[mostlythemarsh]

Onset

[997]

What do you do for a living

i try my best

[intraosseous]

[i-v-o-r-y-y]

— The Seagull

[acutelesbian]

A lot of people ask me what my biggest fear is, or what scares me most. And I know they expect an answer like heights, or closed spaces, or people dressed like animals, but how do I tell them that when I was 17 I took a class called Relationships For Life and I learned that most people fall out of love for the same reasons they fell in it. That their lover’s once endearing stubbornness has now become refusal to compromise and their one track mind is now immaturity and their bad habits that you once adored is now money down the drain. Their spontaneity becomes reckless and irresponsible and their feet up on your dash is no longer sexy, just another distraction in your busy life. Nothing saddens and scares me like the thought that I can become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in my eyes.

[fat-thin-skinny]

this fucks me up every single time

[acutelesbian]

I never expected this to be my most popular poem out of the hundreds I’ve written. I was extremely bitter and sad when I wrote this and I left out the most beautiful part of that class.

After my teacher introduced us to this theory, she asked us, “is love a feeling? Or is it a choice?” We were all a bunch of teenagers. Naturally we said it was a feeling. She said that if we clung to that belief, we’d never have a lasting relationship of any sort.

She made us interview a dozen adults who were or had been married and we asked them about their marriages and why it lasted or why it failed. At the end, I asked every single person if love was an emotion or a choice.

Everybody said that it was a choice. It was a conscious commitment. It was something you choose to make work every day with a person who has chosen the same thing. They all said that at one point in their marriage, the “feeling of love” had vanished or faded and they weren’t happy. They said feelings are always changing and you cannot build something that will last on such a shaky foundation.

The married ones said that when things were bad, they chose to open the communication, chose to identify what broke and how to fix it, and chose to recreate something worth falling in love with.

The divorced ones said they chose to walk away.

Ever since that class, since that project, I never looked at relationships the same way. I understood why arranged marriages were successful. I discovered the difference in feelings and commitments. I’ve never gone for the person who makes my heart flutter or my head spin. I’ve chosen the people who were committed to choosing me, dedicated to finding something to adore even on the ugliest days.

I no longer fear the day someone who swore I was their universe can no longer see the stars in my eyes as long as they still choose to look until they find them again.

[happiersuggestion]

there are people you haven’t met yet who will love you

[wnq-writers]

i’m so tired not due to the lack of sleep no due to the lack of happiness warmth safetyand all other good feelings i forgot

dewdropheart  (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

There are certain things I need to let go of. Moments I held on to dearly. Memories that gave me so much to remember. Yet these things make me feel like losing the other half of me. But I need to realize that I was whole to begin with.

Stronger // Conee Berdera (via wnq-writers)

[av-t]

i just want all my secrets back, i don’t want anyone to know anything about me anymore.

[modernonglaura]

hi. :3

Hi :)

[hajddkamddsmdsdjdkskdkdj-deacti]

[guy]

My hobbies include laying in bed in my underwear while I listen to music and hate myself

[dearkm]

Visit Original Link

Arielle,

Kanina ko to rinecord tapos fail pero tinatamad na akong ulitin haha kaya yan. Okay eto uhm. HOY BABAE SUPER NAKAKATOUCH YUNG MESSAGE MO KANINA! :“> Tapos sorry kasi lagi kitang iniiwan :( Tapos alam kong minsan lagi.. ah basta alam ko naman naiinis ka sakin pag may something chorva sorry :( I love kita. Haha mwamwa. Basta. Basta.

[modernonglaura]

#tb hehehe

[worshipgifs]

Why do you want God?

Before bed I usually think hard about the gospel, preaching, and everything about it, and about two days ago I was thinking what I would respond if someone asked me “Why do you serve God?” So your question came in a right time. I want God or I serve God because:I fear Him. There is a verse that says “Lift up your eyes and look to the heavens: Who created all these He who brings out the starry host one by one and calls forth each of Them by name.” When we look at something much bigger than us, it’s normal to feel fear and respect, and there is nothing greater than He.Because I need Him. I look to the world and see inequality, greed, corruption, sin, death, and I look to God and see hope, love, life. He’s all the world needs, He is all we need.Because of eternity. Once a pastor preached about what we will do in heaven, although we know only what the Bible says about it, one thing we can be sure: “For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face”. And I want this, I want eternity and I want it with Him.Because I love Him. As you know God truly, the easiest thing is to love Him. And as you surrender to this love, you can not keep it just for you, it is very large and you begin to distribute it to the people around you. That’s the reason we are so emphatic in preaching the gospel, we want the world to know this love that changes everything.Because I chose it. Love is a choice, proof is that love is a commandment, you can not love your enemy if you do not choose to love your enemy, we can’t love one another if we don’t choose to love one another, then yes we can choose to love and serve God, we can choose to want it and seek it.I want Him and I serve Him because of Himself. It would be selfishness if  I don’t say I serve him for who He is, because I am nothing and He is everything, and when we recognize this, we will be happy, held, loved, and we will fulfill our purpose.Perhaps the correct question to ask is, why God wants me. Why he has chosen me and continues choosing me and not giving up on me, after all I am and do. But God is not man, we will never understand His greatness and glory and mind, and I’m really okay with that. God bless you and thank you for asking.

[naturalpalettes]

[rhydonmyhardon]

being told you’re appreciated is one of the simplest yet incredibly uplifting things you can ever hear

[putablessings]