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MARIA | A girl with a big heart ❤️🌸 ♔

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L I M I T

What did I become? What came into my mind to hurt someone physically? This is not me. I was surprised when I unintentionally hurt someone. Hindi ko sinasadya. Wala ako ginawa para macontrol yung anger ko. I’m guilty but... I can’t help but to explode, this is how the scene started.

Magkakasama kami. I don’t know why he was so distant sakin, pinapaupo ko siya sa tabi ko pero he decided to distance himself sa malayo. I don’t know his reason/s, mas pinili niya maglaro sa tabi kesa maki mingle sa circle of friends naman niya. It was a mess, kaya gustong gusto ko na umuwi kasi something wasn’t right, feeling ko?! Hanggang sa distant nga sya pero mas gusto niya sumama sa kaibigan ko na naka motor, although okay lang naman sana kung di ko lang nafeel na distant siya sakin, pero he was so happy na naka sakay don, isn’t he happy sa cof niya? bakit kailangan ko mafeel yung mga ganong bagay ngayon, nakakawala ng mood. kaya kahit gusto ko pa magstay na willing ako pagalitan ng nanay ko, I decided na makauwi na. Hay ewan, I wanted to say sorry pero ayoko muna kumausap ng mga taong involved sa pangyayari. So back off na lang muna. 

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Bit of exaggeration

It really affects my mood kapag nagbabangayan pa rin kami ng ex ko like I should be okay, and him too. I shouldn't feel this way na kasi I should be over him but no!! It's easy to say na magmomove on ka pero it's hard to do. I don't know pero lahat ng mga statements niya iba sating sakin like feelings over matter ganern, tumataas emosyon ko pag nakakausap ko siya lalo na pag bangayan kami, yes until now nagtatalo pa kami, I know wala na point pero hindi ko alam. Siguro kung papapiliin ako between magtravel sa past at future, I would choose future kasi gusto ko makita kung hanggang kelan ako magiging okay, kung kelan ko mararamdaman na naka move on na ako at kung kelan wala na akong pakialam sakanya. Gusto ko na lang dumating sa point na mawala lahat ng pagmamahal ko sakanya. Hahahahahahahahahaha. Baka sakaling maging buo ulit ako, baka sakaling malimutan ko yung feeling na nasaktan. Hahahahahahahaha masakit na masakit shempre mahal na mahal mo eh. Pero sooooon!! 😊 Naniniwala akong magiging okay ako 💕 Goodnight ❤️

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It just so happen na parang maganda magsettle pag both parties are ready. 😊 shempre team kramer goals yon yung mas close pa sila sa daddy nila kesa sakin 💕 hayhayhay ❤️

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I can't wait for the time I can post a picture with a caption saying: Nagmahal. Nasaktan. Nag board exam. Pumasa/Nagtop 🌸💕 it would be an honor for me and to my family as well kapag nangyari yun. I really can't wait to put an engr before my name 😊 and eventually to put a surname of a boy who really deserves it cause it has an engr on it 🌸💕 i dunno gusto ko na magkapamilya ganern, pero kasing cute ni misha dapat yung baby ko and super bright ganern 😊 di ko minamadali that's why minomold ko muna sarili ko shempre physically, emotionally, spiritually and financially 😊 hihihi can't wait to see my dream house, my dream wedding, and the sundays of the family 😍 yayyyyyyyy!! work work work!! 🌸💕

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It will be a long process for me to move on but eventually, I can 😊 No more heartaches, no more dramas and everything 😊 but for now I won't push myself hard. Time heals 💓Those pain will make me stronger and those learnings will be applied soon 💕Keep calm! 🤗

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Maybe it's time for me to go 😎👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻

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Random compliment/s ❤️

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Totoo ba? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. Ako nga haggard na haggard sa sarili ko eh!! 😂😂 to be honest, it really feels good na may maka appreciate sayo kaya nagpost ako kasi this made me smile after all na ang baba ng tingin ko sa sarili ko kasi sobra akong na down and nasaktan, pero little by little nagagain ko na siya cause I believe na nasaktan lang ako and I believe na magiging successful akong babae soonest which makes me prettier and for the people na nililift ako and those compliments make my heart flutter 💓 thank you people 🤗

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Pessimism to Optimism

I was once so down, really down but as I keep looking forward in life, I see changes on me and the surroundings. While moving on, you'll see how you turned out to be your old self and yourself when hurt. When hurt, you are full of questions running inside of your mind, full of bitterness, full of curses and blames to the person who hurt you, but later you'll realize your worth and if you do, what's on your mind will diminish it will not turn out to be zero real-quick, it's not an easy procedure to do, but eventually you see yourself happy for the one who hurt you, happy for the couples around you and happy for yourself as well. All those negative things turned out to be positive. They say, "I can see the good in the bad" that's really true 😊 as you surrender all the strongholds, all the wants in your life that hinders the future, you'll see yourself happy 😊 I am happy for the little progress ❤️ Time will heal all the heartaches and when I do, I'll be the happiest 😊

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I just love seeing them happy ❤️

