Setting the record ‘straight’
“Yeah, years, but I need to add I was really young, maybe around 15? 16? Something like that, and I had no one to discuss these things with.” He nodded. “If I weren’t alone it probably wouldn’t take me so long, and well… You got me to talk with. Even if it won’t be too helpful at least you’ll know what not to do. I had too many stupid ideas while trying to figure things out.” He flashed an encouraging smile at the younger.
“I always did. Maybe at times not as intensely as other times, but it had always been at the back of my mind. I just tried fighting against it a lot.” He tapped his chin deep in thoughts. “Oh and by experimenting I just meant I kissed a few guys and girls to see if it felt the same… needless to say, it didn’t.” He laughed a little.
Minchan couldn’t help but sigh at what Doojoon said. “Mokwon has way too many cute guys, both in high school and uni if you ask me. What a waste most of them isn’t interested in boys at least a tiny bit.” He pouted before grinning again. “Anyway, it’s not like there’s a deadline for this, no one expects you to figure it out or admit it quickly, everyone lives through it differently. I heard there are people who only realised they liked their own gender more after getting married and having families.”
‘’Well considering the country we live in, are you surprised? My parents lived in America for a while and their stories are completely different to here. Not to disrespect our own country but I hope you know what I mean.’’ Doojoon felt a little sad whenever he heard of stories where people discovered their sexuality at a later age. Even though it was fantastic to hear that they had finally accepted/discovered themselves it was still upsetting to him that it took all that time. ‘’I agree with you... Although I think most of that comes down to the shame that they feel about it. Being condemned by certain groups surely doesn’t help the situation either. Whether it be their parents or whatnot.’’
‘’I doubt people would like it if I went up to them and started to make out with them..’’ he laughed, thinking about what that sort of situation would be like. Even though the guys at his school didn’t show any interest didn’t meant that they weren’t the same way as Doojoon and Minchan, the thought of shame appeared at the forefront of his mind again. ‘’I’ve kissed a few girls anyway, so at least I don’t need to do that. Well, maybe.’’
Doojoon was clear that there wasn’t a time limit on the whole realisation of his own sexuality, it was just daunting that it could take so long. ‘’It’s just... I don’t know if annoying is the right word to use but yeah, annoying to me... The fact that it can take so long to be able to figure something like this out.’’ Considering that in his lifetime he hadn’t really had to think so seriously about anything on this calibur, besides maybe what he wanted to do later on in his life, the whole situation was a little frustrating to him. ‘’Thank you for agreeing to see me though, I appreciate that I have you I can talk to about this. Also if you ever need someone to talk to, maybe even gossip, I’m here.’’
