cas😭😭😭😭😭 I am so sad rn I shouldn't be this sad it's not like the world is ending. but I don't know why i feel like this😭😭I have watched them since their predebut and it feels like my family has broken up😭😭 going to a dream concert was in my bucket list since forever and I have been working hard as a uni student to fulfill that dream and I feel so heartbroken 😭😭
I thought about you as soon as I heard the news btw
right. this shit has hit me like a ton of bricks its fucking crazy, and like its been obvious i've been out of the kpop loop heavily for quite some time, but mark was the only one i listened to / kept up with and even despite all that, going to a dream concert was one of the things i've always wanted to do (whether i was in deep or not)
hello everyone, its been a looooong fucking time lol.
im sorry i left so suddenly last year, and to be completely blunt and honest with you, i had lost a lot of interest in kpop due to my mental hitting an all time fucking low.
i'd still look at some posts occasionally and hear stuff from friends abt nct, but i was never really fully in it anymore. it was an odd and cold feeling considering i'd been apart of kpop since 2015/2016 and that it was my comfort space. i wasn't sure how to handle it, which was partially why i dipped out with no warning.
i've been debating abt coming back for a while. i was mainly against it due to countless of reasons. similar to what a close friend of mine said with their own post, there were a lot of good times and a lot of bad times within the fandom, the blog, and other shit thats too fucking tiring and stupid to deal with.
nevertheless, i've always been appreciative and grateful to be able to have this platform to share my writings, to freak the fuck out over our faves, and to have met some amazing friends who i still talk to every single day.
anyway... i have decided to eventually come back within my own time.
things will be slightly different as i've also decided i'm going to take a step back from writing series for a bit, or at least they won't be my main priority for now. this means the neo tech college series will be on hiatus for however long—mainly until i'm ready cos i think having planned such a detailed universe that all links together in one way or another had really got to me, and amongst other things lol.
i'll be focusing on writing fics and prompts instead, and honestly? i'll probably only write for mark for the time being just to get back into the groove and the love i had for this blog. (that doesn't mean i wont ever write for other members as i've got something mini planned that's been in the drafts rotting, it just wont be straight off the bat)
will i be returning right now? no. i'd like to revamp the entire blog first. i want to make it new and improved before i start with anything. i want this to be a fresh start too, which is why i've emptied out my ask box. trust, i've read through the majority of the asks and to see so much love and support even after being inactive for so long has been such a mind blowing feeling.
thank you for your patience and your kindness. i appreciate you, and i'll see you soon.
a tired groan of satisfaction slips past haechan's lips as he sinks down into the warm, bubble-filled water, and the scent of vanilla surrounds him as he leans back against your chest. (he had been persistent that you join him for this little relaxation time, even though you knew the tub was far too small).
his eyes flutter closed as your hands come to rest on his shoulders, your fingers beginning to knead the tense muscles, eliciting soft grunts from him when you press into a particularly tight spot. He seems to struggle to fully relax, his eyebrows knitting together.
“you’re home now,” you remind him softly, pressing a kiss to the back of his head as you feel him sigh. “relax, baby.”
“m’trying,” haechan murmurs, running a wet hand through his hair and sending water droplets scattering across his face. “today was hard.”
you prompt him gently, “what happened?”
haechan speaks in a quiet, weary tone as he begins to explain his day to you. he had to learn new, demanding choreography that left his body aching and trembling, and his throat is sore and scratched from repeated practice of songs.
your hands continue their soothing actions as you listen with a concerned frown, hoping to help him unwind both physically and mentally. his voice cracks when he talks about a small argument he had with his members — some minor disagreement that didn’t deserve to be shouted over and you shush him softly, promising that everything is fine and not to worry too much about it.
“i know how tiring and stressful your schedule can be,” you murmur with sympathy. “but you’re home now–with me. just focus on relaxing for me, okay?”
you shift, your arms wrapping around his chest in a comforting embrace as you press another tender kiss to the back of his head. your fingers offer soothing strokes across his stomach and he leans further into your touch.
“thank you for being here,” he says, voice barely above a whisper.