Ang cute pag soul turner ka talaga like all of these years wala siyang mukha na pinopost sa fb pero nung naging kayo he started to like about himself and nagpost na siya ng picture nya with all smiles. Ang cute kasi how a girl turned a shy boy to a normal being na kaya makipag deal sa mundo ganon!! Hahahahaha. It makes me happy how relationships change the lives of the couple 🌸 nakakakilig kasi masaya sila and you always believe na love is the sweetest thing that ever existed in life ❤️ we love like we've never been hurt 😍 we wait for the time na love will find us again and make us whole again 💓 hihihi so happy talaga na masaya friends mo dahil sa mga ganung bagay ❤️ namiss ko to!! Namiss ko yung Maria na walang pait sa katawan. Am happy for the progress I have made to be myself again 😊 Hoorayyy!! Back on track! 😍 Happy We! 🤗

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Final Verdict tomorrow

Lord, kayo na po bahala. I want to graduate on time and I really can't disappoint the people around me. 😇🙏 Kahit para sakanila na lang yung pagpasa ko ❤️ I love you Lord 💓 I am unworthy but please make me worthy to pass this exam 😘

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There is one line from him na hindi ko makakalimutan bago pa lang kami magsimula kasi sabi ko noon may trust issues na talaga ko and I have generalized all the boys and he said, "Bakit naging boyfriend mo na ba lahat? Ibahin mo ko." HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHA. Op op op op. 🙊

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So many pampalubag to get better each and every day ❤️Hirap kaya mag move on no lalo na pag may ibang involved lalo na pag nasira tiwala mo, basag na puso mo sira pa tiwala no double kill HAHAHAHAHA pero may mga taong iuuplift ka, may mga taong naniniwala na hindi ko kawalan and it's a good thing I have tried to reconcile once pero nung may issue ulit, ayoko na kahit gustong gusto mo pa. Kasi kahit parang pinaramdam niya na unworthy ka na di ka enough, alam mo sa sarili mo na di mo deserve masaktan ulit. Akala ko iba siya akala ko settled na ako akala ko akala ko puro na lang akala ko. Pero one thing is for sure, I won't quit ❤️ I can't lose my achievements, it's my sweet revenge and I will have the guts soon and say, "hi ako nga pala yung sinayang at sinaktan mo" BOOM!! HAHHAHAHAHAH Thank you friends for uplifting me and my broken heart ❤️ yung kahit mahal na mahal mo pa rin siya gusto mo siya sapakin kung pwede lang eh!! 😂 wala eh mabait pa rin talaga ko kaya di ko gagawin yon, wish ko lang may natutunan siya nung kami pa kasi insulto sakin kung wala and naiinsulto ako kasi parang wala nga. Pero hayaan na kung ganung buhay ang gusto niya kung gusto niya bumalik sa dating siya wala tayong magagawa. 😊 Basta ikaw alam mo sa sarili mo kung hanggang saan kaya mong ibigay pagdating sa pagmamahal and I learned so many things and I guess pag nagmahal na ako ulit, it will be more than what I have given. More travel para mas tumagal daw HAHAHAAHAHA 😂✌🏻

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I want to go to the beach but every time I do, someone is in the back of my head. memories are forever but sometimes I wish that all those hurtful moments are thrown in the beach and let go of the negativities. I'm very sad and happy as well. Sad because I have given my all to the one I love but I came up to being hurt. I am deeply hurt and it's still a puzzle for me. Ayoko na! Suko na ko sa nararamdaman ko. Pwede bang wag na lang masaktan pwede ba magmahal lang? Handa naman ako ibigay lahat nagkataon lang na wala akong time pero di reason para maghanap ng time sa iba. Ayoko na talagaaaa. Gusto ko na lang mawala lahat ng sakit at pagmamahal na natitira. 😊 Once na maging okay na ako, I would be the happiest! Kasi kaya ko ulit na ako mag isa sa lahat sabagay sanay naman na ko. Hayyyyyy. Di ko na alam. Mixed emotions na talaga to sabay pa sa pre board nkklk! Kala ko mas focus pero hindi naiiyak na lang ako sa lahat ng bagay. 😪

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New generation, new rules of dating. Have a lot to say over texting, but less to say in person. Arguments over the phone, instead of working things out face to face. Posting up your feelings online to let someone know how you feel, instead of just telling them straight up. Sex became the first thing new couples do, when before it was something to look forward to & worth waiting for. The word 'love' gets tossed around recklessly, when it used to be used carefully. Insecurities are now the way your brain thinks, back then we had nothing to worry about. Jealousy became a bad habit, when you're supposed to know there's nothing to be jealous of. The trust is gone, when it used to be easily found in ourselves. Cheating became an incident, since temptation stopped losing & started winning. Leaving became an option, but before, staying was the only choice. Being hurt became natural to us, since most of us forgot what being happy feels like.

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Minsan may sense rin to kausap hindi puro babae. Grabe am down talaga and inuplift niya ko all of a sudden. Hahahahahah. Good job friend 🌸 Magdilang anghel kayong lahat na nananalig na papasa ako ❤️

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Someday

Just someday, there will be no more tears. So much lessons I learned and I realize kahit anong gawin mo kahit ibigay mo lahat but he's not loyal wala rin 😊 it's just that he's not the guy worth sharing of life forever for. Still positive I will meet someone that having a third party will not be an issue ❤️ And I can't wait for that moment 🤗🌸 Stop being unfaithful to girls! It's really a NO NO 😊 Be a man!