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가끔씩 참 진한 슬픔이 밀려온다. 참고 참았던 슬픈 일들이... 한거번에 덥처 오다가 서서히 사라지는데... 이럴때마다 '아 너두 이런 슬픔이였겠구나...' 그런 생각을해. 단 다른 점은 너에게는 그 슬픔이 서서히 사라지지 않았다는 점.

나두 외로운데... 넌 오직했을까.

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You always haunt me, out of the blue.

You pop into my dreams, casting a haze over me. Odd thing is, you aren't the worst of them. You were just the beginning.

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Get outside this weekend #TGIF 🌿 illustration by @poorlydrawnlines (at New York, New York)

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Officially winter

가을이면 가을 탄다고 하지... 겨울은 또 다른 느낌을 불러오는듯하다. 약간에 우울함.. 생각이 많아지고.. 날들은 짧아지고.. 아님 이게 가을 타는건가? 내가 늦가을 타나보다.

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물건들

물건들을 팔려고 올린것을 봤다. 처음엔 2가지 그러다가 집에 쳐박혀있으면서 더 발견했겠지. 날 지우려고 발견하고 미음 아파하고 팔려고 올리고. 그래서 잊혀젔으면 다행이지.. 날 속이고 그렇게 되었어도 난 좋은 추억만 간직할께. 나도 이제 지워야해서 올린다. 대신 난 한번만 올려보고 짧은 가다림 끝에 그냥 기브하겠지. 내가 모르는 사람에 가 세로운 삶을 살게.

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It didn't take too long.

But with this, I've wanted to start up writing again. I don't know where to start.

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늘 시간이 해결해줬듯이 요번에도 그러겠지. 난 마음이 약해서 돌아선 적이있는데 그때 그 판단이 맞았던건지 아님 실수를 한건지... 지금 와선 알수없겠지만... 허전함을 뭘로 체워야하는지 고민이네... 시간아 빨리 가라.

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DΞΔN x CRUSH x JEFF BERNAT "what2do" (Official Video)

많은 일들이 있었죠. 다시 뒤돌아 보기 싫은 일들이요. 마음과 몸의 치료를 구하면 음악에 취해보렵니다. 

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“people take advantage of how good and compassionate you are but you are strong and becoming wiser!”

I don’t regret my kindness or my generosity. I may have been naive, but I was acting out of good intentions. As much as the other person was the bad one for taking advantage, I don’t believe anyone is innately evil. There are things I am sure I don’t know that influenced their behavior, mindset, perspective. This doesn’t mean that I should be the one to accept or try to change their ways. There’s no point in hating or regretting. I just need to learn and move on. But I can grieve for the person I thought I knew who no longer exists. So I grieve. 

Believe me when I say I was traumatized. It has been the most traumatizing thing to have happened to me, to experience the 180 degree transformation of someone’s kindness and warmth turn into coldness and hate with endless lies revealed. 

It’s also times like these when you realize who your true friends are and how much of a difference they make in your life. I grieve but I am also thankful.

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Free rein or restrained. Not knowing the right action to take before or even in hindsight. The things your unbridled thoughts will unleash. The hurt and pain it may inflict. ‘Sorry’ doesn’t erase the scars. But you can’t help but try and say sorry, to heal the scars inflicted by the double edged sword of your unbridled thoughts. Sorry. 

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쉽게 얻는게 하나도 없더라. 크면서 겪는 아픔, 슬픔, 억울함... 다 견더네면 나아지려나? 그냥 행복할순 없는건가? 왜 내 길에만 돌이 깔린것 같은지... 

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I guess I just can’t win. 

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A lady who once read my palm told me that I wouldn’t have an easy life. I thought to myself, ‘Of course, that’s to be expected with my luck.’ 

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My newest baby, but I have no idea what it is. Can anyone help with plant identification so I can figure out how to take care of it?

So I’ve been told it may be a Haworthia truncata or Haworthia truncata hybrid. Only time will tell...

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보고싶다 우리 곰. 

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Budaejjigae success!

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생각보다 강하고 생각보다 약한 사람