Please stop DMing me about Gaza. Please stop @ ing me about Gaza. I can't help. I have no money. I am not reblogging anymore posts for donating to help people in Gaza due to having had reblogged scams saying it was to help people in Gaza.
I will still reblog things to support Gaza, just not GoFundMe things and the like simply because I don't want to accidently promote scams.
I have gotten @ s where people are spamming EVERYONE for donations. I have gotten DMs asking me to donate or reblog a post. While my wifi was out for two days I unknowingly had someone saying that they wouldn't forgive me if I didn't respond to their message and donate for their baby. I can't handle this. I will be blocking anyone who DMs me asking me to donate for their families in Gaza or who are spam @ ing people because I can't do anything.
Now I want to clarify, I can't help. Not I won't. I don't have a bank account or job and still live with my dad. This isn't about me being cheap or not caring. In fact I'm going to be blocking these people because I am unable to help and it hurts me to not be able to and it hurts me more that I had tried to help only for it to end up to be a scam. I am very sensitive and I will and have cried about this. I feel useless when these messages come up and so for my own mental health I am going to be blocking people who DM and @ me for these things. If I come across it or a FRIEND @ or DMs me about something, then I will reblog as that's different.
This also goes for my side blogs, @multi-fandom-fan24 (My art blog) @tsp-obsesser24 (My Stanley Parable blog) and @when-fandoms-collide-24 (Personal project/fanfic) in case someone attempts with them too.
My thoughts as someone who has been fixated on Pressure for the last two years + even did official art.
For those of you like me who need to move on but are scared to because the media is close to you.
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Hi. Since this is going in the pressure tag, I might as well introduce myself. I’m Cotgar, the artist of the Gotchapon birthday artwork and the most recent Sebastian Solace reference sheet. I’ve been fixated on Pressure since October 2024, even committing personal things to it such as cosplay, merchandise, personal poster works, and two years of fan art.
My statements here assume you know the bare minimum of what happened: Zeal sexually assaulted the previous soundtrack musician, Ren.
**These statements also originally came out on 4/8. Specific thoughts may differ a little, but my message stays the same. I have uploaded a final thoughts post here, which pertains to Zerum’s impact and my thoughts moving forward.
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I want to approach this as a community member first and foremost.
My take? The game’s done. I personally wish to see no more support for it, as although the main focus of the document is Zeal, Ren mentions cruel involvement from the dev team and their blatant coverups of Zeals actions, painting Ren as “unstable”. I have promptly left the discords, which I encourage you to do as well.
As for what to do mentally? That’s the hard part as someone who’s been so invested in the lore, story, gameplay, and every other aspect of the game. I literally doodled gotchapon this morning all over my work papers. But as someone who doesn’t wish to support the game anymore, I really find it hard to just cut that off. I am not defending the devs in any way by saying that. I am coming purely from a hyperfixation standpoint where my blorbos are jingling around in my brain.
I would like to say: you will not be incriminated to still love the characters for who they were before this point. I will still forever adore the characters I’ve grown to love. But not the ones who wrote them. Anything with them beyond this point in time is considered Not the characters I’ve surrounded myself with. With losing your sense of humanity as a person and involving yourself in disgusting shit like that, I believe that you lose the right to keep people “doing what You want with their characters”. AKA. If I were to still draw Sebastian, let’s say, I could with no connection to the writers. I will not draw him with his wedding ring, for instance. He does not deserve to be “married” to a dev self insert. It’s not the self insert that’s the problem, mind you. It’s the dev.
I suggest now is the time to maybe review that list of shows you’ve been dying to watch. Check out those games that maybe, if you’re like me, you’ve been scared to play because of fear that it’ll take over the hyperfixation.
Move away.
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My connection and statement as *technically* an artist for the game:
I am horrified. One of the most prevalent things in Ren’s document was the use of cute animal imagery to lull Ren into a sense of security. (From my experience), Kat and Zerum do the same thing. It is unbeknownst to me if it was manipulative. That is not my point. My point is that it’s real language used in the dev team, and it does not surprise me it’s being used maliciously. I am more so scared because I began picking up this habit because people I thought were “cool” were using it as fun conversation. I am impressionable. I began picking it up. Ren’s document showed this to me and I suddenly felt my gut drop.
I will be brief. I have past experience of mental abuse and manipulation. Reading Ren’s document was familiar to me. Not to such a sexual extent, but in a manipulation extent. Seeing the bunny imagery sickened me, as it made me realize that trauma flares that I had worked years and years in therapy to get rid of were now validated: I don’t know whether to trust the devs that were smiling and being so polite to me.
I will not work with Pressure anymore. End of story.
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You are allowed to still like the characters. The lore. The story. But supporting it is different, and I am ashamed that I have for this long. Am I sad that I probably can’t post any more drawings of the silly fish being sad? Oh fuck yeah. That dude fucking rocks.
But this is not about me. To fellow people who feel sad about it too, this is not about you.
This is about being a fucking human being
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I await to see what the devs say to try and damage control.
Edit: Be civil. Suicide is never good, no matter what the person has done. Did we all curse him out? Yes. Is he a criminal? Yes. That does not validate death.
Be civil. Please. And do not bring it to my page. Do not bring any further discussion about Zeal to my page. What’s done is done. I will not mention any more. I need a minute.
I decided to make an Undertale Spamton after wseeing @hatmanthefish 's Spamton hehe Yes, I did take a lot from them TwT It was too cool! His appearance is ofc based on hatman's Spamton as well as a Niffer from Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them as well as Penguins. This is really a test page, so he might change a lot lol idk, but this is what I'm happy with so far :3 I also kinda thought of a mole when making him, so he has squinty eyes under his glasses/goggles lol
I'm going to work on Tenna next! My UT Tenna idea is going to be a bit different from most's, idk if anyone has done the idea honestly to say I'm the only one who did lol but just look out for that :3
HOI AND WELCOME! This is my art blog! I post my drawings here (and sometimes mess up with reblogging things here LOL)
I draw both digitally and traditionally! Last year I drew once a day, this year I will probably not draw as much, though when I do, I'll do my best to remember to post it (I always forget TwT)
If you want to see reblogs go to @split-unknown24 as my main blog and please check out @story-narrator for a story! I am currently doing an RP with my friends for this story to help me actually write my story! It might take a year or so before the RP finishes (It's like DND) but I'll be making art of events, jokes, and silly side RPs we do when I get the chance! If you're interested in a story with FNAF, DSAF, Portal, Undertale, Cuphead, and/or BATIM go check it out!
Thank you for reading and I hope you have fun! Call me Split and I go by they/them, have a lovely day or night!
I DREW CUPHEAD! I am very proud ^^ I had the idea for the pose and then I thought he'd do the pose
This is specifically Cuphead from Myth of the Machine! Check out @myth-of-the-machine by @nortsauce and @flygutzz I LOVE MOTM SO MUCH! I literally binged it all in a day or two
