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CHAPTER TAGS: canon-typical violence, gross cyber-tech inaccuracies, swearing, descriptions of a panic attach
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Now that you had an idea of what you were up against, you started looking for how it spreads the infection, if it even can, and how to neutralize it. You poured over the various files, but good God, these people called themselves scientists, but they only cared about the damage their subjects could inflict, not whether or not they could contain an outbreak. Well, all of them but one.
A woman logged as an Elizabeth James tested the prion in rodents, starting out in individual samples. She logged the same symptoms you just witnessed in the video; progressive dementia, muscle spasms, twitching, loss of sleep, and extreme aggression. Each rodent exhibited the same symptoms on the same days and died within seven. When she was sure that there were no variations, she began to test transmission during different stages of infection, starting with day one.
There were no signs of transmission through the first few tests. Instead, the infected rat just attacked at ate the other within day four. Over and over again, the rat stressed itself to the point where it just let go and brutally mutilated the healthy one.
"Test subject thirty-one," she sighed, the recording scratchy as it came through your headset, "I think…this will be the last one. The infected subjects have a perfect rate of killing the healthy subject before contamination. In nature, infection either happens spontaneously, or the infected consumed contaminated nervous tissue. Because meat-eating animals don't typically eat nervous tissue, transmission is nearly impossible. It seems that the idea of a prion outbreak—"
The woman's voice phased into the background as you watch in simmering horror as the infected rat stopped twitching, and suddenly, its head snapped to the side to the healthy one. Your mouth dropped open slightly in abject curiosity as it pounced on the other, wrapping itself around to the back of its neck where it bit where the neck met the head. It did it only once while the healthy rodent squealed and squirmed in its grasp before letting go, watching the other.
The once healthy rat immediately began to convulse, reacting to the transmission, writhing in pain on the ground.
"Oh, my God! Wait, why—"
The scientist was cut off again when the newly infected rat suddenly stopped convulsing and stood up, replicating the same twitching as the original rat.
You couldn't watch anymore.
You shut off the video and opted for her notes, skimming through them until you saw the same date as the video.
There were not noticeable changes in behavior before test subject thirty-one infected thirty-two. However, upon dissection of the specimen, it was discovered that after so long, cerebral spinal fluid began to leak out through the subject's nose and down the nasal cavity into the back of the throat. Then, I don't know how just yet, but thirty-one recognized thirty-two enough to infect it. The bite transmitted the infect cerebral fluid into the spine of the healthy specimen, completion infection."
So just…spontaneous evolution? The infected reaches a certain stage after so long that it recognizes that it needs to start infecting healthy organisms? Granted, the company didn't have enough time to investigate that aspect for very long before all hell broke loose.
"Base to Sierra-Zero, I found some information on how this thing spreads."
A second passed before your ear crackled.
"Go ahead, base."
"They never got to pin point why, but the infected organism has to bite the back of the neck of the healthy organism to transfer. Typically, either spontaneous folding of proteins cause infection, or you have to inject diseased nervous tissue. Since we don't typically eat infected nervous tissue, prion outbreaks never happen outside of cannibalistic cultures. So this way, the fluid from the infected individual directly dumps into the nervous system of the healthy individual."
"So I just have to make sure to keep my neck intact?"
"In theory yes, but remember, this is something that we don't know enough on, so it could have evolved into something more than that, so stay on your toes."
"Copy. I'll be careful, as usual."
You scoffed. "Careful my ass. I swear, the S as your middle name should stand for Suicidal."
Leon chuckled. "Do my mission reports give me away?"
"I think they're probably really forgiving, actually. I'm sure you've pulled off way more heinous stunts than the reports let on."
"I would never lie on an official report." You could practically hear the smile in his voice.
"Sherry would bed to differ."
"Wow, you believe her over me? I'm hurt."
"Not like I've known her for seven years, and you all of…" you checked the time, "two and a half hours. Don't take it personally."
"And here I thought we were getting closer. I'll remember this."
"Sure you will."
You were doing it again – the borderline flirting. The flirting, but not actually flirting. Bantering. It's only been two and a half hours, but he was already drawing you in close. Close enough that you were already leaning into him from over 2,700 miles away. You'd never even seen his face for Christ's sake, but just the sound of his voice was enough to draw you in, and there was nothing you could do about it.
"Any visuals on the BOW?"
You scanned the cameras, straining your eyes while searching for any movement worth noting, but of course, nothing.
"Negative, but let's focus on finding a terminal and pulling any information."
"What happened to that magic touch of yours?"
You rolled your eyes. "I can only pull so much from here, Leon. Just whatever happened to be left unlocked when everyone scattered, and that's minimal. We're lucky that I was able to find anything on the BOW that's out and about."
"Whatever makes you feel better, sweetheart. I'll get the rest of the data, don't you worry your pretty little head."
You swore you could feel your brain short circuit in that moment; little sparks flying and steam floating off your cheeks as your face began to burn red. Where did these words even come from? It wasn't like there was anything even close to that just a moment ago. It was so bad, you could feel yourself sweating through your clothes.
You must've been sitting there in silence too long, reeling from the flirting since Leon spoke up again.
"You still there? What happened? Cat got your tongue?"
You sputtered as your brain tried to catch up with trying to come up with something witty to come back with.
"Repeat that Sierra-Zero? Your comms cut out right as you began talking."
He huffed a laugh. "Sure it did."
"Whatever. Their server room is another floor down on the west end. The stairs are on the east."
"Copy."
You muted yourself immediately. You couldn't help but mouth 'oh, my God' before you dragging both of your hands down your face. He absolutely knew what he was doing. He had to be. There was no other explanation for what was happening right now. You were being trolled by a nearly fifty year old man, and he was enjoying every bit of it. Was this your penance for being a menace against Sherry these last handful of years?
You were certain about one thing. You were going to kill Sherry when she got back, and then yourself.
"Base, the stairwell is out."
Fuck my life.
"Uhhh…" you scrambled through the cameras, searching for any other way down, "there's an elevator shaft down the right hall. You may be able to pry the doors open and get down via the ladder on the side."
"You sound really confident about that answer."
"If there's one thing you should know about me, Leon, is that I'm not confident about anything. I'm winging it ninety-seven percent of the time."
"And the other three percent?"
"Sherry's the one winging it."
"You two really are a couple peas in a pod, aren't you?"
You grinned. "You have no idea."
He went quiet for a minute, then started grunting. You slammed your hands into your face as only the sounds of his grunts filled your ears. You knew that he was pulling the doors of the elevator open, but you couldn't help the sinful images flashed through your mind.
I'm going to hell.
It wasn't much longer until he finished prying the doors open, a sigh finishing out the noises that haunted your ears.
"The shaft looks clear. You said one floor?"
"Yep. Just the one. The entire floor is their server, when you get there, find the admin terminal and trip the security lock. That'll tip me off to the right grid that they have this place on."
"You can't see it from there?"
"No. Their system is way too intricate. I would have to comb through each and every file to find the right one."
"Copy that. Hang tight."
While he was making his way down, you scanned for any working cameras in his vicinity. However, you didn't know if they were just disabled, or if they were dead entirely. You had to find some way to get the cameras in the server room back online.
You started messing with different logs and error messages that cluttered the camera's coding, shuffling through too many hardware offline codes before finding one that just needed to be switched back on. You bypassed the admin login and turned the camera on, and thank God, you were greeted with an angle that was on the far right of where Leon was, over looking the entrance that he came through along with a handful of server towers.
You couldn't help but watch closely as he punched a couple bad passwords into the login screen, tripping the security lock that alerted you to the grid that he was in.
"Nice work, Kennedy. It'll take a second, but I'll start combing through their records."
"Thanks. Hurry up and let's get out of here."
"Aye aye, captain."
Leon let a sharp breath out that sounded not dissimilar to a laugh before leaning up against the tower, letting you work your magic.
You went ahead and opened the first file, but your jaw dropped when hundreds of files with some nondescript title listed down the page. You had nothing to decipher it, and it would take forever to comb through each and every one, but you had no choice.
You groaned.
"Trouble in paradise?"
"Just a couple hundred lines of files with gibberish as their titles. No biggie."
"We're going to be here for a minute, aren't we?"
"Maybe. Hang tight."
You studied the lines a bit closer, looking for any indication of what the rhyme or reason behind the nomenclature could possibly be. The garbled, random mess of letters and numbers taunted you as you scrambled through them all, the lines blurring together with no beginning nor end. There was no making sense of it. The stress of looming sense of failure and disappointment hovered over you, suffocating you. Sherry would have been able to figure this out by now. She would have had Leon in and out of here within thirty minutes without even breaking a sweat, but you were here causing him precious time that he may not even have with this unidentified BOW running around the halls.
Your chest began to tighten as the panic slowly ate at you, and there was nothing that you could do about it. The characters on the screen began to blur together as your eyes burned in their sockets, your sinuses stuffing up. You clenched your eyes shut. Leon deserved better than this reaction, than this failure, than you. He could very well die down there because you couldn't figure out a simple code to find a single file.
"Are you still with me, sweetheart?"
Despite the crushing fear, you couldn't help the way the pressure in your chest eased as Leon's voice filtered through your ears. You opened your eyes back up, the wetness dissipating.
"Copy, still here," you answered, trying to keep your voice from wavering.
"You went quiet there for a second."
"I, uh, was thinking. Sorry."
"I know that's not what I mean."
Your heart skipped, and you were at a loss for words. Your mind scrambled for a quip back, but you came up short.
"I'm find. I'm going to get you out of there."
"That's not what I'm worried about right now. Where did you go?"
How did he have such a way of making you speechless? Even in tense and potentially dire situations, he wasn't worried about his own; he was worried about yours.
Your lip trembled at just thinking about voicing your thoughts aloud, to Leon no less, but you couldn't just lie to him again.
"I don't know if I can find the file, Leon. There's so many, and I don't even know what I'm looking for."
It was quiet for a moment, and your heart sat heavy in your chest as you worried about what he could possibly be thinking of. Surely, he was going to tell Sherry how much of an idiot you are, and that he wanted nothing to do with you and your work ever again. That he wanted nowhere near—
"Well since you've been helping me this whole time, why don't I help you this time. Send me a screenshot of what you're seeing."
You paused. "What?"
"Send me the screenshot," he demanded, leaving no room for arguing.
You sighed, but reluctantly did what you were told. You snapped a screenshot of the folder and sent it to him. You watched through the camera as Leon pulled out his phone and zoomed into the image, his head tilting not unlike a dog. It was…almost endearing.
Leon pinched the screen, zooming in until the filenames filled his display. His brow furrowed for a second before he relaxed, a small smile stretching across his face.
"Huh."
You frowned. "What?"
"They're not random."
You blinked at the monitor. "Could've fooled me."
He ignored the jab, eyes darting over the list.
"See how every file has two letters in the middle?"
You looked closer.
A13-RC-0427
A13-RC-0428
A13-BW-0429
B07-HV-1102
Until he pointed it out, you'd completely missed it.
"The numbers change, could be dates, but the letters repeat," he continued. "That's a category."
"You know what they mean?"
Leon shrugged.
