MNL TO BIL

[The Adventures of a Filipino Teenager]

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4 months, and forever to go

Sobrang distracted ako ngayon. May 2 finals pa ako ehh :( So eto na.. magtytype na ko dito para matapos na ang lahat....

Hello, kung di mo ko kilala, ako si Amelia. Di ko tunay na pangalan dahil nakakahiya. Hahahaa.. And it doesn’t matter anyway.

Nagtytype ako ngayon kasi may bumabagabag sa kalooban ko. Masikip na siya. Kaya eto na.. para matapos na ang lahat..

Also five months ago, natutunan kong magmahal sa isang taong di ko aakalain na dumating sa buhay ko.

Pare, masarap ang feeling na yun. Yung feeling mo siya na talaga.. (AT Sana siya nga)

I felt I won the lottery kasi nga naman mabuti siyang tao, matalino, may prinsipyo sa buhay, realistic. Dati noon, hindi yan ang hinahanap ko..

Dati, kesyo may glasses na, at valedictorian sa school. Oks na. Magugustuhan ko yung glasses for almost 6 years. Pero ngayon... iba ehh..

First love? Walang siguru-siguro. Siya nga ang first love ko.

Ang problema? Bumalik sa bansa niya after 1 week ng pagsasama namin.

Masakit syempre. Iniyakan ko ng iniyakan. Pero kahit na ganoon pa man, pinaramdam niya sa akin na mahal na mahal niya ako. Aba! Pinadalhan ba naman ako ng chocolates, tea, at yung mug niya na galing sa bansa niya. Theme pa nga nung mug ay love, at binigay daw yung ng parents sa kanya. Mahal din ang pagpapadala nun. Halos 1/4 ng rent niya ang halaga nun. 

Mahal ko rin siya sobra. Kahit na minsan may mga pagkakaiba kami, o kaya hindi pagkakaunawaan, sa huli, nagbabati kami at hindi na nauulit yung mga pagkakamali na yun.

Pare, gustung-gusto ko na siya makasama pero kailangan ko maghintay ng isa pang taon pag babalik siya. Madali lang yun kasi .. para sa akin mabilis ang 2 years. 

Kanina lang sinabi niya sa akin na iniimagine niya ako na nakatira sa bahay niya, at kung ano daw yung ginagawa ko dun. Aww. Sana nga magkatotoo.

Pero nasa environment ako na kung saan ang mga tao dito, dinadaan lang ang relationship. Yung isa nga akala ko may boyfriend dati ngayon, may bagong boyfriend ulit pagkatapos ng 2 months. Yung isa naman papalit-palit. OMG NAKAKAINIS KASI AKO NANINIWALA AKO NA SYA NA TALAGA. 

Nakakatakot minsan kasi naiisip ko na paano kung di na kami talo. kung wala na yung forever na nasa isip ko. Nakakatakot lalo na’t wala siya sa tabi ko. Hindi sa dahil wala akong trust sa kanya na hindi sya mambabae, kung di dahil baka sumuko na siya. Ayoko. Ayoko. Ayoko.

PUTANGINA pa ‘to. May mga taong nagsasabi sa akin na hindi daw maglalast ang unang relationship. BAKIT MO YUN SASABIHIN SA AKIN? PUTA. Hindi mo ba alam ang nararamdaman ko, at ang nararamdaman niya.

Mahal na mahal ko siya. PUTANG INA WAG MO KO TAKUTIN. 

Pero pare, nanalo ako sa lotto. One in million chances. At eto nanalo ako.

Napakabait niya, practical, realistic sa buhay, matalino na yung tipong yung mga pag-uusapan n’yo sobrang lalim, ang ngiti niya, yung jokes niya na minsan corny, at ang pagiging genuine niya. HONEST. Eto ang kailangan ko..

At syempre bonus ang kagwapuhan niya. 

Alam mo habang tinatype ko ‘to. Naisip ko na yung mga taong nagsabi sa akin, baka iba ang experience nila. Baka nga di sila nag-work out. Pero kasi... di nila alam ang relationship namin ng mahal ko. Wala silang alam na ang unang nakikita ko sa araw-araw ay siya. Na ang huling taong nakikita niya bago siya matulog ay ako. Na kahit minsan busangot ang mukha ko, hinahalikan pa rin niya ang telepono niya (na parang hinahalikan ako). Na meron kaming pagsasamahan na walang katulad. Na minsan kahit magkaiba kami ng relihiyon, siya pa nga ang nagpapatatag ng panata ko sa Diyos. Na siya ang kumakanta ng Tagalog kahit hindi niya lenggwahe yun. Na minsan nag-sosorry agad at nag-uusap ng masinsinan kapag nag-away kami. Na etong tao na ito ang dahilan na naniniwala ako sa pag-ibig kahit yung mga magulang ko ang dahilan ng pagbigay sa akin ng maling konsepto ng pag-ibig. Na nagbigayan kami ng oras para sa isa’t-isa (3-6 hours) kahit na minsan may gagawin pa kaming mga homework. Na sa 24 oras, siya ang tumatakbo sa isip ko. Hahaha. Oo nga pala. Nagpick-up line sa tagalog na hindi pa daw ako napapagod sa kakatakbo sa isip niya. Hahaha.

So sa lahat ng taong nagsasabi  sa akin na walang forever.

Eto na ang sagot ko:

“Hindi n’yo pa kasi nahahanap.”

Nahanap ko na. At mamahalin ko siya ng buong-buo. Ang kapangitan at kagwapuhan niya sa isip, salita at gawa. Mamahalin ko siya kahit galit ako sa kanya o kaya naman pag hindi ko nakakausap. 

