unintentionally made yelena look like nat and hurt my own feelings 💔 kate's outfit is inspired by marvel rivals hawkeye! i had a random drawing session and remembered bishova exes au i was thinking about a lot, ill rant about it under the post
bishova exes - established avenger yelena and vigilante kate.
they dated previously some time after hawkeye events - kate hopeful and naive about hero work, yelena resentful of any hero bullshit, still haunted by her past. they fall hard for each other but for some reason can't make it work (mainly yelena).
the best i can describe their falling out is by olivia rodrigo songs the cure and less - highly recommend checking them out (the cure is so yelena coded its insane guys i've been haunted by the visions since the release of the song).
they both need to mature and find themselves outside the relationship first. so they dramatically end things. triple homicide - kate is hurt, yelena is hurt, we are hurt. idk the details maybe yelena ghosts kate after a big fight, unaddressed fears and insecurities, they say things they don't mean etc etc
some time after thunderbolts events - yelena now is an established avenger saving people from world ending threats, being praised and paraded in media. and kate is an underground vigilante trying her best to protect everyday people, dealing with so much crime and injustice, facing the worst kind of people.
they finally reunite when kate gets recruited for an important avenger gig - it's the first time they saw each other since the break up. and there's so much feelings between them - heartbreak, longing, guilt, hope, pride, resentment, anger, love (just imagine thunderbolts reactions to yelena suddenly having so much tension and beef with hawkeye jr lol)
also the perspective change for both of them is sooo good - yelena finally stepping into the hero light and seeing meaning in helping people. and kate first hand experiencing the price, responsibility and weight that comes with being a hero/vigilante. and so they understand each other fully now.
and this just eats my brainnnn. the complicated feelings of it all. right person wrong time. can they rebuild the trust and overcome their personal struggles? the mix of being resentful of the person for breaking your heart, but still feeling so proud of them for becoming who they are. being butt hurt over how you ended things, but still hoping. still loving each other but thinking other person moved on.
someone sedate me
and let me know if im cooking, let me now if im completely off, let me know if there is a fic like that, thanks ❣️
nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live in that space between "things will get better" and "i can't handle this anymore." it's like your emotions are constantly swinging. leaving you both hopeful and defeated in the same day.
one of my favorite tropes is when kate and yelena hang out at the new avengers compound. kate having a special little guest pass and thunderbolts being used to having her around. the girls just chill or train or cuddle or watch movies <3
mcu won't give it to me, so i will give it to myself
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