Loar in TVland

Loar. Too old. Queer (they/he). Vegan. Cat parent. MULTIFANDOMS. Fanfiction writer and occasional fanartist. I'm 'Loar' on ao3.

[mx-loar-tev]

+ Bienvenue +

+ Willkommen +

+ Welcome +

About me:

Name: ✨Sabran✨ + nicknames: ✨Sab✨, ✨Loar ✨+ gender: nonbinary + pronouns in English: they/he + pronoms en français : il/iel avec accords masculins et noms/termes neutres si possible.

Where to find me:

On AO3 : Loar

Fandoms (fics): Supergirl (Sanvers, SuperCorp, mostly) + Agents of SHIELD + Agent Carter (Cartinelli) + MCU (Natasha Romanoff) (+coming soon: OUaT + Criminal Minds)

Fandoms (comics): Supergirl

Linktr.ee: You can also find me here. 🌳🌱

Ko-fi: Buy me a coffee. ☕🍵

What this blog is about:

1. Fandoms (TV shows, cinema, books)

Criminal minds + Supergirl + Once Upon A Time + AoS + MCU + Agent Carter + Higher Ground + Studio Ghibli + other anime movies

I write fics, draw fanart and fancomics, rant about fandoms, make silly posts...

2. Personal stuffs

* My cat Sony. She's my baby even when she's a pain in the butt. 😻

* The occasional rant about my life. 💭

3. Random interests (others than fandoms)

* Cats 🐱 * Tea 🍵 * Vegan food from all around the world (tho I have a separate blog for recipes) 🌱 * Sciences (physics 😍 is my favorite subject but I live most hard and soft sciences) * Arts 🎨 * My obscur taste in music 🎧🎶

4. Probably some militant stuffs too

* LGBTQIA+ 🏳️‍🌈 * animal rights 🐮 * disability/chronic illness/mental health/madness/neurodiversity 👩‍🦼 * Human rights, BLM, feminism, intersectionality, and so on... 😵

⚠ Under construction ⚠

MASTERPOST:

Prompts:

Magical and Mysterious + more to come

Fics ideas:

CM: Emily and mental health + Time travel ideas [x] [x] [x] [x] + teaser for Seven lives (Jemily) + unsub!Elle ideas + "everyone is poly" + cm x higher ground crossover +

Wednesday: couple costumes +

Supergirl:

OUaT: Silly closet trope with Swanqueen + hanahaki swanqueen + cat Regina + ✨Regina waking in the past with baby Henry✨ +

What's in there?

Content of Emily Prentiss' freezer + more to come

Rants and metas:

Queer thug life, the solution for queer fandoms + Ultimate jemily moment and subtitles translation + First watch of Wednesday + Polyamourous Swanqueen [1] [2] + Hook, queer ships and sexism in fandoms + Storybrook is not a Haven + stop it with AI "art" + Finding a show or movie with my bf is hard +

Fanarts:

Supergirl: Kara Zor-El comics serie [1]+[2]+[3] + more to come + Run (about Kara's traumas, coming soon)

OUaT: Regina's longing + more to come

Polls:

Criminal minds demographics +

Memes:

CM [x] + Multifandoms [x] [writer's problem] [depression] [I have a type] + OUaT [x (+bonus Supergirl)] +

Personal:

My ugly mug, my new t-shirt from an indie artist and my cat + How to become a good writer/artist + French naked ass stew recipe + My two moods while watching TV + French politics (2024) [x] [x] [x] + Pride is still political + Poetry [x] + Rant about Valentine's day + old SF USA + new year 2024 resolution + Christmas sucks (2023) [x] [x] +

Fics:

Supergirl : After the storm [ch1] [ch2 - soon] +

Live-blogging:

Dune (part one) +

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[luna-azzurra]

Chaotic gremlin best friends!!

⟢ "I need an alibi for Tuesday." - "What time." - "You didn't ask what I did." - "What time."

⟢ "Hypothetically." - "No." - "You didn't hear the question." - "Hypothetically no."

⟢ "I did something." - "Scale of one to ten." - "Depends who's asking." "Me." - "Seven." - "Police." - "Four." - "God." - "Thirteen."

