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indie sideblog rp // morozumi of 'character' // written by nate

[morozxmi]

                  || 𝕀 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕒𝕤𝕜 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕨𝕒𝕪 𝕒𝕣𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕕. 𝕎𝕙𝕠 𝕒𝕞 𝕀? ||

                                       　　　 ボクは誰だ？  　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　誰だ？

                                          𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚘𝚛 𝚛𝚙 𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐

                                       𝚏𝚘𝚛 '𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚘𝚣𝚞𝚖𝚒' 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 キャラクター

                                                  ｂｉｏ ／ ａｓｋ

[kenluf]

金木研

[jdramasource]

FUKASE SATOSHI as MOROZUMI

CHARACTER (2021)

[ohisms]

𝑫𝑬𝑨𝑫𝑳𝒀 𝑵𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻𝑺𝑯𝑨𝑫𝑬 .    (   angst - oriented  sentence  starters .   dark  &  potentially triggering  themes  are  present .   )  

❛  no …   no ,   why  would  you  do  that ?  ❜ ❛  fight  back .   fight  back !  ❜ ❛  when  were  you  going  to  tell  me ?  ❜ ❛  don’t  fucking  touch  me .  ❜ ❛  you  promised .   you  fucking  promised .  ❜ ❛  i  never  wanted  to  hurt  you .  ❜ ❛  run .   run  &  don’t  stop .  ❜ ❛  you’re  a  fucking  stereotype .  ❜ ❛  please  don’t  go …   please  don’t  go .  ❜ ❛  i’m  putting  you  out  of  your  misery .  ❜ ❛  what  makes  you  think  i’d  listen  to  a  word  you  say ?  ❜ ❛  this  is  what  you  think  love  is ??  ❜ ❛  i  never  should’ve  trusted  you .  ❜ ❛  i  love  you .   is  that  what  you  wanted  to  hear ?  ❜ ❛  you’re  so  fucking  pathetic .  ❜ ❛  nobody  can  help  me .  not  even  you .  ❜ ❛  don’t  act  like  you  know  me .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  got  my  own  shit  to  deal  with .  ❜ ❛  i’m  saying  my  goodbyes .  ❜ ❛  please  don’t  go .  ❜ ❛  i’d  rather  drop  dead .  ❜ ❛  i  loved  you ,  you  know ?  ❜ ❛  talk  to  me .  ❜ ❛  what ,   was  i  just  a  charity  case ??  ❜ ❛  i  feel  so  fucking  stupid .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  be  alone .  ❜ ❛  that’s  low ,   even  for  you .  ❜ ❛  say  that  again ,   i  fucking  dare  you .  ❜ ❛  i  can’t …  i  can’t  feel  my  -  ❜ ❛  i’m  so  fucking  tired ,   i  just …   i  can’t .  ❜ ❛  we’ve  missed  so  much .  ❜ ❛  what ,   you’re  gonna  shoot  me ?  ❜ ❛  you’re  nothing .  ❜ ❛  stop  looking  at  me  like  that .   like  i’m  broken .  ❜ ❛  you’ve  lost  a  lot  of  blood .  ❜ ❛  don’t  shut  me  out .  ❜ ❛  it’s  not  real .   it’s  not  real .  ❜ ❛  you’re  just  saying  what  i  want  to  hear .  ❜ ❛  i  swear ,   i’ll  kill you .  ❜ ❛  stop …   just  stop  fucking  lying .   stop .  ❜ ❛  just  tell  me  what  you  did .  ❜ ❛  i  already  know  what  you  did ,   i  just  want  to  hear  it  from  you .  ❜ ❛  i  needed  you  to  be  different .  ❜ ❛  how  long  has  it  been  since  you’ve  eaten ?  ❜ ❛  put  the  [ gun / knife ]  down .  ❜ ❛  what  do  you  want  from  me ?  ❜ ❛  we’ve  lost  so  much  time .  ❜ ❛  i  really  fucking  hate  you ,   sometimes .  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  …   i  can’t ,   i  can’t  do  this  today .  ❜ ❛  you  know ,   i  never  wanted  to  hurt  you .  ❜ ❛  i  shouldn’t  have  to  beg  you  to  love  me .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  owe  you  shit .  ❜ ❛  don’t  say  it ,   don’t  fucking  say  it .  ❜ ❛  it  sounds  like  you’ve  been  crying …  ❜

[wantstomove-deactivated20250423]

“I asked: “What do you want?” He said: “To be with you in hell.””