"Not exactly. But government labs love abbreviations. Umbrella wasn't any different. First block's probably the project or storage sector. Middle letters are the file type. Last number's just the document ID. If they're hiding data on a BOW, they're not going to call it 'Monster Report.' It'll be buried under whatever designation they gave it."
His thumb tapped the screen. "BW."
You looked between the filenames.
"Bio-Weapon?"
"That's my guess."
"Well, we have evidence of the BOW, but now we need names, dates, conversations. Anything else that brain can come up with?"
"Now you're pushing it."
You couldn't help but stifle the giggle that nearly left your lips as you watched him shake his head, but he began combing through them nonetheless. He scrolled down quite a ways before he stopped, a chuckle reverberating through your ears.
"What do I get?"
You blinked. "Huh? What do mean?"
He looked up at the camera that you were watching him through, and you didn't know how, but it felt like he was staring right through it and into your soul.
"If I tell you what the file is, what do I get?"
"Uhhh…" Your heart began to thunder in your chest, the whooshing of the blood running through your ears drowning out the normal ambience of the office. "A high five? My deepest appreciation?"
"How about a–"
At that moment a violent crash from across the server room cut Leon off, and you both startled. He whipped around as you flipped through the different cameras, searching for the source of the sound.
But your blood ran cold at what you found.
The Prion-82 infected BOW had crashed through the tiled ceiling, spasming as she searched for the source of the sound in the server room.
"Leon! Run!" you couldn't help but scream, fear and horror replacing any warmth that you were feeling with yours and Leon's conversation.
Leon cursed, but he looked back up at the camera.
"D16-CL-531. Get it! Don't worry about me until you get that damn file downloaded," he shouted before taking down out of the room and into the dark hallway, the BOW taking off after him with an ear piercing screech.
pairing: jake sully/reader
tags: explicit sexual content, human/na'vi, size kink, scent kink, p in v, creampie, no use of y/n for reader insert
words: 16k
NA'VI WORDS USED
tewng - loincloth
kuru - neural queue
Late at night in Hell’s Gate, you lie with Jake Sully curled up in your cot. The both of you hardly fit onto the shitty, narrow mattress, but you don’t mind, tangling your limbs together till you’re not quite sure what’s yours and what’s his.
The sheets smell like sex and sweat, still fresh enough to be pleasant instead of musty. Jake’s chest rises and falls a little quicker than usual underneath your head, his heartbeat still coming down from the happy ending of a couple minutes prior. Being with Jake is always good, regardless of the adjustments you have to make for his wheelchair. There’s no pinning you to the wall or kneeling to take you from behind, but his fingers and tongue are more than skilled enough to make up the difference.
This, though, is probably the best part. Laying together in post-coital haze, skin sticking to each other, warm breath hushing into the quiet air. You nuzzle sleepily into Jake’s chest, content to forget where you end and he begins, just one big puddle of spent energy and lingering, fuzzy affection.
"Mmm,” Jake murmurs, shifting his head to press a kiss to the top of your head. “That was good.”
You mumble something wordless in agreement, nestling deeper into his chest. It’s one of the only times you get to feel smaller than Jake, tucked up underneath his chin. Jake likes it too, you know; you can tell by the way he’s always pulling you against his chest while you’re in bed, wrapping you up in arms kept strong by maneuvering his wheelchair around.
“Baby,” Jake speaks again, his voice dropped rough and low. “I got a question.”
You yawn, wanting to push your face back into the hollow of his throat and tell him to ask you in the morning. It’s been a long day in the labs, your eyes strained from hours of running over data screens and yesterday’s logs. Jake’s got other ideas, digging his chin into the top of your head like he knows you’re trying to slip into sleep.
“Wha’?” you grumble, rolling over a bit so you can look up at him. In the dark of the room, not much of Jake’s face is visible. Being a lab geek has its perks, but you’re still only an intern, and that guarantees your quarters will never get a window to let in the otherworldly light of Polyphemus.
“I was just wondering,” Jake starts, and you feel his swallow more than you see it, his Adam’s apple bobbing up and down in his throat. “If you’d ever wanna do… stuff… while I’m in my avatar."
The question takes you aback for a moment, stilling whatever gripe you had planned for him. As Grace’s trainee, it’s in your job description to help monitor and care for the avatars and their drivers, so it’s not like you’re unfamiliar with Jake’s alter ego. You helped grow the damn thing, watching over the huge blue body as it developed suspended in a tank of stasis fluid.
But you hardly ever get to see him in it. Jake’s almost always out in the forest with his avatar, roaming farther than Norm and Grace ever dare. You can’t say you blame him — if you had a shot at seeing Pandora through Na’vi eyes, you’d take it too — but it makes the thought of him with you in that alien body strange. Not just with you, but on you, inside you, big blue hands and striped skin and-
Jake must take your silence for refusal, because he begins to backpedal immediately.
“Forget it,” he starts, smoothing a hand down the curve of your spine like he can wipe away the offer. “I didn’t mean… well, I know it’d be weird-”
“Jake,” you cut him off, patting his chest. “I didn’t say no, dummy. Just- what made you think of that?”
Jake shrugs, shifting a little beneath you. He blows out a breath, and for a moment, his face twists into something you can’t read in the dark. A glimpse of what might be shame flashes across his features before he turns his head, hiding his expression from you.
“I don’t really get to do everything I want in this body,” he admits, his voice quiet, almost blending into the hum of Hell’s Gate’s constantly whirring generators. “The ways I wanna touch you, hold you… I can’t. But the avatar ain’t like that.”
“Oh.” The realization knocks something in your chest loose, rattling behind your ribcage. You wouldn’t change a thing about Jake, and his performance in bed has more than lived up to your expectations. You kinda like that he takes things slow, figuring out ways to make each touch feel good for the both of you. It makes him intentional, every skim of his fingers thought out for you.
But you didn’t realize what he’s been thinking of on the other end — all the other things he wants to do, things he probably hasn’t done since his service put him in that chair. You’d never ask Jake for more than what he can give, but if he wants to try this…
“Sure.”
Jake’s head jerks back towards you, like he’s a little surprised at how quickly you’ve agreed. His hand stills for a moment on your back, then tightens, wrapping around the dip of your waist.
“I don’t want you to agree ‘cause of guilt or something,” Jake starts, though you can already hear his heart pick up pace in his chest. “Y’know I don’t need pity-”
“I know that, dickhead,” You scold, prodding at his sternum so he quits. Of course he’s putting on the heroics about alien sex. “I wanna try. Might be weird, yeah, but…”
“But?”
You flush, ducking your head back into the cover of his chest. Jake curls to meet you, not letting you hide against the coarse hair there. He wheedles, bumping his nose along your forehead. “But?”
“But you look good as a Na’vi,” you admit, grumbling into his skin. “So tall, and those big eyes… those fangs…”
Jake laughs outright, the sound bubbling up through where you lay against him. You grouse, displeased at his sniggering. How did the tables turn from him apologizing to your embarrassment, exactly?
“That right?” Jake teases, pressing a kiss to your hair, sounding altogether too pleased with himself. “Have you been crushin’ on Na’vi, honey? I’m pretty big, I dunno if you can take all that…”
You scowl, offended at the implication. Squirming under the blankets, you poke sharply at Jake’s belly, reminding him exactly who he’s talking to.
“I take you all the time,” you rebuke, digging your chin into his chest in reprimand. “I can take your stupid avatar dick.”
The moment Jake undoes his loincloth, you realize you probably cannot, in fact, take his stupid avatar dick.
It’s been a few weeks since that late night discussion, long enough that you'd started to worry that you'd never get the chance to fulfill Jake's request. After all, it’s not really convenient to fuck an avatar. Not many places in Hell’s Gate are tall enough to fit a nine-foot tall alien body, while also being private enough to avoid a run-in with HR. Bright blue and huge, Jake’s not exactly inconspicuous.
You suggested just sneaking into the outdoor bunking unit, where the rest of the avatars sleep dreamlessly when they're not being piloted from the link pods. It's fairly reasonable, given it's within the compound and easily accessible to you. Jake's presence wouldn't be questioned, either, as long as he made up some excuse about not sleeping in Hometree for the night.
But you were both a little creeped out by the idea of fucking among the silently occupied bunks, surrounding yourself with the sleeping alien counterparts of your coworkers. Besides, there's no airlock in the avatar housing, and Jake insisted that he didn't want you to wear your exopack mask; at least not this time. While a part of you thrills at the implication of there being a next time with his avatar, it does significantly limit your options to indoor spaces only.
The lab works, but you’re never alone there. Grace and her underlings practically live in the place, buzzing in and out, always piloting their own avatars or monitoring the constant streams of new data and life you pick up from Pandora. With the scientist quarters close by, it’s hard to predict your coworkers' patterns, too — they work at odd times, kept up into the wee hours by shifts in the rainforest's atmosphere or detected pollution upticks near RDA factories.
But finally, you and Jake are alone, through no small effort; you've whiled away a significant amount of the evening waiting for the place to empty out. You had to make up a good reason to occupy the lab during its few empty hours, so you stayed under the pretense of checking the vitals of Jake's avatar, which he just couldn't drag back from his training in the forest until nightfall. The last stragglers went to bed a couple of hours ago, and the bags under their eyes implied a good long quiet period.
You're more nervous than you want to admit to yourself, shifting back and forth on your feet before Jake. Energy has been building up underneath your skin all day, apprehension thrumming under your skin as you tried to stay busy at your desk. It's made you jumpy, wondering if your coworkers can tell you're about to do something far and beyond inappropriate with one of the RDA's prized specimens.
Fucking Jake as a human has already earned you some criticism in the lab. In Hell's Gate, everyone is so close together that gossip spreads within seconds, and your peers knew about your relationship with him almost before you did. But while hooking up with the unpopular, intruding grunt has garnered a couple disapproving stares, you shudder to think what would happen if you're found out for having sex with his avatar. Technically, the body isn't Jake, only a suit on loan from the program. You can't imagine your higher-ups taking very kindly to you getting your hands all over it for purposes other than strictly research.
It's not like that's going to stop you, though. Not now, with Jake in his big, blue, alien body, grinning down at you like a predator tracking prey.
You swallow thickly as Jake’s loincloth drifts to the floor. It’s not like you haven’t seen his dick before. You watched that avatar grow, including all his reproductive functions. But you haven’t seen it since Jake inhabited that body, since it became more than just a lifeless science project floating in an oversized test tube.
“I assume you’re familiar?” Jake murmurs, taking himself in hand. Christ alive, he’s so big — you forget just how big his avatar is every time you see him. His head nearly brushes the lab ceiling, his yellow eyes reflecting faintly in the blue light of the lab screens.
It’s hard to keep your focus on him when you only reach about belly-button height, his crotch at eye-level. Your breath catches as your gaze flickers up to his face, then back down to his dick like a gravitational pull.
Something about his words snaps you out of it, and your eyes skitter away, like you’ve been caught staring. Your cheeks burn with sudden heat, a flush rising to your skin as you turn your face from Jake.
“Uhm… yeah, sorta,” you mumble, staring hard at the shining silver tubes that hook up to one of the avatar pods. “Wasn’t ever really my… focus…”
Jake raises his carbon dioxide respirator as he huffs out a laugh, the sound muffled by the breather. His chuckle is familiar in its teasing, though strange to hear from the mouth of such a different body. He squats, those long, muscular thighs bending easily to bring him down to your level.
