A deeply lost dream

Hi ! She/ They - 26 yo French-Mauritian - into classic studies (Latin/Greek/Sanskrit) - Capricorn

[notecardpasta]

hehehehehe * sudden moment of clarity that straightens my spine * what is this. who am I. * the clarity fades * hehehehehehe

[sixbigideas]

like. that was claudia. the real claudia. for the first time. and she was awful. and that’s Correct. the claudia we knew this whole time — that was claudia as told by louis. recalled as softer and smaller, in the same way lestat was recalled as larger and more aggressive.

once, maybe, she loved louis, when she was truly still a child. and of course he had to believe she always did, at least a little. but through the years following? by the time she died, a grown woman still reduced to his daughter? what love would she have left for him?

she was a vampire. and good at it. she was always lestat’s daughter. she is every bit the evil of his evil.

that scene wasn’t character assassination. louis’s retelling for the first two seasons was character assassination.

[empire-of-light]

But he has to let him know in that moment. No, it wasn't that I was manipulating you. I was under your spell. I was under your spell and I didn't even know it. I thought I had messed this up because I was so in love with Louis. But actually, no. It was you. – Assad Zaman

INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE 2.02 | 2.03 (insp.)

[ladypaperwriterson]

"You simply cannot trust Louis, he's a completely unreliable narrator and every single thing he ever said should be put to question! It's so good that we finally have Lestat's version, which is obviously the only true one - so good to finally have a reliable narrator!"

The reliable narrator:

[lissa]

3.04 "The Devil's Road" | THE VAMPIRE LESTAT

[goldengenuflexion]

[homosexualslug]

he is really is just like that™️ (x)

[oxymoronicdumbass2]

i walk a fine line between “i’m asexual and i hate how much the world revolves around sex” and “sex is way too stigmatized and people should be able to be more open about it if they want to”

[dark-nights-bright-lights]

I think these are two sides of the coin called "sex should not be such a big deal"

[skyrigel]

[del-ocho]

[gaypeople]

can’t do this

[pickletauras]

[skyrigel]

[lighthouseweeper]

Some people only find their true calling in their 70s

[sviteer]

I miss him

[spellthief]

If I’m able to, then perhaps I’ll be closer to portraying a true expression of love.

         -Hayao Miyazaki (x)

[beetleandfox]

obsessed with the Helena and Irving parallel and what it says about the aspects of our identity we think are fundamental (but aren't)...

Like Outie Irving assumes his Innie is just as radically anti-Lumon as he is. He assumes his hatred of Lumon is something ingrained in his personality! That's why he stays up at night drinking coffee and making paintings, because he hopes that when his innie dreams about the testing floor, he'll say "okay bet" and start exploring. That's what Outie Irving would do, after all. But he miscalculated! His hatred of Lumon isn't inherent--- his desire for meaning and art and spirituality is inherent. That's what his hatred for Lumon is built on. But in a world where there's no meaning outside of Lumon propaganda, of COURSE his innie would become ridiculously devoted to the company.

And Helena!! She is the corporation, that's her whole identity. She presumably assumed that Helly would be just as pro-Lumon as she is. But she miscalculated too! Her devotion to the company isn't inherent, her headstrong and entitled nature is what's inherent! And in a world where she's denied any agency whatsoever, that manifests as rebellion.

It's the same dynamic flipped on its head. They both sent their innies in there with opposite intentions--- one to take down the company, one feed the company's expansion--- only to realize that rebellion and devotion aren't inherent characteristics. Their innies have become the exact opposite of their outie selves, while still being exactly the same!! Because even though your personality is inherent, the values you hold are determined circumstantially. OUGH IT'S SO GOOD.