[mortalivs]

Akechi deserved to die uwu

[mortalivs]

bro i'm famous, i got my first hate anon lmao

[mortalivs]

i know i only have a handful of followers right now, but i’m going to be upfront–– if you genuinely hate akechi, i want you to unfollow.

yes, akechi is a villain in all aspects of p5 & p5r. he tried to kill akiren just to further his agenda for revenge against shido. but i thought it was relatively obvious that he holds remorse for what he had done when he sacrifices himself/his safety when closing the bulkhead in shido’s palace. he wished he and akiren had met earlier. he wished he could have been friends with everyone. in third semester he’s so cold towards everyone because he knew his life was hanging in the balance–– he didn’t know if he had lived or not. he wanted to make the choice to return to the true reality easier, and if everyone hated him… his life wouldn’t matter.

goro akechi is worth redemption. he’s still a villain, i know, but there’s so much more to his character than ‘haha i’m evil.’ this has been my ted talk.

[titsandtwosugars]

my girlfriend turned over in the night, and whispered “are you awake?”. When I replied “yes” she said, “okay good, I just wanted to say I love you” then she rolled over and fell back to sleep

[laurastatice]

Let my boy smoke

I'm scared to buy and play p5r because if I see one more bad ending for Akechi, I won't survive.

[the-norashi-www]

How to care for sad Akechi 

Parody from How to care for sad people 

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parieha​:

                      “      .  .  .      “                 akira  tried  to  erase  the  worry  from  his  features  as  best  he  could  ,  but  even  that  didn’t  manage  to  cover  him  entirely  .  his  brows  still  knit  somewhat  upwards  in  worry  and  concern  as  he  listens  to  the  crow  explain  to  him  what  exactly  would  happen  should  he  choose  to  walk  the  mile  that  it  took  to  reach  the  old  reality  .  it  meant  doing  something  he  never  wanted  to  though  ,  to  kill  someone’s  dreams  ,  to  take  them  away  completely  and  without  mercy  ,  to  take  humanity’s  chance  at  contentment  .  was  he  really  going  to  do  that  ?  could  he  ?                    kogoro’s  words  rang  true  ;  akira  did  indeed  have  their  glove  tucked  away  safely  in  his  pocket  ,  even  right  then  it  was  protected  with  blood  ,  sweat  ,  and  tears  .  he  would  never  be  able  to  handle  it  if  someone  took  the  memento  from  him  .  so  ,  there’s  a  nod  ,  cheek  resting  against  their  palm  as  he  confirms  his  understanding  .                “     .  .  .     you  really  think  dr  maruki  said  that  to  get  in  my  head  ?   .  .  .   not  because  it  was  true  ?    “           the  fool  inquires  quietly  as  he  looks  into  the  eyes  of  his  precious  someone  .           “    .  .  .   if  that’s  true  ,  he’s  getting  desperate  .  .  .    because  he  knows  it’s  possible  for  us  to  come  out  victorious  .        .  .  .     there’s  a  chance  .  .  .   that  you’re  still  alive  .  .  .    and  he’s  afraid  if  i  know  that  ,  i’ll  fight  to  go  back  .  i’ll  want  to  go  find  you  .    “

   their thumb softly strokes his cheek, taking the moment to truly admire the fool in front of them. they’ll never quite understand how they managed to capture the heart of someone who was so similar to them, yet an entirely different person. they quickly rid themselves of the thought, wanting to stay in this moment with the man they loved.  “ ... honestly, i wouldn’t put it past him. if he’s truly afraid that you intend on fighting him tomorrow, he’d say just about anything to get you to submit. “

   grey eyes meet red, goro looking intently at their lover.  “ ...i don’t remember dying. i remember being shot, yes–– but i also remember watching the cognition turning to smoke before my memory goes blank. i always knew it was a possibility... but i was never completely sure. “  they recall, the hand on akira’s hip trying to pull his body closer to theirs.  “ maurki knows that if he faces against all of us, he’ll lose. “

[mortalivs]

   sorry for fucking off––  i’ve been playing c.ontrol and i’ve been spending a lot of my time playing that and job hunting. whoops !

