Speak it out loud, instead of living in your head.

This would be a Place where my Thoughts and Feelings are Roaming Free... I was Inspired by vannie-o8-30

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Ito nanaman ako... I already written a blog about him last two months ago pa 😭😭 hindi ko alam bakit hindi siya na post sa profile ko huhu

I even checked my drafts baka dun napunta, pero wala talaga 😞 when I knew that my blog was not saved I tried to rewrite it back. Pero hindi na kasing ganda haha nakakainis... wala nako sa moment hahaha anyway ilang months na nakalipas I try to write it again. Hoping kasing ganda din nung nauna, may iyak moments pako habang nag type ako sa phone tska sa computer ko hahaha 😂😂 ganun ka emotional yung blog ko na yun. Pero wala hindi na save!! Kaya move on na tayo hahaha

Mr John Kevin Gayos pa ang title nun hahaha with emotions ang title hahaha ok lets start ❤️❤️

Well I finally met the one, I think he is the one?? Or dahil sobrang in love nanaman ako na nabubulag nanaman si Ms Denise Marfil... Maybe lahat naman nang love na feel natin ngayon is the one naman talaga lagi, or you have the feeling na you want to spend the rest of your life with your partner?? Diba ganun naman talaga kung bakit ka nakikipag relationship?? But meron but lagi haha, there is that one feeling na talagang sakanya mo lang na feel. Kaya nga meron sinasbi na “the one that got away” or yung parang lost love mo siya 😭 mga ganun. So meron talagang unique feeling na mararamdaman mo sa isang tao. And that is what I feel about him, I love him so much, na nakikita ko na siya yung future ko. I’m not saying na siya na magiging future ko, but in what I feel na I want him to be my future ❤️❤️ kaya masabi ko every relationship is different. Madami nag sasabi na tao sayo, ay in love ka lang, ay bulag ka nanaman pinaka sikat “ay ganyan din naman sinabi mo kay anu” anung bago dun?? Mag hihiwalay din kayo?? YAN NA YAN!! Ang sinasbi nang mga taong walang magawa sa buhay at ingit na nagiging masaya ka sa moment nang love life mo... galit?? Hahaha

Just for my opinion and how I wanted my life to be, Im very expressive on how I feel about love ❤️ maybe its because my parents are separeted. I never wanted to live my life always thinking that no relationship will work or there is no forever. Napansin ko kasi in this time of generation nawawala na yung thinking na we should make things works before giving up. Dami nang negative masyado sa life in a way na hindi pa nang yayari panget na kaagad iniisip.

I wanted to get out of that thinking, kasi I admit na ganun ako mag isip.... I wanted to change and keep may life in a positive way na walang mga doubts sa buhay... iniisip ko na I’m happy right now and I feel this way i know there is nothing wrong on expressing on how you feel in a certain way. Kahit sasabihin nang iba masydo pa maaga to think of that, madami nag sasabi sakin na its to early for me to feel this. Eh bakit ba ito sinasabi nang sarili ko hahaha kaya kung sino man makakabasa nito, alam ko dami tumatakbo sa isip niyo positive or negative well that is your opinion. I respect yours so just respect my opinion also 🙂🙂 maybe this entry will not be about kevin nalang hahaha kasi medjo napalayo na yung topic. It will just be a starter or parang reminder lang na, be strong in your decisions and be happy with the choice you make 👍🏻 as long as you are not hurting anyone and it is in gods will. GO FOR IT!! 👍🏻👍🏻 alam ko din na gusto din ni God maging masaya ka sa buhay na binigah niya sayo ❤️❤️

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My passion is to achieve things that makes me happy...

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Meeting the one...

I never plan on meeting him at the first place. I was in the stage of dating anyone and who ever I wanted to date, maybe I just got tired of the way I lived my whole life being so conservative. Wala naman masama maging conservative maybe I was to scared of the fact of meeting different kinds of person. Kasi takot ako ma judge nang mga tao... sasabihin nila na malandi ka or kung kanino ka lang sumasama. And thats because of the culture that my family or even other filipino family has already practice. Like date only few people, wag masydo mag paligaw, bawal holding hands, bawal mag isa lang kayo mag kasama sa mall... etc....

