Everyone is doing a great job.” MJ looks at her paper. “So if everyone is okay with continuing we’ll do so.” Nova was just as disappointed in Nora as Nora was in Dimitri, but she nods wanting to continue. “Mr. Carter your feelings towards Nova has changed in the many years correct? is there any resentment towards her now? Or as you’ve grown was it truly resentment if so?”

[nova-kinsley]

Our First  “Broken Family” Therapy Session

[mj-hale]

Boy they sure gave her a script in college now didn’t they? Dimitri looked at Nora like seriously. “I thought this was family therapy not couples.” He replied to Nora’s remark and before he could even answer MJ’s question Nova jumped in and he nods like of course here it goes. He expected it. “Thank you for that Nova we can’t leave that part out it’s the very reason we’re here.” He clears his throat because this was uncomfortable. “He did.” He nods. “But he figured he only had this one life and at the time didn’t think that they were the way he wanted to spend it. It was mostly the place and the people that made it so easy.” He shook his head slightly thinking about it. “It really wasn’t so much them, but they did scare me.” He shrugged like Bekka.

“He did? So when did he stop? Is there a certain event that took place or did you fall out of love?” She looks at Dimitri trying to read his emotions on the topic. “How did they scare you? What was they threatening to frighten you?”

[nova-kinsley]

Our First  “Broken Family” Therapy Session

Nova was in a wheelchair while Dimitri and Nora shared a small sofa some would call a loveseat. Nova was scared because what if this didn’t fix her pain? there was nothing else left to do. 

[mj-hale]

MJ could pick up on the tension so she decided to try and give a more relaxed feel to the room by leaning back in her chair instead of on the desk. “Hello, Carter and Turner family. My name is MJ and I’m hear to try my best to help. Just please keep in mind that I can only help if you let me in. I’m not going to pry but answering my questions honestly will help me to help you. With that being said there is coffee, water and a good finger food spread to your left, please help yourself at any time.” She smiled warmly at them. “In the meantime we have the next hour together. I want to start off by asking What brings you here today?” 

[nora-turner]

Nora sat silent, she didn’t want to be here, but she did get lost in thought about Ronnie and a few other things as MJ was giving a bullshit speech. Oh thank god it was over. Her eyes flicker over to Dimitri. “A dumb girl fell in love with a stupid boy.” She looked away from Dimitri. “Is that too far back?” She asked.

[kat-lee-reid]

MJ reassured Nora that wherever she wanted to start was perfect. “And did the stupid boy fall in love with the dumb girl?” She looked at Dimitri.  

[nova-kinsley]

Our First  “Broken Family” Therapy Session

Nova was in a wheelchair while Dimitri and Nora shared a small sofa some would call a loveseat. Nova was scared because what if this didn’t fix her pain? there was nothing else left to do. 

[mj-hale]

MJ could pick up on the tension so she decided to try and give a more relaxed feel to the room by leaning back in her chair instead of on the desk. “Hello, Carter and Turner family. My name is MJ and I’m hear to try my best to help. Just please keep in mind that I can only help if you let me in. I’m not going to pry but answering my questions honestly will help me to help you. With that being said there is coffee, water and a good finger food spread to your left, please help yourself at any time.” She smiled warmly at them. “In the meantime we have the next hour together. I want to start off by asking What brings you here today?”