MONSTER ★ WATCH

The story of two humans, Kathleen and Soleil. Ordinary students by day, monster watchers by night. *Content Warnings*

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Monster Watch Update 2021

Monster Watch is an ongoing project I created while I was still in high school back in 2016. It’s a story told through poetry, drawings, and its comics series. The main characters Kathleen and Soleil hold a special place in my heart.

It’s now been two years since I last updated the comics series. 

As much as I enjoyed those three years I worked on the comic, for a long time I’ve been having trouble coming back to work on the story. I realized its because I don’t like where the story currently is. Somewhere near the start of the time I began creating and posting the webcomic, I changed the original direction of the story. While I tried to move the comics along from the old story to the new, I found it becoming more difficult to do with where the comic eventually ended up.

This year I came to the decision that I will start over with the comics. In the meantime, I will no longer update the current storyline. I can still say I’m proud of the work that I did complete even though it’s not the exact story I wanted to tell. I’m glad that five years ago I went for writing my first webcomic while knowing it wouldn’t be as great as the story in my head. For that, I’ll leave the original webcomic online. As for Kathleen and Soleil, I still want to share their story. I know it won’t be anytime soon, but I hope to restart their comic again.

Until then, I probably won’t put out as much Monster Watch related artwork while I’m redeveloping a main storyline for the comics. However, I will be finishing up the poetry section of Monster Watch with two final poems. Please look forward to reading the written series finale!

Thank you to everyone here on Tumblr who’s supported the original comic. I know MW’s audience isn’t as big here, but I appreciate the few of you who have kept up with Kathleen and Soleil’s story. Hope to see you at their return!

TL;DR: Gonna restart the MW comics, finishing up the poetry section, I’m so grateful for your support <3

And as a final treat, here is what remains of the last comic I was working on back in 2019. There is a completed script to it, but I decided to just leave the panels blank so as to not spoil the comics before I restart.

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Oct. 11 2020: Happy 5th birthday to my character Soleil!!

(First Drawing of Soleil)

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Oct. 9 2020: It’s my character Kathleen’s 5th birthday!

(The first ever drawing of her)

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can’t love you enough

“Thank you so much,” The same worn words from me I find myself repeating them Whenever I’m with you

It can’t be right, You’re giving me your all And in return, there’s nothing that Soothes your loneliness

Having never known someone as kind as you, My head overflows to the brim with: I don’t know                        I don’t know      I don’t know                 I don’t know                                           I don’t know

And you won’t admit it but I can tell I’m no better than a pebble as a person Barely showing signs of affection or a soul

So for a moment could you stop your heart? From pouring out time and attention on me I want to be worthy of your empathy, Even though deep down I don’t know what that means

You deserve to feel like you’re cherished, too After all you’ve endured with my stubbornness But nothing I try could make it up, No matter how hard, I can’t love you enough

Will I be someone who can love just somewhat?

You’ve cried again, I know you so well now, Yet I’m at a loss of how I could lift your sorrow

It’s killing me, How empty you must feel, Longing for the same warmth You’re drowning me in

Without holding on to anyone for so long, I asked myself in what ways I felt loved:                                        I don’t know     I don’t know                    I don’t know                                I don’t know I don’t know

And yeah, I heard about those five languages Guess I don’t speak any of them To be honest, I thought they were made-up crap

So for a moment could you stop your heart? It’s pumping out light faster than I can breathe I use to think there was no use for it, Yet now I’m fighting to keep it in one piece

And here you remain, holding on to what? I gave up hope that I’m not numb completely Until I find it, do I have the right to stay? Until that day comes, I can’t love you enough

Thanks for showing me how to love just somewhat

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Goodnight Mankind

To know that wherever you end up You’d find someone who’d wish to stay near Never knowing how sweet that must be, I doubt that moment will happen for me

As much as I like to dwell on these feelings, The full moon tonight makes me feel selfish for it

Even if mankind is better without me, I will always look at them through the Endless love from God

The way they talk and laugh The way they try so hard They make up a beautiful world That doesn’t need me

I like to think of how every one of them Tuck themselves safely into bed and Softly fall asleep

I hope their homes are warm, I hope their heads are clear, As I lay awake and the moon, Climbs high through the sky

Goodnight mankind

I finally came to this acceptance: No matter what I make of myself, I’ll die alone but at my funeral, People will gather only out of their guilt

But I know that humans forget such things quickly, And their tears I imagine spring from my own eyes

Even if I have no place in humanity, Every other person out there Deserves to feel loved

The way they cry and scream, The way they long for peace, I pray that they will someday find it Even if I never can

I wonder what everyone is dreaming of? As I lay awake and my mind Begs for me to stop

I want to close my eyes, Never wake up again, But who I’m leaving in the daylight, I’m afraid to give up

Just when I’m sure that this will be the end, I cry my eyes shut and live another night

Even if mankind refuses to be kind, I can’t help but remember The few that just might

Our meaningless banter, Our favorite lunch spot, Even if it’s not forever, I’ll treasure today

Although I still want to say goodbye, For now I surrender as the clock meets Two in the morning

I hope you’re safe in bed, I hope you’re sleeping sound, While I lay awake and these last thoughts Scatter in moonlight

Goodnight mankind

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Shared interests

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moods

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Out There (acrylic)

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Angel

Oh hello from the me I hate to admit exists Underneath this face

If beauty’s from within I’ll be your angel A form of unexpected grace

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A Monster Watch poem I wrote for Kathleen as part of “In Living Memory,” a series of poems I wrote during the month of April.

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Galaxy Up His Sleeve

Content warning: contains implied suicidal idealization/self-harm

I remember when I wanted to be an astronaut Just to see the earth below And the stars up close

Later I learned I had no interest in science I only liked to draw planets And stare up at the night sky

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A Monster Watch poem I wrote for Soleil as part of “In Living Memory,” a series of poems I wrote during the month of April.

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Keep it Together

aka chains.tiff sketch I don’t want to finish

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More Than Meets the Eye

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Monster Watch sketches

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Soleil 2019 vs 2016

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...He’s definitely more talkative today.

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Hi! School is hard and tumblr is burning…

Take these monster watch faces that will no longer be featured in the next update because I made some changes

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stay strong