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Distracted

I hear my floor shake

From your new life and all i can take

Are you real to your other?

Or following close?

I let you live so much more

And you were coming in your own 

Don’t be distracted,

I won’t be distracted

With the flicker of this light

i wont.

Don’t be distracted, 

i won’t be distracted

slamming ceilings and doors

falsehoods and floors.

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Eyes

Right before my eyes

I saw my whole world disappear

ghosts in the hallways 

and moments of anxious fear

Right before my eyes

I saw the stairs under my feet

shared thoughts and conversation

had an open place to meet

Right before my eyes

I saw the new become old

The exhausted nights and reward

for doing more than I was told

Well it’s time to shut these eyes 

Along with these doors

Won’t be making it back, not anymore

I’ll mourn this loss before it’s gone

Right before my eyes see what’s wrong. 

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My iPhone recording of Needtobreathe performing “Brother.” I wish I was able to get it all, but I only recorded the ending part. 

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Since it’s been two years this song hit everyone’s ears, here’s some nostalgia. 

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Knight

Another bad decision with the hope of something new. Another fantasy diminished, of white horses turning black at the reality of you. Plated armor, iron helmet couldn’t shield me from the heaviness I felt on your every word. Every story a sense of pity adding to the delusion, the manipulation that I might mean more. When it was all distance created by your fear of commitment. Guilt free and capable I walk on, away from the sound, the smoke, the addictions. The unhealthiness of a man covered in whitewashed convictions.

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Instax Mini Polaroids from our trip to Durham. We made a penguin friend at the 21C Museum and his name was Archibald. 

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Poised

You think I’m poised;

The reason you chose me for this

but I think you know

I’m an organized mess.

Can I bring justice to the one in five

When I’ve spent my life

living my entitled lies?

But maybe that’s what I’ll do

To connect, to move

Empathy at its finest 

All for you, you and you. 

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Why do you want to shut out of your life any uneasiness, any misery, any depression, since after all you don't know what work these conditions are doing inside you? Why do you want to persecute yourself with the question of where all this is coming from and where it is going? Since you know, after all, that you are in the midst of transitions and you wished for nothing so much as to change. If there is anything unhealthy in your reactions, just bear in mind that sickness is the means by which an organism frees itself from what is alien; so one must simply help it to be sick, to have its whole sickness and to break out with it, since that is the way it gets better.

Rainer Maria Rilke

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The Capital Building in Raleigh, North Carolina. 

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Cycle

This cycle I live can it be broken? Or will I continue with this circle?  We have our similarities, all in the middle, but I want more than you don’t. And to be more than you won’t. This cycle I live was it ever broken? Can I crack it a little or redraw? I have the pencil, That you couldn’t hold, As you gave in to culture, And gave in to tradition, And finally gave into a mold. This cycle I live will it ever be broken? Or will it repeat, repeat, repeat? I gave in to the season  I gave in to the motions Defeat, defeat, defeat. 

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Job requirement: Must be willing to take home beautiful flowers on a weekly basis. (at The Stockroom at 230)

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Self portrait

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@drdogmusic in all their colorful glory performing at @hawriverballroom in Saxapahaw, North Carolina.  Photos // Rachel Berbec

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Scott McMicken and Toby Leaman of @drdogmusic performing at Haw River Ballroom in Saxapahaw, North Carolina Photos // Rachel Berbec

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Details of a quirky jewelry store in Raleigh, North Carolina.  Photos // Rachel Berbec Store // Ornamentea 

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PREMIERE: You Will Want to Watch You Won’t’s “Ya Ya Ya” Video

Won't you?

I’m pretty excited that these kids didn’t fall off the face of the earth like I had sadly assumed. I’m even more excited to see them perform soon. Overall, there’s an incredible amount of excitement being felt in this moment. 

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Furry family portraits

Photos // Rachel Berbec

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Because one time my closest friends asked me to do a family photo shoot with their cat and dog. This is the cat being thrown in the air. We did it twice. I’m pretty sure he loved it.  

Photos // Rachel Berbec