Hihintayin kita, kulta. Wag ka mag-alala hindi ako susuko para sa akin, sa’yo at sa ating dalawa. 

Sana ikaw din.

Kasi sa simula pa lang, nanalo na ako nung nakilala kita.

[msdreamfollower]

Why?

I have always been a critic of romantic relationships. I guess I just hate the fact that people have to know each other and then if they don’t like each other, they would bicker about it and leave.

THE IDEA OF GETTING TO KNOW SOMEONE WHO IS A POTENTIAL PARTNER FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE IS SCARY.

One idea I have in mind was arranged marriage. You know, you just marry because you have to merge companies or your parents just picked it for you. After all, your parents do know you well that they will pick a right match for you. Also, if you are not attracted to that person instantly, it’s easy to learn to love them. (you’ll say.. WHAAATT? Amelia, how is that possible?) It’s being able to understand them fully. You may not be attracted physically, but you will able to appreciate what they do.

[All of these things that you’ve been just now were my childish thoughts.] 

I ask myself sometimes... Am I really scared to love?

Yes and No.

Yes, because it just takes a lot of effort to go out there and explore. Again, THE IDEA OF GETTING TO KNOW SOMEONE WHO IS A POTENTIAL PARTNER FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE IS SCARY! Also, YOU ARE BOUND TO WASTE YEARS OF YOUR LIFE TO THIS PERSON IF IT DOESN’T WORK OUT. 

It’s like trying to take care of a little hamster. You have fed it, sheltered it, gave it love and comfort. After that, you became too careless... too careless to leave it by the air conditioner because you thought it was “too warm.” The next morning, you realized the hamster is not moving. You are too foolish and forgetful. You expected that leaving the hamster by the air conditioner will bring the “normality” of the situation. You decided to give the hamster away to some scientific facility for “experiments.”

And then you were scared to have another hamster in your life because of “what-ifs.” What if I fail again? What if I let myself to be too careless? Should I be too careful? You realize that you have just wasted years of taking care of that hamster.

After some thought, you realized you can learn to those mistakes and try again. So you decided to buy another pet and move on because that hamster has thought you so many things that you may apply it to the next pet.

So there was the hamster, for some reason, a “scientist” revived it and decided to name it “Buffy.” Buffy became too afraid because of how she ends up in the experiment facility. She was not performing on the puzzle games very well. She was always sick, and sometimes, she bites the “scientist.” But the scientist knew her too well that he knows her inside and out. He nourished her, gave her the energy to start wheeling, and the confidence she needed in becoming a good hamster. The scientist, out of love, decided to find her a home. 

So he revealed Buffy to the world, the “miracle hamster” as the press said. The hamster that was stone cold dead became the warmest and the most alive pet they have seen. 

Buffy was placed into a hamster shelter where she could meet other hamsters, but Buffy was afraid to the point that she would go to the corner and not do anything. She looked at the scientist’s eyes and asked the scientist, “Why? Why would you gave me away? I am comfortable living with you.”

The “scientist” saw the worried looks in her eyes. His reply was, “You have a purpose of giving comfort and love to another person. Do not be afraid for I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Buffy gave in for she knows the “scientist” was right.

On that same day, a boy went into the hamster shelter and looked out for a pet and he saw Buffy. 

Buffy gave herself to the little boy.

Oh... going back to the question.

No, because I was Buffy.

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365 - Day 53 “How To”

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This phrase is so wrong it hurts.

Let’s clear up a few things. Then we can get back to pictures of galaxies far, far away.

The three most commonly consumed drugs in the world are caffeine, alcohol and tobacco. Just because something is socially acceptable and widely available, that doesn’t mean...

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Listen to Lesley McSpadden, the mother of Michael Brown, and remember her son for who he really was. Remember Michael Brown and remember all the other black lives lost to police brutality and an unjust system. 

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the soil is dry

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Too much water.

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I wanna be Donna when I grow up.

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Screaming female Siberian tiger (by Tambako the Jaguar)

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Street Cat

by - Patrick  (pat-oh-rick.tumblr.com)

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[msdreamfollower]

Waiting....

Today, I'm waiting for something...

Some event that I would like to see...

Her debut party....

Oh yeah... It's already 5 am and I think it's 7 pm in the Philippines. It starts at 5 pm and I guess I might too impatient. I don't know.

This post won't make any sense because she might call me on Skype.

Any minute now.........

Hmm..I guess for another 5 minutes? That's okay I could wait.

I don't like to wait for hours in the middle of the night.....

But I'm considerate.

She might be very busy today... Entertaining guests.. Listening to speeches... Dancing with someone...

Though, I thought she would call me because that was the promise.

But that's okay. 

I can wait.

[msdreamfollower]

MNL TO BIL turned 1 today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

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Let It Go sheet music!

You are welcome :D

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THANK YOU

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THANK YOU.

THANK YOU BLESS YOU THANK YOU BLESS

*WHIPS OUT FLUTE*

*CRAZED LAUGHTER*

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Frozen is just ASFGHLKJLHAKHKD!!!

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[msdreamfollower]

It's funny that once upon a time you fell in love with him and he became terrible to you. 

He abused your kindness.

[I spent hours printing his application for his TOSM ,but he didn't invite me to the awarding ceremony.]

He wasn't there when you need help.

[When I was a sophomore, I needed a partner for a P.E. presentation. I asked him, but he rejected me (and told my other classmates that he rejected me.) Then, I looked like an idiot dancing by myself. ]

He betrayed you.

[He didn't keep every single secret I told him.]

He doesn't trust you.

[I was his best friend,but he didn't tell me his secret. He even gave a complicated puzzle. (And later on, he said that there is no answer in that puzzle.)]

But you still loved him anyway.

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