⟢ "We need to leave."- "Why." - "I'll explain in the car." - "Why." - "I'll explain in a different country."

⟢ "This is your fault." - "You literally came up with the idea." - "I have bad ideas all the time, you're not supposed to DO them."

⟢ "Okay hear me out." - "My lawyer has advised me not to hear you out." - "You don't have a lawyer." - "I'm getting one specifically for conversations with you."

⟢ "Nobody got hurt." - "Physically." . "Nobody got physically hurt." - "Yet." - "Nobody has gotten physically hurt yet, which is a win."

⟢ "I have a type." - "Yeah?" - "People who are bad for me and you specifically." - "That's not a type that's a pattern." - "Same thing."

⟢ "What's the worst that could happen." - "I have a list. It's laminated. I made it specifically for when you say that."

⟢ "Rate my decision making." - "Historically or right now." - "Both." - "Zero. Consistent zero across the board."

⟢ "You're the only person I trust." - "I dropped your birthday cake last year and told you it arrived like that." - "Yeah but you still got me a cake."

⟢ "I need your honest opinion." - "It's bad." - "You didn't see it yet." - "I've met you. It's bad."

⟢ "Why do you even keep me around." - "Honestly? Entertainment. And you're warm in winter."

⟢ "I wasn't thinking." - "First time for everything." - "I resent that." - "Statistically valid though."

⟢ "On a scale of fine to not fine." - "Remember that time in Prague." - "We don't talk about Prague." - "That fine."

⟢ "Nobody panic but." - "I'm already panicking." - "I haven't said anything yet." - "I know you. I'm getting ahead of it."

⟢ "Promise you won't be mad." - "Absolutely not, that's a trap and I won't fall for it."

⟢ "I have good news and bad news." - "Good news first." - "The car is fine." - "And the bad." - "Define car."

⟢ "You're my emergency contact." - "I know." - "You're listed as my next of kin." - "I know." - "You're also listed as my therapist, my lawyer, and my spiritual advisor." - "I know." - "Do you want to talk about that." - "Nope." - "Cool."

⟢ "I'm a responsible adult."- "You once called me crying because you got your sleeve caught in a door and didn't know what to do." - "I was panicking." - "For forty minutes." - "It was really stuck."

⟢ "I regret everything." - "No you don't." - "No I don't but I feel like I should." - "Same honestly."

[quasi-normalcy]

I think that Xena, for all of its ridiculousness and cheesiness, did a better job of conveying the allure of evil than just about any other series I've ever seen. Like it understands that violence, no matter how justifiably it starts out, is addictive, and that hatred poisons you until you can't feel real joy anymore, and it's strange to me that I've never seen it laid out so simply elsewhere.

[rachandroll]

...so THAT'S what sleeper cell activation feels like. Because yes, YES, LET'S TALK ABOUT THIS, because Xena is such an interesting lightning-in-a-bottle-case study! While I would never discount the work done by the writers, Xena as a show is almost perfectly positioned both historically and structurally to consistently explore that theme.

The first puzzle piece is that Xena was a syndicated show at the tail end of syndication's total dominance of a distribution model. For those too young to remember a time when ongoing plots and prestige dramas weren't the norm, syndication is big part of why older television shows almost entirely kept plots contained to one or two episodes rather than having them span seasons. See, when a show is syndicated, it is licensed out to individual television stations/affiliates to be aired as reruns. The individual station chooses when to air them and in what order, and whether to just skip episodes they don't like in favor of the ones most likely to draw eyeballs, etc etc. The more a show is licensed, the more money you make on it, so there is an incentive to make each episode standalone to make them appealing to each station by enabling them to toss on whatever episodes they like without it being a problem for the casual viewer. Also, before streaming, easy access to dvds and episode recording, and the like, a show could not assume that even its fans would have necessarily have seen every episode. "Catching up" was not an easy thing, and reserved for the most dedicated, doing shit like physically mailing bootleg tapes! Therefore, shows needed to have a consistent formula that didn't lock out the person who couldn't watch last week for whatever reason. Characters remained within more of a status quo. Xena is a "monster of the week" style show, like X-Files. I mention X-Files intentionally, because it was one of the first to really break that no-ongoing-plots structure, and that shift affected its contemporaries, like Xena, who also started to follow suit.