One big hand reaches out, brushing gently against your neck. You try not to shrink under the warmth and weight of it, your heart skipping a beat. Jake’s fingers close gently around your chin, long enough to wrap around your entire jaw as he turns your face back to him.
“Come on then, kid,” he murmurs, inviting you in with a tilt to his head. “Get familiar.”
You’d love to flirt back, to sass him back with all the snarky banter you usually share. But the words escape you, every tease dying on your tongue. Nerves make your mouth dry, your tongue darting out to wet your lips.
Taking one tentative step forward, then another, you edge your way towards Jake. He watches you with a twinge of amusement, the corner of his lips drawing up into a smirk. The bastard thinks it's funny how nervous his new form makes you. You resist the urge to scowl at him, bolstering your courage to reach out and touch.
Jake’s half-hard already, and your breath catches as your fingers brush against him. The skin of his dick is hot, hotter than you remember his human erections being. Before you can lose your nerve, you wrap your fingers around his base.
He’s so big in your hand, bigger than you ever pictured in your head. It makes sense, logically — Jake’s over eight feet now, of course his genitals would grow to match — but somehow your brain stutters at the difference.
It’s a lot similar to his human cock, in most ways. The shape is almost the same, discounting the size difference; a long shaft, slightly thicker in the center, tapering into a mushroom head. It’s blue, just like the rest of his skin, and striped in the same tabby-like patterns. As you get closer to the tip, his shaft darkens into a deeper shade of blue, then fades to the same pink as his nose and tongue right at the slit.
Trails of dotted bioluminescence, like those that freckle his cheeks and chest, swirl down the skin of Jake’s dick. If you’re not mistaken, they pulse in time with the throb of his length in your hand.
You stare down at it, unsure for a moment what to do.
“You’re… pretty.” you mutter dumbly, eyes following down the twisting trails of glowing freckles. Like little constellations.
Jake barks out a laugh, and your eyes snap up to him, startled by the sudden sound. He grins down at you, his sharp incisors glinting in the light of a nearby monitor. Your cheeks burn hotter, and your gaze darts away again, overcome by the sheer size and strangeness of him.
“Easy, sweet girl,” Jake coos, tilting your head back to him again, his fingers applying gentle pressure to your neck. “It’s just me, alright? ‘S nothing to be scared of. I’m glad you think I’m pretty.”
You nod, eyes dipping from that steady yellow gaze to where Jake’s cock lays heavy in your palms. His words do something to soothe the ball of nerves that’s knotted up in your stomach, smooth some of the tension from your shoulders. It’s just Jake. Nine feet tall and bright blue and half-hard, maybe, but it’s Jake.
“Can I…?” You start, the murmur trailing off into the quiet beeps and pings of the surrounding lab equipment. It feels like the first time all over again, everything about his body strange and new and thrilling, even as it wracks your nerves.
Jake nods a little too quick, like he’s eager to get your hands on his body. “Yeah, yeah sweetheart, lemme just-"
His hand closes around your wrist, coaxing you to drop your grip on his shaft. For a second, Jake's ears flicker back like he misses the contact, but he's already moving, tugging you out of the lab's main circle of monitors and link pods.
Jake leads you to a familiar off-shoot from the main lab, the avatar physical therapy room. It's a good spot, and you wonder why you haven't thought of it before, given that it's suited to fit Jake's unique requirements. The ceilings here are high enough to accommodate the greater height of Na'vi bodies, the floors padded with soft mats for the comfort of the avatar drivers as they work out whatever injuries or soreness they encounter during their time in their alternate bodies. There's a air-locked door that leads straight to the outside portion of the compound, where the gardens lay, and past them the avatar bunking, so that the drivers can come and go as they please. The air index is set for human needs, given that the avatars are often accompanied by doctors walking them through exercises, but you could let in the Pandoran atmosphere if needed.
Jake's bare feet pad against the soft give of the floor mats as he leads you into the room, the low night-shift safety lights flickering on as you enter. Pulling you forward, Jake slides down to the mat with a thump, his tail curling to the side. He leans back against the wall, spreading his long, striped legs wide.
“C’mere,” he grunts, pulling you forward by your wrist. Jake brings you down to his lap, settling you onto one of his thighs, propped up against his chest. He’s warm, and so large and solid behind your back. You’re tempted to burrow into his side and hide away from how your heart is racing, but Jake’s got other plans. “There’s a better angle. Knock yourself out, honey.”
You swallow, staring down at his cock, bobbing expectantly between his legs. Your own thighs press together as you shift, a hot trickle desire starting somewhere deep in your gut.
Jake’s pillowed his head with his arms, elbows jutting out as he leans back against the wall to watch you. His pupils have blown a little wider, black swallowing up some of the feline gold of his iris. It makes you shiver, being watched so intently like this, with a gaze that’s somehow wilder, more predatory than when he’s human.
You pause when you reach for him, eyes alighting on a patch of black hair that nestles above Jake’s dick. It’s not like the pubic hair on his human body, which leads in from a happy trail and expands out over his inner thighs. Just a small bit of hair, just above his erection.
Frowning thoughtfully, you tip your head up to Jake. “Do all Na’vi have that, or is that an avatar trait, like your eyebrows?”
Jake raises an aforementioned brow at you, looking faintly amused. “I don’t know, clever girl. I haven’t really seen any Omatikayan guys whipping it out recently.”
Your cheeks go pink, and you duck your head. Right.
Jake doesn’t seem to mind being poked at like a science experiment, though, because he only chuckles, placing his palm on the back of your head. It’s heavy, his fingers long enough to splay from one ear to the other, like he’s cradling your entire skull.
“Keep goin’,” he encourages, threading his fingers into your hair. “It’s all yours.”
Warmth pools in your gut, and you can’t help the small smile the curls at the edges of your mouth. You hadn’t been sure about exploring Jake’s avatar, but the longer you look, the more you find that you want him.
Your enthusiasm is echoed in Jake, who keeps his eyes trained on every nervous shift you make. His sharp gaze doesn't leave you, even as he brings his respirator up to sip the air.
You press your side into Jake’s chest, leaning on him as support as you focus between his thighs. The hand he had resting on your head slips down, snaking around your waist to hold you steady. Jake must feel the shuddering breath you suck in when you take him into your hands again, fingers trembling with an electrifying mix of nerves and desire.
Using both hands now, you can feel more of him, the weight and heat of his erection. The first thing that strikes you is how soft Jake is. Not literally — he’s certainly well on his way to full-mast — but his skin. The planes of blue are silky, smoother and softer than human skin. Curious, you reach one hand to stroke down his stomach and find the same texture there.
Jake’s stomach muscles tense and relax under your touch, fluttering with the trail of your fingertips. On a whim, you brush your fingers back up his stomach, testing to see if he’s ticklish. You’re rewarded with a gruff laugh; a puff of amused air that ruffles the hair on top of your head.
“Gettin’ distracted?” Jake snickers, his tail flicking once behind him. You huff, the soft stroke of your fingers turning into a sharp jab as you prod at his stomach.
“Impatient,” You reprimand, though when you look up at him, Jake's grinning, completely unphased.
The hand around your waist tightens, his fingertips digging into the softness of your flank like a reminder. You roll your eyes at him, but obey nonetheless, sliding both palms back over his dick.
Running our fingers down Jake’s length, you notice that as he’s gotten harder ridges and bumps have raised along his length. They start at the base of his shaft, then lead down until they stop just before the flare of his tip, giving his dick a texture that’s far different from his human counterpart.
At first, you think they’re veins, thick and close to the surface. When you push your thumb down, testing them slightly, they don’t roll under the skin like a vein would, but instead keep their shape. You curl in a little closer, inspecting them with fascination.
They must be permanent ridges, natural raised twists that rib down his length. It almost puts you in mind of how a tree root gnarls, but it’s prettier than that, and more uniform, too. Each ridge is mirrored on the other side of his dick, creating a twining pattern. In passing, you wonder if the ridges are unique to each Na’vi male, but you’re quickly distracted by the thought of how that ribbing will feel rubbing against your insides. The notion makes you shudder, your thighs pressing together against the heat that grows there.
There’s an answering groan above you, and your eyes snap up to Jake, distracted for a moment. He’s stopped watching you, eyes closed, his head tipped back against the wall as your hands explore. Underneath you, his thigh is tense, the corded muscles tightening in reaction.
“Oh,” you breathe, looking down at where your thumbs press along two of his ridges. Curious, you slide the pads of your thumbs up the ribbing again, tracing the pattern with a firmer grip. “There?”
Jake’s hips jerk up once at the stimulation, thrusting his cock through your fingers. The movement jostles you, and your head snaps up, eyes fixed on Jake. He moans again, his brow wrinkling with effort.
“Yeah,” he grunts, his eyes opening to meet yours. With a touch of pride, you see his gaze has gone a little heavy-lidded, the rise and fall of his chest picking up speed. “Yeah, right there, baby.”
Sucking your bottom lip between your teeth, you readjust your grip, starting from the very base. He’s hard, and so hot under your hands, warmth that spreads into your palms. As you trace his ridges down to the very tip, Jake grunts under the attention. His fingers tighten at your waist, keeping you crushed close against him.
A dribble of precum leaks from his tip, beading at the sweet pink slit. At first, you think it’s only shining in the light of the lab’s running monitors, reflecting back the glow of the computers. But as you bend closer, you can see it’s got a luster of its own, glowing faintly in the dark. Like the bioluminescent freckles that are painted across his cheeks and legs and chest, his precum is phosphorescent, the light tinged with blue.
“Like little stars…” you murmur, recalling your thought from earlier as your eyes flicker between the dots on his shaft and inner thighs, then back to his pretty precum. You’re close enough now that your warm breath washes over Jake’s cockhead, and he jolts at the feeling, dick twitching up on its own.
“Glad you like it,” Jake says, but he’s goading you through gritted teeth. Obviously, letting you play with his cock is working him up more than he cares to admit. He rocks his hips up into your hands, dragging the hot weight of his dick through where your palms cup him. "How 'bout some hands-on appreciation?"
You roll your eyes at him despite yourself. Experimentally, you pump him once, using both hands and twisting slightly at the tip, the way you know he likes as a human. Jake’s snarking cuts off quickly, and he groans, his leg tensing underneath you. “Fuck, baby..”
Emboldened by his reaction, you swipe your thumb over his tip. A bead of precum comes away on the pad of your thumb, and you hold it up to your face. It keeps its iridescence, glowing faintly against your skin.
You look up at Jake, and find him already watching you, his eyes wide. Behind him, Jake's tail lashes, thumping enthusiastically against the floor mat. If you weren't feeling so worked up yourself, you'd crack a joke about his dogged eagerness, but you're already antsy yourself.
Slowly, making sure his eyes are still on you, you raise the pad of your thumb to your mouth and lick.
There’s hardly enough to get a real taste, but what you can savor is surprisingly pleasant. Jake’s precum isn’t salty or bitter like a human’s, though it still has that undercurrent of musk; it's earthier, almost aromatic.
Beside you, Jake lets out a shaky exhale, his chest dipping. You can feel his cock jump, twitching against your thigh, and it sends of a jolt of heat between your legs.