Sa isip ko there were a lot of boundaries in which you will know the person more. Diba?? How can you truly know the person kung hindi kayo mag date?? Sabi sakin before, you only date daw the person you are in a relationship with?? Pag sumama kana daw sa isang tao ibig sabihin gusto mo na or kayo na??!! Hala?? Ganun pala yun? Well I really got fed up on how I think about this things. I went out my comfort zone, I dated people, met new people. At nakakatawa... and it was fun... because you can see each person has a different way on showing their feelings to you... at dun ko din nalaman na kung anu talaga ang gusto ko sa tao.

Meron mahilig sa salad dahil maganda daw sa skin, and na realize ko sa end nang date namin parang may mali dun ah?? Hahahaha mas mahilig siya sa salad kesa sakin (good for the skin daw no judgement kung salad gusto niya pero tama nga yung na feel ko). Meron naman lahat order niya at the end I have to pay the bill?? Hahaha yung iba perfect date but the last part was he just sent me home by getting me a cab, hindi man lang ako sinamahan pauwi I think it was already around 11pm hahaha. 🤣🤣🤣 iba naman ginawa ako panakip butas to make them forget there past relationships. I know that was his first intentions, well I wasn’t into something serious so I went along and enjoyed his company. Ang dami talaga... but sa lahat naman, Im not judging anyone, Im just sharing the experience I have tried during the time I was dating. It was fun and they were all nice naman, hindi lang talaga kami nag click.

Then there was this one person who I met at my work place. Ordinary day doing a cage transaction, then my kumakaway sakin. Hi daw??? Nasaisip ko sino siya hala hindi ko siya kilala. Nag hi nalang ako ulit. And he noticed that I couldn’t remember him, parang nalungkot siya hindi ko na daw sila kilala at matandaan (medjo pahiya siya sa kasama niya nun) I just smiled and replied na hindi kita maalala sorry, sino kaba hahahaha

Roommate pala siya ni jimpy na ka department ko. I really can’t remember na pinakilala pala sakin yun. Hindi ko naalala kasi ganun talaga ako... i forget things that doesnt really gets my attention. Or that time hindi naman siya talaga ka pansin pansin talaga (kunyari pako kakalimutin lang ako haha). Sorry kung binabasa mo toh... alam mo naman yun... at alam niya naman.

Well I never knew that person would be the one that I always imagined my self spending the rest of my life with... ewan ko ba bakit ganun.... it just took me like three weeks siguro to fall in love with him... but I never wanted to commit my self in a relationship that time. But it just happened its weird kasi pag tumatagal yung relationship or pangliligaw sakin. At the end hindi takaga nag work out. But for him within a month I already wanted to say yes to him para kami na hahaha

Pero sympre pag ka conservative ko parin is still there, I wanted the courtship to last for more that a month. Pero talo ako... i really like him already... ayun within a month naging kami na...

I met the one....

I met John Kevin Gayos....

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Reminiscing the past

January 21, 2018

Suprisingly I decided to open my tumblr account again. I wasn’t planning anymore to open this account, but last night made me check on my self on google sa sobrang bored and I had a hard time sleeping, then results of my social media appeared. My flickr nga pala ako, and I can’t believe that I took those pictures, created those designs in my flickr page. Sobrang na gandahan ako sa mga naka upload, hindi naman sobrang ganda. Para sakin like I can’t believe that I can make those things.

Then I remembered na may tumblr pala ako, that I used before as my journal. So I tried checking it out again. I had troubled accessing it, since its been a year from my last entry that I remembered using tumblr as my journal. Hinanap ko pa yung files ko baka nasulat ko man lang. ayun buti lagi ako nagbtake down nang notes.

Its very surprising na ang last entry is when I was in resorts world, and trying to apply for Philippine Airlines... ang tagal na....

