Esoteric Diary

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[mrjesselynn]

31. Writer. Poet. Artist. Philanthropist. Feminist. FTM. 90s baby. Army Combat Veteran. Esoteric Soul. Liberal but Democratic.

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Μετέωρα, Ελλάδα

- Jesse Lynn, 2026

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[thoughtkick]

“I’ve wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love with life.”

— Voltaire, Candide

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Goal #1 right now on my list

[nature-travel-photography]

Adriatic Coast,Croatia🇭🇷 - Author: Beginning_Buy_1332

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If I could only live here

[thoughtkick]

“Sometimes your mind needs more time to accept what your mind already knows”

— Unknown

[my-dailydreams]

[mrjesselynn]

As an American who now lives in Greece (a completely different country) I find it very relaxing and safe to know that in Greece you can miss work for any reason and any company you work for, small or big, will not even blink an eye. Most of the time they don’t even ask for reasoning and you don’t need approval. In the USA completely the opposite. USA: needs approval no matter the reason, only allow up to certain hours/days to be absent, certain amount of sick days (always asks for a doctors note). Greece: “please be safe, get well, return when you’re able, have a good trip, see you soon, TAKE YOUR TIME” Most of Europe is like this. They UNDERSTAND that we as humans have lives and ARE HUMAN. Not robots. The USA needs to learn this. Work till you die type of country… better off elsewhere.

[thoughtkick]

“There’s always a little truth behind “just kidding”, a little knowledge behind “I don’t know”, a little emotion behind “I don’t care”, and a little pain behind “It’s okay”.”

— Unknown

[vexheart]

Rumors can make you dislike innocent people.

[mrjesselynn]

Most rumors are nonsense and fake. I am convinced to not ever believe anything that comes from a sheep’s mouth about another human unless I have solid proof. If I don’t get proof then it’s just an opinion of the person saying it

[mrjesselynn]

Nobody warned me how seriously mean my wife is before I married her. She I just really not a nice human being. She’s mean as hell to me.. And I had nobody to warn me. I’m American and she’s Greek. So literally none of her friends warned me that she’s mean. She curses at me, curses my family and my country all the time. She calls me names like “fkn bitch, or mother fker” she is constantly calling my country and my culture stupid. She constantly calls me stupid. She’s just a very mean person. She’s always putting me down. And she thinks she can talk to me like I’m trash. 2 years into this and I don’t think it’s healthy at all.. it’s very detrimental to my mental health.. I am legit in an abusive relationship.. and I’m married and live in a completely different country. So I have nobody here to turn to for help. I’m actually not sure what to do.. I feel lost and stuck. I feel numb. I’m scared… did I make the wrong decision in the beginning?? Is this why people say you shouldn’t rush things? Is this why so many people aren’t getting married anymore? This is my second marriage btw.. the first ended because she cheated on me for 5 years during my first marriage… now this… it’s close to the same behavior that my ex wife treated me except the volume turned up max… what do I do….

[azspot]

“The United States is being murdered, and it’s an inside job. Every department, every branch, every bureau and function of the federal government is being fatally corrupted or altogether dismantled or disabled. All this is common knowledge, but because it dribbles out in news stories about this specific incident or department, the reports never adequately describe an administration sabotaging the functioning of the federal government and also trashing the global economy, international alliances and relationships, and the national and global environment in ways that will have downstream consequences for decades and perhaps, especially when it comes to climate, centuries.”

— Rebecca Solnit

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“You teach people how to treat you by what you allow, what you stop, and what you reinforce.”

— Tony Gaskins

[vexheart]

[sacred-portal]

[anxietyproblem]

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Nobody talks about the wave of depression you get when you get out of the Military and you’re struggling to find your place in this world. You’re relearning how to be an actual free (so to speak) human again. You’re realizing that you do have hobbies and a brain of your own. You realize the people who are there for you and the people that aren’t. It’s been a whirlwind of emotions and breakdowns. Failures and wins. Losses and finds. I’ve moved 3 times since I got out in April earlier of this year and I’m about to move for my 4th time. Every place I’ve landed in has taught me a thing or two. I’ve lost more people than I’ve gained but that’s okay because I don’t need much. I have a new start coming soon and I’m eager to see how it works out for me. I think it’ll be good, financially better for me for sure. I’ll be surrounded by good people who care about me and want what’s best for me. I’ll actually have friends near me that’s the biggest thing. These past 2-3 months living where I’m at now in this secluded town in the middle of nowhere Kansas hasn’t been the easiest or healthiest for me. It’s been lonely for sure. Everyone in this small ass town is either homophobic, transphobic or racist. Or doesn’t even know that LGBTQIA exists. It’s sad. I don’t fit in here whatsoever. Indiana looks hopeful. I’ll have a better job. I’ll have my girl at my side. I’ll have options. I’ll be able to have a life. I’ll get to go back to school. Things are looking up. Getting out of the Army hasn’t been easy. And they don’t warn you about the transition struggle. But I’ve kept my head up as much as I can since and I plan to keep moving forward like that. Positive vibes only

-JH

Source: poeticecstasy

[mrjesselynn]

Update: it’s now April of 2026. Im married to the best wife (different woman), I’m working best job I can ask for. I am living in a whole new country. Friends and family are there when I need them. Underwent spinal surgery and I’m healing better than I thought! Life is a blessing, God is good to those who live through his name. I cannot even begin to think about all the chapters I’ve lived through, NEVER thought I’d be where I am today. My advice if you want to live happily is to let go of your past. Life is too fucking short to dwell and relive old memories. That’s why they are called memories not the present. Live in the present! Life flies by quicker than a speeding bullet. When you live presently you enjoy the time you have and life becomes more elegant with every day that passes.