“Goddamn,” he hisses, his voice hoarse. “You’re drivin’ me up the wall, sweetheart. Are you about done exploring?”
You swallow thickly, your hand dropping away from your lips. Done implies moving on to the next step, something you’re not quite sure of. All of the bravado you’ve built up playing with Jake’s dick leaves you, the little ball of nerves tightening in your stomach.
“I- I guess so,” you mutter, ducking your head under his chin. You suck your bottom lip between your teeth, chewing on it uncertainly. It’s not as if sex with Jake is an unfamiliar thing. But this, sitting on the lap of a giant blue alien, is far beyond your realm of expertise. It’s a little ridiculous, given that it’s part of your job description to study his biology, but the newness of it all makes you skittish.
Jake’s hand slides up from your side, smoothing over your upper back. It’s a soothing touch, and he leans down to where you’re curled into his side, still propped up on his thigh.
“Second thoughts, honey?” he asks, nuzzling his face into your hair. Jake’s nose is flatter now, sloping down into a blunt feline tip, and he presses it against the top of your head. The sensation reminds you of a huge cat, nudging into your face for attention.
“No,” you start, though your voice pitches higher at the end of the word. You try again, swallowing down the dryness in your throat. “No, I just…”
You stare down at his cock, bobbing expectantly against his stomach. You want to touch it more, you do. You’ve already grown slick between your thighs, and every time your legs clench, the pressure sends a little ripple of pleasure up into your gut. But…
"I don’t really know what to do,” you whisper. A little humiliated at the confession, you tuck your head into Jake’s chest, cheeks burning. His hand slows on your back, long fingers resting lightly on your spine. “I mean, I know, but I…”
Jake shushes you, cooing softly into your ear. His breath ghosts over your cheek, warm and close and rumbling. With a rush of affection, you realize he's purring like a loved-up feline, the vibrations reverberating through his chest and into you. It's a surprisingly charming sensation, almost ticklish.
“S’okay, honey. I’ve got plenty of ideas on what I wanna do to you,” Jake promises, and the rumble of his voice so close makes you shudder. “Let me take care of it.”
You find yourself nodding against his chest, relief smoothing out some of the tension in your shoulders. Desire pools in your gut, and you slide your thighs together instinctively. You’d almost forgotten the whole reason Jake had initiated this was to fuck you in ways he couldn’t in his human body. Whatever he’s about to do, he must have been thinking about it for a while, and the prospect has your stomach tightening pleasantly.
Jake takes his cue, and the hand he had stroking down your spine shifts, wrapping tightly around your waist. He hauls you up off of his thigh, the movement startling a little gasp out of you. Jake’s always been strong, but he moves you so easily now, manhandling you like nothing more than a doll.
He sets you back in his lap, facing his front now. Coaxing you to his chest, Jake moves so your knees bracket his hips, forcing your thighs apart, and you flush, feeling exposed.
If Jake notices your embarrassment, he doesn't bother to pay it any mind, already tugging at the hem of your shirt. His knuckles brush against the bare skin of your ribs as he makes an impatient noise, itching to get you undressed. "C'mon, kid, don't make me wait."
You laugh at his eagerness, but help him regardless, lifting your arms over your head so he can pull the fabric up and off. The shirt is instantly discarded, tossed carelessly across the PT room. Your bra doesn't survive much longer, Jake reaching behind you with practiced familiarity to undo it. To give him credit, you're a little surprised his new big fingers are nimble enough to unhook the clasps.
Jake sucks in a breath the moment your chest is bare, his tail giving a harsh thwack against the wall. Reading Jake's familiar expressions in an avatar's face is novel to you, and you're not quite sure that you've got every cue down, but the look he's got now is unmistakable. His eyes round into wide, excited circles, his pointed ears perking up and swiveling towards you, pricked for the sound of your breathing, drinking in the way the hush of air matches the rise and fall of your bare breasts.
Jake is hungry, his eyes greedy as they rove across your naked skin.
He doesn't bother asking for permission — your body is far more familiar to him than his avatar is to you, after all — a huge blue hand coming up to cup one of your tits. You let out a soft noise of gratification as he kneads at the soft flesh, making Jake's ears twitch. His hands are calloused, much like they are in his human body, palms rough from weeks of training in the forest, toughened by constant climbing and shooting his bow.
Unlike his human hands, though, is the sheer size of him. Jake's palm is big enough to cover almost the entirety of your breast as he fondles you, oversized fingertips pressing firmly into the suppleness. His other hand slides behind your back, forearm bracing behind you to keep you in a steady hold.
"Gotta get my mouth on these," Jake rumbles, ducking his head to do just that. He presses kisses to the top of your tit, then down the valley between the swell of your breasts. Every brush of his lips against your skin seems to tingle, and when he drags a fang lightly down the curve of your underboob, you shiver. Jake looks up at you at he works, taking in the fluttering of your eyelashes with a smug smirk.
"You've got such pretty tits, baby," he praises, lips hot against your sensitive skin. His tail undulates slowly behind him, flicking in satisfaction. "My perfect woman."
You hum, head tilted down to watch him. Jake's back is curved low to burrow into your breasts, and you slide your hands off of his shoulders to feel how the muscles of his chest flex in this position. Patting at his pectorals, you grin.
"You're not so bad yourself, Sully."
"Gee, thanks." Jake sniggers wryly. "You're a real charmer, aren'tcha?
You huff a little laugh at that, but the giggle quickly cuts into a groan as Jake finally brings his attention to your nipple, licking a warm stripe over the budded peak. He's quick to repeat the motion, the broad, flat plane of his tongue rasping over the nub again and again. The feeling of his avatar's tongue is unlike anything you've experienced before, hot and soft, but almost barbed, catching at little on your skin. It's addictive, and you push your chest up into Jake's mouth without thinking about it.
Jake growls in approval, parting his lips to suck your nipple into his mouth. A soft sigh slips from your lips as he suckles, the pressure sweet and sating. It stokes the pleasure in your gut, heat flaring low in your tummy. You can already feel how slick you're getting, the wetness between your legs growing from the way your thighs are stretched open over Jake's hips and the attention he's lavishing on your chest.
"Jake…" you murmur, hand coming up to rake through his hair. He's changed it some since he started training with the Omatikaya, little black braids hanging down in front of his ears where he used to let it hang loose. When he doesn't look up, too busy mouthing at your tits, you tug lightly on one of his braids.
Jake's eyes flick up to yours, and he grins around your nipple, lips curving against the swell of your breast. His smirk is far too pleased, especially for a man who's currently suckling needily at your bosom.
"Impatient," he smirks, echoing your earlier tease. His mouth pops off of your tit, leaving the rosy nub wet and peaked. Jake's tongue swipes over his lips, a flash of fang glowing white in the PT room's low light. "Why can't you just take what I give you, huh?"
You scowl at him, squirming in his lap to scoot yourself further up his thighs. He's being such a dick, teasing you like this when he knows you've been getting worked up over this for weeks. First and foremost, you've been worried about getting caught, but underneath that worry, there's been a growing thrill about how new all of this is going to be. While it's still Jake underneath all that muscle and sinew and prehensile tail, the fact that his alien body is strikingly different is undeniable.
Will you even be able to fit him? You're dubiously uncertain, given the new size difference between the two of you. Maybe you ought to have a less tentative grasp on the concept, given it's your job to study avatar biology, but the thought of applying those theories to your own body is daunting. It's not like Na'vi/human sexual explorations are catalogued research, after all.
You want to find out, though, and Jake is taking forever to get there.
"You're going so slow," you grumble, pulling insistently on his braid again. You roll your hips down experimentally, trying to get some friction from where you're straddling Jake's hard-on. The pressure is good, but your pants and underwear block any real progress, and you whine. "Come on, Jake."
Jake only smirks, grabbing ahold of your hips. He stops your movements easily, thumbs pressing hard against the jut of your hipbones as he halts your grinding.
"Quit whining," he snickers, leaning in to nip at the tender skin at the corner of your jaw. "I've gotta get you ready; you're so small. Don't wanna hurt you."
You huff, rolling your eyes. In theory, you know it's because Jake really does care about you, doesn't want to damage anything in his eagerness with this big, brawny new body. But there's an undertone to his voice that's smug, a little tilt to his mouth that tells you exactly how pleased with himself he truly is. Like he's fooling anyone — you can feel his erection pressed to your thigh, hot and heavy.
"You're just being a dick and drawing this out to make me squirm."
Jake doesn't deny it, the corners of his big, yellow-green eyes crinkling up. "It's working, isn't it?"
Leveling him with a glare, you reach up and flick at one of his pointed ears. "At least get me naked, Sully."
Jake's got no protests for that particular order, only grinning ferally as he wraps his hands back around your waist. With a grunt, he hoists you up off of his lap, giving you enough room to shimmy out of your pants. The fabric bunches around your ankles as you struggle to kick it off, and Jake tugs them off fully with an impatient jerk. They're discarded just like your other clothes were — tossed to some dark corner of the PT room without a thought.
When it gets to your panties, though, Jake gives pause. You're already starting to draw them down, but Jake's palm presses against your fingers, stopping your fingers where they're wrapped around the waistband.
It's a lacy little pair, something cute you dug up from the corners of your military-standard wardrobe. Jake slips a finger under the elastic, pulling it forward and let it snap back to your skin. You give a little yelp, then glare at him, but he's not paying your complaint much mind at all, too entranced by the slope of your cunt under the sheer fabric.
"Cute," he croons, swiping a thumb across where one of the straps arcs up over your hip. You're slightly mollified by the attention. You have put thought into this, after all, given how important it seemed to Jake when he first brought it up. You went to the trouble of finding a matching set and everything, though Jake hadn't really noticed the details of your bra in his eagerness to get to your tits.
Jake's eyes flicker back up to you, his tongue darting out to draw across the tip of one of his fangs. The grin he gives you is wolfish, pleased with your little performance. "You dressed up for me?"
You can't help but smile back, cheeks heating under his stare. "You like it?"
Jake's eyes slide back down to the curve of your pubic bone, his finger tracing along the waistband to the front of your panties. He twiddles with the tiny bow that's sewn to the front, a purr reverberating up from his chest.
"'Course I do. Pretty things for my pretty girl."
You wiggle in Jake's lap, shifting your weight across the striped blue skin of his thighs. It's a bit of a novelty for you to be able to prop yourself up like this across his legs, to find warm muscle underneath you. Jake doesn't bother to correct your movement this time, just running a teasing fingertip down to where the fabric of your panties cuts into the flesh of your ass.
"Yeah, well, I thought we could match," you quip, reaching for the respirator mask slung around Jake's neck. He breathes in obediently when you lift it to his mouth, like he'd forgotten it was there entirely in favor of savoring your newly-bared skin. "You're the one who showed up in just a thong, remember?"
Jake barks a laugh, his expression twitching into something wry. He bats away the respirator, nose crinkling at you in a play at indignation.
"Smartass," he says, voice warm with affection. "Didn't hear you complaining about my tewng earlier."
