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Canada

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Love is like a keyboard. In order to FN (Function), you have to SHIFT yourself to changes and have CONTROL of your emotions. Do not give everything, or else you’ll end up as an OPTION.

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2017 (II)

January 2016. A magic happened. I fell in love. I thought, this could be it. This could be the happiness I was looking for. Maybe he is the one I could be with for a long time. He wasn’t perfect, just like what I wanted. He’s been through a lot, just like what I’ve been through. Difference is, he was a cancer survivor. I was so thankful I met him. I promised myself I would try to be a perfect girlfriend for him. I would never demand, I would not ask for too much, and that i would give everything as much as I can to make this relationship work. One night we spent outside walking, he had a break down. Seeing how vulnerable he was, and how he opened up himself to me more, my love for him grew even more stronger. 

Everything was perfect. 4 months later passed and things started to change. We weren’t spending time as much as we would like to, due to work schedule conflicts. I knew something was wrong when he started to demand things as he was going through issues. Like what I’ve said, I would do everything as much as I can to make this relationship work. I’d given him my time, my effort, and even help him out in the problems that he was facing. All I even ask for him was to spend time with me, to go out and have some quality time together. What I got from him was a constant “I can’t I have stuff to do” and excuses that would led me to believe that this story would end in a matter of time.

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2017 (I)

When I was a kid, I used to believe in fairytales. In happy endings. Blame it all on the books that I have read or come across to. Even in the movies and such, I believe that there’s a happy ending to everything. Not until my parents separated and I knew from then, all my beliefs were consisted of lies and deception. Despite all of that, I still believe that everything will end as close as to a happy ending. Come 22 years later, I fell in love. I thought, maybe it was my time to set my own happiness and maybe create my own happy ending. I told myself, it didn’t have to be exactly just like in the books or in the movies, or riding in the sunset with my prince and carriage and head to happily ever after. No, I wasn’t looking for that. All that I ever wanted was a story with twists and plots and even some bad guys. Yep, I got the story I wanted. Too many twists and turns, uphill battles and some villains. Although I would say it was mostly consisted of emotions that have been like a rollercoaster. Twice.

to be continued..

[mt0306]

Not everyone is meant to stay in your life forever. Sometimes, they are only there long enough to teach you the lessons that you needed to learn. Sometimes, you just got to accept that some people can only be in your heart, but not in your life. The only people worth keeping in your life are those who want to stay in it and those who make an effort in being a part of it. Never beg someone to stay in your life. Don't force, don't chase, and let go.

People come and go. Keep reminding yourself that. Everything will be okay. Maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, but one day. Remind yourself that things have changed for a reason. People change for a reason. Just let go and move on. Don't be too hard on yourself. It’s not you, it’s them. It’s going to be lonely, for now but things will be better, eventually.

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Dear EX

Time to let go. Wala ng dahilan para ipaglaban pa ang relasyon na wala na ring rason para ipagpatuloy. Pareho lang tayo nagpapahirapan. Constant fightings, tampuhan, kawalan ng oras sa isa't isa. Gustuhin ko man sabihin na mahal pa rin kita, hindi na pwede. Napagod na ako. Pagod na puso ko. Kahit masakit, tatanggapin ko. Alam ko magiging okay ka, I'm sure of that. 3 weeks ka na ngang di nagmemessage eh. I guess you're doing just fine without me. I'll be fine, eventually. It'll take me time pero makakalimot din ako. Salamat sa lahat. Sa 4 na buwan na nagkaroon tayo. Thank you sa 4 months na napasaya mo ako and napa realize mo sa akin about taking risks and fighting for what I want. Kahit na maraming ups and downs, those 4 months are the best. I will forever cherish those memories. It's not a very long time pero it's long enough for me to love you. I love you and always will. But now I have to let you go 💔

[mt0306]

I don’t have to be vengeful…What comes around goes around… Karma, both good and bad, is always returned tenfold.

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#movedon

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...and the one who broke my heart the most.

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▶️ the moments ⏸ the memories ⏹ the pain ⏮ the happiness

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Resurfaced Feelings

Ang hirap kasi ng feeling na akala mo hindi mo na siya mahal. Yung akala mo na wala na talaga lahat ng feelings mo at hanggang pagkakaibigan na lang talaga meron kayo. Pero mas mahirap yung bigla na lang babalik lahat pati feelings mo. Bigla-bigla lahat ng memories niyo naaalala mo, tas iisipin mo na lang "Saan ba kami nagkamali?"

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[scinocin-blog]

someday ako naman

ako naman ang sasaya

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Hindi naman kasi dapat iniiyakan yung mga taong sinayang ka.

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Yung nagbigay sayo ng maraming chance, kahit hindi naman dapat. 😪

[clearlysillysalad-deactivated20]

Darating at darating ka sa punto na ikaw na mismo ang bibitaw sa mga ala-ala. Masakit man pero wala ka na rin namang pagpipilian eh. Masaya na siya kung nasaan man siya ngayon at kung sino man ang bagong nagpapasaya sakanya. Pero malalaman mo lang naman na totoong nagmamahal ka kung yung mismong sarili mong kaligayan, kaya mong isuko para sa kaligayahan niya. Yun ba talaga ang tunay na kahulugan ng pag-ibig? Ang magparaya nalang basta basta? Siguro ganun na nga. Kase, kung walang isasakripisyo, marahil ay walang sasaya at matatahimik. Siguro nga pinagtagpo lang talaga kayo, hindi para magsama habang buhay kundi para maging aral sa buhay ng bawat isa.

[fragmentedsimpers]

Basura.

Maiintindihan ko pa sana kung ikaw yung unang nagsabi at hindi ako yung unang lumapit.

Ang pinaka hindi ko kayang tanggapin ay ang pagtanggap mo sa nangyari sa atin na wala talagang nangyari sa simula palang.

Ipinagmukha mo lang sa akin na wala lang sa iyo yung mga panahon na iyon.

Na parang trinato mo ako na parang isang bagay na pinaggamitan sa umpisa at tinapon nalang dahil wala nang halaga para sa iyo.

[mt0306]

...This is why It hurts more. 💔