āUPD postā
You may have noticed I'm pretty much offline these days. But I see every single comment and I really appreciate your support! And, well, I'm lurking and I'm still here, but, to put it frankly, I have no idea when or if I'm going to post something worthy again. And for that, I deeply apologise to anyone, who is still here.
I've been living with chronic tmj pain for more than 7 years now, so it's not necessarily new. The worst part is that it affect my sight and hearing. I've been to so many doctors already. Most of them straight up tell me that they cannot help. Last year I finally found a specialist, who was willing to try and help me. It's very discouraging to say now, that after months of treatment, they confirmed that there's nothing else they can do, and the treatment itself turned out to be rather futile. So now I'm going to another city to another doctor to spend my 4 months' worth of salary on the treatment that may or may not work, but "hey, we'll see if you're in need of surgery in the next 6 months!" AND it's not covered by insurance, so I have to pay for everything myself š
My tmj started acting out more lately, and the pain's been incredibly tiring. Due to this and my job, I'm going through a really unfortunate art block and burnout. I don't feel the strength and will to create. And I don't know how to find it again.
This is not intended to be a 'boo hoo, woe is me' post, but rather, as I feel, a deserved explanation for everyone, who's still around and reading this. I could've never imagined somebody liking my art enough to stay. That's why it feels like I'm letting all of you down. So I, once again, thank you for being here and for making my time here so so bright and fun! Stay safe and take care. š«