It's true — when you'd radioed Jake earlier this evening, whispering to him over comms that the lab was clear, you hadn't been prepared to see him pop up in all of his loincloth-clad glory. As much as you like the human Jake, with his worn band t-shirts and Marine Corps hoodies, you have to admit that going Na'vi was a good look for him. He hasn't earned his cummerbund yet, so his attire is simple; a leather loincloth of animal hide that hangs low around his hips, his knife sheath, and a few woven armbands twined around his biceps, highlighting the muscle there. He'd flexed, smirking at you. "Fashionable, huh?"
You can't deny it, so you just scrunch your nose at him, annoyed at being called out. "Whatever. Not my fault you look good in your little Na'vi panties."
Chuckling, Jake just palms your ass, giving the soft flesh a firm squeeze in retribution. He's not going to waste more time squabbling with you, not when there's so much more he wants to do with you tonight, finally getting what he wants in this better body. Especially not when you're in his lap, pretty and flushed and smelling so good.
Jake ducks his head, shoulders curling down so he can press his face against your ribs. He takes a deep inhale, his nostrils flaring as he sucks in a lungful of air. When his eyes open, darting to your face, and then back down to your cunt, Jake's pupils have blown wide.
"Fuck," he groans, ears pinning straight back to his skull. "Fuck, mama, I gotta-"
Whatever he's gotta do is lost on you as Jake moves swiftly, heaving you up and off his lap. You squeak in surprise as Jake plops you back down on the ground, one big hand pushing your chest down, forcing you to lay flat. You go down hard enough to leave you winded, breath forced out of you in a puff.
"Jake-" you start to protest, struggling to your elbows, but he silences you with a firm palm on your stomach, keeping you pinned down.
"Quiet," he murmurs, shifting to his knees as he crawls towards you, pushing his head up between your legs. "Just be still."
Swallowing hard, your throat clicks as you comply, suddenly lost for words. Jake's shoulders are so broad, forcing your thighs open with ease. Not for the first time tonight, you feel as though you're spread wide open for him, bared for those big yellow eyes. The damp patch that's been growing on the crotch of your underwear feels cold suddenly, exposed to the conditioned air.
Jake keeps his hand steady on your stomach as he leans in, nose bumping up along your pelvis. His breath ghosts hot and close over the wet fabric, making your legs jerk instinctively closer around his head. He doesn't even bother to tease you, too busy worming his way in deeper between your legs.
It's not until he pushes the blunt tip of his nose directly against your crotch and snuffles that you realize what he's doing.
"Jake!" You squawk in protest, then clap your hand over your mouth, looking around the darkened lab like Grace is going to coming flying around the corner at any minute, HR violation paperwork in hand. When none of your coworkers appear outside the glass doorway of the PT room to investigate your noise, you turn your gaze back on Jake, eyes wide.
He's still totally engrossed between your legs, sucking in big breaths through his nostrils. There's absolutely nothing repentant about the way he nuzzles at the crux of your thighs, sniffing enthusiastically at your underwear, nose pressing against where your panties stick to your slick folds.
You squeeze your thighs around his big, dumb, blue head, trying to ward him off, but Jake only grunts, your effort completely lost on him. Damn him, and damn this size difference.
"Stop smelling me," you whisper furiously, still a little paranoid in the quiet of the PT room. "What the fuck is wrong with you?"
Jake pauses in his sniffing long enough to grin up at you, running the hand that's not pinning you down up the inside of your thigh, callouses brushing over your skin. He uses it to coax your legs apart again, urging you to open up around his head.
"Can't help it," he purrs, ears twitching against the sensitive skin of your inner thigh, the tips ticklish. "I've been smelling you all night. Didn't even realize it was you, 'til I got those stupid pants off. Thought it was just some new perfume."
That's new.
Of course, you'd both known that Jake's senses would be heightened in his avatar, scent and taste and touch beyond human experience. He can even see better than you right now, his gold-green eyes so much larger than yours, pupils expanded to suck in every trace of light in the dark.
Even with the weeks he's spent training with Neytiri, Jake's not completely used to this new body he gets to pilot. In his avatar, everything seems ramped up by a tenfold, his eyes and ears and nose so much more responsive than anything he's felt as a human. Parts of his body behave in strange ways, often against his bidding; his ears pricking high and forward when he's interested, pinning back when he's scolded, or his new tail always thrashing around with a mind of it's own.
You like Jake's new little tells, truth be told. He's not the type of guy who makes too much of a fuss about expressing his own emotions, often leaving you to pick up on his feelings from the little half-glances and cocked smiles he sends your way. But in his avatar, Jake doesn't have as much reign on his reactions. Every expression is bigger, bolder, harder to control, and while it frustrates Jake, you find it sweet. You can tell how he's feeling even if he's clumsily attempting to hide it, betrayed by his overactive tail and swiveling ears and cute sloped nose.
Somehow, though, you hadn't thought about Jake's new sensitivities exposing anything about you. It makes you blush, embarrassed at the thought of your own neediness being so obvious that he could smell it.
If you think about it, though, it makes sense that he can pick up on the scent of the arousal that's growing between your legs, sexed up enough to wet the crotch of your panties. And there's probably a biological reason why he'd be so attracted to the smell of a female ready to mate, though it's fascinating that that reaction applies to humans as well, not just Na'vi women. Is it because he's an avatar, his human DNA affecting his perception? Or perhaps he's subconsciously adjusted to your pheromones, given your established relationship? Shit, you'd really, really like to write this down-
Jake rudely interrupts your train of thought by licking over the damp spot on your panties, pressing the flat of his large tongue against the fabric. You jump, a surprised gasp tearing out of your throat at the wet pressure. Jake laughs into your cunt, the sound muffled against your underwear. A part of you wants to grind down into his tongue, seek out his mouth through the cloth, but your dignity is still smarting.
"You could smell me this whole time?" you ask, peering down at Jake between your legs. Heat rises to your cheeks as Jake pulls his head away from your crotch, leaning his cheek up against the pillow of your thigh. His nostrils are still flared, his breath a little too deep to be innocuous.
"Yeah, of course," he says casually, like he isn't telling you that your pussy stinks. He catches your sour look and smirks, his huge hands sliding down from your stomach to grasp onto your thighs. He squeezes the meat of your legs. "Relax, it's a compliment. It smells… sweet."
You suck your lower lip into your mouth, gnawing on it uncertainly. It's a new concept, and a slightly embarrassing one, but you can't accuse Jake of lying about how much he likes it. His tail waves enthusiastically behind him, and his eyes are earnest as he looks up at you.
"I promise, you smell good," Jake assures. His head dips down again, groaning as he inhales. "Shit, it's so good."
"This is weird," you complain, shoving his head back with the heel of your palm. "You're weird, Sully."
Jake huffs, pressing his forehead back insistently into your hand. "Sex with an alien, baby. What'd you expect?"
Fair point. You could argue the semantics on whether Jake actually counts as an alien, since he's technically human in everything but body. But his breath is puffing hot across the apex of your thighs, stirring the fine hair there, and the wet spot on your panties is starting to bother you.
"Did you set this up just to sniff me, then?" you challenge, narrowing your eyes as you look down at Jake. He grins, flashing you his sizable canines, like he thought you'd never ask.
"No," he murmurs, nosing in to give the crotch of your panties a quick kiss. "I didn't."
He gives your thighs another squeeze, fingertips pressing in hard before he slides his hands up to the lacy straps of your underwear. Hooking his fingers under, he pulls your panties down over the slope of your hips, guiding them off your ankles and throwing them with the rest of your clothes.
Jake nestles between your legs, settling there like he's got every right to take up the space. Laying flat on his tummy, he grabs your thighs and hoists them up over his freakishly broad shoulders, forcing a little squeak out of your mouth.
For a moment, he just gazes down at the slickness of your cunt, looking impossibly smug, like he's proud of how wet he's gotten you. You squirm under the attention, kicking your feet against the strong planes of his back. "Jesus, Jake, stop staring-"
A moan interrupts your tirade, tearing from your chest as Jake finally puts his mouth on you. He licks a broad stripe from your dripping hole all the way up to your clit, parting your folds around the firm muscle of his tongue.
If you'd thought the barbed texture of his tongue had been good while he'd been mouthing at your tits, it's even better against your pussy. Every lap drags a little at the hyper-sensitive skin, forcing your legs to twitch around his head as your gasp.
And Jesus, his tongue is so big, nearly able to cover your entire cunt when he opens wide. When Jake flattens it, you can feel the wet heat all the way from your swollen clit down to your entrance, like he could suck all of you into his mouth.
Now that Jake's finally decided to touch you, he's eating you out in earnest, licking and suckling and biting. He's already got an arsenal of tricks up his sleeve, given the amount of times you've done this before, little things he knows get you off. Usually, he takes longer teasing you, kissing and nipping at your pussy lips to work you up, but he's too eager tonight.
Jake's eyes are wide open as he buries his face in your pussy, huge and yellow like pretty twin moons, watching you from between your legs. The intensity of his gaze, paired with the pressure of his nose bumping against your clit as he curls his tongue into your hole, is enough to get your chest heaving.
You hide your face in your hands, overwhelmed by the barbed rasp of his tongue and the sight of his mouth working eagerly. Pleasure is coiling up in your gut embarrassingly fast, snapping taut like a cable. You're just starting to rock into his mouth, fingers pressed over your eyes, when Jake lifts his lips away from your cunt. Snapped from your haze, you whine with the sudden loss and peek out from between your fingers to look at him.
Jake's eyebrows are knitted as reaches up to your face, snagging both of your wrists in one large, striped hand. He yanks your fingers away with a frown, the lower half of his face wet with your slick.
"Eyes on me, pretty," he complains, nipping at the fat of your inner thigh in reprimand. He's careful not to let his fangs draw blood, but when he sucks a mark on top of the indents of his teeth, you know he's intent on leaving a bruise. "I wanna see."
"Okay, okay," you nod, your movements jerky and impatient as Jake's teeth worry at your delicate skin. Your hips twitch around his head in a silent plea, and he finally unlatches, pressing a hasty kiss to the hickey he's left before he's devouring you again.
Your hips cant up, trying to grind against his face, and Jake purrs in satisfaction, the vibration rumbling through his lips into you, shooting up your stomach. It makes you cry out, over and over, breathy little mewls that you try and fail to hold in. You don't know exactly how loud you're being in quiet darkness of the PT room, sound muffled by the blood that's rushing in your ears, but you know you're not being quiet.
Jake doesn't seem to mind at all, his pointed ears swiveling forward every time he makes you gasp or moan. It tickles against the skin of your inner thighs, making a delirious giggle bubble out of your chest. Jake looks up at the sound of your breathless laughter, grinning against your folds, his tail giving a happy beat against the matted floor.
"Feels good, baby?" he asks, pulling away for a moment. He presses a kiss to the curve of your pubic mound, lips soft against the tender skin.
"Uh-huh," you mumble, already starting to feel dazed just from his mouth. You dig your ankles into his back, pressing against his shoulder blades to urge him back between your legs. "Your giant tongue is fuckin' awesome."
Jake rolls his eyes at you, his hands squeezing at your hips reflexively. He releases his grip on you for a moment, snagging his respirator from where it hangs around his neck and bringing it up to his mouth. "Idiot."