— Anna Akhmatova, from The Guest; The Complete Poems: Vol. I (tr. by Judith Hemschemeyer)

[inkipri]

fleeting feelings

[morozxmi]

// アビゲール 

continued from @morozxmi·

Eyes observe the other, careful to study the other’s face as he speaks, carrying on his words, studying them. She was careful, always careful when watching others speak, wanting to make sure she understood what was being said. 

“I wouldn’t call it interesting, I would call it just a fact of life,”

It was a rich man’s world, and they were just living in it. All they could do was fight what they could, stand up for the little guy. In her own little way, she was. 

“Rich men make the world go ‘round. Money makes people do horrible things.”

A small grin stretches across her face, her eyes shining with mischief. 

“Life. It’s the most important thing to us. People should learn to treasure life more.”

ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴀɴ’s sᴏғᴛ ʜᴜᴇs sᴇʟᴅᴏᴍ ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏᴍᴀɴ’s; an unintended gesture borne from years of discouragement. (  𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕚𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕤 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕗𝕒𝕞𝕚𝕝𝕪, 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕗𝕒𝕞𝕚𝕝𝕪 𝕙𝕒𝕤 𝕚𝕥𝕤   𝕙𝕚𝕖𝕣𝕒𝕣𝕔𝕙𝕪. 𝕔𝕙𝕚𝕝𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕟’𝕤 𝕖𝕪𝕖𝕤 𝕕𝕠 𝕟𝕠𝕥 𝕞𝕖𝕖𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕚𝕣 𝕓𝕖𝕥𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕤     𝕦𝕟𝕝𝕖𝕤𝕤 𝕤𝕡𝕠𝕜𝕖𝕟 𝕥𝕠. )

but then they did meet, they were near transfixed. unblinking, spare from the unconscious nerve that convulsed his body-- a tick that made itself present every-so often. he drank in each careful detail of those eyes, bathing in radiant shades. she, herself, was a thing of beauty.

“That’s true. Money can make people do the worst things. I don’t think money can ever really provide happiness. The illusion of happiness, sure. But joy can’t come from such a cold and spiritless thing as cash.”

despite given gravity, his words remained light. sentence darting to the next with a sickly sweetness. a soft tilt of the head is given watching the woman’s features breathe to life with adorned smile. 

“Is it really? The most important, that is.”

there was a slight tinge of disappointment amongst pale features, dirty fingernails cupping his own cheek in thought, considering her words. dark, battered, bruised and cut fingers were painted with vivid blues, blacks, and reds; tricolore tool of abuse.

“I see.”

@sightisms·

[morozxmi]

"It's a rich man's world." (From Abigail!)

" Oh really --? What an interesting thing to say."

a sharp inhale through the nose, paired with that ever-haunting violent SNAP of his neck, a single twitch to the side.

despite his words, the young man's tone couldn't be further from interested in the thoughts of the other. gentle hues take in her image with an air of well-trained doting, a boyish smile that could melt the coldest of hearts. what a beautiful monster he was, cotton-candied mane so suited to such honied voice.

despite how distant it sounded, how automatic the response- his eyes shone bright as they met abigail's. a well-meant consideration as he nods in agreement, soft lips humming brightly.

" I think I would have to agree with you! But that doesn't mean this world can't be what we make of it. Even if we don't have such luxury. Don't you think?"

"What would you say is important to you?"

@sightisms

[morozxmi]

“ɪᴛ’s ʜᴀʀᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴀᴅᴍɪᴛ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ɴᴏ ᴛᴀʟᴇɴᴛ ғᴏʀ ᴍᴀɴɢᴀ. ʙᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴏᴜʀ ᴇʏᴇs ᴍᴇᴛ, ʜᴇ ᴋɪɴᴅ ᴏғ ɪɴʜᴀʙɪᴛᴇᴅ ᴍᴇ.” キャラクター　(2021) dir. Akira Nagai

[morozxmi]

“ᴏʜ, ɪs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʀɪsɪɴɢ sᴜɴ? ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴍɪᴄ ‘𝟹𝟺""′? “ʏᴇᴀʜ, ɪᴛ’s ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴇsᴛɪɴɢ ʀɪɢʜᴛ?” “ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀssᴀssɪɴ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ, ‘ᴅᴀɢɢᴇʀ’, ʟᴏᴏᴋs ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴍᴇ?” “ᴏʜʜ-- ɪ’ᴅ sᴀʏ sᴏ.”

