Kenma x Painter!Reader [requested!]
Synopsis! You’re a painter, who just came back from a hiatus. You don’t see the beauty in your art, but Kenma dose!
Cw! Established relationship, gender neutral reader!, one-shot, fluff, proofread but at the same time not!….kinda has a cringe part?? But not really?!
Note! Thank you anon for sending this in. I actually liked writing this! I hope it reaches your standards❤️
Another deep sigh could be heard from the room down the hall, it seemed to become more of a frequent sound to be heard during these nights. Kenma took off his headset, leaning back into his chair to take a peek down the hallway. The door was slightly ajar, a strip of yellow light seeping out into the darkness. He knew his lover was probably hunched over a canvas, a brush in hand, trying to perfect the already perfect art.
With that thought in mind, he let out a sigh of his own. Pushing himself up from his chair, doing a small stretch in process of pausing the game on his monitor, he proceeded to exit the room. Creeping closer to the ajar door, he stepped into the strip of yellow light, an eye peeking through the crack.
He could see you, as he imagined, hunched over a canvas a frown on your lips as you stared down at it. He knew you’ve been having trouble with your creativity lately. It’s been weeks since you’ve picked up a brush, and now that you have, you seemed trouble with everything you did. He never understood, as he always found your pieces such a beauty to the eye. But you on the other hand didn’t seem to meet eye to eye on the matter. The troubled look in your eyes was a dead give away, to anyone who were to see you, that you didn’t like what you saw.
A soft knock made your gaze shift from your work to the door, that was now fully pushed open. You gave a soft weary smile to Kenma, noticing his concerned eyes.
“You doing alright?” He spoke softly to you as he walked into the room, making sure to avoid the clutter around the floor. You bite the inside of your cheek as you looked back down at your painting. It was something simple, something you’ve worked years to perfect. A small portrait shouldn’t have you overthinking your skills, but ever since coming back to this hobby; everything seemed to bother you.
‘He must’ve noticed, I shouldn’t trouble him though.’ Was the first thought to pop in mind as you figured out what to tell him.
“Yeah, everything’s fine… really” you looked back at him, a half smile on your lips. You hoped he couldn’t see the disappointment in your eyes. But he always took notice of everything about you, he knew you inside and out.
“Don’t lie y/n….you’ve been struggling ever since you came back” he stood at your side, one of his hands coming up to brush a strand of hair behind your ears. Then he let his hand slip down to your jaw, his thumb brushing along your cheek and chin.
“How about we take a break? You’ve been cooped up since sundown. I’ll turn off the game and we can cuddle, yeah?” His tone was gentle, knowing that a wrong word could break you in this moment of weakness. You looked up to him, leaning your head into his touch. Your eyes watered, you didn’t feel like you deserved this angel in front of you. You nodded your head, feeling a lump forming in your throat from holding back the load of emotions.
“…thank you baby” you muttered out, standing up from your stool. Your knees ached from the lack of movement of the past couple of hours, but you shook it off. You didn’t spare your painting another glance as Kenma lead you out of your studio.
As you both slipped under the covers, Kenma held you close. His hand gently running along you hair, it was silent in the room until he spoke up. “..i never understood why you never like your art. How you think every stroke of the brush is a mistake, or how you feel like you didn’t catch the beauty that’s being showcased on the canvas. I never understood kitten.”
You laid on his chest, listening to his words. You inhaled a breath, about to speak before he cuts you off. “I never understood, because I always liked your art. I always liked every detail you put in with that brush. And I always liked how you captured everything on a simple canvas.”
He tilted his head down, looking at you as he continued to brush through your hair. You felt your heart pound in your chest and your eyes water. Knowing that at least someone saw what you wanted to see in your art was enough. “I know I can do better than what I’m painting now, I just can’t seem actually do it” you spoke out, feeling your bottom lip start to tremble. You felt ridiculous, getting worked up over something so little. He lets out a soft sigh, his other hand coming up to wipe at your eyes.
“I know you can too, but after coming back from such a break, y/n, it’s not just going to just come to your hands baby.” He spoke softly, his thumb brushing along your cheek. “It’s like when a new game comes out. And I know I can beat it, but I keep dying to some low level boss. I know my skill is better, but i haven’t played this new game. So I suck, until I get back on my grind, then I’m back to being the best. It’s just like that kitten, except you don’t suck. You never suck” he said, a soft chuckle coming out at the end. It vibrated through his chest as you couldn’t help the smile that reached your lips. You laid your cheek down against his chest, nodding your head.
He was right, of course he was. You cleared your mind away of the doubting and overthinking thoughts. You knew that if you were going to get back to the skill you once stood at, you needed to ‘get back on the grind’, as your boyfriend put it. With that you leaned up, placing a soft grateful kiss to his lips, which he returned, his hand gently cupping you cheek.
The night drained on and you felt better about your portrait, knowing that stressing over a little thing is only going to hold you back from accomplishing your goal. You were just thankful Kenma made you realized it.
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