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im a big fat liar. i dont know how to draw. Ive never drew anything in my life. I dont even know how to pick up the pencil or hold it for that matter. what even js a "drawing" lol

#roro.txt

tr-shb-g

*this meeting could have been an email voice* this cgi could have been a puppet

messymindofmine

Obviously there has been a lot of discussion about Niall stopping Ruben when he's talking about how he would cum when he father abused him and how those moments were the closest he ever felt to someone. And it's pretty clear that Niall is thinking about Ruben's violence against him and how Ruben is the person he feels the closest to. And how he was never able to acknowledge that to himself let alone anyone else. But what I don't really see being discussed and what I feel is pretty crucial is the fact that Ruben was describing abuse. He was describing abuse from his father and how that was the closest he ever felt to anyone. And Ruben was never able to tell anyone other than Niall about it. And it came after Niall revealed his feelings towards men to Ruben. And Ruben's abuse towards Niall is very pointedly never mentioned by anyone.

Niall himself doesn't even bring it up when pointing out how Ruben referred to him with homophobic insults. He only mentions the words Ruben said. And Ruben wouldn't accept the role he played in Niall's struggles. But then he starts talking about his abuse at his father's hands and Niall is able to handle it at first. He is able to give Ruben comfort and listen. He even calls Ruben his hero. It's not until Ruben starts talking about the closeness he felt that Niall shuts down. And I think entangled with the complicated feelings that Niall has for Ruben (the fear, the love, the desire, the anger) is also the repressed acknowledgement that the things Ruben did to him weren't just brotherly horseplay or banter. It wasn't just sexual either. If the feelings that Ruben was confessing to having were in the context of what both Ruben and Niall recognize as abuse at his father's hands, then Niall would have to acknowledge that what Ruben did to him was also abuse. And what does that say about his feelings towards Ruben even beyond the shame of sexuality? Beyond his repressed feelings towards Ruben in general? So of course it was too much for Niall. And he continued to repress those feelings right up until the very end to the point of his own destruction.

#half man

boccher

witch hat atelier so far seems to be quite obviously about the disenfranchisement of children in academia and training so why did i only ever hear about those two yaoi men. do men likers even listen to the things they're watching

monidoll

#atelier spiczastych kapeluszy

Of course it's being reviewed like this lmao of course as soon as there's a white guy as the main character everyone shits their pants and talk about "reinventing"

#roro.txt #interview with the vampire #as if the show wasnt a reinvention from the first sesonds of the 1 seazon