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my scrimblos (silly notes)

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PLAYLIST: Izumi x Hana [ HWAU ]

from strangers to frenemies —> friends to lovers (I also think they have a bit of a lovehate)

⋆˙⟡ —

"I don’t think any of us should be meddling in each other’s affairs."

"So we’re both in the same boat now, and there’s no way out, is there? Don’t take this for granted; we’re simply acting in our mutual interests."

[mqxthye]

"I’ll never be number one for you; I’ll never be number one for anyone. Never in my life, never on this planet, never in this universe. I’m too weak to accept it; I’m too pathetic to change it. An idiot mired in his own worthlessness. I loved so sincerely, I hoped so sincerely, I cherished so sincerely. A nobody who is not destined to have friends or to love. That is why there is no one left with me."

[mqxthye]

𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋♬⋆.˚𝄢ᡣ𐭩: ???

??? :✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

[mqxthye]

"Loneliness has consumed my heart so completely that even the crowd of people surrounding me has ceased to matter. One by one, they disappear. First one, then another, then a third. Who’s next? Is it my own fault, or should I start blaming others? I don’t know; I don’t know who I should start trusting. Can I trust myself so that it isn’t a one-sided game? Ah, apparently not. My fate leads to only one thing, and that is to remain in the abyss of humility, that no one will stay by my side no matter how hard I try."

[fearstainedxwinter]

Reblog if you are into Polyamory Shipping/Ship

It can be your OT3, or maybe your OT3+

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My OC's MBTI

NiGHTSs:

Fuji Seto - INTJ

Izumi Sora - INFJ

Shuu Kumagai - ENTP

Na Minhyuk - ENTJ

Choi Souma - ESTP

Usagi Tetora - ISFP

NewGen:

Tanaka Aya - INFJ

Tanaka Michelle - ISTJ

Fujiwara Kaho - ENFP

SUZU - INTP

Yukoku Rei - ENTJ

Yukoku Megumi - ISFJ

Morino Yuriko - ESFP

Matsuda Kaoru - ESTJ

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Birthdays of my OC's

NiGHTSs:

Fuji Seto - May 2 (02.05)

Izumi Sora - November 8 (08.11)

Shuu Kumagai - June 17 (17.06)

Na Minhyuk - January 21 (21.01)

Choi Souma - April 11 (11.04)

Usagi Tetora - September 6 (06.09)

NewGen:

Tanaka Aya - January 7 (07.01)

Tanaka Michelle - September 26 (26.09)

Fujiwara Kaho - May 14 (14.05)

SUZU - November 11 (11.11)

Yukoku Rei - April 9 (09.04)

Yukoku Megumi - March 6 (06.03)

Morino Yuriko - July 19 (19.07)

Matsuda Kaoru - August 12 (12.08)

[fujisewoo]

✧About character✧

࣪ ִֶָ☾. His name is Fuji Seto.

࣪ ִֶָ☾. His nationality is Japanese.

࣪ ִֶָ☾. His pronouns are he/him.

࣪ ִֶָ☾. He is straight and asexual.

࣪ ִֶָ☾. His MBTI is INTJ.

࣪ ִֶָ☾. He is an adult, so NSFW and so on are possible.

ִֶָ☾. He is too calm and doesn't express his emotions and feelings openly. It's not that he doesn't want to, but it's difficult for him. Since childhood, he hasn't felt or understood how to properly express emotions. He had problems with communication as a child, but as he grew older, he stopped caring about how he would communicate with people and how they would understand him.

࣪ ִֶָ☾. Hobbies: reading/writing books, playing the piano and violin, drawing, singing, and writing articles on forums.

࣪ ִֶָ☾. He doesn't have any specific music preferences, but if he listens to anything, it's classical music or OSTs from games (like The Legend of Zelda), as well as lo-fi. The only genre he can identify is city pop.

࣪ ִֶָ☾. Despite his usual/casual style, he enjoys wearing pink and purple colors. He complements his outfits with black manicures and asexual accessories, although he doesn't want to stand out.

࣪ ִֶָ☾. He has a passion for space and sci-fi, but few people know about it.

࣪ ִֶָ☾. A romantic, he thinks logically and considers things from a scientific point of view, but he likes to wrap some aspects in a romantic package. This may contradict his actions, but he doesn't intend to do anything about it.

