This is me. I’m clean. I haven’t self-harmed in 5 years. It’s not perfect. I talk myself out of bed everyday. I counsel myself after work. I exercise the demons out- literally. I put healthy food in my mouth-hoping it is medicinal. I’ve been pretty sober for two years, but making space for a fun drink every now and again. There is so much to learn about ourselves. I posted a photo of me at work on purpose. I’ve been at the same job for three years. There was a time I couldn’t do that. There was a time that I’d risk everything and pray for death to kiss me a final goodnight. I didn’t log back into this e-journal to tell you how great I am doing. I can here to let ANYONE know- Anyone that is STRUGGLING, Anybody that is NUMB, Anyone with an ACHE in their HEART, With uncontrollable CRYING and LAUGHING, Anyone who can’t see one reason they should be here... Anyone who thinks this world is better off without them.. Anybody that is so TIRED. JUST TIRED. I AM HERE TO TELL YOU IT ABSOLUTELY GETS LIGHTER. YOU HAVE TO KEEP FIGHTING. YOU HAVE TO REST. YOU HAVE TO CRY. YOU HAVE TO HAVE A SAFE PERSON. YOU HAVE TO ADMIT THAT THE MONSTER IS REAL AND THEN YOU TAME THAT MOTHERFUCKER. YOU TAME IT. YOU LEARN FROM IT. AND YOU USE YOUR POWERS TO SHOW OTHER PEOPLE THAT THEY WILL NEVER EVER BE ALONE. THAT THEIR VERY BREATH IS GOLD. I love you. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. If you don’t know what to do, Come find me- Instagram: @writtenfitness I’m not going anywhere. I’m here because of so many people that were here for me. Strangers. Friends. Family. I shut them all out and they were all there. And some of waited a long time for me to come back around. I’m serious. You can do this. You are not your feelings. ❤️ You ARE love. You are worthy. Just because you exist.