“always. i’m right here, just relax.”
a small gasp leaves his lips when your hand suddenly comes down to palm at his soft cock, and he bites down hard on his bottom lip, his head resting back against your shoulder as you hum in his ears.
his cock stiffens in your hand and you wrap your fingers around his base, gently squeezing and applying the pressure needed that will help him slump back into relaxation. your thumb traces across his tip and haechan whimpers softly, cursing under his breath as you begin to jerk your hand up and down.
haechan’s moaning against your ear, and his hands move down to grip your thighs beneath the water, parting his legs the best he can in the small tub as he tries to thrust into your hands, but you shake your head softly, reminding him to relax—and to enjoy.
“m’gonna cum,” haechan tells you. “don’t wanna cum like this, please.”
“what do you want?”
“on top—get on top of me.” his words come out as more of a plea and you can’t say no. with some awkward manoeuvring and ear screeching noises of skin rubbing against the porcelain white tub, you find yourself above haechan as he rests his upper body at the head of the tub.
he cards his fingers through his hair again, wetting it up even more as you shuffle upwards, knees resting uncomfortable on either side of his hips—but you didn’t care, this wasn’t about you.
“ah, shit—thank you.” haechan breathes out as you sink down onto his cock, his hands resting at your hips, squeezing the flesh between his fingers. his tongue wettens his bottom lip, and tired, hazy eyes gaze up at you as he helps you move.
the water ripples with each movement of your hips, the bubbles spilling over the edges of the tub. but neither of you care, not right now. all you care about is making haechan feel good—relaxed—and it seems to be working when you feel his body go slack beneath you, struggling to continue thrusting but still helps you move with half-hearted tugs on your waist.
his eyebrows knit together, his mouth opens, and soft pants leave his lips as the pleasure consumes him. one hand remains on your waist while the other slides up, curling around the back of your neck to pull you down, and he presses his mouth to yours.
the kiss isn’t hot and heavy like usual, it’s tender—sweet. and he’s moaning so prettily in your mouth that you can’t help but clamp your gummy walls around him, coaxing him closer and closer to his release.
“cum,” you whisper against his lips. “just let go and cum.”
“i love you,” haechan repeats his affections as his body seizes up, his head resting back against the edge of the tub as he cums deep within, and the lazy roll of your hips help you follow closely behind as you pant against his mouth.
haechan’s hand moves from the back of your neck to touch your cheek, his thumb caressing the skin there as he presses soft, gentle kisses to your lips.
“i love you so much,” haechan echoes from before, pulling away from your lips to gaze into your eyes. “thank you, baby.”
Omg i can’t even imagine that I wouldn’t be the one who give him a head 😫😫😫😫 (btw I love this account) (I’m talking about Johnny)
honestly….. johnny unfortunately doesn’t make the kitty wet. although i can appreciate a good looking man !!
he deserves to get head from you tho anon… treat him well🫂🫂 (also bet he likes that freaky shit… gagging, choking, drool n spit. i saw the rumours !!! )
i wrote a drabble about mark making out with you after not seeing you for a while and he can’t help but smile into the kiss because he’s so dumb in love with you.
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and why is it not in the palm of my hands🤲🤲🤲🤲🤲🤲 please n thanks
as much as i would love to scream yell n cum over this pic… i’ve seen the original where he covered it so it may be fake/edited….. unless someone somehow removed the emoji he added🤨
How are you with responding to messages? Because I’d love to start talking to you but when I’ve messaged you or interacted with you I’ve unfortunately never gotten any response back
truthfully, not great, mainly because im not as active as i used to be anymore (dont get me wrong, i wanna be. just struggling to do so).
it also depends if you've sent an ask too, because all i have at the moment filling my inbox is stuff abt updates and i feel like im constantly repeating myself when i reply to them, which is why i choose the most recent one and reply to that hoping that others who have asked abt updates will see (and eventually get their answer).
Hi!! how have you been? I can’t wait for your fics to come out😭😭 I miss ynfalm!! any updates on thatv
its.. yeah. lol. currently going through a loss so my heads not in the right mindset atm. regarding ynfalm, i havent written any new parts because im planning on rewriting the entire first part (felt as tho my writing style has changed, wanna add new scenes and descriptions n whatnot)
also, the rewriting of ynfalm has been pushed to the side for a moment as im working on something else (for all dream members) so im hoping to get that done before going back to ynfalm, i need the motivation
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