Like I said two years has passed since I opened tumblr. When I was reading it, that big smile won’t go away. Well a lot has happened in two years.... I don’t even know how to start or where to start?! My journals was almost all about my career and lovelife, and everything has already changed. Realizing now that things need time to develop or to grow. It will be yours if you truly will it or want it. Letting things go and moving on makes you find something better in life. If you fail in something its not the end of the world... trust me.... if you had a bad relationship before don’t feel bad and think that no one can love you again. Hindi pala.... you will see that there is a person who can give you the feeling of love without doubts and fears.... trust me on this again.... because in the span of four or five years, believeing in thw work of God and being strong for yourself....

I’m now a Flight Attendant of Philippines Airlines, and found the person that I felt the unconditional love that never gave me doubts and fears of being together.....

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Going for my Dream Job again, I think it’s time to try again... There is no harm in trying, that’s the step I took in getting in Resorts World. I didn’t applied for a VIP Host, but for the position dealer. I really wasn’t interested in being a dealer, but I was so desperate in having a Job that time. Then I realized to just try it out, maybe this was the Job for me. Then suddenly VIP host was recommended to me. The Job description seemed more interesting to me; so I took the Job offer. 8 months later here I’am VIP host; Front liners of Resort World Manila. I don’t regret in applying at RW, but in some point you will realize this kind of Job is something you don’t want to do forever. Right now I was forcefully assigned inside the office; without asking me if I wanted to be in that position. It was never in my contract that there will be office work where you do your Superiors work. While they roam around, chat with others, surf the net, text and many more. It’s almost a week I have been assigned as a reporting team, they buddied me for 4 days then suddenly left me alone on my 5th day. It was so stressful.... They expect me to learn this things in a few days...

I can do the Job, but please give me a month to learn this things. Being a VIP host took as more then a Month to learn all those things. Even up to now we still don’t know everything, everyday is a learning process for us. Ever since they assigned me in the office, I felt really unhappy... and the way they handled the situation on how they assigned me there is really unfair. They told me I have no right to choose on what Job they assigned me to do... I understand that concept of working in a company, that I’m paid to work... But this was never in the contract.... It is just an agreement inside the office to have the reporting team...

ughhhh... I’m complaining again... :( I don’t really like the feeling of myself complaining always.. It’s really not healthy on my part. My only way to save myself in complaining and doing it in a professional way is to find a Job that I’m Happy with.... I really feel sorry, on how I react to the situation... It’s just something that is not right that I feel everyday when I go to work....

Maybe this is God’s plan... I should just trust him in what he wants me to be... I know it might not want I want, but maybe its for the better...

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Starting 2016! I Gotta be honest, this would be the saddest way my year had started. Being away from my family, greeting them on social media or making a call to be able to feel its Christmas and New Year. It’s just part of life and growing up, we don’t get to do what we really want sometimes and needs to sacrifice things to go on with life. Working in a Casino is a hard thing, especially knowing most of the unhealthy elements are there. Working in Resorts world Manila is one of the best thing that happened to me. Been working there for almost 8 months, 8 months of being apart from my sister. What more if I have applied abroad... It would be the greatest challenge that I would take in.

Right now I just got assigned inside our operations, I’ll be doing more reports then assisting guest. Worst part is doing my Bosses works... Which more of them will get the credit then me. I don’t know why I was chosen to be in the office rather then the others. To make me realize how life is unfair?? or something more? I just pray to God that I can handle this new challenge and I believe in his plans for me. There are reasons for this things, and I know its for the better... I just wish to be able to bare the pressure and attitudes of the boss since everyday I’ll be with them doing their dirty works.

I want to stay in resorts world for 1 year, hoping I can hold on to that only 4 months to go..... 

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Wow! Just read my last blog... About Him pala... it's been 2 months since our break up. I have to admit, i'm still angry at nanghinayang sa nang yari samin. But if someone would ask me, if Given the chance to be together again. Hindi ko alam bakit kaya ko nang sabihin na ayoko na talaga... I just got tired of all the things that had happened between us. Totoo pala talaga yung napapagod din ang tao, pag sobra sobra na yung ginagawa sa kanila. Right now hindi ko parin alam kung totally move on nako?? Oo move on nako na ayoko na sa kanya talaga. Pero may inis lang ako nararamdaman, pag naalala ko yung ginawa niya. Hay..... Gusto ko na toh mawala.... Ayoko nang mag isip nang ganito about sa kanya. Konti nalang siguro, I should just give time to myself para makalimot nang galit sa kanya.