[mortalivs]

BITE my tongue, BIDE my time                wearing a WARNING sign                      wait ‘til the WORLD is MINE.

you should see me in a CROWN. // penned by crow. ( formerly known as ryu. )

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parieha​:

                            it  felt  good  to  be  able  to  rest  like  this  on  the  shoulder  of  someone  he  trusted  wholeheartedly  despite  their  past  together  .  it  was  warm  and  kogoro’s  shoulder  was  soft  for  all  the  armor  that  he  tended  to  hide  underneath  when  he  tried  to  inspect  his  status  in  the  metaverse  .  a  smile  even  ghosted  over  the  trickster’s  face  as  a  sign  that  goro   had  reached  victory  in  overcoming  the  breakdown  that  had  been  pending  inside  of  akira’s  heart  .  it  was  small  ,  sure  ,  but  the  smile  was  there  .                          “     .  .  .        thanks  .    “               clarity  managed  to  invade  again  and  clear  the  storm  that  was  in  his  head  from  earlier  .  how  goro  managed  to  be  the  one  to  initiate  that  ,  he’d  never  have  any  idea  in  the  world  ,  but  it  might  have  something  to  do  with  the  security  goro  provided  even  at  times  like  this  .            “    .  .  .    don’t  move  .    “                        the  trickster  moved  away  from  their  shoulder  after  the  crow  had  confessed  to  his  feelings  like  they  hadn’t  done  that  before  .  he  nudged  the  crow’s  legs  apart  and  put  his  knees  between  them  ,  and  in  short  seconds  ,  had  his  arms  around  their  neck  in  a  more  serious  expression  of  relief  .  akira  didn’t  want  to  think  about  the  possibility  of  death  ;  the  image  of  decay  was  too  much  to  return  ,  akira  would  never  recover  if  he  had  let  his  mind  wander  into  that  oceanic  abyss  a  second  time  .  goro  was  here  with  him  .  for  what  it  was  worth  ,  that  was  enough  for  akira  as  he  rests  his  cheek  on  his  own  forearm  .                       “    .  .  .      i  know  .    “               spoken  right  by  the  boy’s  ear  .        “    i  know  ,  and  .  .  .    i  didn’t  get  the  chance  to  say  it  before  .  .  .  but  i  love  you  too  .  i’m  not  like  you  ,  and  you’re  not  like  me  ,  and  that’s  why  it  works  .  that’s  why  we  work  so  well  together  on  the  field  ,  don’t  you  think  ?       .  .  .    r  -  right  ?             Mmh –    “                he  buries  his  face  with  some  hint  of  embarrassment  –  he  didn’t  mean  to  get  into  all  of  that  .  how  embarrassing  .

   it happens faster than they can register, akira is suddenly between their legs with his arms wrapped around their neck in a hug. they can feel the blush burning their cheeks, and even the tip of their ears—  but there’s no hesitation when their own arms wrap securely around him, pulling him even closer to them. one hand cradles the back of akira’s head, while the other rests on his lower back. this felt right, felt safe, warm, perfect. even the feeling of the fool speaking so close to their ear sent shivers down their spine, a welcome feeling of closeness.

   “ ...y-yeah. i think you’re right. “  they murmur, their fingers idly running through tufts of black hair.  “ ...it’s nice to hold you like this. you’re warm. “  the hand that held the back of his head moved to cup his cheek, aiming to get akira to look at them.  “ i promise, i’ll come find you. “  they begin, using their thumb to carefully stroke his cheek—  “ i’ll come home to you, regardless of what happens. i know you still have my glove, so keep it safe until i come back. “

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parieha​:

                     he  turned  his  head  once  he  heard  the  justice  slide  down  to  sit  by  him  ,  beginning  even  with  just  that  to  feel  considerably  better  .  however  ,  the  holding  of  his  hand  was  the  best  thing  he  could  have  asked  for  ,  and  not  to  mention  it  was  the  most  comforting  too  .  eventually  ,  akira  curled  his  fingers  within  the  gaps  that  goro  had  created  ,  and  squeezed  silently  for  the  time  being  .                      “    .  .  .    i’m  sorry  for  acting  this  way  .  i  know  it’s  not  normal  or  anything  for  me  .     it’s  just  .  .  .   too  hard  .    “                      there’s  a  second  where  he  wondered  if  goro  would  be  adverse  to  letting  the  fool  lay  his  head  against  their  arm  or  their  shoulder  .  seeing  as  he  was  already  finger  -  locked  with  the  detective  ,  he  took  his  chances  and  let  his  temple  hit  their  arm  ,  and  the  frames  of  his  glasses  bend  at  the  impact  .  it  was  so  hard  to  think  right  now  .  but  akira  found  distraction  in  watching  the  people  outside  the  door  casting  shadows  as  tall  as  trees  along  the  walls  .  some  move  slowly  ,  others  are  faster  ,  smaller  ,  larger  .  in  the  sunset  ,  the  red  hues  of  shadows  felt  like  his  only  company  besides  the  justice  .                     “    .  .  .    together  .    “              akira  murmurs  as  his  eyes  drift  along  the  subjects  on  the  walls  ,  wondering  if  that  was  even  a  good  idea  ;  could  he  create  an  unshakeable  will  within  just  24  hours  ?  even  with  goro  beside  him  ,  he  felt  like  he  was  growing  tired  ,  and  like  dr  maruki  could  sense  it  .  how  creepy  to  think  that  the  therapist  could  look  into  their  memories  ,  and  now  into  leblanc  like  some  omniscent  pain  .  sitting   against  the  wall  beside  kogoro  ,  he  felt  like  time  was  going  by  slower  ,  like  he  was  allowed  to  settle  down  and  enjoy  what  time  he  had  left  with  his  best  friend  .  with  the  person  he  treasured  .           “       .  .  .      thank  you  .    i’d  really  .  .  .  appreciate  if  you  did  stay  .  i  don’t  think  i  can  explain  all  of  that  again  .    “            a  laugh  that  was  tired  and  pathetic  was  lowly  let  out   ,   but  truthful  .  he  couldn’t  possibly  burden  any  of  the  others  with  this  .  .  .  

   the weight on his shoulder was welcome, a soft sigh escaping his lips as he lets the fool settle against him. his own head tilts to rest against akira’s, finding comfort in what very well could be their final moments together. he squeezes the pale hand carefully, trying to express just how pleased he was to have this time with the person he’d come to love. love...

   the pair had so much to talk about, so much to think about within the next twenty-four hours—  but right now, it truly felt as if they were in their own world. a moment in time where they could just be, existing together peacefully without any disruptions.  “ ...you’re welcome. it’s the least i can do for you. “  he murmurs, his gaze drifting to the dancing shadows and rays of sunset passing on the walls before them.  “ and you don’t have to apologize. everyone breaks down sometimes, even a phantom thief. “  he chuckles, teasing the leader gently.

   “ ...no matter what happens tomorrow, no matter what you choose... “  he begins, angling his head down to look at akira’s face—  “ ...i want you to know that i love you. i... i wanted you to know, in case... “  in case he didn’t get another chance to say it.

[parieha-a]

          ❝         ———   life  is  a  game  ,             fool  ,                                    be  a  player  ,  or  get  played  .

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parieha​:

                            akira  spent  some  time  looking  at  the  ground  ,  for  the  sake  of  stability  more  than  anything  else  .  the  room  felt  too  small  for  him  all  of  a  sudden  ,  and  it  felt  like  his  breath  was  hard  to  catch  as  he  put  his  one  free  hand  to  his  chest  .  still  ,  goro’s  words  would  make  his  gaze  rise  from  the  floor  and  settle  on  the  eyes  of  the  justice  ,  in  some  rare  gesture  of  trust  for  a  fool  who  never  looked  anyone  in  the  eye  .                             “    .  .  .     i  don’t  care  about  that  .  i  don’t  think  you  threw  your  life  away  for  revenge  .  maybe  it  was  a  little  but  .  .  .   not  at  the  end  .    when  we  were  done  fighting  on  that  ship  ,  you  didn’t  look  angry  .  you  looked  .  .  .   scared  .    “                    it  didn’t  escape  his  notice  ,  the  fact  that  when  the  cognition  was  walking  towards  them  ,  that  goro  tensed  and  scrambled  trying  to  do  something  to  protect  them  .  that  expression  too  before  the  bulkhead  sealed  their  fates  ,  akira  knew  he  wasn’t  certain  in  his  choice  .  akira  saw  that  there  was  fear  in  his  eyes  ,  a  human  response  ,  something  a  ‘   monster   ‘  couldn’t  express  .  that  was  how  he  knew  ,  that  was  when  akira  knew  for  sure  that  goro  didn’t  do  it  exclusively  for  revenge  ,  but  for  hurt  ,  because  he  was  hurt  .                  “    you  wanted  to  come  with  us  .  you  can  deny  it  if  you  want  .  .  .    but  that’s  what  i  saw  .  and  i  wanted  that  too  .    “                        akira  eventually  gave  up  trying  to  stand  and  balance  a  conversation  on  top  of  that  .  his  hand  slipped  and  he  sat  on  the  floor  beside  the  wall  instead  ,  trying  to  calm  a  feeling  in  his  stomach  that  said  bad  things  were  coming  .                  “   .  .  .    you  didn’t  deserve  to  die  .    not  for  someone  who  can’t  even  decide  what  needs  to  happen  .   not  for  someone  like  me  .   your  life  is  involved  in  this  giant  gamble  ,  and  i  can’t  just  choose  so  easily  when   i  know  that  .  your  life  ,  their  lives  ,  dr  maruki’s  life  .  .  .  i  don’t  want  to  make  a  wrong  turn  .  i  can’t  .  there  isn’t  a  do  -  over  in  this  .  he’s  not  a  villain  .  he’s  not  like  shido  .  that’s  what  makes  this  so  hard  .         i  can’t  think  of  it  as  black  and  white  like  i  did  in  the  other  reality  .   it’s  not  easy  .  how  am  i  supposed  to  decide  by  tomorrow  .  .  .  !  ?    “

