About me: [Updated and More detailed as of June 14, 2025]
My names velveteen but you may call me rex or velv if you like :3
⚠️Quick warning Byi: My social cues are a bit out of whack so my apologies if i yap too much once I interact with you or if I bother you too much (I tend to get really excited and happy when people interact with me and I know it can annoy many) ⚠️
Better explanation by my sibling: https://www.tumblr.com/joesmitten/779465310757601280/hey-just-a-reminder-that-soggysaurusrex-doesnt?source=share
!!!LGBTQIA+, Furry, Therian, and Disabled safe!!!!
(!!! Left tally hall for a while, unfortunatley will not come back, sorry /gen !!!)
18 years old (Jan 18th)
Cis Female (She/Her)
Straight
Autistic Spectrum Disorder
Introvert
Freindly, Kind, & Shy (i can be a bit mean if im very stressed or annoyed, i apologize)
Dislikes: drama & conflict (tho i may comment my opinion if i feel like i should)
Fav bands: TV Girl, Gorrillaz, & Lemon Demon (many more)
Feel free to interact :]
Socials: Youtube (same exact username thats on here) [Note: I use it just to talk and share some drawings and stuff]
Best freinds on here:
@raventhewolf9
@aquakat-draws
@theultimaterewatcher
@oli-silly
Idk if u consider me a freind but I consider u as a freind (even if you dont im still tagging u because u r a valid bean :] /gen) :
@unbranded-chaos
@tallyhallinsane
@xx-neuro-xx
@joen-lenawley
@akarulyte
@hallenjoyer626
@justa-snake
@jestermuncher9000
@taytumtowne
@frostpartii
@poohadventuresinseamajors
@edgingattheedgeofauniverse
THIN ICE:
Endo's (Even though I am an anti I am still freinds with a few people who are endo's and we are on good terms with each other. I dont have a problem with people who are, its just the idea. You are still welcome to interact with me as long as you dont try to enforce the idea onto me or start conflicts bc of it. I am a chill person and I wont try to enforce my ideas and opinions onto you if you dont do it to me (as long as youre not on the dni then ur good).
DNI!! : (i know this may seem ridiculous to many but i choose to add it anyways, because i want to and its my blog. But i will block you if i see fit)
RPF/Proshippers - (meaning if you ship irl people (in general with no consent), age gaps, and/or anything problematic or harmful)
Racists
Homophobes, Transphobes, (basically any kind of phobia that is geared towards being hateful, abusive, or discriminatory towards any gender, culture, race, disability, religion, etc.)
Pr3ds
Joe Hawley Supporters/Joe Haters/Joe Hawley Replacers/Joe Hawley Dehumanizers (this is a tally hall thing, but it still applies even if i left)
Bullies
NSFW blogs - (purely nsfw/🌽, if you make suggestive posts and art here and there i dont mind as soon as its not all you do and its not problematic)
MAPS
Zoo's
Radqueers
Ableists
Toxic people
delulu solulu people (this kinda makes me feel uncomfortable (Layze is the only exception because he's funny and i like his content)
Robin (someone who is a p$ych0, stalker, and cyberbully who keeps harassing and sending d34th thr34ts to my freinds and I across all of our socials. Here is a link to a doc abt him if u wanna learn more: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1wNu3J8FFT-MUiC3MttVOv5Dx7d5rcwm_N75JyaKaA2k/edit#heading=h.uwaojf48vwjo)
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Hihi!! You messaged me but it's not showing up?? It just says 'retry' and shows no messages. Just to let you know I'm not intentionally ignoring you, I just can't see the messages
I was trying to dm people about some one gr00m1ng me in my dms qnd asking them to spread awareness bc he literally exposed my blog to other creeps and they started interacting with me
Im 18 and he was a 47 year old man making sexual advances on me, calling me pet names, being possesive (like saying he owns me and calling me his princess and stuff) and trying to get me to indulge in a 🍇fantasy with him. Hes was traficking my blog , sexualizing me as something he owns, and treating me like im a prostitute
i think tumblr banned me from sending messages unless i hit a limit
I was trying to dm people about some one gr00m1ng me in my dms qnd asking them to spread awareness bc he literally exposed my blog to other creeps and they started interacting with me
Some things I really really need to get off my chest
Cautionary TW: discussion of struggles, mental health, disorders, excessive reading/writing, ranting, issues with dad, behavioral changes, potentially overwhelming or heavy language (not cursing, but probably strong to cause anxiety, worry, or emotional/mental discomfort for some), discussion of trauma and impacts, and venting (mostly about my dad being a jerk plus other things and my general feelings, which may come of a bit too harsh)
I want to stress heavily that even though im sharing my struggles. I am safe, I am ok, Im recieving professional help and family support, and sharing and talking it out is just my way to cope. Nothing I say should warrant any need to involve anyone or suggest a hotline (though, thats very kind and caring of you. Im just sharing and I already get theraputic, familial, and psychiatric help and treatment every week and remain in contact should I need their help). There are no images or self-destructive implications or mentions, just sharing my struggles as well as 4 disclaimers before the cut and 1 in the middle of the cut for emphasis and extra caution should any concern arise.