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Siguro ok na yung masabi ko na lahat dito sa blog or kung hindi man, nasulat ko na sa journal ko yun. Nakasawa na talaga ulit ulitin at isipin pa mga pinag gagawa mo... hahaha hayaan ko na, goodluck sa pag hanap nang babae na pwede mong takutin at pag kuriputan. In short martyr na babae! Goodluck! Ok nako dahil naka alis ako.Dahil sobrang napagod nako, pero siguro kung minahal mo ko nang tama at inalagaan.Hindi kita iiwan... Pero hindi eh...

Sorry kung galit at bitterness nandito, nalabas ko na kasi yung lungkot at sakit nung nakaraang araw. Iba na yung na feel ko, at nailabas ko na lahat...

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April 6, 2015 Yuri disappeared in my Life... Nakagulat nung time na yun. Hindi ako nakapag blog kaagad, but still I was able to write in my Journal. Hindi ko na masyado ma express yung na feel ko ngayon kasi almost 4 weeks na kami break. Right now ok nako and I’m beginning to feel numb about the pain. Napagod na talaga ako, honestly... When it was over between us, a big relief ang naramdaman ko. Nawala yung mga iniisip ko na dapat ganito, dapat ganayn, si yuri ba ganito paba.... As in nawala yung mga worries ko at iniisip ko. By the time na break na kami, sobrang dami ko na realize sobrang unfair nang relationship namin. Nabulag lang ako dahil mahal na mahal ko siya... pero nung once nawala na at nang give up na yung mind and heart ko sa kanya. I see everything clearly.... Admit ko na sobra minahal ko si yuri... kita naman sa iba kong blog na masaya ako... Pero deep down nag iisip ako nun, kasi hindi niya nabibigay yung full effort. One of the big reason of our break up, is the effort.. Sobrang nawalan na siya nang effort, sa blog ko ang pinaka last na alis namin or date is Valentines day. Before pa nun hindi na kami lumalabas, I wasn’t complaining but I kept telling him about the issue. Pero sasabihin niya wala siya pera. Intindihin ko daw siya??

Sa buong relationship namin... puro ganun nalang intindihin mo ko dahil wala ako pera. nakainins lang never siya bumawi.. mas lalong bumaba at nawalan nang effort nung tumagal?? Grabe lang parang nakita niya na pumapayag ako sa ganun, sinamantala naman niya... Pero may pang EK siya at sleepover with friends... Tapos sakin may curfew?? nakagulat lang... Lalaki siya tapos ganun...

Hindi ko na ma explain lahat dito sa Blog ko... pero yun masasabi ko na unfair talaga. Ang sakit maniwala na ganun ugali niya... Tapos malalaman ko nung nililigawan niya pala ako, may kasabay pala ako nun?? MAY NILILIGAWAN KA RIN PALANG IBA!!! FAITHFUL PA MUKA MO!!!! Nung narining ko wala na sakin eh. Parang ANG KAPAL LANG NANG MUKA!!!!

Buti na din nalaman ko yun, kasi mas dumali lang ang pag move on ko... Mas nakita ko ang ugali mo nung nag break tayo. TAMA LANG TALAGA DECISION KO!!! Nung una medjo nag iisip ako mali ba?? Ngayon hindi na! TAMA DECISION KO!!! Saka wala ako regrets dahil naging fair ako sayo...

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“Her Innocence”

Medium: Color Pencil and Water Color

I love my pet dog ellie, more like a baby for me :) They way she looks at me is always amazing, And likes to say a lot of things but can’t hahaha cause she’s a dog. But she is very special she always made the house lively then before. She was my company everytime I’m alone.

