So... this blog’s been essentially radio silent for about four months. And I figure it’s time to finally make note of why and apologize for not having done so sooner. Long explanation and general update below the cut.
I’m sorry to all my RP partners who wondered why I just wasn’t logging on anymore. To my knowledge I still kept up with every one of you thanks to discord, but I know I wasn’t upfront with what was going on. A large part of that is that I like to keep my mental health and personal problems to myself, most of the time.
The other part is I didn’t think the problems would last.
The truth is I burned out hardcore in many areas (creatively and mentally/health-wise especially) over the summer and fall of 2018. Writing/roleplaying, socializing, and just playing XIV were especially exhausting for me. I thought a short break would get me back in the metaphorical fighting spirit, so I quietly stopped logging in, moved to playing some more casual games in what free time I had between work, and waited for the burnout to pass.
If it wasn’t obvious, it didn’t.
Even now, I’m struggling to do casual writing. In addition to the fact I’ve been hard-pressed to find the time to actually do said writing in-between my life’s busy day-to-day schedule. And the game itself hasn’t regained its shine for me, either - there’s so many other things I can play that make me incredibly happy. Especially because, unlike XIV, I can play them with my partner.
However, this isn’t me saying goodbye. After a few months of being unsubbed, I reactivated my subscription last week. How long it stays active, or if I’ll simply opt to activate it when I have plans/scheduled RP, is kind of up in the air right now. But I do know that I’m not fully leaving this game - just being much more casual with how I’ll play it.
What this means is I’ll be checking this blog sparingly (more than once every 4 months, though. I promise!) and only log on if I have something specific planned. However, I’m happy to talk to and set up RP with people. Please just understand that I’ll likely not be doing more than an RP or two (if that) a week - my writing stamina is laughable right now, and I’m absolutely swamped with work. It’s also worth nothing that it’s very likely I’ll have weeks where I turn down RP completely.
Really, I ask for your patience and understanding more than anything. There’s so many people I’d like to RP with, and so many things I’d like to do, but I have to pick my battles and take care of myself. For now, that means not returning full-force to XIV. Maybe later this year that will change, we’ll have to see.
No matter what happens in the future, thank you for reading thus-far. I know this got a bit long, so I appreciate you getting through it all.