You only grin, pushing yourself up higher on your elbows to get a better look at him as he sucks in a couple breaths. He's so pretty, his avatar attractive in a way you didn't expect. Honestly, you only regarded his other body with curiosity before he suggested fucking you with it, but now that you're actually doing the damn thing, you can't deny the appeal. Of course, it's helped by the fact that he's currently got his head burrowed between your legs.
"You ready for a little more?" Jake asks, letting the mask fall back to his chest. His hands return to your thighs, fingers nearly long enough to wrap around your entire leg.
You nod, swallowing thickly. Some of your confidence has worked up since Jake first pulled out his dick, and while the logistics of actually putting that thing inside you are still a little baffling, your curiosity outweighs your trepidation.
Jake hums in approval as he lowers his lips back to your cunt, the vibrations sending a pleasant shiver up your spine. He points his tongue to swirl little circles around your clit, and you suck in a harsh breath, heat shooting down from your gut to the tips of your toes.
With one hand, Jake pushes your thighs farther apart, breaking the cocoon they've made around his head, and with the other, he traces a finger around your hole. You bite your lip, resisting the urge to keen as you rock your hips up into his hand, begging for more.
When Jake finally pushes his finger in, it rips a moan from your throat, the sound wanton as he sinks his digit in up to the knuckle. You're more than wet enough, slick with your arousal and his spit, but the stretch is still a surprise. His hands are much larger now, and it feels like you've got two fingers inside you instead of just the one.
Jake crooks his finger inside you, prodding gently at the soft squishiness of your inner walls. He can reach a little further inside you now, and his touch is exploratory as he keeps his mouth busy at your clit, lapping dutifully.
You groan, eyes slipping shut again as Jake works his finger in and out, building up a nice little rhythm. He matches every thrust of his finger with a swipe of his tongue, coaxing soft mewls out from your chest.
You're unprepared for the second finger Jake adds, and your eyes fly open, gasping from the sting of the stretch.
"Shit — Jake!" you yelp, hands scrabbling to get a hold in his hair. Two of his fingers together are thick, and tears prick at the corner of your eyes as he worms himself in. Your hips jerk at the pressure, like your body's not quite sure if it wants to run away or seek him out.
"So whiny," Jake murmurs, his other hand gripping tighter onto your thigh, forcing you still. "You can take this, kid, no problem."
You can take it, but it doesn't stop you from tugging on his hair in revenge. Jake grumbles, nipping at your clit, the sharp point of his fangs making you clench down hard around his fingers with a gasp.
Jake works you slow, driving his fingers in unhurried and measured. You start to relax again, body sucking him in eagerly now as the burn fades to sating fullness. Wet noises squelch between you, loud enough in the quiet of the sleeping lab to make you blush.
The fist you had in his hair gentles, petting down his head as it bobs between your thighs. Your fingers card through Jake's soft black hair, eyes catching on the thick braid that snakes down his back, protecting his neural queue. You know the Na'vi use their kurus for connection when they're mating — you can't link up to Jake, but you wonder if playing with it a little could get him off, too.
You tamp down on the urge to reach for it and find out, not wanting to interrupt Jake when his tongue is flicking just right. Maybe next time, you think, and the coil of heat inside you only grows at the thought of next time.
Your interest is quickly reverted as Jake's long, prodding fingers find a familiar notch inside you. A thrill races through your stomach as he presses there, his eyes meeting yours in a question for approval.
"Oh, God," you groan, biting down on your bottom lip. You worry it between your teeth, brow drawing down in concentrated pleasure. "Right there, Sully-"
Without missing a beat, Jake returns to it, rubbing hard against the softness of your walls. Ecstasy rocks through you as you grind down onto his fingers, your body shuddering in pleasure. Jake moans in response, his tail undulating eagerly and flicking across the bottoms of your feet where they're thrown over his shoulders.
Heat is building up quick in your gut now, amplifying with every crook of Jake's fingertips. He switches from flicking his barbed tongue across your clit, wrapping his lips around the sensitive bud instead and suckling. You cry out, your hand tightening in his hair as you grow closer and closer to the edge.
"Jake- Jake, I'm close-" you pant, humping your hips against his face as he works his fingers in and out. His elbow knocks against your knee as he thrusts, but you can hardly feel it, every nerve in your body seeming to condense in your cunt.
"C'mon, give it to me," Jake mumbles, words sloppy and muffled by your pussy. "Give it to me, pretty." The reverberations have you reaching a little higher, chest heaving for breath as your face screws up.
Your legs lock up around Jake's head, crushing tight around his jaw as you start to tip over. He hardly seems to notice, giving a particularly harsh suck to your clit as he drives his fingers home one more time.
"I'm gonna- I'm gonna-"
Your orgasm crashes over you like a wave, the heat that's been pooling in your gut spilling over all at once. A soft cry tears from your throat as the pleasure blinds you, your thighs shaking around Jake's head, your hole clenching hard and hungry around his fingers.
Jake doesn't stop, just keeps working you through your climax, the soft plap of his fingers barely legible through the buzzing in your ears. Your pussy flutters around him, walls pulsing as you come down from your high.
He scissors his fingers inside you, just to stretch you out a little bit more for good measure, and doesn't quit till you're smacking at his chest, whining from overstimulation. Only then does Jake lift his head from your cunt, his satisfied smile wet with his salvia and your juices.
"Enjoy yourself?" he teases, pulling his fingers out from your hole. Your breath catches at the loss, coming quick and uneven from your orgasm.
"Asshole," you complain weakly, pushing on his collarbone. Your tiny human hand does nothing to budge him, and you sigh. "Yes."
Jake purrs, crawling up over your body to see you eye-to-eye. You lie bonelessly beneath him as he holds himself up on his forearms, your body turned to a pleasant mush. It feels like all the warmth that had built up in your stomach has spread out through your body, making your fingers and toes and head feel fuzzy and warm.
Jake dips his head down for a kiss, and you accept him easily, opening up to let him slot his lips over yours. His tongue feels just as big in your mouth as it did on your pussy, licking the backs of your teeth as he makes you taste yourself.
When he finally breaks away, Jake presses a sloppy kiss to the corner of your mouth, then another to your cheek. He trails across your face, rubbing his mouth and chin over your skin, his chest still rumbling in that proud purr. The spit and slick that wet his lips get smeared over your skin, and you scrunch your face up at him.
"Ew, Jake. You're making me all gross."
"You're already gross," Jake snarks, prodding you in the side with one of his fingers, still slippery with your juices. You scowl, twisting and turning underneath him to get away from his poking. It's futile, and Jake's already smushing his face against yours again, his nose pressing into your cheek. "This is all you, baby."
Jake's clearly enjoying how small you are underneath him, pinned in easily by his big warm body and unable to shove him off. Ignoring your protest, he just keeps nosing at you, rubbing his cheek over your jaw, inhaling deep at the crook of your neck.
You grumble something incoherent, but your post-orgasm bliss makes it hard to hold onto any irritation. Stretching your legs out until your toes tremble, you yawn underneath Jake, basking in the gratifying afterglow of a good climax.
The soft rush of breath ruffles Jake's hair, and he looks up from where he's been nuzzling insistently into your collarbone, the corner of his mouth quirked up.
"Tired already?" he goads, sitting up above you to give himself more room. Settling back onto his haunches, Jake keeps his eyes trained on you, drinking in the sight of you shifting and stretching lazily on the PT mats.
"Whatever," you say, cupping a hand in front of your mouth as another yawn wracks through your body. Jake just snickers, shifting to scoot back and widen his thighs.
"You're not done yet," he reminds you, reaching between his legs. Your gaze follows the movement, chest tightening a fraction as you watch him wrap a hand around the base of his cock.
"Oh," you breathe, the words coming out in a wheeze. "Right."
Between your fascinated curiosity about Jake's pretty alien avatar and the way he'd curled his tongue up your cunt, you'd gotten a little distracted from the original reason behind this whole illicit lab escapade. The ways he wanted to hold you, touch you, fuck you, that weren't possible with the handicaps of his human body.
Jake's laughing at how your eyes have widened, your fuzzy post-climax brain slow on the uptake. His grin only broadens as he pumps himself lazily, your eyes glued to his dick.
"What's wrong, pretty girl?" he coos, schooling his expression into mock-sympathy. "Nervous?"
"No," you insist, trying to force the waver out of your voice and sound snappish instead. You clamber up onto your elbows, glancing between Jake and his hips rocking up into his fist. "No, it's just-"
You turn your head away from him, trying to hide your cheeks glowing red. No human would be able to see it in the dark, but Jake's got better eyes now, and he always has a good read on you anyways. "You're just so big."
That earns you a delighted croon, Jake's tail swishing excitedly behind him as you stroke his ego. You face him again if only to glower at him, trying very hard to keep your eyes off the way his cock is still wrapped up in his fingers.
"Don't get a big head, Sully, I'm just talking about it logically," you snort, heaving yourself up to sit with a huff. You cross your arms over your bare chest as if to suppress the anticipation that's building behind your ribs. "Do you really think you can make it fit?"
The damage is already done from your compliment, because Jake's smirk doesn't drop. He'll be riding the high of 'you're so big' for a while, but he puts aside his ego for a moment to address your concern.
Dropping his grip around his base, he reaches out and snags you by the ankles instead, yanking you closer to him. You squawk in surprise, falling back on your butt as he drags you in by your legs. Thank God for the thick walls of the lab, because you've made a lot more noise than you planned to tonight, and Jake hasn't even started having his way with you.
Jake bullies his way between your legs for the second time tonight, hooking your calves up over his thighs and settling back on his haunches. He keeps his hands on the inside of your knees, palms warm against the skin as he spreads you out.
"Mmm…" Jake hums thoughtfully, squinting down at your pussy with an appraising eye. Embarrassment and indignation rise up in your chest, heating your face, and you squirm, trying to close your legs.
Jake doesn't let you, his hands holding firm on your knees, keeping your thighs bracketing either side of his waist. He leans in, hot breath washing over your clit, still sensitive from the orgasm he gave you a couple minutes prior.
"It'll fit," Jake declares, like he's been prospecting schematics instead of going eye to eye with your hole. "Maybe not all of it, but enough."
"Reassuring," you deadpan, squeezing your thighs around his waist. Jake rolls his eyes at you, letting go of one of your legs to flick you in the forehead.
"Thought you wanted this," he says, raising one of his dark eyebrows at you. One of those little human traits that carried over into his avatar, a bit of familiarity in the alienness. "Don't you wanna fuck a Na'vi, baby? You were all excited about my eyes and my fangs-"
You groan as Jake parrots your earlier words back to you, waving him off with a flustered hand. "Whatever, whatever! Let's just- let's just do it. Just… be nice, alright?"
Jake tilts his head as he looks down at you, trying to hide a smile. "I'm always nice."
"You know what I mean," you start, watching as he draws back to take himself in hand again, positioning his hips better between your legs. "I'm just no-"
You cut yourself off with a stuttering gasp as Jake guides his cock to your cunt, his blunt tip parting your folds. He doesn't push in yet, just drags his cockhead through the wetness, coating himself in your slick.
"Fuck," you groan, your head tipping back as his tip rolls over the bead of your clit, the pressure making stars burst behind your eyelids. "Fuck, Sully…"
Taking advantage of your neck being bared, Jake shuffles over you, keeping one hand on his cock while the other plants beside your head. He presses open-mouthed kisses across the line of your jaw, trailing down to where your throat works as you try to hold back a moan.
