XXI ⬩ she/they

here for the yearning...

[vqtkufi]

‘Always on my own’

@tankhall

[deansnoodle]

i need to tattoo the lyrics to nettles (miserable demo) tattooed on my body. i don’t play abt that song.

@tankhall

[justblokes]

Photo: Bleachbath

[sun-bl3achedflyy]

Me and my tumblr followers streaming Pulldrone by Ethel Cain

[zoloft-barbie]

sunday best @tankhall

my first attempt at digital art Lol be nice

[stargirlisle]

random note under an astrology post is rewiring my brain permanently

[doll-sk1n]

nobody hugs me the way you did

[pr0ceeding]

[opossum-handz]

[denaebenites2]

his fucking mom died giving birth to him. like. jesus christ. i thought the direction this movie was taking was "lars is in love with his brother's wife so he sublimates those forbidden emotions into being in love with a doll" but the actual direction it went is so much more brutal. HIS MOM DIED GIVING BIRTH TO HIM he never met his mom. and now his sister in law whom he clearly adores even if he's no good at saying it - now she's pregnant. and it could still happen. she could still die. it doesn't matter that medicine has come a long way, she could still die she could die giving birth she could die she could die she could die.

and it's not just that he doesn't want karin to die. he also knows what happens to the man that gets left behind. he was the one who got stuck with dad when gus left home. with a grieving dad who didn't know how to be a father anymore. lars doesn't want gus to become their father. and he doesn't want the baby to go through what lars went through.

but he can't control those things. he can't control what happens to karin and gus and their unborn child. so he creates a girlfriend who can't have children. it won't happen to him, he won't let it. and still it doesn't matter because he can't stop worrying about karin. and gus. and the baby. he thought having a girlfriend would solve all his problems. but his sister in law is still pregnant and his mom still died giving birth to him. and he can't control anything. fuck

[denaebenites2]

the thing is that when you decide to watch lars and the real girl all you're gonna know ahead of time is that it's a ryan gosling movie from 2007 about a grown man who orders a sex doll online and treats the doll like it's his real girlfriend. and naturally you'll go "what a strange premise for a romcom! surely this movie will primarily be making jokes at the expense of Guy Who Pretends His Doll Is Real." and then 1.5 hours later you'll be sobbing at your stupid kitchen table about family and community and positive representations of mental illness. and youll go what the fuck just happened to me

[ynnu-64]

watched lars and the real girl, and I love that movie so much. Did not expect to cry all through it

[fat-von-d]

just because Sade told me not to, i won’t

[brutalgrace333]

“Wild Geese”, by Mary Oliver

[gingysent]

Only god would believe that I was an angel

@tankhall

This is as good as its getting chat

[melanqole]

debauch

[eymurn]

Oh! The intimacy of adopting each other’s vocabulary.