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the few minutes between the moment u yap in someones dms and they dont answer and you feel like you should get painfully dismembered for the crime of talking to someone vs the instant relief of normalcy you get when they text back and no ones killed you yet

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genuinely a series of unfortunate events has one of the best plots I’ve ever read/watched

a bunch of children getting tangled up in the mistakes their parents made and the history of people they never knew, all of which is connected in ways they’ll never understand and no one seems willing to explain

murders and arsons and love affairs and villains who knew good people and hurt good people, and secret organizations, and all of it is connected. and they didn’t ask to be here. they didn’t ask to be a part of this. yet here they are, and everywhere they go seems to lead back to what happened with olaf and their parents.

#i love asoue #its so interesting how no one is portrayed as saviors in this show #theyre all so flawed #and the flaws ARE their characters #these poor kids tho lmao

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cw: blood, scars, implied emotional abuse, bloody and rotten teeth, etc.

skip if you dont think you can handle it, and please, please take care of yourselves! love ya!!

suolli

can i sue you for emotional damage please thats like Terrifyingly good like i want to cry but in both good and bad ways because first of all the art is PEAAAKKKK like always!!! and second of all Now Why Would You Do That if art is peak art is peak i guess ANYWAYS YOU DID AMAZING I LOVE IT SO MUCH AND I FEEL A GAPING HOLE IN MY CHEST

weltonsociety

jjjjjjjjoey

When ur mutuals w/ some cool ass people rb if u agree

scatteredsunshine

charlie was there for neil through everything. he was there through depressive and manic episodes. he was there for the relapses and the cries to end his life. he supported neil through it all.

he always kept neil alive. he felt it was his job. he had to be the one to save neil from himself.

and then todd came. and neil was happy and hadn’t been having those thoughts. he missed rhe signs of it being a manic episode. he thought maybe neil was finally just happy.

so he stopped watching so closely. he trusted neil.

then the night of the play happened. he was woken up from a deep sleep by dr. hager who told him he had a call waiting for him.

his ears rang as his mother told him what happened. what neil had done to himself. he sits on the floor and asks the one question he doesn’t want to know the answer to. “what did his arms look like?”

he throws up when he gets the answer. the answer he knew was coming but still couldn’t handle.

dr. hager tells him to go to the school nurse. charlie walks there on autopilot, his brain completely separate from his body.

as he lays in one of the uncomfortable infirmary beds, he keeps thinking about how he’d failed neil. he shouldn’t have trusted him. he should’ve noticed the signs.

but neil always was a good actor.

he doesn’t blame keating or nolan or the school or even neil’s parents. he blames himself for the suicide of his best friend. because he was always there. and the one time he wasn’t, he ended up losing neil for forever.

#STOP IT #im gonna cry #i am crying #i hate my life

an-oddity-indeed

Just a dad and his (slightly feral) children 🥰🥰

#I LOVE SWEET TOOTH

scramratz

I think people would be less suicidal if they were allowed to talk about being suicidal without risk of being sent to the Torture Dungeon

theblack-dog

Johnny when he's trying to sleep on the Curtis couch after being kicked out by his mom, but Two-Bit is binge drinking shoplifted beer on the porch, Sodapop is cooking some neon-colored bullshit in the kitchen, Darry is flying in a CTE fueled rage because Ponyboy skipped school to smoke a hundred cigarettes and write shitty poetry, Dally is calling the house because he was arrested for kidnapping rich kids and dropping them off in bad parts of town, and Steve is ugly.

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the fact that i haven’t read the Outsiders makes this so much funnier lmao

suolli

GO READ IT NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW

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I WILL I WILL I GOT THIS BRO

I ASKED FPR THE BOOK FOR MY BIRTHDAY

suolli

YAYAYAYYAYAYAY TELL ME HOW YOU LIKE IT!!

DUDE IVE BEEN HYPERFIXATED ON THE OUTSIDERS FOR YEARSSS I HAVE A POSTER IN MY ROOM N MULTIPLE LIMITED EDITION COPIES N IVE GONE TO THE MUSICAL N MY PHONE HAS OUTSIDERS STICKERS AAAAHHH I LOVE THE OUTSIDERS

casseyissleeping

"Dally raised the gun and I tho-" suddenly I'm not laughing anymore

#dally i miss you

theblack-dog

Johnny when he's trying to sleep on the Curtis couch after being kicked out by his mom, but Two-Bit is binge drinking shoplifted beer on the porch, Sodapop is cooking some neon-colored bullshit in the kitchen, Darry is flying in a CTE fueled rage because Ponyboy skipped school to smoke a hundred cigarettes and write shitty poetry, Dally is calling the house because he was arrested for kidnapping rich kids and dropping them off in bad parts of town, and Steve is ugly.

flew-like-a-moth-to-you-sunlight

the fact that i haven’t read the Outsiders makes this so much funnier lmao

suolli

GO READ IT NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW

theblack-dog

Johnny when he's trying to sleep on the Curtis couch after being kicked out by his mom, but Two-Bit is binge drinking shoplifted beer on the porch, Sodapop is cooking some neon-colored bullshit in the kitchen, Darry is flying in a CTE fueled rage because Ponyboy skipped school to smoke a hundred cigarettes and write shitty poetry, Dally is calling the house because he was arrested for kidnapping rich kids and dropping them off in bad parts of town, and Steve is ugly.

sophiaurora

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!

definitelyfrankiero

You ever think about the fact that the last sense to leave after death is hearing which can stay for around 8 minutes so Neil probably just heard dead silence because of how long it took for his parents to find him. You ever think about the fact he died in his father’s office, looking up at all his books and shelves of achievements, just like how he looked up to his father his whole life. Just how he wanted to make him as proud of him as he was of himself. You ever think about how long it took Neil’s parents to find him when he died. How maybe just a small part of him hoped to fail and to be held by his parents one more time. How maybe he hoped to hear a scream or a cry or a sob and a door slamming open, but all he got was the silence and the echo of the gunshot through his house. How he died truly alone and in complete silence. How he always encouraged Todd to speak up and speak out for himself. How he was never quiet. And yet he died quiet. Subdued. Reserved. Alone. Cold.

#now why would you say that