"Won't hurt you," Jake promises, the words mumbled into your skin as he keeps guiding his tip up and down over your clit, the blunt pressure making your nerves sing. "Gonna make you feel so good, sweetheart."
You whine in agreement, the noise coming out high-pitched and needy. Jake takes it for the invitation it is, adjusting his grip to slot his cockhead right over your entrance, lined up to breech you.
Your hole sucks greedily at his tip, already warm and wet around him. Jake grunts, his mouth falling opening against your neck, and he suckles another mark there, his tongue hot on your skin. It feels like your pulse rises up beneath the skin to meet him, heartbeat thrumming under his lips.
Slowly, Jake pushes in, sinking the flared tip into your pussy with a throaty groan of relief. Underneath him, your back arches on instinct, a choked, surprised noise falling from your lips. You're wet and you're loose from the earlier fingerfucking, but Jake is huge, far bigger than any human man, and your body is already struggling to adjust.
Jake abandons his grip on your knee to grasp at your hip instead, fingers digging firmly into the soft flesh. He grits his teeth, canines glinting faintly above you as he curbs the urge to just push past the resistance and slam home.
"Relax, baby, gotta relax if you want me to get it in," he instructs, pushing a little deeper into you. "Fuck, relax…"
You whimper, helpless against the burn as Jake pulls himself back, then tentatively pushes a bit farther, working his length inside. He's just barely past the flare of his pretty blue cockhead, and already you're trembling beneath him.
Endeavoring to obey, you suck in a couple shaky breaths, trying to force your muscles to loosen and let Jake in. Your hand comes up to clutch at the hand Jake has supporting himself beside your head, fingers wrapping around his wrist for support.
Raising his head from your neck, Jake looks down at the feeling of your tight grip around him. A endeared smile curves his lips, his ears flicked forward like you're the sweetest thing he's ever seen.
"Just like that," he coaches, still working himself in slow. There's a strain to his voice, and you know he's holding back for you, watching your tearful expression. "Perfect, just like that."
You keen at the instruction, toes curling. You feel so full, stretched beyond what you thought possible, your hole barely able to contract around Jake's dick. Your back is starting to strain from the arch you're holding, but you can't drop the position, instinctively searching for the right angle to ease Jake's entry.
Jake thrusts again, deeper this time, and a jolting pain shoots through your body. You cry out at the hurt, a sharper sting than the burn of adjustment, and Jake goes stock still, panting above you.
"Easy, easy," he soothes, the hand that's been pressing bruising fingertips into your hip coming up to smooth your hair out of your face. His gaze catches on the tears that are pooling in your eyes, threatening to spill over your lashes. "Breathe slow."
"Jake-" you choke out, your voice strangled by the tightness in your throat, a mirror for the tightness of your cunt. "Jake, I can't, I can't-"
"You can," Jake insists, pulling out just a bit to let you breathe. The pain dulls, but the pressure doesn't cease, leaving you crying and squirming around his dick. "You can take it, baby. You're gonna take it for me."
You shake your head, tears trickling in hot trails down your cheeks, but even as you protest, your hips are rocking in little aborted motions, begging for more without thinking. Jake's own hips adjust in turn, moving in tiny increments, carving out a space for himself inside you.
"That's it," Jake groans, his brows pinching down as the chokehold your cunt has on his shaft starts to loosen. He drops his head down, panting hot against your cheek as he murmurs. "Knew you'd do it. My girl, made to stretch for me, huh?"
You can only let out a garbled moan in response, all the words knocked out of your brain to make room for Jake. It feels like he's pushing up into your stomach, into your lungs, into your throat — like your whole body is filling up with him with each thrust.
Jake starts to move a little faster, sinking in deeper each time. Every time he pulls out, you feel the drag of his new ridges against your inner walls, ribbing up against the gummy flesh in a way that makes your thighs shake. The painful burn is starting to blur into pleasure now, heat building in your tummy even while you wipe tears from your cheeks with clumsy fingers.
Above you, Jake's breathing grows heavy, his ears pinned back flat to his head as he concentrates on getting himself in as deep as he can. It's been a long time since he's gotten to fuck a woman like this; since before he ended up in his wheelchair, and pairing that with all the heightened sensitivities of his Na'vi body is driving him wild.
"Tightest fuckin' thing I ever put my dick in," he grunts, snapping his hips up, tearing a squeal from your mouth. "Holy shit, baby, fits like a glove."
Whimpering, you snake your arms around his lithe waist, holding onto his back as he pistons in and out. Jake growls, his cock kicking inside you, putting a dull, hot ache low in your stomach. Your nails press into his skin, clinging onto the rolling muscles of his back and sure to leave raised marks.
Just like his tongue, Jake's dick is sending you spiraling with embarrassing speed, all dignity forgotten as your mouth falls open in a litany of moans and mewls. Jake finds your lips with his own, drinking in every breathless gasp of pleasure.
"Jake," you whine into his mouth, tasting the salt of your tears shared on each other's lips. "Oh, my God-"
He quiets you with another kiss, licking into your mouth needily. It feels like you're being filled in every hole, stretched open for him in every direction, and all you can do is focus on taking it, your legs and lips splayed open wide.
Using the hand that's not holding himself up, Jake slips his fingers under the arch of your spine, tracing down the bare skin. He palms the small of your back, fingers long enough to reach from the base of your spine and curl over your hip, urging you up so he can rut in at a new angle. You follow the press of his hand, groaning into the messy kisses he's still pressing against your mouth as your arch deepens.
The new angle lets Jake slip in just a bit further, another inch sucked in greedily by your cunt. You both moan together as your walls pulse around him, the ache in your gut twisting into pleasure from the friction. Jake pauses for a moment, your arms slackening around him as he sits back a bit to see how much of his cock has been swallowed up by your body.
"Good girl," he pants, pupils blown wide open at the pretty sight of your hole fluttering around him. He slips a hand between your bodies, thumb tracing over where you're stretched tight by his shaft, swiping up the pool of slick that you've leaked onto him. "Look at that, mama. Sucked me right in."
Not all of it fits — not yet, anyways, though Jake bets he could balls-deep with some practice and a little more stretching. But what you've taken tonight is already more than enough, only a few inches of his base left unsheathed in your plush heat.
You writhe beneath him, breasts heaving as you try to catch your breath. Jake's so deep now it feels like he's pushed out all your air, leaving you gasping and teary-eyed with your mouth lolled open. The part of your brain that's still capable of concentrating on something other than how much dick is currently splitting you open knows you must look stupid, mouth hanging open like a panting dog.
But Jake's eyes meet your face again, he groans, his cock jerking inside you and scraping up against your walls. He looks wrecked, strands of hair sticking to his sweat-damp forehead, his eyes half-lidded.
"You can't look at me like that," he grits between his teeth, driving his hips forward with a snap. The pitiful moan that it illicits from you doesn't do anything to help calm him, and Jake's hand tightens behind your back, fingers dimpling the soft flesh of your hip. "Tryna be nice."
You blubber as Jake thrusts, hard and sure into your core. The weight of his cock inside you has heat burning through your insides, growing a little hotter with every bit of friction he gives you. His respirator thumps against his chest, jarred by his movement.
More tears spring up when he stops again, slowing his thrusts with Herculean effort. He's still trying to take it slow, to give you something easy in return for letting him fuck you how he wants. It's torture, and your hands come up to his biceps, clinging in a desperate grip as you beg.
"Forget about nice, just- just move, Jake, please!" you blubber, and you might as well have given Jake the world.
Maybe if he hadn't been worn down by smelling your sweet slick the moment he'd stepped foot in the lab, or burying his head in your cunt and tasting your need bursting across his tongue, Jake would keep things slow.
As it is, you're beautiful and flushed and crying beneath him, your tight hole rippling around the hypersensitive ridges of his cock, and Jake doesn't have it in himself to draw this out any longer.
"Shit, okay," he breathes, and then he's on you, over you, inside you, and he's finally moving again. He strips his respirator mask from his neck, setting it down beside him and leaning forward to plant both his hands on either side of your head.
Jake draws himself out almost completely, just the tip of his cock left for you to clench around before he rams back in, forcing a breathless moan out of your lungs.
"Jake!" you cry out, hands scrabbling for purchase against his biceps, nails raking against his pretty blue skin. He grunts, letting you claw at him as he shifts his hips and slams home again. "Jake, oh my God, Jake!"
"That's my name, mama," he smirks, his fangs biting into his lower lip. "Don't wear it out."
Now that he's been given the go-ahead, Jake's doesn't hold himself back, devoted to finding a solid rhythm that'll make your legs shake. The weight and heat and girth of him feels like it's being seared into your insides, like the stretch is so tight your flesh is being molded to his.
Every thrust forces a little air from your chest, a little uh-uh-uh that you gasp in time to the push and pull of Jake's cock. You've given up on trying to cling to your apprehension about fucking in the lab, letting every little mewl and sob past your lips. If one of your coworkers found their way in here now, drawn by the pathetic noises you're making, you think you'd be too fucked-out and full to notice.
You let the solid rocking of Jake's hips sweep you up, eyes going half-lidded and tear-blurred as he spears his dick into you again and again. Your legs twitch around his waist, hooked over the muscle tone of his thighs as he drives into your pussy. All you can think about is the coil of heat that's growing tighter and tighter in your belly, the ache that's been growing since he worked you open.
One of Jake's hands slips back down your body, stroking over the sweaty skin of your side. He pauses to grope of at one of your tits for a moment, tweaking your nipple to make you shudder and squeeze around his cock, and the noise you make has his cock jumping inside you.
Grasping lower, he finds your hip again and digs his fingers in hard enough to bruise. He drags you down to meet his thrusts, jerking you on his dick as tears of overstimulation clot your lashes.
The tension in your stomach winds tighter, your body beginning to prickle with familiar heat. It's too much to handle, the way Jake keeps fucking into you, his groans coloring the slick noises your pussy makes as he sinks in over and over.
"Jake, 'm close," you whimper, your hand pawing at his chest, mindless with desperation. You writhe beneath him, cunt starting to quiver and flare around the girth of his cock. "Please, lemme just- please, please-"
Jake's hips stutter at your pleading, his rhythm staggering for a moment before he picks his pace back up, a quick snap of his pelvis against yours. He grits his teeth, the muscles of his torso bunching and flexing as he works to bring you to the edge.
"Yeah, baby, I know," he rasps, pistoning in rough and fast to make you sob, dragging you down to the snap of his hips. "I know, give it to me-"
Your breath snags as Jake moves faster, his hips smacking against the backs of your thighs, sucking in little hiccuping gasps as you feel the coil of pleasure curl taut. You feel yourself tightening around Jake, squeezing like a fist around his girth, and his hips buck wildly, chasing your cloying, pulsing heat.
The edges of your vision start to blur as heat swells inside you, your nerves starting to snap and fray at the edges. Jake snarls, the hand he had at your hip ripping away to find your clit instead, rubbing at the swollen bead, shooting a shock of ecstasy through your body.
"Jake!" you sob, your back arching higher, pressing yourself desperately into his fingers and cock. With one more thrust and a roll of his thumb over your clit, Jake sends you shaking apart, pushing you over the edge.