(you may avoid the excessive ranting in green if you dont want to read it, it was supposed to serve as a disclaimer but also about my take when it comes to people experincing these struggles that are serious and people out there make light of it. Its annoying to see, and can create negative sterotypes and representations towards the people whom actually struggle with them)
Since Im sharing my mental health situation, my experince with my disorders, my struggles, and trauma (all medically diagnosed by a psychiatrist). These topics and experiences arent something to be taken as a joke, very lightly, or invalidated or mocked (especially for attention, fame or clout). Nobodies should ever be invalidated, denied, or disregarded. Especially with trauma and disorders, anybody can experience it from a variety of things or conditions. No matter the severity, anything that puts anyone under heavy distress to a point it brings back awful times, triggering experiences, fear, etc. Should always be considered, listened to, and treated with care and respect. Help them out, talk about it with them if they give consent and are comfortable, dont belittle, support, and have an open mind. Showing someone you care about them sincerely and taking the time to hear them out and learn their experience, triggers, participating in organizations ment to support and cope, and coping mechanisms can help with the healing process in the long run. The same thing applies for disabilities, identity, mental health, and disorders.
Mocking such for any reason sets horrible sterotypes, invalidates, devalues, disrespects, and causes more harm. Having any trauma, disorder, etc. Is not funny, its not qwerky, its not sunshine and rainbows, its not something to make money or fame off of for attention or entertainment, and most importantly its not something that is desired, enjoyable, or treated like its some kind of luxury to display because you think its cool and silly to do so. This behaviour is very offensive, harmful, and to the people that experience them causes different struggles and challenges to different degrees that impact them in different ways that may cause genuine discomfort and distress.
I struggle with type 1 Autism Spectrum Disorder. I despise having it. I've struggled a lot with it and heavilly impacted on the social aspect so much in my case, it makes it difficult to interact with others and be independent without the need to have guidance, accomodations, and supports to help me manage things. When I see people on tiktok and other places making it look all qwerky, babyish, so silly silly, building a whole entire persona of it and much more deeper and disturbing, the potential for it to be sexualized in some way meant to be displayed as a type of fetish for people (which I see more with conditions obesity, age regression, binge eating, and going down the rabbit hole into traumatic/vile territoy) makes me angry, uncomfortable, and very disgust. Its completely messed up in so many ways, and now im in fear of running into, being viewed in that way by someone twisted like that (Im not trying to kink shame. Its ok if you have one, you do you. But if delves into dangerous, questionable, offensive, disgusting, or illegal territoy, that is where I draw the line. Its disgusting)
⚠️If you are not in a healthy mental space or extremely trigered by the topics addressed above, I strongly advise you to not read this under any circumstances for the sake of your wellbeing and mental health as it would probably effect you negativley and make you feel discomfort. Please dont surround yourself with things that will interfere with your process of healing⚠️
The section under the cut goes over my experience with my trauma as well as its impact on my mental health. Everything following the disclaimer in red discusses my issues with my dad a little more in depth as it was a big part in my trauma and mental health, and some information in regards to behavioral changes im experiencing
this is just a conversation about how my life is going. The intended purpose of this is to bring awareness and serve as a therapeutic way (discussed and suggested by my therapist) to help me have an outlet where I can talk about my struggles and release stress and pent up pain, anxiety, and damage from so many years of emotional trauma from my dad, as well as years of being bullied, betrayed, manipulated, decieved, ostracized, bodyshamed, fatshamed, and fraudulent friendship by so many different people in my life (friends, DAD, classmates, other people) who took advantage of the fact Im insecure and struggle socially, who abused my kindness, care, and friendliness only to use it for means cruelty and to satisfy their need to put me down and treat me as if I am inferior because of my financial situation, my appearance, my awkwardness, and my difficulty with social skills, interactions, and generally with skills needed in life (the only thing Im able to actually do well is academic stuff). They see me as weird, incredibly stupid (even being called the R-slur alot) and as a liability because of my autism and how it contributes to the way I act and live. They've always made sure that I know im not welcome nor belong because Im different and I require support and guidance to help me, also using abelism to make it very clear that I dont belong. Romantically and in friendship, nobody was ever interested in me because of my differences, my weight, and personality.