That alone doesn't account for Xena being so primed to explore those themes, of course. Even staying within the same fictional universe, Hercules (which Xena is a spin-off of) and Young Hercules don't even come close to Xena's complexity on the subject. But that's because Xena's premise is perfectly positioned to interact with those practical constraints for this outcome in a way those shows aren't. The status quo that syndication demands remain mostly in intact is that 1) Xena was evil and really good at it, 2) she is trying to do good in the world now as penance but can never undo what she has done. Every episode is about Xena trying to save people while dealing with the consequences of her actions as a warlord. The fact that she was evil cannot be changed or diluted nor can the fact that she must continue trying to redeem herself, otherwise the show is over or is unrecognizable to the casual viewer. But this is also an action show, sometimes cartoonishly so, so she must also be fighting consistently! The core spectacle is violence and the core story is why violence is often evil. There is an inherent tension there that the writers either needed to interrogate earnestly or ignore, and they chose the honest, interesting route. They gave Xena a costar who is innocent and principled but loves Xena, and had her always asking why and trying to understand how Xena could be that person, while being put under similar pressures herself. They had Xena continue to use the tools she has, including violence, for good ends, and wrestled with the answers as to why that was ok, why the violence she did then and the violence she did now were different—and sometimes decided they weren't. They showed Xena struggling with falling back into those old habits because they are seductive and easy.

If someone asked "are there so many episodes of Xena where you find out someone tried to get her to change her ways many years ago and failed because that is a really great standalone premise, or because violence as a tool and power and vengeance as motivators are corruptive and hard to stop using once you start," the answer is yes. The show is cyclical because violence is. But also because it is syndicated.

It's fucking rad and interesting.

[kateammann]

Happy Pride Month to all of my fellow aces!! 🖤🩶🤍💜

[azaablue]

the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be a part of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.

[drbonesmccoy]

T R U E  O R  F A L S E

(You have 90 minutes to complete.)

[blackwidowcanliftmjolnir]

10 Reasons Black Widow Can Lift Mjolnir

1. In The Avengers when she had her leg stuck under a metal beam, and Hulk was transforming, she told the engineers who were about to help her to run so they’d be safe from Hulk. She was really struggling to free herself, and you can tell by her face and her breathing that she was TERRIFIED. Those engineers could’ve saved her, and she knew that, but she chose to save them instead.

2. In Civil War, she tried her hardest to keep the team together. She signed the accords, but she also didn’t turn on Steve because of his different views, rather she comforted him and was still a good friend to him despite their disagreement.

3. She comforts the others when they’re upset. Ex. Yelena at the end of Black Widow, Bruce with feeling like a monster, Clint after being mind controlled.

4. She’s the heart of the team. She fought to keep them together in Civil War. She was the one who recruited Steve to break them out of prison. She’s always there for her team when they need emotional support. She’s selfless.

5. She never quits being a hero, no matter how tired she is. In Age of Ultron, she talks a lot about wanting to run away and disappear, but she doesn’t. She stays and fights and makes sacrifices even though she feels like shit. In Endgame, after everyone else had given up, Natasha was still trying to save the world and rebuild as best she could, when she has the LEAST reason to, because she’s one of the few people who didn’t do a major fuck-up in Infinity War.

6. She went after Dreykov when she learned the Red Room was still operational, knowing full well that there was a good chance she’d be captured again and mind controlled, forced to work for him all over again. She could’ve turned her back on it and Yelena, because she was free. But instead she went back, and let her abuser touch her again, so she could save a bunch of girls she doesn’t know. Obviously the Red Room fucking traumatized her, and it’s the last place she’d want to go back to, but she did it. That ALONE should make her worthy of Mjolnir.

