Letter to My Imaginary King (The King of my heart)
I'm so confused. So Hungry. I miss Singaporean breakfast haha! Lord, help me understand. someone so small but mighty, one that runs then zoom off just like that, loved and favoured but no one believes. The meaning of names in a christian country that doesn't feel like a christian country. It's weird. In a way. Yet, having denied you. Having be like Peter and Samaritan woman at the same time tells me that I also need a man like Peter who have changed. I see parallels well, thank you so much for this gift. I see through people well too. wow. white liars are not good too. If he have believed and is the Holy Spirit. let him seek me, otherwise, I'm happy either ways. I don't need this. I just want what you want lord. make it my desire, make it a moment we get to say "it is worth it" I love and trusted like here, but it has made me put down my muaythai guard yet I feel like I've been punched again and again. I don't understand this. Make me kind, yet strong, make me who you want me to be, for I am like a pottery unable to speak but have plenty of thoughts. I wanna be seen now but in my small tiny quiet way. My eyes have seen you, my ears have heard you and my heart have felt you. Flowed with you. Experience you here in New Zealand. Yet, all these travel don't satisfy, only you do. You've given me gifts beyond myself. I can sing, I can write, I can photograph, I can ideate and conceptualise but I am only but one person. Send me troops like David, Send me people who's got the same heart, Let me start something great. Thank you lord for all that you've made me to be so marvellous for one that's about to break free. But not just yet, I'm still like a bird without a home. And I don't want just a nice home. I want a safe, kind, love the word kind of home. I know what I want now. I want a lover not duties. It's great and it's good. I've lived to experience it and wisdom have aid me in such an accelerated way I can't even. But I love it, it helps me be inspired. And motivates to work it out. And best part is I have control over It also cos you practice it with me la. all the battery situations lol. Business needs to be for the people. Otherwise it really doesn't work. I am in the Jesus business yo, it's free haha. God using travel and finances a lot I wonder why.










