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i have too many different things i want to write ohhh my god

#late nite ramble #for the past few months i’ve been working on a VERY AMBITIOUS krsh fic #it’s way longer and has a different flavor than my previous fics #very excited for it to be done but it’s taking a while to set up since i need to pay attention to small details #but BECAUSE that fic is gonna be so different i want to write a krsh fic in my normal style as well #bc i rlly like when they’re just soft and sweet n shit like that #AND THEN I’m also trying to write a oneshot for sandbag jcc #bc the community neeeeeeds to know how i interpret his character ITS SO SERIOUS TO ME #so yeah #i have a friend who’s been waiting for me to finish my big krsh fic and I feel like shit cuz I haven’t worked on it at all in a week #so i feel inclined to work on it #i just get so mushy whenever I think abt them that it makes it hard to stick to the plot ahahaha

thinking abt how i used to switch fandoms like once a month but now it’s abt once a year. it’s genuinely so fascinating how attached to things i can become. even if i’m not in a fandom anymore i always still hold it very close to my heart.

#late nite ramble #when i was in middle school i was in just abt every “big” fandom there was #undertale fnf ddlc dgrp pokemon a couple indie games #i rlly liked a hat in time too but that was kinda niche #i was in the object show community for about four years but I don’t rlly count that since there were so many different shows #like i’d have fandom phases WITHIN the osc iykwim #nov 2024 i got into idv and was into that until june 2025 which was surprising bc usually i wouldn’t be in fandoms that long consistently #then… enstars #bro #it’s been a YEAR #i went an entire year without getting into any huge fandoms #yes i still consumed other media but was rlly only actively searching for enstars fan content #i feel myself slowly shifting at the moment which is why i’m bringing this up #aka hello jackpot crash course community i am in ur fandom rn #but enstars is never truly gonna leave me bro im still gonna do oshikatsu and cosplays and all that #the franchise and characters will remain in my heart forever even if i ultimately end up dropping it in a fandom sense #which I DONT INTEND ON DOING RN #i just think it’s fascinating how I haven’t rlly gotten into anything else until now #wow this is truly just a ramble have fun trying to make sense of it #fandom

crybaby underdog

#jackpot crash course #sandbag jcc #jcc #i fear i’m still not over it #like wdym we’re probably never gonna see him again?#he’s been my fav since the character designs were announced but was also knocked out for like half of ch1 #so it got like no screen time :(#such a tragic character tho i adore him #this game is so good tho im obsessed with it

cotya

I got too silly

#OMG THEY’RE SO SWEET 🥺#kuroshu #enstars

istg man EVERY time there’s a new killing game they always kill my favorite character in the first chapter… like please chill let them have some damn screentime omfg.

#late nite ramble #yes this is about jackpot crash course #sandbag. IN BOTH ROUTES.#the only route where he doesn’t die won’t let you continue #like at least you can save sailor in one route but sandbag will always die… genuinely so sad abt this #this makes sense tho bc he’s awfully impulsive he wouldn’t last long in a game like this #and one of his deaths is due to said impulsiveness #but god it makes me so sad… he was such a sweet guy #very relatable too. im very fond of crybaby characters who become aggressive as a result of society #but are still very soft at heart. cough cough shu itsuki cough.#i will miss sandbag SO MUCH omg… writing a fic abt him for ao3 as we speak #game will not be the same without him but it’s gen such a good game everyone go play it #also this was lowk gonna happen with ulysses in project eden’s garden bc he would’ve been CHAPTER 2 VICTIM…#guysssss guyssss let my favorites live longer please #jackpot crash course

all the new enstars announcements have made me a little insane today BUT THIS ONE IN PARTICULAR… i’m so excited. not even because the song sounds extraordinary or anything IT’S BECAUSE OF THE NAME.

this could be a totalllll stretch but given that their showdown is taking place in france, i’m pretty sure the title of the song is a reference to Albert Camus’s The Stranger. in that story, the main character, Meursault (who is “the stranger” the title refers to) shoots a man, with the only reason he stated for having done it was that the sun was in his eyes. i have NO IDEA what significance that would have to this song or story but liiiiiike…. it’s there lmao.

this may actually be the weirdest thing to freak out over but that is my favorite book of all time so seeing a reference to it, even if it’s unintentional, in fucking enstars of all things is enough to get me to start geeking out. god bless shu itsuki if this title was intentional it was 1000% his idea.

#enstars #ensemble stars #again i have no idea if this is on purpose or not #but i can dream 🕊️#i knew shu was cultured no wonder he’s my favorite #he’s def read the stranger before. the proof is bc i said so.#suchhhh a good book omg it gave me an existential crisis the first time i read it #tbh tho the song preview wasn’t really doing it for me #it lowk just sounded like a hypmic song #we shall see tho… it SUCKS they’re the last ones to go for round 1 but yeah #this is like the ultimate crossing of hyperfixations. two things i would never think to relate to each other.#mind blown

been playing a lot of tomodachi life and these two immediately fell for each other. the prophecy is true.