キャラクター　(2021) dir. Akira Nagai

[morozxmi]

rabbitsrun​:

               “   thank   you   for   meeting   me   for   lunch   ,   ”   honey - coated   tongue   speaks   so   sweetly   (   a   sundew   in   a   white   collared   shirt   :   a   carnivore   in   waiting   ).   “   you   must   tell   me   all   about   your   journey   here.   ”   she   swirls   her   straw   absently   between   her   fingers.   “   and   what   your   plans   are   now.   ”

                @morozxmi​   liked   for   a   starter!

eyes remained fixed, focused, unflinching on the metal grooves of the  small table. in it’s dull, scuffed hue, faces are morphed and twisted into unrecognisable visage. an early winter’s sun spot does little to warm the bones, and does nothing but refract it’s glistening lustre onto pale features.

her words are so soft, a sheepskin worn welcome. the wolf beguiling in granddaughter’s supple flesh.              a SNAP  !    head convulses to the left -- shoulder rolling as             involuntary spasm afflicts. a short, sharp twitch that             draws deep breath and exhale out the nose. 

digits reach round to the back of his neck, scratching tender flesh furiously with stained finger-nails. such grotesque imperfection in stark contrast to the young man’s angelic artifice. 

                    “ mmh ---------”  a simple hum of understanding, acknowledgement of the statements presented forth. sweet lips form smile, dark eyes fluttering up to the other with such unprecedented warmth. 

                    “ thank you for inviting me, hm? ”

gratitude is expelled, returned back to sender with civil forehand volley. a candied, boyish beam as his hand, trembling, moves to pick up his small cup of tea.

                    “ my journey here? of course. but it really is not that                        interesting.  after all, it was about the destination.                        but i am enjoying america so far. it’s interesting.                         the city consumes its consumers.”

the pink haired boy takes a sip from his cup, cold hues of dark mocha drinking in every inch of her expression. to see the author of deep font upon a crack phone screen in the flesh--- from an overseas acquaintance on a blog to real, breathing, pulsing vessel.              how exciting.

                      from the depths of his trench coat, the man retreieves a                        book. spine well-worn, the cover’s glossy corner retreating                       after such stuffy confinement within garments.

                 an abomination imposed on the world, the mere feeling of                   the cheap paper in dirty hands is another to spur another                    sharp jolt, twitching as he presents it on the table.

                        “ my plans are just as i said.                                                the newest ‘issue’ was printed.                            --- it can be easy for one more. friend.”

@rabbitsrun​  ジョーシー                 

[ohisms]

𝑴𝑨𝑴𝑴𝑨 𝑴𝑰𝑨 !    (   lyric  /  sentence  starters  originating  from  the  2008  film  “ mamma mia ! ”   &   its  origins  in  the  “ GOLD ”  album  by  ABBA .   feel  free  to  change  pronouns  as  needed !   )