   goro will never tire of those eyes that looked at him, how they always seemed to look at him just right—  how it calmed his own anxieties and fears with only a gaze. he sits beside him on the floor, taking a deep breath as he tried to form the words he wanted to say without them sounding insincere.  “ ...of course i was scared. i was terrified of what my fate was going to be. if i returned and shido knew that i didn’t succeed again... i’m positive he would have just killed me himself. “  he admits, even though it was something he realized moments prior.  “ and i was scared that i wasn’t going to save you in time. if something had happened to you... i would have never forgiven myself. i didn’t want you to die, especially at my hands. “

   to talk so openly felt relieving, like he was finally opening his heart to say all the things he’d been dying to say for so long—  especially now since shido wasn’t around to instill fear.  “ i won’t deny it. i did want to come with you. i wanted to prove to you—  no, myself too—  that i could be a hero. that... i could finally do something good. “  his hand brushes against akira’s once more, craving the comfort of his touch. 

   “ ...you may think that, but... akira... “  he turns to look at him, mustering the courage to hold the trickster’s hand in his own once more—  “ to me, you’re someone worth dying for. you are so incredibly important, not only to me, but to your friends. you have a strength that the rest of us don’t have, a strength we could never have. just because you’re unsure of what to do, it doesn’t make you weak. it means you’re trying to keep everyone in mind, trying to calculate the best possible option. it’s admirable... but the truth is, no matter what you choose, there’s going to be at least one person who is unhappy. “  he speaks freely, trying to get akira to understand the reality of either choice.

   “ ...i’ll stay all night if i have to. i won’t leave you alone with this decision. we’re doing this together. “

[mortalivs]

   me, staring at tumblr trying to figure out who gave @parieha​ and i the audacity—

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parieha​:

                            the  trickster  felt  the  hand  resting  over  his  now  ,  warm  and  trying  to  be  comforting  as  it  encapsulated  his  own  ,  much  smaller  hand  in  a  gentle  grasp  .   akira’s  head  was  beginning  to  swim  with  terrible  thoughts  at  that  point  ,  and  every  terrible  scenario  that  could  conceivably  come  from  threatening  the  man  who  gave  him  his  biggest  wish  .  what  if  he  still  had  control  over  the  likes  of  goro  ?  what  if  he  still  had  control  over  his  friends  ?  would  this  end  up  being  a  massacre  ?  then  again  ,  if  it  did  end  up  with  akira  resting  on  his  bloodied  knees  ,  he’d  be  all  the  closer  to  meeting  goro  again  .  there  was  just  such  low  odds  that  even  the  black  mask  could  have  survived  an  assassin’s  edge  .                           “     .  .  .      “            for  what  it  was  worth  ,  akechi  was  doing  him  a  large  favor  by  being  someone  he  could  fall  back  on  right  now  .  but  comforting  ?  that  was  a  difficult  concept  to  get  across  right  now  with  how  many  dark  thoughts  invaded  akira’s  mind  ,  how  many  trails  of  thought  were  racing  in  every  direction .  what  if  this  is  false  ,  what  if  it’s  another  trick  ?  what  if  this  was  what  maruki  wanted  ,  to torture  him  to  death  ?  get  his  single  threat  out  of  his  way  ?  still  ,  akira  manages  to  look  up  at  goro  when  he  mentioned  their  battle  in  mementos  .                           “    .  .  .     i  know  ,  i  know  .  .  .    but  i  can’t  do  this  .  .  .  !    “               the  fool  rested  one  palm  against  his  eye  ,  trying  to  fight  back  releasing  how  much  stress  was  arising  from  what  he  had  repressed  for  a  lengthy  year  .              “  i  can’t  choose  like  that !  i  want  nothing  more  but  for  you  to  be  alive  ,  i  want  to  talk  properly  about  everything  !  but  .  .  .    i  also  can’t  take  the  dreams  of  my  friends  away  because  i’m  being  fucking  selfish  !           .  .  .  it’s  so  easy  for  everyone  else  to  look  in  and  put  their  opinions  on  the  matter  ,  and  their  expectations  on  me  ,  but  it’s  not  that  easy  !  they  can  only  say  things  because  they’re  not  involved  !  because  it’s  not  on  them  !  it’s  on  me  !   i  know  what  you  want  to  hear  ,  but  i’m  not  like  you  !    “