All that, heavily impacts me. I have a hard time trusting people, im constantly in fear of being betrayed again, I always feel like people hate me in secret, In person out and about I only speak unless spoken too otherwise I sit alone in silence to avoid the chances of encountering another person out to ruin my life.
To simply ask a question, to express my issues or opinions, to make an appointment, or generally anything in public that requires me to ask or speak on my own terms and on my own fills me with so much dread that leads to frequent panic attacks, being even more awkward, unable to speak properly, losing my train of thought, and just wanting to ryn away and hide.
The only place where I feel at ease and open to talking is online. I dont have to worry about my looks nor see the other person. I feel free to share things as myself behind screen, knowing I can block out anything or anyone easily if they are threat or disturbance.
first, before anything in regards to the actual and importantly more recent part of the discussion I want to address for the most part as well as further expanding on my situation with my dad because it had a very heavy impact on not just myself, but also my family. And stemming from that others may be imacted by my behaviour and attitude thats been built upon the stress also in hand the side effects my meds have on me too.
again I want to be clear that Im ok, im safe, and im in the process of recieving professional help (nothing too serious, but I am going through alot right now and it's being really hard on my physical and mental health
Recently, a lot of things have been happening. Both my physical and mental health arent the best and I am dealing with school and finacial stress on top of it as well as issues with my dad (hes manipulative, narcissistic, and full of himself. He literally left us and even though what he has done was eleven years ago, he refuses to acknowledge that he was the one who put himself where he is now and how heavy of an impact it has on our family, as well as the humiliation and shame it has brought. Yet he still sits there having a pity party, being a manchild, manipulating everyone, and basically displaying an obsessive need to have control over us through any means necessary including trying to be a father now even though eleven years ago he chose not to and betrayed us all and broke our hearts and trust. Yet he simply feels he can worm himself back into our lives as if nothing happened. Hes simply carefree and unaccountable of his actions, no regard whatso ever for how deep of a wound it caused (especially for my mom) and acts as if it wasnt a big deal at all (It very much, especially because I myself figured out he had a history of being deceptive and getting into trouble more than once. Which extends all the way back to his time in the military and before I was born). I dont want anything to do with him ever, i don't love him and I will never forgive him for what hes done because he'll never change)
And aside from college and my "dad" (or lack there of), Ive started taking meds for my anxiety and mild depression (like vyvanse (25mg) and zoloft (150 mg) which also have been increased to a higher dosage (in the parenthesis) along with some other meds). Even though its helping my focus, energy, and anxienty an panic attacks. I still tend to experience behavioral changes.
Of course I am still the same person I always
But anyways, If i ever come off as more hyper, moody, low, or dry towards you, please know that I am genuinley sorry as it is due to stress and side effects from meds, but please know IT IS NOT DIRECTED TOWARDS YOU IF I ACT THAT WAY (im sorry if the caps come off as rude, I just want to emphasize that point because even if its the side effect, its not acceptable to direct it anyone in general as it can be harsh and mean. And no one deserves that in any way /gen). Eitherway, I will try my best to keep my behaviour and mood in check so that I dont hurt anyones feelings unintenionally and so I can be in a better state of mind over time.
Ishimondo mermaid AU but Kiyotaka is a fisherman who avoids the land due to his family debt and resigns himself to never rejoin society and yet despite his life on the water this one FUCKING SEAL MERMAN MONDO keeps hoisting up on his ship and snapping his nets to eat the fish he caught and other fisherman see this shit go down every other day and are like "Yep, those two sure are fighting" and go about their own day and Mondo does all of it cause he gets to steal fish and then get manhandled by a twunk who doesn't even shoot at him like other fishermen do and Kiyotaka everytime finds pearls and shiny rocks and other sea trinkets Mondo dropped and sells those to replace his nets so he doesn't mind.
