satoru hates to watch you leave.
he pretends he doesn’t care. pretends he doesn’t watch you pick your clothes off the floor, an emotionless expression on your face as you dress yourself.
he can’t admit how much it hurts him. how much his chest aches at the sight of you crawling out of bed beside him to leave his sheets cold and empty.
satoru won’t admit how much it kills him.
how he presses his palms to his face the moment his door clicks shut, how he sits up in bed and lets the guilt of it all consume him body and soul.
he hurt you. he hurt you bad.
and he knows he’s bad for you. he knows it’s wrong of him to call you in the middle of the night, text you telling you he misses you, because he knows deep down you still love him.
he’s using you, he knows he is.
but he can’t let you go, he’ll leave claw marks on everything he built with you before letting it go willingly.
“why don’t you stay, baby? …just for tonight,”
“…i don’t think that’s a good idea, satoru.”
he wants to beg you. get on his knees and cry against you, tell you he’s sorry, that he fucked up.