musings

i am ali. i am a free spirit, a dynamic woman, a ball of star dust, a gemini, a warm summers night, 18 years in this life form, i believe in kush and that life is beautiful even when it isn't. i write what i know or what i feel or what i want to know. writing is my souls outlet, a timeless remedy for the pain i feel inside of me or the etched essence of a forever racing mind.words make sense when everything else doesn't, i just want to string them together, and lace them to be beautiful.

[musingmoose]

I don't think I love you but I need your love. And in the moonlight sometimes that's enough.

[musingmoose]

Trigger Warning

I was showing you my vape pen , and behind the folds was the razor i placed in confidence If that wasn’t a trigger at 8 pm maybe it was the second hand serenade song that still choked me at 130 am possibly the image in my feed at 140 am by 150 the blade escapes again, and it weeps from the seams in a river of red questioning yourself again, why can’t at 19 this addiction be irrelevant but yet the thin lines sting And the wide lines are A river of cool ice Content and serene It seeps

3.11.15 and 0 hours self harm free // via musingmoose

[inkedfingertips]

Aries: You thought: maybe if I shower I’ll get them off my skin— but oh baby that was just an oblivious whim. Taurus: He’s a solstice— don’t be stuck waiting. not for next time. Gemini: They can only adore you for so long— and as the time change approaches, don’t let winter winds thrash your petals.  Cancer: You’ve been tethered to this town for years, soon, my darling, you will be able to show them you are more than this city skyline.  Leo: Don’t burn books and become accustomed to the scent— flowers grow in the night just as often as fires begin at dawn.  Virgo: If fearing the unknown, had stopped you in the beginning and faltered your travels, you would not know of spring gardens. So remember the petals in summer winds, and do not run, from fall leaves.  Libra:  Don’t forget your friends— Though he may love you when you are warm, they will hold your hand, when all pipes run cold.  Scorpio: If you sleep away the pain, thats rotting inside your brain. You will not be able to wake, and see the end of your fate. Do not smile and feign The sorrow in your vein It is not worth it to ache, until you crack- and flake.  Sagittarius: Wrap me in unsaid words, and broken promises because when I fall, I must crumble, because I could not live another day, without your  star-eyed gaze. Capricorn: Don’t let the desolation spread to your lungs, let the quiet after the storm settle you— do not think of second winds. Aquarius: You will not be serotinous you will grow at your own time, at your own space— practiced art, are tireless masterpieces.  Pisces: The sough in your chest, will become a symphony, once you first— fall in love with yourself.

Poems for the signs 5.10.15, a.c. (via inkedfingertips)

[musingmoose]

All I can think about right now is the way it will feel when you are officially no longer by my side because of how much I miss you during this present moment. I miss you so much that my insides clench into painful ways and I've been without you for less than a day. I miss you when we're in the same house yet in different rooms, I miss you as soon as that goodbye kiss grazes my lips before you go to work, and I crave your touch while you sit Indian style right next to me. Even if it's just a brush of knees, your tough capitates me and sends my mind into a disarray that no drug can match. And currently , all I can imagine is how the pain in my chest will jolt when you're truly gone because my heart feels the lack of you even if you're just a phone call or a yelp down the hall away. // via the realist that always believes nothing will last forever musingmoose

[musingmoose]

The things that annoy me I miss.. I wish you were here fixing the sheet you always take off the bed with your rapid movements that are probably exaggerated due to rapid dreams and I wish you were here searching for lighters in the bedspread with me because all the annoyances in the world are worth you being in this bed with me. It's so lonely without you.

One night of drinking and being without me that proves you love me. 3.11.15 //via musingmoose

[musingmoose]

You told me I had a gorgeous mind that you couldn’t comprehend and I fell more in love with you because I have been waiting forever for somebody to appreciate that.

// things I’ve been waiting to hear and mean so much more than ‘you’re gorgeous’ via musingmoose

[saepphire]

Did u feel the happiness when I saw this too @dannygrannny

[mementomoriiv]

Velveeta Heartbreak

[love-personal]

[quiet-nymph]

[musingmoose]

by ericzim

[housewitch-deactivated20160908]

[musingmoose]

The Sea Prince and the Fire Child, 1981

[grunge-tea]

[grunge-tea]

[flawlless-life]

[folkabout]

[tattoos-and-modifications]

[haiytch-deactivated20170608]

To be perfectly honest I’m torn between never talking to anyone again and getting off my face on drugs

[haiytch-deactivated20170608]

Both options seem great