✧˖°. About mod ✧˖°.

-`♡´- My pronouns are she/they.

-`♡´- I'm nonbinary and lesbian.

-`♡´- I have autism.

-`♡´- This character is fictional, and there are no prototypes for him. I created him based on how I envisioned the character, but over time, I began to base his appearance on the idol Byun Baekhyun.

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second attempt

[mqxthye]

"Maybe I'm doing something wrong in this life, but I wanted love so badly. Just love it; it didn't matter who it came from... It didn't matter how many people it came from."

"Maybe I'm doing something wrong, but I'm lucky that the people I least expected to accept me did, because I expected it might not be mutual."

"Maybe I'm doing something wrong, but thank you for letting me meet THEM, the ones who make me happier every day."

[mqxthye]

𐔌՞ ܸ.ˬ.ܸ՞𐦯SUZU⋆｡𖦹˚𓇼

Dissolved traces of light

inside a sweet dream

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Continued:

"Ever since I was a little boy, I dreamed of being a prince on a white horse who would find his very own princess, and we would live a sweet, rosy life. But with each passing year, those dreams crumbled. Why? Ah, perhaps the rot that had always been inside me spread throughout my entire being as I grew up? Or was it because I had no example of that happy life? I never wanted to be like my father, but in the end, I became just as hypocritical and selfish, someone who doesn’t care about anyone or anything. Haha, how pathetic I am. That’s why everyone abandoned me."

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⊹₊˚‧︵‿₊୨ᰔ୧₊‿︵‧˚₊⊹

We're swaying on horseback, the hills are green

And the birdies sing, and roses are pink

Experience I never had, I'm so happy

Happy to just be part of your story

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"Have I ever been that person everyone knows? I'm not sure. For as long as I can remember, I've never been honest with anyone. Everyone knows me as that ideal version of myself the one I'd like to see and the one everyone around me sees. Ah, I've never been a good person; I've never had any morals. If my best friend found out what's really going on, would he still hang out with me? Of course not why would he want rottenness by his side? If the girl who likes me finds out what I’m really like, will she love me as much as she does now? It’s even hard for me to wish that she’d find someone better. Another rose petal on my window has rotted; when it reaches the end, will anyone find out the whole truth? I’m just an actor, and everyone is watching my performance. How rude come on stage and ruin me even more.”

[mqxthye]

⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡Yukoku Rei

Painful light, turning into a darkness blotting out the dazzling morning sun

Hiding and blending with the ugliness

There's no need for a bible

the DIRTY butterfly which influences all.

It has spread it's wings

the DIRTY butterfly which influences all.

I believe this world is a lie, everything has been deceived

Its too late to go back now

And dreams too are being trampled on

And so...

Showing the future's cinema of despair

cr (5 pic) @xiuxiukong on X (twitter)

[mqxthye]

"I must have misunderstood you at that moment. How quickly everything slips away. A fleeting smile that gave me hope... I was too innocent. I interpreted it the way I wanted to. The illusion crumbles like a house of cards, and you remain an unattainable dream."

[mqxthye]

Aya: It feels as if this world holds only us,

A fleeting dream I couldn’t help but trust.

Moonlight on my toes, a bouquet in the air,

your fingers brushed my own as if they’d always been there.

Goodbye, I have to go, forgetting all I know.

Barefoot I walk across the glass,

each wound a drop of blood that slowly drips and cracks.

Please, follow where my fragile footprints lead,

come and find me, answer what I need.

Fuji: Goldfish set loose in a rusted pool,

an apple hidden deep in a locker at school.

Your pale skin marked with scars that never fade,

a lost child swimming through the night’s cascade.

Where are you now?

Aya: (I'm here)

Fuji: What are you doing?

Aya: (I've always been watching over you)

Fuji: Let’s fill the void with the errors of this life,

stay by my side, let’s run into the night.

Where are you now?

Aya: Barefoot I walk across the glass,

each wound a drop of blood that slowly drips and cracks.

Please, follow where my fragile footprints lead,

come and find me, answer what I need.

Fuji: It feels as if this world holds only us,

Aya: a fleeting dream I couldn’t help but trust.