Gay ramblings

not always safe for school!!

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he makes me so happy. i wanna use him like a hammock. i wanna squeeze him so tight.

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Drag him out camping up north by the little town with the gift shop- take him to the campsite he's never been to and make sure he's bundled up and listening to his dorky nsp songs, dragging him out of the car to help set up the tent because he's tall enough to reach over and pull the tarp. We can stay by the fire if it's cold but I'm eventually dragging him out to pick wild onions with me, cause he's gotta earn his keep if I'm cooking for him and cleaning up after him, obviously. We'll cram into my tent and huddle for warmth, or if we're blessed with a warm and clear night we can sleep in a hammock. I'll have to ask him if he's prone to bug bites, cause that dumb bastard is gonna complain for weeks if he gets bit.

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Fallin so hard and he's bad at expressing his emotions but I can see in that dumb smile he is too

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it's a month until Valentine's Day and I am buzzing I just wanna kiss him all over already

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I hate how horribly far I am from being in your arms

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running down big hills in fields, tripping in the mud, fuck yeah, adrenaline baybee

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fuchhhhhkngh,, mountain dew and talking to him,,, I've ascended, boys. I've ascended.

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I'm so happy right now. I'm not even talking to him and he still makes me feel like im safe.

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I'm posting about Hannibal again- how he fucking waited for will for years. Posting about how will had a goddamn wife who he loved but in the end, it didn't matter, because Hannibal was so much more to him than that. Fuck.

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I want someone to look at me like Hannibal looks at Will Graham, someone to wait for me while I'm gone and care for me while I'm sick- whether they induced said sickness or not.

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Smells that transport me to another dimension

Why aren't these all perfumes yet?

:(

Campfire

Patchouli or sandalwood incense

Irish spring soap

Fresh cut grass

The rain

Vanilla extract

Cookies in the oven

Burnt marshmallows

Fresh apples

Play doh

Lilacs

Our town's yearly mum show

Freshly cleaned clothes

My favourite people's hoodies

Gasoline

Cold, fresh air

Mangoes

Strawberry banana smoothies

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I legitimately thought that you would be my everything forever.

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Chocolate Strawberries for him

A recipe by mushroommlm

What you'll need:

Lots of chocolate. Like five to eight aero bars, or any solid chocolate if you don't live in Canada

A quart of strawberries (I just use ones from the supermarket)

A saucepan and metal or ceramic bowl large enough to sit on top of the saucepan steadily

Stirring tools

A pan or plate

Parchment or foil

you can also add little marshmallows or decorations if you'd like!

Recipe:

Bring lots of water and put it in the saucepan.

Put the saucepan on the stovetop on high heat

Place the bowl on top

Break your chocolate up and dump it in da bowl

Thoroughly wash, and if you want, destem your strawberries while the chocolate melts

Stir your chocolate occasionally until fully melted

Once melted and smooth, remove from heat and remember that you're lovely

Line a pan or plate with parchment or foil

Dip the clean strawberries into the chocolate, making sure they're dried beforehand so it doesn't slip off

Place on the pan or plate and repeat until all strawberries are chocolatey

Decorate if you wish

Refrigerate until set

Eat em!! Give em to someone! Theyre good for two or three days when refrigerated, but they never last that long haha

Lick the bowl?,,,

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He lied to me horribly, swore my life on nothing.

I should make him chocolate strawberries and surprise him with a picnic.

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Things I want to do with him, if there ever comes a him:

Go on picnics and hikes in the fall

Go to the beach in the rain

Binge watch Merlin and cuddle

Grow mushrooms

Lay in fields

Go to an arcade or a carnival

Make build-a-bears that remind us of eachother

Stay in bed all day

Visit eachother on lunch breaks at school or work

Go thrifting

Buy a rock Tumblr and obsess over it for months

Give eachother pretty stones and plants

H,old, H,and

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Fast ways to get better: notes to self.

-Go to the dollarstore and by something squishy

-Put a rock in your mouth

-Text them

-Listen to Daisy The Great or Teddy Hyde

-Rip Something

-Move

-Breathe

-Look at Rilakkuma

-Hug something

-Punch something

-Eat something

-Eat something squishy

-Light incense

-Smell a candle

-Have a bath with weird stuff in it

-Have a shower

-Drive up to that special place and scream

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I can't help but giggle at the faces he makes with his hand around my throat. You're not hurting me, dork.