#late nite ramble #stupid homos (affectionate)#they will find each other in every universe… love wins #my wataei miis crushed on each other rlly fast too… so yay more realness #also i love my shu mii he looks a little odd but he’s ADORABLE #i feel so maternal over him augh

weigh anchor by nanahoshi orchestra is such a krsh coded song GOD….

#late nite ramble #the concept of struggling to leave behind your childhood memories and feelings #and the idea that you can’t help but look back on them fondly #it reminds me of how kuro and shu drifted apart #but it’s quite obvious they still care about each other #i am sad rn #so it stood out to me #it’s rlly a beautiful connection honestly it makes me sentimental #weigh anchor has been added to my 9 hour kuroshu playlist #because god i haven’t been normal abt them for almost a year now

weird thought i had but this tour lineup has people from ES that are important in kuro’s life and i think that’s cool

idk if they do this for all the characters for tour lives 20 and 30 but if they do that’s a super cool touch

#late nite ramble #we got #seishun: tetora (and chiaki!)#leave your mark: madara (duh)#tonight in the moonlit castle: shu <3 #and akatsuki iroha uta: keito and souma (also himself cuz it’s his focus)#top ten greatest things ever actually #i love kuro and his relationships with other characters so so much im gonna cry

this gayass keeps bringing up shu in mini talks he thinks he’s being slick but I SEE YOU AND KNOW WHAT YOU ARE

#late nite ramble #first the one from the spotlight event #AND NOW THIS ONE FROM THE TOUR #atp he’s just trying to find ways to talk to shu #making him chocolates. having questions abt a magazine. the whole shebang.#these minitalks are lwk the ONLY piece of canon content feeding me rn bc i feel like there are very few stories that #actually have them interact. happyele is too scared to address peak.#but i kinda like how under the radar these mentions are it makes them feel more intimate #and i feel like they’d def be a more private couple

unfriendly hater

#enstars #ensemble stars #kuroshu #kuro kiryu #shu itsuki #this is based on that one vocaloid song by meddmia #i think these two rlly fit the characters from the mv #the mv characters are also childhood friends!#also kuro’s hair is SO HARD to draw… this is like my third time drawing him but i think he turned out good #shu’s ruffles too… i normally don’t draw him in his student outfit #i was STARING at my reference png for him trying to get them right

the way i can go insane over ONE SMALL piece of dialogue never fails to amuse me

#late nite ramble #kuroshu is real kuroshu is real kuroshu is real #i was SO DISAPPOINTED shu wasn’t in the story for kuro’s spotlight event bc i think he would’ve fit so well #like kuro’s hand puppet 🥺🥺 bro shu would’ve called it ridiculous we could’ve gotten some really good moments #instead the roommate we got was fuckin sena bro like ok #BUT THIS MINI TALK CAME OUT OF NOWHERE #he. he made shu chocolates… for white day 🥺🥺🥺🥺#just cuz he wanted to #omg. ALL FROM A MINI TALK. i nearly skipped over it too until it mentioned a “teach” THEN I LOCKED IN #so so happy abt this krsh was somehow mentioned today #so i technically won #this is motivating me to finish the fic in my drafts #also kinda unrelated but why did TWO kuro 5 stars drop this week…#i can’t play as often im gonna be on vacay. curse you ensemble stars #enstars

revaebmkk

Doll Play ✧.*

good mooshkalini morning

#late nite ramble #not even morning where i am #sorry i'm not on here that much anymore haha #haven't felt the need to scream into the void for a bit. also just trying to stay off socials for my mental health.#i should be studying for my exam #but i'm having krsh thoughts again... oh go. d.#new fic idea came from absolutely nowhere but now it's all i can think about #for every krsh fic i've posted on ao3 i've got like four times as many just laying in the drafts. the grind never stops.#probably never gonna post them but if anyone happens to see this and wants one feel free to ask. most aren't finished buuuut #need more people in my life that i can talk to who like kuroshu anyway. i get kinda lonely sometimes lol

mawell-y

#OMG YAY KUROSHUUU <<333 #i love them smmm aaa #enstars #ensemble stars

finding out that the same person made two things you really like is such a silly feeling. like. how did i not realize that lmao. but also cool.

#late nite ramble #this is incredibly revealing #but i used to rlly like fnf…#years ago #but i do like the one county funkin mod song called like traumatized or something #and a few months ago monster (pico mix) came out and i listened to it for fun and was like #“holy shit this is FIRE???” like it’s actually so good #flash forward to today and i realize BOTH OF THESE SONGS WERE MADE BY THE SAME PERSON #holy peak #no wonder i like them both so much

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