   i’m not like you !

   ...akira was right. he wasn’t like him. akira was warm, bright, gentle, caring, loving—  everything that goro wasn’t. goro akechi was cold, dark, harsh, bitter, selfish, a monster in human flesh. this he already knew, but to hear it from akira was a blow he wasn’t expecting to take, a blow that hurt more than he realized. he’s silent for what seems like hours, swallowing back the pain that seized through his body—  he wasn’t the important one. akira was.  “ ...you’ll never be like me. and i’m glad you see it for yourself. “  he murmurs, guiding akira’s hand off of the wall to lace their fingers together. maybe he could indulge himself with something he could never have, something he didn’t deserve, even if it was just for the moment. 

   “ ...my life is of no importance, akira. i threw my life away all for the sake of revenge, and look where it got me. “  he chuckles darkly, shaking his head before he continues.  “ you and your friends deserve to live your lives with the choice of freedom, not being someone else’s puppet who controls everything you do. it’s not a life i want for you, i’ve been through that already. it’s... not something i want for you. “  goro’s voice is quiet, soft, as if someone would over hear him being so open and vulnerable—  destroying the façade he had built for himself during the last month. akira already knew better, there was no point in trying to hide from the person who seemed to understand him better than anyone he had ever met in his life. well, except maybe his deceased mother.

   “ it’s not fair that this decision rests on you, i know. and... i apologize for ever making you feel as if i wasn’t considering your feelings. i just don’t want you to choose this reality and then regret it for the rest of your life. that kind of guilt kills people, and the last thing i want for you is death. “  his gaze focuses on the ground, trying to remain strong for the trickster. all that mattered was him, he was the only one who mattered—  goro akechi did not matter. he was cursed from the very beginning, and there was no point in saving a cursed soul.

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missinnocentscarlet​:

She pressed her forehead to his hands clasped around her owns, breathing deeply in an attempt to regulate her breathing.  Her head hurt, her stomach churned, and her head throbbed.  She didn’t know what to do, all she knew was she wanted to leave.  His voice grew muffled in her mind.

❝ What good can it be used for? ❞  Scarlet inquired, looking up at him, but it was as if her dull pale eyes stared right THROUGH him.  She squeezed his hands in return, attempting to stay grounded despite every nerve in her body telling her to vanish.  ❝ All it is ever good for is pushing others away. ❞

   red eyes meet his own, though it seemed as if her eyes bore right through him—  “ ...my fear made me stronger. not at first, of course. my fear fueled my rage, and it almost killed me. “  he admits, and it feels so good to be able to admit to himself that his past mistakes were wrong.  “ you have to fight the feeling of wanting to isolate yourself. push those boundaries as far as you can without damaging yourself. how will you ever know life if you keep letting your fear hold you back? “

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missinnocentscarlet​:

Anxiety began to border on ANNOYANCE.  As much as she missed him, she really didn’t want him to find out her living situation.  Eyes burned from a lack of sleep, dark circles settling into her pale skin beneath them.

❝ I.. have been doing better than I had before, I suppose, ❞  she replied, her voice softening from her previously harsh tone as she turned her head towards her companion.  ❝ How have you been, Akechi-san? ❞ 

   “ you don’t have to be so formal with me, you know. “  he says, leaning back against the bench.  “ i’d say we’ve earned the right to be informal with each other, don’t you think? “  he hums, turning towards her once more.  “ working. though i have retired temporarily from police work, i’d much rather return once i am fully confident in my abilities. “  not to mention that working so closely with police again may open old wounds that were just barely healed—  “ are you far from here? my apartment is down the street... if you have a long way back, i don’t mind opening up my place to you. “