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One whole day of not speaking to each other. I didn’t mind, I wanted some time alone to think and relax about the situation I’m going through. If I would talk to him, anger is only at my mind. It was hard to pretend that I’m already ok after our fight last night. I hate faking things to make it good to others, just not my thing. If I would able to fake it, maybe just for a while. But wait for just the right moment I couldn’t take it. It’s like a tiny darkness eating you up inside.

I was able to draw again :) and I was satisfied about my work. It felt like all my problems went out when I was drawing that time. The picture that I drew didn’t really relate to antyhing that I’m going through hahaha. But I just felt like doing it... It was amazing in what I can do with this hands. The best part is I never really saw myself doing an artwork that was so beautiful. Maybe I wasn't that confident about my art skills. But right now I’m happy of what I did yesterday :)

I don’t know maybe it was God’s Sign that I should draw?? Because I was about to do my routine that time. Watching T.V, Cleaning the house and playing video games. And after all of this is done, I cry thinking about my Job hunt progress, and thinking I’m still jobless.

But that time the powers went out so there’s nothing I can do, I can’t even cook for my food because we were using an electric stove. I just thought of it I should draw :) then everything was perfect that time. Maybe it was a little hot that time, its summer time and no electirc fans to cool down the heat.

I lifted the blinds to let light come in the room and prepared my art materials. Then it just happens... All of my worries disappeared all of it! I just forgot about it. I don’t know how he does it but he did. He helped me again :) My sleeping habits are still adjusting just needs a little more time to work on it. But I know eventually everything will turn out fine.....

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We had a fight last night, this past few days hindi tayo nakapg usap nang maayos. I wanted to isolate myself from anyone muna, kay mama nga ayaw ko minsan makipag usap. kasi nga nalulungkot ako tapos parang wala din ako sa mood. Wala pa kong tamang tulog since last week, pag pumipikit nako pag gabi. Dami ko naalala, lalo na yungsa work... Ok na naman ako, sympre pag naalala mo nalungkot ka kahit papano. Hanggang sa na pupuyat nako, kaya pag umaga sobrang haba nang tulog ko. Late ka din gumising hapon kana gigising mga 3:00 or 4:00 ako naman tulog nun. Tapos pag nagising pako mainit ulo ko dahil ayoko makipag usap minsan.

Yesterday I didn’t have a good sleep, so I woke up very early and did a lot of house chores, to get tired at night and able to sleep well. I also I haven’t eaten a lot. Nag drop yung appetite ko tapos ayoko mag luto.. Pero yesterday I tried to fix myself up, ang chat nako sayo pero tulog ka parin. SO nung hapon I got really tired na, Ikaw naman yung nagising hindi ko expected na sobrang haba nang sleep ko. Umabot nang 2:00am!! Pagkita ko nag message kana parang nainis ka nga kasi alam mong tulog nanaman ako.

I said sorry to you... hindi ko pa kasi talaga maayos tulog ko, nag adjust pako. Ayun ok nanaman tayo. Nagtaka lang ako puro work yung sinasabi mo sakin. Ayoko nga muna isipin yun kasi I’m still recovering ang fixing myslef up. Alam ko last week pa toh, pero inaayos ko pa sarili ko. Ayoko na muna mag kwento sa iba about sa career life ko. Nagulat ako sayo?? Dami niyang offer na work, tapos lahat nang interview ko tinatannong. Dapat mag pataba daw ako kaya hindi ako nakuha sa airline. Yung pag sagot ko daw sa interview mali!! alam ko naman talaga mali yung sa interview ko sa PAL. Pero nakakainis lang pinapaalala niya pa!! AYoko na nga eh! Parang fault ko pa.... Nakakainis lang kasi kung makapag salita siya. Samantalang nung nilalakad ko yun, ayaw niya!

