My Life

Makeup, Fashion, Weight Loss, etc.

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It might not seem like much in comparison to where I’m going but I’ve lost seven pounds. That makes me so so happy that I’m working towards something and achieving it. Also I’m working on my mental health and that’s so important. I feel like I’m in a better place and can finally commit to updating more. Anyways glad to be back ♥️

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One day at a time. That’s all anyone can do.

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Eternity isn’t long enough I need forever and a day. Thought love was just a concept until we met. Even when the world is upside down it’s all ok because I’m with you. You’re everything. ❤️

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“Only men need to be loved, sweetheart. Women need to be wanted.”

- Gemma Teller

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I’m growing. Growth hurts. Admitting to your own mistakes or even that you make mistakes hurts. Realizing the things you are doing are wrong, and that there needs to be change hurts. I literally am growing into the young woman I always dreamed I would be one day. Not the things I would accomplish or the material things I would obtain because no one ever ends up exactly as there daydreams. But I’m learning to be at peace. I’m learning to be content with the person I’m becoming and finally coming to terms with the faults in my past. I’m finally understanding that I can’t change the past and its kind of a shame it took this long to come to terms with this. I’m realizing that regardless of the things that took place in my past only I can choose how I let them affect my future. I’m truly at a good place. Dare I say I’m even happy? This is the closest to happiness I’ve been in forever. There’s a few things I can’t touch on because I’m in a process that can be stopped if I discuss things in detail.  I’m going back to the bariatric surgeon. There’s a very substantial part of me that feels like that’s taking an easy way out but in reality its asking for the help I need that I should have sought out a long time ago. Its all about the end game of being healthy which I am not right now. I didn’t want to go back until I was ready to give it 110%. I had some growing to do and admitting to faults on my part and I needed to be ready to give all of my self to my health. And I’m ready to do that now. My doctor is probably going to have something smart to say and I don’t even blame him. But I’m going to prove to him this time will be different. I’m going to prove to myself this time will be different. I really want to start a YouTube for this process but I’m unsure of how to do all that. I feel like my story and personal experiences can help someone else. I don’t know we’ll see. Stay tuned. Things are just getting good.

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The Unbreakable Bond ❤️💏

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What my day was looking like 😏 Need to do my hair over 🙄

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Added a couple new pieces. Still a work in progress!

. Need shelving and more storage space for the rest of my bags and other things.

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Basically 🤷‍♀️

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Watching Sons of Anarchy again breaking my heart all over again 😭😩

Kurt Sutter did an amazing job 👉🏾__ .

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My diary and pen. Pens got a little character 😂 It’s ok just means it’s loved. Trying to get my feelings out more. I’m not the best talker but like Wale said she writes it all down in her diary. 📝❤️

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We’re getting there! I have a lot of ideas of what I want the end to look like! I’m so excited! 😊

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Me and hubby on my P-Day 10/28/2017 ❤️

He’s so handsome 😍

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Where have I been? Oh… here, there, everywhere. So much has happened. Let’s start back at where everything went down hill. My aunt died. My dad lost his last sister destroying him in the process and my mom lost her only “friend”. We were close when I was younger but as you grow up people drift, you spend less time together and though we were distant I still cared about her. I didn’t cry but there’s definitely pain in my heart. I don’t know why I feel like I have to be strong for everyone around me. My cousin had her birthday and her and her sister who were 2/3 of my only “friends” didn’t think enough of me or idk they didn’t invite me out. Idk if they thought I wouldn’t want to come I mean I don’t get out much I’m married and I have kids. When I go out my husband and I are a package deal. Maybe they thought I couldn’t get out. It might seem lame but I would have went and this might seem lamer but that really hurt my feelings. Anytime I decide to have a drink or do something fun I ask them. It’s not the first time something like this happened. I wouldn’t even say it’s the fifth time this has happened and we’re getting older I need stable people around me who are going to build me up. One only called when she needed something and the other would constantly put me down or bombard me with her problems never once asking how I felt. So I dreaded that shxt. Really I went though some stuff and got rid of all my social media just to work on me and my mental health. It’s been about two months since my aunt died and a month and some change I’ve been to myself. I’m feeling better. It’s a day at a time hence the picture. I wasn’t really trying to lose weight just stay alive. Take care of me mentally. Don’t want to go further into that but I’ve been battling depression and anxiety since a child so I’ll let you draw your own conclusions. I lost some weight I’m not sure how much I don’t have a scale here. I had my 27th birthday. Started the process of opening my business. Oh yea I bought a house! My beauty room is almost finished just need to put some more stuff in there like decor furniture odds and ends. I guess that means it’s not almost finished 😂 No but we put the carpet in and my vanity is built so I can chill in there and stuff now. I’ll show a picture when I can walk down the stairs my knee is effed up today. That’s some good news to mix in with all the other bull crap. But basically I feel like I’m ready to take on some new challenges and get back into my grind for trying to lose weight. Im just getting to know my self and take care of me. I’ve basically just been a boss bitch taking care of herself her family and her business. So stay tuned. Since this is my only social media platform I should be more active. I’m glad I came back on here this is therapeutic. I needed someone to talk to. Anyways there’s my update. Taking it all one day at a time. ❤️

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Ooooooh my baby loves 🎶😍❤️

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Hey Yal 👋🏾😊

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My husband always gets us the cutest things 😍❤️