Just Once More,Lay With Me.

𝘼𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙤𝙤 𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜.

[mrdegreen]

Shall we go home, my dear?

[mrdegreen]

And if you're ever lonely

You may find me in sunlight between leaves, in sweet apples on the ground, in bumbling bees and in lavender bushes surrounded by forget-me-nots.

[mrdegreen]

It seems I’ve brought you pain again. I’m sorry.

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"Us"

There is no saving you from yourself and I know that better than anyone on Earth, yet I still try, because I love you.

So please, I beg, if you love me even a fraction as much as I love you, please try.

If not for yourself, do it for this ephemeral idea of 'Us'.

Do it for a future that might not be there at all, like a fleeting dream that you wake up from and forget right away, but still existed and made your chest warm all the same.

[mrdegreen]

And I Will Writhe

And writhe and writhe and struggle and struggle and struggle and still these calloused hands of mine will not be able to save you.

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I spend days and nights fixing things. Mending the cracks that formed between us because of a little slip of the tongue. Never again, I'd whisper quietly to myself, only to do it all over, again and again.

But you'd forgive me, wouldn't you? Because you love me more than anything?

[mrdegreen]

Lazy Dog

I can only be good when you hurt me.

Tell me I'm not good enough so I won't grow complacent.

I'll continue to be on my best behavior then.

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To know this pain is real

I want to be destroyed from the inside out.

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Why can't I do it right?

Why can't I just be good?

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I Cannot Love You.

You know that better than anyone else, my love

We are not equals.

So I mask that love as devotion, lay down my life in your name

I am content for as long as you smile.

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Half-Drunk Words

" I want to love you like an equal, "

If you hadn't looked at me with such painful adoration in your eyes, young master, I would've laughed at your words,

Written it off as a joke, even.

Pardon my insensitivity, as you have many times before this, but you know better than I that we can never be

I am simply a man, some might say a pathetic man; someone less than worthy of looking you in the eye

Much less hold your hand and call you mine. But day and night, I wish I could put into words how much I did love you.

" This pitiful servant of yours is willing to lay down his life to make sure you are happy. So I love you, young master, "

More than anything else in this world.

. . . But really, did this love of mine ever amount to anything if it wasn't enough to save you from yourself?

I wake in the night and reach for your side of the bed only to find you not there

I spend my time drinking until the world is lit up with your colors, all the shades of silver and green

I miss stopping you from doing the same thing and putting you to bed, your eyes hazy and your cheeks flushed. It hurt, but in that moment you were more beautiful than anything else I've seen.

Please have some pity for me and come back. Fill the side of your bed again, drink yourself stupid, I don't care

Look at me with those eyes again, please.

Even if I'm less than worthy of your love.

Life is not worth living without you by my side.

[mrdegreen]

To call you my everything is to call you my reason to live.

So keep me close and I'll paw at your door in the night.

I want to be the dog that guards your bed.

After all,a pet doesn't need to know how 'small' their owner —— their 'everything' —— is.

You are simply 'everything' to me.

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"Is there really no way out of this?"

I've always known the answer.

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As Far As I'm Concerned, You've Always Been Mine.

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I want to dance to the tone of your heartbeat and never stop

So please

Keep your heart beating for this pathetic me who wants to keep dancing till the end of time

Please.

[mrdegreen]

I am but a pathetic man, but please, hold me close to you.

I may only be a pathetic man, but I am yours.

[mrdegreen]

Being called yours is a lovely sin I cannot afford.