Do you ever stop and think about the fact that the only time Suho and Sieun have won their fights post-meeting each other was when they were fighting together? Going insane again ..
When Sieun had been ganged up by Seokdae’s group because of Yongbin, he had won through the divine intervention of Suho (and Bumseok too, but only a little). When Sieun cornered Gil-su in the abandoned amusement park, he had won, again, through Suho’s divine intervention. I like how the second fight had shown just how in sync the two are together, with the finishing blow being a coordinated attack they orchestrated just by following each other’s movement.
(Not to mention the fact that Sieun knew, in the back of his mind, that Suho would follow him. (“You came.”) Like the single acknowledgement that their bond had grown closer than it was before)
And then came the fights that had happened after. It’s safe to assume that both Suho and Sieun have never been into many fights before the entire events unfolding through the catalyst that is Yongbin. And now that they are close, fighting hell and back, realizing slowly just how much they mean to each other, then came their unconcious decision not to get the other involved in those fights anymore. Protection. Guardian angel.
Sieun fought Suho’s battle for him, even though he knows Suho is more than capable of defending himself, and that maybe if they had gone there together they could’ve rescued Youngyi without scoring another trip to the hospital — but alas. Sieun’s decision is born out of maybe personal guilt (since he tends to think that everything that has happened to Suho so far was his fault, because he was the one attracting the bullies in the first place) and the sense of not wanting Suho to get hurt anymore. He believes that this is his burden to carry. So he goes and fights alone, with the extra mile of making sure to remove a trace of the messages just so Suho wouldn’t find out and follow him because Sieun knows, really knows, that Suho would. Sieun would rather it be him that hurts and not Suho (maybe seeing him in the hospital after the Gil-su arc while Sieun was walking free was another influence for this decision).
And then Suho finds out. Then it’s another cycle of fighting a battle alone. Fueled by barely contained rage (how dare they lay a finger on Sieun), and Suho’s strong sense of avengance (mentioned in a previous post I made). Maybe if they had communicated, maybe if Sieun wasn’t so intent on keeping the truth from Suho — because he knows what it would mean to Suho, to find out that Sieun was beaten to the point of getting hospitalized, knows that Suho would give whoever had done this to him absolute hell. Because Sieun would’ve done the same (and he did). And the biggest maybe of all: maybe if they’d fought that battle together.
Suho and Sieun were destroyed not only by the forces of the likes of Bumseok and Yongbin etc, but also for how much they care about each other. If they were willing to bruise and bleed together like they did in the amusement park, instead of wanting to shoulder the other’s wounds (‘better me than you’), then maybe things really would’ve been different.
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