temptation is divine

"Anything approaching the change that came over his features I have never seen before, and hope never to see again. Oh, I wasn't touched. I was fascinated. It was as though a veil had been rent. I saw on that ivory face the expression of somber pride, of ruthless power, of craven terror — of an intense and hopeless despair. Did he live his life again in every detail of desire, temptation, and surrender during that supreme moment of complete knowledge? He cried in a whisper at some image, at some vision, — he cried out twice, a cry that was no more than a breath — 'The horror! The horror!'" Heart of Darkness, Joseph Conrad

[mnnesotagirl]

Can anyone help me with this?

I've been feeling every night my face burning and getting flushed, doesn't matter if it's cold. And it's just my face, my hands feel cold yet my face burns and gets red. I also feel my heart beat stronger, not necessarily faster.

It started when I tried to take Sertralin for my GAD, it made me scared so I stopped taking the medication. The feeling stayed for 3 days but I thought that was because the medication was still on my system. It didn't happen for a couple of days but yesterday I felt it and I'm feeling right now too. It always happen at night. I took a blood test a couple months ago and nothing was wrong.

I'm terrified and I don't know if that's an anxiety or stress symptom or any other serious disease. Please has anyone ever experienced this?? Help me! Talk to me!!

[inactive987654321-deactivated20]

*pushes tear back into eye* not now

[lora-mathis]

[howitzerliterarysociety-deactiv]

“You must understand fear so you can manipulate it. Fear is like fire. You can make it work for you: it can warm you in the winter, cook your food when you’re hungry, give you light when you are in the dark, and produce energy. Let it go out of control and it can hurt you, even kill you….Fear is a friend of exceptional people.”

— Cus D’Amato (via thecountryfucker)

[threnodyoverdrive]

“Be. And, at the same time, know what it is not to be. That emptiness inside you allows you to vibrate in resonance with your world. Use it for once.”

— Rainer Maria Rilke, “Part Two XIII,” from Sonnets to Orpheus  (via existential-celestial)

[chibird]

A small shiba inu is here to give you a blessing for July. ✨ Have a lovely month you all! 

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[astrodickology]

I love hearing about the vibes I give off cause I honestly have no idea

[astrodickology]

Anonymously message me what vibes I give off and why you think that

[beatlesneveroutofstyle]

John Lennon & Yoko Ono photographed on November 2nd 1980 in NYC. 

[shesgotwhatittakes]

While cleaning out my room I found a paper that my therapist gave me some time ago to deal with obsessive and intrusive thoughts. Sorry the paper is a little crinkled and stained, but I figured I’d post it in hopes that it will help someone like it helped me.

[shesgotwhatittakes]

Here it is again with text for anyone who can’t see the picture

That thought isn’t helpful right now.

Now is not the time to think about it. I can think about it later.

This is irrational. I’m going to let it go.

I won’t argue with an irrational thought.

This is not an emergency. I can slow down and think clearly about what I need.

This feels threatening and urgent, but it really isn’t.

I don’t have to be perfect to be OK.

I don’t have to figure out this question. The best thing to do is just drop it.

It’s OK to make mistakes.

I already know from my past experiences that these fears are irrational.

I have to take risks in order to be free. I’m willing to take this risk.

It’s OK that I just had that thought/image, and it doesn’t mean anything. I don’t have to pay attention to it.

I’m ready to move on now.

I can handle being wrong.

I don’t have to suffer like this. I deserve to feel comfortable.

That’s not my responsibility.

That’s not my problem.

I’ve done the best I can.

It’s good practice to let go of this worry. I want to practice.

[leaflicker]

I Died In 2010 and Was Replaced By Someone With Absolutely No Motivation and Complete Emotional Unavailability, a conspiracy thread

[visitscotland]

A Highland Coo and her calf wandering down an empty road, Argyll and the Isles, Scotland. Credit: Andy Maclachlan.

[distantstations]

Report to R.S.B. Leonard Cohen

Peace did not come into my life. My life escaped           and peace was there. Often I bump into my life, trying to catch its breath, pay a bill, or tolerate the news, tripping as usual over the cables           of someone’s beauty - My little life: so loyal, so devoted to its obscure purposes - And, I hasten to report, doing fine without me.

[patience409]

[narramin]

my attention span as a 10 year old: *reads the Lord of the Rings trilogy in like two sittings*

my attention span now: *checks internet every 10 minutes during important task, opens new tab of same site I’m already browsing and got tired of*

[okcupidescapades]

i feel like the most important piece of wisdom i can impart on teenagers is that no one–no one–knows what the fuck they’re doing

my brother is 26 years old, makes $200k a year, and just bought a house with his fiance. he’s the success story you hear about but never actually meet in person, but it all happened by accident. he wanted to go to college for clarinet performance, but he got rejected from all the top schools. so he decided to major in physics instead, and then went on to get a doctorate to put off being an adult for a few more years. but then he ended up dropping out halfway through the program and accepting a job with google as a software engineer. so to reiterate: my brother majored in something he was not interested in, and then he got a job that had nothing to do with his degree. 

he isn’t successful because he had some master plan he followed, he just stumbled around blindly until something worked out. and that’s what we’re all doing–i majored in political science and now i do customer service for a company that makes industrial-sized gas detection monitors. the marketing director at my company has a degree in biology, and my mom has an MBA and works at a middle school.  no one knows what they’re doing, we’re all just trying different things until something works out.

so if you don’t have a plan, that’s fine. most of us don’t. and even those of us who do, don’t usually end up doing the thing they thought they would. it’s okay to relax and let life carry you wherever it’s gonna carry you. because even though a lot of us don’t end up doing the thing we wanted, most of us end up happy anyway.

[okcupidescapades]

I’ve been thinking about this post since I made it a few hours ago, and I realized that I literally don’t know anyone who’s doing what they thought they’d be doing at this point in their life. I know a girl that has a degree in neuroscience and works in a restaurant (and makes quite a bit more money than I do, might I add), and a guy who wanted to be a parole officer but is now a security guard. I know people who wanted to be lawyers but ended up not having the grades for law school. I have a friend who’s 24 and just finished her bachelor’s, and two friends who decided to go to grad school because the idea of joining the adult world terrified them.

When I was seventeen, I was 100% sure that I was going to get a job as a bureaucrat and save the world. When I was a 21-year-old recent college grad, I found out that it’s impossible to get a government job unless you know someone. So I gave up and found something else. I know my teenage self would be disappointed if she could see where I’m at, but you know what? I don’t care. Because teenage me was an idiot. She didn’t know anything about the world or how it worked, and she couldn’t have possibly predicted the curveballs that life would throw at her. And because I don’t know a single person who’s doing the thing they wanted to do when they were teenagers.

I know a thousand people who aren’t where they thought they’d be, and zero people who are following the path they set out for themselves. All of us are confused and all of us are scared, and it’s okay if you are too.

[aphotov]

Honestly thank u, i needed to hear this again

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[chromeus]