Soul Contracted

[msry33]

Idk, he did all that he could. I was the problem. Everything is so chaotic now and so, I loose again. Anger is an understatement. Everything I fought for was naive. Everything I pledged for was a desire to understand. I guess I just can’t be appreciated. He’s right, I reek of failure. I thought I was fine but there’s a part of me that doesn’t stop fighting. I try to protect the parts of me that care. But when I do, I’m wrong. So I get angry and no one cares that I do. No one cares that I’m angry. I’ll just be here. Molded to everyone’s favor.

[msry33]

I craved this world deeper because you showed me things I felt deeply connected too.

[msry33]

Hate. Death isn’t a savior. It never stops.

[msry33]

You may feel differently about me. How can you not? I’m struggling. But I don’t want to blame. I hope you heal from the things that bother you too

[msry33]

I like to smoke my cig on the way to work

My baby said it’s not good for my endurance

I’m smile pull out the blunt while im reversing

Rear-viewed my pain cuz I’m still hurting

What is there left to say

The shade is hurting me

What is there left to say

Do you really think I’m okay

I know you wouldn’t dare to say

That you feel the pain

Feel the same way

[msry33]

[msry33]

Maybe I just wasn’t what you thought I was.

[msry33]

[msry33]

I was fighting a lot. And I know you were too.

I was fighting for a lot. And I know you were too.

[msry33]

[msry33]

How does someone adore your intellect but despise your perspective?

[msry33]

In this toxic world I realized you had a heart, just not for me.

[msry33]

Far away 🩵

[msry33]

9/27/24

[msry33]

What’s wrong with me? Ugly inside and out. I joke at the kindness in my heart. Because if it’s meant to be it’ll be. What’s wrong with me.

[msry33]

[msry33]

I got to carry a boy. A real one. I got to feel his heart. Beating to keeping him alive, to keep him going. To keep the boy from falling. The boy that has and gave love. The boy.

A boy.