7. She’s kind to kids. Simple, but also a really big green flag, that she takes care of Clint’s kids so well that his kids seem more excited to see her than him 💀

8. She’s reliable. She’s always capable of making last-minute decisions in battle, and doesnt hesitate despite how dangerous they tend to be. Like riding one of the Chitauri, or jumping out of the truck being flown by Ultron.

9. She doesn’t hesitate to sacrifice herself for her loved ones. Obviously she did sacrifice herself in Endgame, but she was also prepared to die for Yelena when she let go of the parachute in Black Widow.

10. She didn’t TRY to lift the hammer. She’s not so insecure and egotistical that she needs to be validated by having everyone see her lift a magic hammer. She’s a poser, not a boaster.

[starcitysirens]

Black Widow by Phil Noto

[thegeekstressart]

I’ve been slowly working on illustrating my own Tarot deck about black cats.

I have a long way to go, but I’m nearly done with the major arcana.

Here are some of my favorites:

I set myself a design challenge (as I often do). I wanted to limit the color palette and the brush styles to create a very consistent look.

And since each card focuses on black cats, it forces me to think deeply about symbolism and design to make sure the meaning of each card is clear and each design is unique.

But there’s still a lot of variety coming through. It’s not all class, or all silliness - just like cats

I have a forearm tattoo of the cats in this one ☝️

I’m so happy with how both of these two managed to feel dark, but adorable at the same time.

And then there’s this one absolute diva:

Most of these used my own feline friends for reference.

There are more but I don’t know yet how many I want to share online. If I can actually complete the entire deck I would love to have it made. But I have a ways to go, so for now I continue to chip away, one card at a time.

[hawt-me33]

Coming into a fandom late

[baxterdamus-deactivated20130513]

Coming into a fandom early and watching it become an angry clusterfuck

[valorious]

Being in a dormant fandom that suddenly comes alive again after a new book/movie

[leatherpatches-deactivated20150]

Don’t forget about those who come in the midst of a fandom war. 

[fauxmoux]

Accuracy at its best

[street-of-mercy]

Being in a fandom and not even knowing there’s a war going on…

[my-reylo]

all of this shit…lol

[nerdsagainstfandomracism]

When You’re Not In The Fandom But You’re Nosy AF

[not-so-secret-nerd]

When you get into a fandom only to discover it’s dead

[jupiter235]

This gets better every time I see it. 

[sageblackrose95]

@fuboos-mess

[inverted-mind-inc-sideblog-deac]

Being in a dead fandom…

[illogicalarchive]

Or being in such a tiny fandom that it feels like youre the only one

[erilias]

The accuracy hurts.

[fanfic-yes-please]

Being in a fandom that had a shit ending.

[it-is-bugs]

When you’ve been fangirling long enough, you’ve experienced all of the above.

[sweetferalbaby]

Being in a fandom meant for kids.

[teaganvamp]

This just gets better..

[hamboj2]

@mi-kleos

[thatcrazysonicchick]

When you realize that joining the fandom has ruined you

[knightofbloodcancer]

Fandom hell in general

[morathavictoria]

Yes.

[marvelanimelover]

This^^^ just… ALL OF THIS.

[stop-talking-babe-deactivated20]

Being in so many fandoms that you don’t even know what’s going on

[raise-cain-archived]

THIS IS THE SKULDUGGERY FUCKING PLEASANT FANDOM IN ONE POST!!

[crochanblackbeak]

Trying to recruit people to your fandom

[kateriverameliawolfe]

Annnnnnndddd it’s back

[ishipwhatiship247]

Being in a fandom which has so many antis

[ravenhilarious]

I’ve probably reblogged this before, but that was before these great additions.

[swanqueen-author]

Being in a fandom that actually works together

[commanderunhingedmongoose]

Why is this so true? All of it.

[pillowprincesslexa]

being in a fanbase but all your mutuals suddenly turn into Kpop blogs

[hangingfire]

I always enjoy it when a good post comes around again and has been improved by the reblogs like the years for a fine wine.

[priory-of-stars]

Being in a fandom when shit goes down and everyone has different opinions

[marianagmt]

When you are in a fandom and don’t care for others people opinion…..even if they are right…(believe me, I have met several of those)

[batbyte-alghul]

Being in a fandom you never meant to join

[tirnel-sutcliff-spears]

I love this. and it’s gotten better

[cartoonjessie]

After abandoning a fandom you’re still a little bit emotionally invested in….