Ayaw niya ako mag work sa airlines kasi delikado daw, dead end career, may ebola, mga piloto daw liligawan ako??? Parang hindi niya laman maisip na gusto ko toh. Dream Job ko tapos sasabihin niya mga ganun!!! Parang unfair lang.... Sympre nagalit ako! akala mo kasi porket pinalaki ka nang parents mo about sa business world. ALAM MO NA LAHAT!!! kung makapag salita kasi siya sakin yesterday. Parang hindi kasi ako qualified sa job or something. Hindi niya naisip yung pinagdaanana ko!! Compare niya pako sakanya.... Samatalang kasi siya hindi naman siya nag apply sa iba ilan lang pinuntahan niya. Tapos kunting may makita siya hindi maganda aalis na kaagad. BASTA NAIINIS AKO!!!

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Hay... Nadepress nanaman ako bigla :( Sabi na nga ayoko nang tumawag sa PAL. Alam ko naman hindi talaga ako pumasa, pero pinilit ako ni mama tumawag para lang make sure... Ok lang naman, pero nalungkot nanaman ako ulit. Nanghihinayang ako sa oras at effort na ginawa ko. Pwede pa naman ako ulit mag apply after 1 year pa. But still I wanted it so bad... :( Dream Job ko talaga... Mukang hindi ko pa siya makukuha as first job. I trust God whatever his plans for me... Alam ko may ibig sabihin lahat nang ito.. :(

Be strong lang Denise... Tayo lang ulit ha.... lilipas din toh..... 

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It was so hard lying and pretending about yourself... For the past couple of months applying.. Dapat lie ang sasabihin mo para magustuhan ka... Nahirapan ako, well I did lie. But at the end of the day, I ask my self Are you happt Denise?? Hindi.... I know it’s been a year I still have’t found a job. Ayoko din gawin na mag apply lang ako sa work na toh for the skae na may trabaho ako. AYOKO!!! Gusto ko masaya ako sa work ko at tatagal ako, kahit sabihin na for experience lang naman eh. Still!! I want every experience to be worth it... Masabi lang na may work... cgro kung ganun mentality ko, may work nako.

Pero nasan ako nun?? Nasa comapny na bahay lang?? Walang SSS, Philhealth, Pagibig at ibang important documents na kaylangn sa work?? Work na yung sahod mo sobrang baba?? na hindi siya sapat sa work na ginagawa mo para sa kanila?? Work na hindi ka magiging regular dahil contractual ka lang?? 

Em I being to choosy... na dapat mag settle na muna ako sa ganun?? para makapunta ako sa maganda?? ganun ba yun?? Ayoko mag kamali sa work na mapupuntahan ko. Dahil time and effort ang binibigay ko dito, I want to make sure that my time and effort ay hindi mababaliwala nang ganun ganun lang.

Right now I’m so amaze at people who can lie about there self?? Kasi kaya nilang tiisin na mag sinungaling kung anu talaga sila at kung anu ang gusto nila. Lalo na sa gusto nila, na titiis nila mag stay sa ayaw nila para lang masabi na ay meron akong ganito. Ay matatag ako dahil nag stay ako sa ganito, but they are not happy... Diba dapat happy ka sa ginagawa mo??

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GOD!!! Help me... I’m so lost and confuse about my life.... I tried my best to move on. Actually tanggap ko na hindi ako nakuha sa both airlines that I wanted and prepared for. Last week nilakasan ko loob ko na mag apply na sa ibang work na hindi under nang airlines. I took a career under the course I studied. So ayun nga ang daming opening nun, bigla yung mga company nang friends ko nag hiring. So I applied for Vogue concepts and Stride and Stroke, for Vogue concepts I took the position Graphic Artist. Pero yun nga lang yung friend ko na mention niya nag apply ako sa airlines. So they knew I took a job on airlines saka yun naging priority ko kesa sa Course na kinuha ko.

So I have no choice to tell the truth, kasi wala na alam na nila... Mga company pa naman ngayon gusto nila sila lang focus mo. At pag nalaman naman nila na ang tagal mo naging vacant naman at sabihin mo nag try ka naman din sa ibang company, AYAW DIN NILA!!! Anu kaya yun nu?? ang gulo gulo!! Hindi mo na alam kung anu ba talaga dapat mong sabihin sa interview eh. Kasi kahit anu naman sabihin mo they will judge you and say something negative as always. Talagang siraan nang kapawa tao....

