Mon Sheri

Sheridan | 28 | Someone Save Me

[neglectedmutt]

cant wait to be punished for acting like i slightly deserve to be treated okay

[s1ck-pup]

when it feels like something bad is going to happen, so i start it first

[monsherii]

Not sure how to feel these days. Thought I was further from my past more than ever, but it suddenly caught up to me after all this time.

I ask myself if I'm happy and I really don't have much to complain about. I am lacking certain needs but that's okay compared to lacking respect.

I think about the time I have essentially wasted on people I poured my heart and soul into. How bad all that love I gave, bruised me in return. How much, at the time, I knew I would give to someone not knowing how bad they would treat me and have control over me, that they pushed me away, so far I wouldn't come back.

Why does that haunt me. It angers me actually. People in this world getting away, causing pain, pushing people to breaking point knowing damn well they have everything and would abuse that anyways.

It's a real shame. I legitimately gave you everything, I lost myself in doing so, and now I can't fathom it because I actually care about myself now to know better.

My realisation to the truth is still my reality.

[nofuckingideawho]

"I'm here for you" - the motherfucker that leaves at the slightest sign of mental illness

[saccharinehell]

Dissociating is more fun than living in real life ngl

[sandmandaddy69]

[sappharic]

PTSD be like

[sincerelylux]

[whoeven-caresssss]

it’s so fucking tiring to always be on the edge of destruction. like one small thing and then here i am again back in this hole.

[x4ver1a-deactivated20251026]

"Leave first before they leave me" mentality because in the end, my inner child is just scared that someone will leave me all over again.

[werewolveswithdiaries]

[saying]

[nofuckingideawho]

*completely ruins myself to the point I don't recognise myself* am I good enough now?

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

Nice try attacking me - theres nothing you can say that I haven’t already said inches away from my mirror.

[metamorphesque]

— Yū Miri, Tokyo Ueno Station

[bpderanged]

If other people fail, it's okay because everybody makes mistakes.

If I fail, I'm a loser with no future who's better off dead because no matter how hard I try I will always be a failure.

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

Shut up, I know others have it worse.

I know I’m a horrible person.

I know that I deserve my poisoned mind.

I know that I’m not worth anything.

I know that I deserve everything that’s coming for my life and my throat.

I know that no one will ever want me.

I know that I’m ugly.

I know that I’ll never be loved by a stranger.

I know that I don’t deserve to complain.

I know that I’m privileged.

Goddamnit, I fucking know that I deserve these thoughts, that I deserve to die and, god, I know that I should’ve never been born to begin with.

So shut the fuck up.

[feeling-likeastranger]

I don’t know how to go on like this. Giving up sounds so much easier