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(semi hiatus 8/4/15-1/15/16) tori, 17, los angeles i write sad things and yell about life; an amalgamation of fandom

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An (extremely) Overdue Overview of Senior Year

Or, this is the end in more ways than one.

For starters, most of you probably don’t remember who I am. I apologize - I haven’t been active at all. This marks the first time I am logging in and posting in... months? Almost a year? God. That’s a long time for a break.

Well first things first: I am in college now. I am attending Cornell University (past Tori, you did it) and I’m halfway through my first semester of freshman year. It’s been a struggle, but you know, things are really good; I have great friends, I like my classes for the most part, and I have things nearly figured out. (Well. Nearly.)

That being said, I never updated you guys on how senior year went. And so here goes nothing.

1. Straight A’s first semester, typical. Straight B’s second semester, eh....senioritis? Haha, shoot, that was such a downgrade, even Cornell noticed (wink.)

2. I have so many great memories with and of my friends that I was sad to leave the possibility of more. Just to name a few: a very sunny week in San Diego, an impassioned Bernie rally that left me excited for change, beach days on end, the city at my fingertips, night drives almost every night that would go on and on, fueled by coffee and good music and the best of conversations, a parking lot smattered with my laughter and my tears. I miss California, I miss the people there, I ache for home but...

3. ...I had to grow up a little bit. Leave. Stretch my wings and test my abilities to do more. So I did. With a heavy heart and little bit of apprehension, I chose Cornell over UCLA. And here I am.

4. I cried at graduation. A lot. A whole fucking lot. Then, I got drunk out of mind and got high at the same time. Then I cried even more, months later, when I said goodbye to my best friends, to my good friends, to my teachers, to my parents. 

You know, I don’t have much to say, honestly. 

So I am posting this as a goodbye note, because I think I have outgrown this website a little bit. 

Thanks for everything, Tumblr. For the growth. For the experience. For everything, truly.

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Paris turned out the lights as a sign of mourning, but the rest of the world lit them again.

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part 1: senior year, minus the stress 

i regret that this is the year i started to get closer to a lot more people -- but here is to year of only acceptance letters, good parties, good grades, and more memories to look back upon

(ps: I CANNOT WAIT FOR WINTER BREAK BECAUSE MY FRIEND HAS AN OPEN PAD THE ENTIRE 3 WEEKS CAN I SAY BLESS)

[fuckyeahselenita]

Selena Gomez out in Paris, September 28th 2015

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TOP 20 EPISODES OF PARKS AND RECREATION (as voted by my followers) ↮ #13: Pawnee Rangers

“I’ve taught them too well. I’ve created a mob of little Leslie Knope monsters. I’m so proud. And a little annoyed. But mostly proud… 70/30.”

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the weight of college apps and feelings of inadequacy is settling so deep right now that I'm honestly so scared I'm going to end up somewhere i don't want to really go to 

bc to be honest i am applying to uc’s cause in state tuition + high probability of getting in, except i really want to gtfo of california for undergrad and med school and public schools are not my thing

ugh

ugh

am i not as great as i think i am or what

[ofnopesandwhyatts]

Reasons why Parks and Rec deserved an Emmy

- Set in small-town Indiana, still manages to have 40% of it’s ensemble cast be POC, and not one of them is a token either

- 40% of the cast are women. ¾ are POC. All of them are badasses. 

- Every single fucking episode is funny. Seriously. 

- Perd fucking Hapley. I can’t even explain, you just have to watch 

- Pawnee citizens holy hell 

- The flawless political commentary behind the Langman’s and the Male Men 

- The scene in Comeback Kid where Get On Your Feet is playing and they’re all struggling to walk on ice 

- Chris Traeger and his mental illness. They worked it in so that it was comedic, but if it glorified anything, it was asking for help and accepting it. 

- Okay just Chris in general 

- Gary Jerry Larry Terry Gary Gergich Gengurch Gergich 

- Donna, the character who is exactly who she needs to be throughout her life. She acknowledges the need to change her behavior occasionally, but it doesn’t dent her confidence one bit. 

- Ann Meredith Perkins, you beautiful sun-ray nurse. The best friend everyone needs. Quirky and grounded and intelligent. 

- THE FUCKING SAPERSTEINS 

- ESPECIALLY JEAN-RALPHIO 

- Everything Tom Haverford has ever said 

- Ben fucking Wyatt. I can’t even elaborate without crying and combusting. Much better nerd than any weasel from The Big Bang Theory. Feminist. Best Husband Ever. 

- ANYTIME BEN OR LESLIE ARE DRUNK HOLY SHIT 

- Cones of Dunshire and Requiem for a Tuesday 

- FUCKING ICE TOWN 

- April Blart, Mall Cop 

- April’s character development *heart eyes* 

- Andy and April’s love 

- Mouse Rat and hits like The Pit, Catch Your Dream, and - 5000 CANDLES IN THE WIND 

- LIL SEBASTIAN 

- Bert Macklin, FBI 

- Johnny and Johnathan Karate 

- Andy Dwyer, secret genius 

- Ron Swanson, the manliest man to ever man, owner of the world’s best character development, hater of Canada and vegans, beautiful beautiful man 

- Duke fucking Silver 

- I dig your groovy tunes man

- Ben and Leslie’s healthy, realistic, and beautiful relationship 

- Benslie proposal 

- Benslie wedding 

- Ben’s triplets freakout 

- the BOX 

- Amy Poehler plays the most amazing woman to ever grace any screen. Leslie Knope, a socially inept but selfless woman who dedicates her life to public service, her family, and her friends. Deeply flawed main character that wasn’t made lovable by her unfortunate but relatable love of sugar and hatred of vegetables, but instead by her love for others and thoughtfulness and work ethic and optimism. Food habits aside, her character flaws were acknowledged by the writers, her loved ones, and her. No one is an enabler for Leslie Knope’s bad behavior. When she does something shitty, she gets called on it and apologizes. But at the end of the day, hard work and positivity make a difference, and she achieves her dreams. 

- Positivity. The people on this show like each other. They believe in and support each other. They apologize when they’re wrong. They forgive when they’ve been wronged. They go out of their way to make lives better. And it is still funny.

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college is stressing me the FUCK out

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working while taking this many classes and heading this many clubs and organizations is such a PAIN and is utterly exhausting

but $200/wk is so nice doe

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grey’s anatomy meme » (1/10) characters - addison montgomery

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Alfred Enoch - September 2015 Issue No. 84, Bello Magazine

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Bellamy in spacewalker

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