Minsan naisip ko na, kaya ba madaming interview ang pinapapunta ako ni God, ay para makita ko ang klase nang tao... Yung ugali nang mga tao. Kung panu sila mag siraan nang success. Sa dami nang interview na pinuntahan ko, I have seen a lot of different kinds of people. Sobrang magkakaiba at in a way selfish. Kaya pala sa philippines sobrang nag hihirap ang tao. Kasi kesa tulungan ang kapwa sisiraan pa para lang sila umangat... At masabi na high class sila.

Anyway... Ayun nga during the interview in Vogue Concept, na pansin ko lahat nang questions nila about sa airlines. Nag tataka sila bakit yun daw ang gusto ko at ngayon bumabalik ako sa graphic artist. I explain naman both careers are my choice. Parehas gusto ko ma experience, bawal ba na dalawa ang gusto mo?? At ayaw mo din mag stick to one job line ka lang.

My point is... Gusto ko magawa ko lahat nang dream job ko, kahit hindi ko line of course ko siya. Kasi I want to explore and experience everything. Kasi lahat yan may iba’t ibang lessons and experience. Pero sa mga work na pinuntahan ko... Gusto nila ito ka lang ganyan ka lang dapat. How will you enjoy life to the fullest kung mag stick ka ;lang forever sa ganyan....

During the interview, I tried my best to answer everything right. But it seems to them mali na dahil wala eh nag airlines nako. Parang useless lang daw yung pag apply ko sa airlines at babalik ako sa graphic artist. I don’t think so... kasi may pinag aralan parin ako na four years course about advertising. Hindi naman nawala yung knowledge ko about that nung pumasok ako sa airlines eh.

Proud to say ako, may natutunan parin ako kahit papanu. Hindi lang ako nag stick to one career. Kasi sa experience ka totally ma ka gain nang knowledge, so what I did I applied to different careers. Kung pwede lang sabihin kayo na try niyo ba mag apply nang ibang work na hindi related sa course mo?? at nakapasok ka dun??

Ako Proud nako sa sarili ko kahit papanu, kasi hindi ko naman course pero nilakasan ko loob ko para mag apply dun. Even though I don’t have the same degree that the job requires. Kasi nga I’m willing to learn everything.... Passion ko ma achieve yung mga bagay namakapag pasaya sakin.

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A Mothers Love is all that I need

Denise Marfil

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In my time of depression, I saw the other side of Yuri :) I knew and felt that he really loves me and care for me. Proud ako na siya naging boyfriend ko and first love.. Happy ako na siya yung pinili ko.. Yesterday hindi naman talaga siya pupunta kasi nga aalis sila nang mom niya. I understand him not be able to come visit me. Pero sobrang lungkot ko nun, chinat ko lang siya na ang sakit sa feeling nung nang yari sa application ko. At hindi ko matanggap yung dahilan nang company and agency. Natulog na nga lang ako nun, para at least hindi ko maisip.

Tapos nagulat nalang ako, tumawag siya sa phone ko. Nasa labas siya nang unit. He was there for me and comforted me all day, nakakahiya nga bigla nalang ako umiiyak para lang baliw hahaha :) hug niya lang ako tapos explain niya na marami pako pwedeng applyan at trial lang lahat. Challenges lang toh sa life natin. Siya pa nag luto nang dinner ko... Pinapatawa niya pa ko :)

Alam ko inaaway ko talaga siya minsan at demanding ako sakanya, nakatuwa lang na kahit ganun ako. He accepts me, inaaway niya din ako pero gagawin niya yung best para matamaman yung mali niyang ginagawa. Ewan ko ba kung spoiled lang talaga ako sa lalaki hahaha si Papa kasi na spoiled din kami hihihi. Pero sympre nag iisip din naman ako kung sobra na mga demands ko sakanya. Kung nababasa mo man toh Yuri, Thank you talaga... I love you so much. Kita mo naman tumblr puro ikaw din laman nito hahaha mwaaaa <3