Muffin's corner

the thoughts and words of a kid who wants to share their mind with the world

[catasters]

[recklesslyinfatuated]

You’ll never convince me that this wasn’t a carefully calculated plan.

[meadow-call]

[catherineandsarahsatrun]

Here are some awe inspiring women for Women’s History Month!

[muffinthedisaster]

If the rooster stopped shrilling into the morning light, would the sun still rise?

If birds stopped their singing, would the world keep spinning?

If the moon went away, would love stop being?

[muppethole-deactivated20240312]

wait are there really new people joining this site. i thought it was a hoax.

[muffinthedisaster]

It's the people who so far read tumblr posts on Pinterest, insta, Twitter and finally decided to join

[homunculus-argument]

My favourite kind of thing in people learning a second or third language is the sliding scale of formality that you never notice before you hear someone using words that aren't wrong, they very consicely describing the matter at hand, but not in a way that a native person would say it.

Like you've just moved somewhere and are having guests over for the first time, and you know your cat is going to be a pushy little shit, and now you have to figure out how to warn people about that. And you know exactly the words you'd use in your own language, but you've never heard them here, so you pick up a dictionary, look up the exact words, learn how to pronounce them, compose the sentence and tweak it until the grammar is perfectly correct, and then memorise it, so you have it prepared.

And then next day you're letting people in and it's been exactly 30 seconds before little Masha is inside someone's purse, hat, shirt, or altogether managing to be in every single person's personal space at the same time, and you take out the sentence you composed: "Pardon, the cat is inevitable."

[muffinthedisaster]

This is golden, and partly why I did my best to watch movies while learning a language lol

[muffinthedisaster]

Sometimes I look at the shit i write and wonder where all this drama came from

[muffinthedisaster]

Nothingness fills me

I am empty, I am no more.

[muffinthedisaster]

I know how your steps sound, i know your knock, i can hear your voice in my head when I think of you, I can recall you smell, your eyes, your face.

But at which point does "to be known" become "to be feared" instead of "to be loved"?

[muffinthedisaster]

My love is quiet

So quiet it feels private

I often wonder why it is so silent,

Do they hear my love?

Do my friends hear it?

I try to riot

Against the quiet

But i can't break it

It's too comfortable, safe...

I just want them to know it

I do love you

But my love is quiet, and from afar...

[muffinthedisaster]

My happiness was vacuumed

My good mood wiped out

My peace is on a thether

And my sanity is hanging on by a hair

I long for wings to take me far

I long for peace and an easy heart

I had them, and i still do

But they're weak and young

And their legs tremble

I keep trying to keep them up

But then they come

Buldozering through my hard work

They put them down.

[muffinthedisaster]

You...

I was lost and then I saw you

I was wandering aimlessly

Aimlessly in the darkness of my thoughts

But you, oh you

My guiding hand, shone through

You brought me clarity,

Wiped away the fog, oh my dear

My thoughts are now sharp

With purpose they are filled

You are the light I follow

But we are both trapped in the dark

Let me help, oh, let me raise you up

Let me be your beacon

Let me be your light

Let me in, let me through

Your thick defenses, your high walls

I won't hurt you, baby

I will nurse your heart, and caress it

Let me love you

Let me show you what love can be

Be my partner and I'll be your light

Be my light and I will keep your fire burning

Stand by me and we will thrive

But if not, then that's all right

Don't feel bad, sweet love of mine

I will still be yours

Even as a friend

My heart belongs to you

My thoughts are filled with your smile

Take these awkward verses and put them somewhere safe

Hide away my feelings

And we will go on as if nothing was amiss

But if you wish, take them to heart

And accept my preposition

Let me be yours, and I will sing and dance and write

Let me be yours, and we shall cuddle into the night

Let me call asleep safely in your arms

And I will cradle your heart and protect your soul

Let me be your one, and I shall give you all I have

Have my soul, have my heart, have my life, have my breath

Have anything you wish

Crush me to pieces

As long as when I go your face is the last I see

[muffinthedisaster]

Loneliness anew

'Tis an odd thing, loneliness

Since it is so felonious

By nature, as it poisons you

Fills your soul and makes you blue

And blue is all you see

You get so used to that view

And when you finally feel fullness too

A sharp pain fills you ,

Your breath like glue

Makes your lungs fill with goo

It takes it as a cue

To fill you with taboo

Anxiety, and Poo

Makes you feel so blue

Once you're lonely anew.

[muffinthedisaster]

A lonely soul, standing under the Moonlight

Looking towards the Moon as I write

Oh she is such a delight!

Clenching my heart so tight,

I am filled with frostbite

As my tears run slowly shining in the twilight.

I am filled with great loneliness, this awful blight!

I am not alone, that is right...

But oh my dear, there's no delight

As my heart is lonely in this Light

And my mind in on a flight.

It must be some oversight!

Being quite the hermaphrodite

One would not expect such a lonely sight!

I should be getting all the light!

Love shouldn't leave my sight!

It should follow me out of spite!

Am I not deserving of companionship?

Am I destined for loneliness?

[muffinthedisaster]

The unexplained yearning that fills me, leaves my heart painfully lonely, and my mind running.

If only I could begin to explain!

How I sit thinking of that feeling.

Trying to grasp its provenience.

But I am still here, thinking, my thoughts without end.

[muffinthedisaster]

I looked at them and my mind started to weave poems.

They are my moon. My light in the dark, my guiding hand. My companion.

I have days when I don't sit by them, and yet they're always on my mind.

I stare at them in wonder. I gaze at their face as their features shift into a wide smile.

My heart is at rest with them. I'm at home. I'm safe. I'm loved.

[muffinthedisaster]

And I told him he's my sun. He asked what I meant so I explained:

"You make me feel warm and cozy, you caress my soul, but at times irritate me, I couldn't live without you, and yet sometimes I can't stand you. I love you, you're my life source, my happiness, but you're so strong you sometimes make me feel the need to seek a place away from you. I always know you are close, and feel cold whenever you're gone."