[brit-is-bookish]

All of these are me. Lol

[thehikingastronomer]

Being in a fandom on Tumblr

[julietsemophase]

And it reached its epic conclusion

[isa-ghost]

I CHOKED ON FUNDIP

[van-arts]

HISTORY HAS BEEN ENGRAVED INTO THIS POST

[merc-with-a-mouth-69]

A friendship like Natasha and Clint please

[userfish]

this pride month we’re all going to be radically pro transgender. or else.

[sapphicsaro]

requested by @catching-vibes-and-stars

clintasha au || first meeting

“he was sent to kill me, he made a different call.”

[rennerei]

always 🙏

[doona-baes]

#peak sibling behavior

[selinenuli]

I drew little Natasha

[sunderwight]

Mulan AU where she does get caught by the other fresh recruits while she's bathing but Mushu helps her spin it like the lake is cursed by an evil lizard demon and will turn men into women if they stay in it for too long.

From there it's not actually difficult to get the other soldiers onboard with covering up the fact that poor Ping took one for the team and got afflicted by the vagina curse, especially since it would have been all of them if they hadn't gotten the warning ahead of time. So they agree to help him cover it up, because obviously the army's not going to understand.

Shang is... tentatively glad that the men are bonding and getting along, even if they continue to be deeply weird about it.

[great-art-and-a-purple-tongue]

Ling: Hey man, what's up— you've got boobs?!?!

Mulan: Uh, what boobs? Huh? Where did these come from?

Mushu: *facepalms and thinks quickly* (speaks from the shadows) I AM THE SPIRIT OF THE LAKE! BEWARE MY CURSED WATERS FOR THEY WILL TURN MEN INTO WOMEN!

Ling, Yao, and Chien Po: Oh no! The spirit of the cursed waters!

[scribeofchaos]

Chi-Fu: SHE'S A WOMAN LI SHANG!

Mulan: Look-

Ling, Yao, and Chien Po: WE CAN EXPLAIN!!

[One convoluted, chaotic explanation later]

Shang: ...is this why you've all been insisting we don't camp anywhere that doesn't have a lake.

Shang: and then none of you actually swim in it.

Shang: and you all keep jumping at shadows.

Shang: wait a second Ping did this happen before or after you became insanely good at fighting?

Shang: did you get better at fighting after you became a woman.

Shang: are women better at fighting than us.

Mulan: ....uh. well. maybe? no one's ever tried to find out.

Yao: [thinking very fast] y'know Captain it's just so hard to find recruits these days.

Chien Po: Real shortage of men.

Ling: Lots of women, though.

Mulan: [catching on] Without marriage prospects.

Shang: You're right, men. The spirits must have done this in order to show us that we should be recruiting women as fighters.

Mushu [from the shadows, seeing an opportunity to do the funniest thing]: EXACTLY, LI SHANG. I HAVE TRANSFORMED PING INTO A WOMAN BECAUSE YOU HAVE TOO LONG OVERLOOKED THE TRUE WAY TO WIN THE WAR.

Mulan [seeing an opportunity to get all the stories straight]: O Great Spirit, is it reversible?

Mushu: WHY WOULD YOU WISH TO REJECT MY GIFT? I HAVE SEEN YOUR HEART, CHILD, AND HAVE ALREADY ALTERED THE MEMORIES OF EVERYONE WHO KNEW YOU BEFORE YOU LEFT FOR THE ARMY. YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THEIR DAUGHTER.

Li Shang: Welp, the spirits have spoken. Ping - wait is your name still Ping if you're a woman now?

Mulan: Uh. Actually, I was thinking of renaming myself. How do you feel about Mulan?

BONUS:

Mulan [climbing out of the eleventh lake the men have arranged for her to swim in]: Yeah no, it didn't work. Still got boobs. [tries to appear dejected].

Chien Po: If it makes you feel better, they're very nice boobs.

Mulan: Thanks, Chien Po.