❛  i  have  a  secret …    and  i  can’t  tell  anyone  else .  ❜ ❛  i  always  kind  of  accepted  that  that’s  all  i’d  ever  know .  ❜ ❛  [ name’s ]  the one .   i  know  he  is .  ❜ ❛  god ,   stop  growing !  ❜ ❛  you  sound  like  you’re  having  fun  already .  ❜ ❛  i  used  to  have  fun .  ❜ ❛  ‘mother’ ?  we’re the same age !  ❜ ❛  you  make  me  sound  so  unromantic .  ❜ ❛  [ name’s ]  gonna  absolutely  kill  you  when  she  finds  out .  ❜ ❛  i  feel  like  there’s  a  part  of  me  missing .  ❜ ❛  you  look  like  an  old  hippie !  ❜ ❛  i  bet  you  don’t  remember  me .  ❜ ❛  you  haven’t  changed  at  all !  ❜ ❛  oh ,  please !  i’m  getting  married ,   not  joining  a  convent !  ❜ ❛  there  never  seems  to  be  a  single  penny  left  for  me .  ❜ ❛  don’t  sit  down  there !   it’s  broken .  ❜ ❛  all  the  things  i  would  do  if  i  had  a  little  money …  ❜ ❛  it’s  a  rich  man’s  world .  ❜ ❛  come on ,   let’s  go  have  fun .  ❜ ❛  do  you  wear  it  or  floss  with  it ?  ❜ ❛  that’s  the  price  you  have  to  pay  if  you  want  to  drink  before  eleven  o’clock  in  the  morning !  ❜ ❛  god ,  i’m  just  whining ,   you  know  me .  ❜ ❛  are  you  being  taken  care  of ?  ❜ ❛  are  you  getting  any ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  so  glad  that  whole  part  of  my  life  is  over .  ❜ ❛  it’s  an  adventure ,   [ name ] ,   it’s  good  for  you .  ❜ ❛  please  stay .  ❜ ❛  i  made  up  my  mind ,   it  must  come  to  an  end .  ❜ ❛  will  i  ever  learn ?  ❜ ❛  why  did  i  ever  let  you  go ?  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  count  all  the  times  i’ve  cried  over  you .  ❜ ❛  you  always  did  know  how  to  make  an  entrance .  ❜ ❛  you  don’t  know  each  other ?  ❜ ❛  why  are  you  here ?  ❜ ❛  it’s  good  to  see  you .  ❜ ❛  i’m  a  shoulder  you  can  cry  on .  ❜ ❛  you  were  always  sure  of  yourself .  ❜ ❛  why  didn’t  you  tell  us ??  ❜ ❛  i  can  still  recall  our  last  summer .  ❜ ❛  no  one’s  seen  you .  ❜ ❛  i  just …   lost  track  of  time .  ❜ ❛  you’ll  never  leave  me ,   right ?  ❜ ❛  you’ve  turned  my  world  upside  down .  ❜ ❛  i  wasn’t  jealous  before  we  met .  ❜ ❛  i  still  don’t  know  what  you’ve  done  with  me .  ❜ ❛  is  that  really  your  dream ?  ❜ ❛  well ,   now ,   that  takes  me  back …  ❜ ❛  are  you  okay ?  ❜ ❛  how  old  are  you ?  ❜ ❛  will  you  excuse  me  a  minute -  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  breathe !  ❜ ❛  give  her  some  space !  ❜ ❛  i’ve  been  tossing  &  turning  all  night …  ❜ ❛  last  night  i  discovered  something  wonderful …  ❜ ❛  you  didn’t  even …   SUSPECT  that  you  were … ?  ❜ ❛  it’s  absolutely  hush - hush  for  now .  ❜ ❛  tell  me  what’s  wrong .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  know  what  to  do .  ❜ ❛  you  know  what  to  do .  ❜ ❛  you  don’t  have  to  do  anything .  ❜ ❛  that’s  what  YOU  want !  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  know  why  you’re  going  off  on  me  now .  ❜ ❛  what  are  you  doing  here ,   [ name ] ?  ❜ ❛  this  is  my  reality .  ❜ ❛  i  can  deal  my  own  disasters .  ❜ ❛  i  didn’t  think  it  was  any  of  your  business .  ❜ ❛  i  love  being  on  my  own .  ❜ ❛  what  ever  happened  to  our  love ?  ❜ ❛  you  made  me  feel  alive ,   but  something  died .  ❜ ❛  let’s  pick  up  where  we  left  off  last  night .  ❜ ❛  last  night  never  happened .   i’ve  drawn  a  veil  over  last  night .  ❜ ❛  i  can  read  in  your  face  that  your  feelings  are  driving  you  wild .  ❜ ❛  does  your  mother  know  that  you’re  out ?  ❜ ❛  there’s  no  plan ,   god  knows  there’s  no  plan .  ❜ ❛  what …   is  this ??  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  accept  this .  ❜ ❛  no ,   you’ll  have  to  catch  me  first .  ❜ ❛  you  have  to  help  me .  ❜ ❛  baby ?   [ name ] ?!  ❜ ❛  you  don’t  know  if  you  love  me ?  ❜ ❛  of  course  i  love  you ,   i  just  wish  you’d  told  me .  ❜ ❛  don’t  do  this  now .   i  can’t  hear  this  now .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  want  to  talk  about  things  we’ve  gone  through .  ❜ ❛  the  winner  takes  it  all .  ❜ ❛  i  was  a  fool  playing  by  the  rules .  ❜ ❛  you  know  i  miss  you .  ❜ ❛  what  can  i  say ?   the  rules  must  be  obeyed .  ❜ ❛  this  gives  me  an  excuse  to  come  here  much  more  often .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  entirely  sure  what’s  happening  right  now …  ❜ ❛  it’s  only  the  rest  of  your  life .  ❜ ❛  you  love  me   &   you  know  it .  ❜ ❛  if  you  change  your  mind …  ❜ ❛  take  a  chance  on  me .  ❜ ❛  if  you  need  me ,   let  me  know .  ❜ ❛  speech !   i’m  gonna  make  a  speech ,   everybody .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  got  so  much  that  i  wanna  do  when  i  dream  i’m  alone  with  you .  ❜ ❛  i  think  you  know  that  i  can’t  let  go .  ❜ ❛  i’m  gonna  do  my  very  best .  ❜