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“the telephone was pouring blue / and when I hung up on you / I was sick and sad and I wished I had / Just a kiss to bring you over…”

Jamaal May, “Macrophobia” | In the Mood for Love, dir. Wong Kar-Wai | Jeffrey McDaniel, “The Quiet World” | In the Mode for Love, dir. Wong Kar-Wai | Labi Siffre, “Bless the Telephone”

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He remembers those vanished years. In the Mood for Love (2000) dir. Wong Kar-wai

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‏i’m not your free time or your second choice

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antigone (sophocles / trans. anne carson)

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“The research showed that people who felt unwanted as children, and those who did not remember feeling safe with anyone while growing up, did not fully benefit from conventional psychotherapy, presumably because they could not activate old traces of feeling cared for. I could se this in some of my most committed and articulate patients. Despite their hard work in therapy and their share of personal and professional accomplishments, they could not erase the devastating imprints of a mother who was too depressed to notice them or a father who treated them like he wished they’d never been born. It was clear that their lives would change fundamentally only if they could reconstruct these implicit maps. But how? How can we help people become viscerally acquainted with feelings that were lacking early in their lives?”

— Bessel van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score

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Sucker Punch (2011)

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No, I’m the real thing.

PERFECT BLUE (1997) dir. Satoshi Kon

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I sit with my grief. I mother it. I hold its small, hot hand. I don’t say, shhh. I don’t say, it's okay. I wait until it is done having feelings. Then we stand and we go wash the dishes.

-- Callista Buchen, from Taking Care