You cum hard, clamping down around Jake's cock like a vice when the tension finally snaps. Every muscle in your body goes taut as you seize up around him up, mouth falling open in a silent cry.
Your hips jerk up, frozen for a moment with shaking thighs, you see white — and then you collapse, muscles slackening in overwhelmed relief as going lax in Jake's hold.
Jake fucks you through it, hissing as your walls pulse around him, pussy fluttering like it's trying to milk him dry. His tail lashes furiously behind him, whipping through the air as he picks up his pace.
"God, been so long since I got to do this," he growls, ears pinned back flat to his skull. "You got no idea, baby, you're so good, so fuckin' good-"
You can't do anything but whine wordlessly beneath him, your body boneless as you shake through the aftershocks of your orgasm. Through the buzzing in your skull, you can hear him start to ramble, and know he's close. Jake always gets mouthy just before he cums, and he's no different in this avatar body.
"So good," he pants, his brow pinching down as his hips lurch, his head bowing down to hang above your face. "So good for me, cummin' around my cock, I'm gonna-"
Jake manages a few more sloppy thrusts, and then the knot that's tied tight behind his navel unravels. He slams deep a final time before he cums, his lips twisting in a low snarl as he spills deep inside you.
"Fuck," he moans, lurching above you as he spurts hot ropes of cum into your cunt. His fingers flex where they've been pressing bruises into your hip, tightening and loosening unthinkingly.
Even after he shudders through his orgasm, Jake doesn't stop moving, hips slowing to rock into you shallowly, trying to make sure he fucks all his cum deep.
"Jake," you mewl, one hand coming up to pat limply against his chest. He looks down, big eyes blown wide and a little glazed over like you've put him in a daze, but a flicker of energy lights up again at the sight of your tear-streaked face.
His breath is coming quick, hot pants of air fanning across your cheeks, so you grab his respirator from where he'd set in on the padded floor beside you, holding it up to his mouth. Jake sucks in a few impatient breaths before he pushes it away again, crowding over to get a better look at you.
A long, low sigh pushes past his lips as he cranes his neck down, catching your mouth in a kiss. You muster the energy to tilt your head up invitingly, a bloom of warmth blossoming in your gut at the approving sound Jake hums into your mouth.
You take it as long as you can, sucking on Jake's tongue and letting him nip at your lower lip before it gets to be too much. Whining from the overstimulation, you break off from him, pushing weakly at his chest to make him stop the rolling of his hips.
Jake obeys, finally going still, but it's a long moment before he can bring himself to pull out of your warmth. The sudden emptiness makes you whimper, and Jake hushes you sympathetically, running a soothing hand over your belly.
He gets a hold around your waist, pulling you up into his lap with little resistance. Settling onto his thighs, you let your head loll back against his chest, tucked safely into his arms. You feel boneless, your limbs loose and warm and weighed down.
Jake hooks his heavy head over your shoulder, staring down your body to between your legs. His cum is leaking out of you, dripping from your puffy folds down onto his lap. It glows just like his precum did, pretty and sticky and throwing off a bluish light into the darkness of the PT room.
"Look at you," Jake coos, dipping his fingers down to swipe through the mixture of your releases. He scoops some of his leaked seed up, pushing it back into your sore hole while his tail wags proudly behind him. "Put all those pretty little stars inside you, huh?"
You squirm, making a noise of protest as he slips a finger back up your oversensitive hole. Jake smirks, but he draws his hand back, instead wrapping both of his arms around your waist and holding you tight to his chest.
For a second, you just catch your breath, leaning back against Jake's solid weight as he watches a few more droplets of bioluminescent cum slide down your thighs, his tail curling around your ankle. The scientist part of your brain is itching with curiosity about why his sperm literally glows, but you're too blissed out to really care. Besides, Jake filled you up enough that you're sure you'll find some seeped into your panties later.
"That was insane," you sigh, pressing your face into Jake's neck. When he laughs, you can feel it thrum through his vocal cords, and it makes you grin lazily.
"Good insane, right?" he asks, nudging your face with his nose. You snort, because that much should be obvious, given the way you're sprawled out across his striped skin like a melted puddle of pleasure.
"Mhm," you nod, covering your mouth as you yawn. "Can't believe you talked me into this."
Jake purrs, rubbing his cheek against yours. You still can't get over how big his head is compared to yours, the size difference astounding even after you've had your guts rearranged.
"Barely had to convince you," he reminds you, squeezing your sides briefly, and you can't do anything but shrug unrepentantly. Alien sex in your workplace was certainly a gamble, but you feel like it's certainly paid off, even if you're sure you'll be sore in the morning.
You sit with Jake for a while longer, content to sit and bask in his obvious satisfaction. He's purring like a Samson engine, happy vibrations rumbling through his body and into yours while his thumbs stroke up and down your ribs, almost ticklish against your sides.
"My girl," he murmurs, trailing possessive kisses down your cheek and chin and neck, savoring every bit of naked skin pressed against him. "Took me so perfect."
In all honesty, you could sit and soak up Jake's praises for hours, but logic is starting to return to you now that you've come down from your orgasms, and you know you can't stay here all night. Sooner or later, one of your coworkers is going to wander by for an early shift and wonder why all the doors are locked.
"We gotta go, big guy," you say, rolling your eyes at the childish pout Jake gives you. "C'mon, let's get out of here."
"Fine," Jake sighs, looking extremely put-upon to be parted from your naked body. He lets you clamber off of his lap, the tufted tip of his tail giving a final flick before it uncoils from around your ankle. "Wish one of those lab geeks would just walk in here anyways, see you all cockdrunk and full of me."
Wrinkling your nose at him, you sit up and watch as he rises to his feet. "You're a freak. And we'd both get fired."
Jake stretches his arms above him with a groan, relieving his sore muscles from the tension they've been holding. He just cocks an eyebrow at your comment, twisting his back to pop his spine and shoulders.
"You're a freak too," he points out, angling his head purposefully towards the little rivulet of his glowing seed you've leaked onto the mats. His smile is jeering as he leans down towards you, cajoling. "And just imagine the look on their faces when they see you, dripping my cum all over their precious lab-"
"Oh my god, enough," you groan, trying to push down the flustered flutter of your heart. You kick out at him, heel connects with his ankle. Jake almost certainly feels nothing at all, but he gives you a hurt face anyways. He can't keep it up, though, expression morphing into a grin as you scowl at him.
"Okay, okay!" he says, holding his hand up in defeat. "I'll be back in just a minute, 'kay? Just gonna go to the avatar bunks outside."
You nod, tilting your face up to his as Jake bends to press a lingering kiss to your hair. He slopes out of the PT room with easy confidence, looking so natural in his avatar it'd be sort of mind-blowing, if he hadn't just fucked you with it.
The hiss of the airlock sounds as Jake slips into the exit chamber that'll let him out into the lab's portion of the outside compound, and you listen for the sound of his footsteps underneath it, padding away. It's just you in the dark now, settling your chin on your knees as you catch your breath.
You can tell you'll pay tomorrow for what you put your body through, a lingering ache already settling into your muscles, but you can't bring yourself to regret it when sated pleasure is still buzzing through your system. You wipe at your cheeks, rubbing your fingers across the tear tracks that had started to dry in tacky lines down your face, then between your thighs, where your cum has mixed with Jake's, sticky on your skin.
It's not until you hear Jake's link pod start to whir — signaling the transfer of his psionic link back to his human body — that you get up. You gather your clothes from the dark corners Jake threw them too, tossed carelessly over foam rollers and exercise balls. Something deep in your abdomen protests when bend at the waist to pick them up, the dull throb making you groan.
You're pulling your panties up over your knees when Jake reappears in the doorway looking distinctly less big and blue, his wheels stopping just short of the padded floor. The shit-eating smirk he wears now looks just the same it did on his avatar's face, smug as he takes in the luminescent smear of cum that's still visible on your leg.
"That's awesome," he says, eyes roving up your body as you get dressed. You've already got your bra and shirt on, and you just scoff at him as you shimmy into your pants, hiding his favorite view from sight.
Jake must notice the stiffness in your steps as you come towards him, because his mouth tightens sympathetically. As much as he gets his rocks off thinking about how much of himself you stretched around, he's not a monster, and he knows it's got to hurt a little.
"Sore?" he asks, and you nod, pushing your hair back from your forehead, the strands damp with sweat.
"You've got no idea. I feel like I got split in half."
Jake grins, patting his lap. "I gotcha, princess. Come take a ride."
It makes you giggle to see him so whipped, and you can't resist a tease. "Such a gentleman."
Jake's mouth quirks up as you comply, climbing into his chair with a some coaxing. It's a little awkward, and Jake has to keep a steady hand on the tread of his wheels to keep you both balanced, but soon you're sitting on his lap, legs hooked over his knees and your arms wrapped around his neck.
Slowly, Jake maneuvers you both backwards, careful with your additional weight. You tuck your face into his throat with a sigh as he steers out of the lab, hitting the pad next to the entryway door to unlock it.
The halls of Hell's Gate are quiet as Jake rolls down them, his arms pumping on either side of you to keep you moving. You let your eyes slip shut, blocking out the dimmed emergency lights that run in strips low on the walls at night. Everything is sore, but in a good way, sated and tired out and tucked up against Jake.
Jake pauses in front of the door to your room, snaking a hand under your weight to dig in his pocket for the spare keycard you gave him a couple weeks ago. He slides the thin plastic across the sensor by the doorframe, listening for the metallic sound of the lock clicking out of place.
He wheels into your room, coming to a stop by the narrow military-issue bedframe and patting gently at your back. "Hey, c'mon sleepyhead. Time to dress down."
You grumble into his neck, unwilling to part with the comfortable seat you've already got. Jake laughs as you nuzzle into his neck, rubbing your lips against the scruff at the edge of his jaw.
"I get it," he murmurs, giving your hip a little squeeze. "But you're gonna wanna shower, and change, and sleep in a real bed, kid."
You agree reluctantly, though it's not without a murmur of dissent. As you're starting to slip off his lap, though, Jake catches your waist with a hand, holding you still. You blink blearily at him, confused, but he doesn't answer right away, just craning his head down to give you a kiss.
It's softer than all the kisses you exchanged in the lab, no nips of sharp canines or pressure of a big barbed tongue. You melt into it without a question, relishing the feel of Jake's mouth moving against yours.
When you part, his pretty blue eyes are dark. He clears his throat, fingers tightening reflexively around your waist. "Thanks for letting me, y'know…"
With a rush of affection, you understand, and you quiet him with another kiss, a chaste peck on his lips.
"It was good," you whisper, pressing your forehead against his. "Gave me some ideas for next time."
This close, you can see the way the skin around Jake's eyes crinkle in detail, bunching up as he gives you a boyish smile.
"Next time?" he asks, just to make sure. You stroke a hand down the back of his neck, fingertips carding through the mussed, short-cropped hair there.
"Yeah," you promise, returning his smile with a little glow in your chest. He'll stay here tonight, after you've both cleaned up and showered, and you'll get to fall asleep with the warm weight of him pressed next to you. "Next time."
thank you so much reading!
i hope you enjoyed :D this is my first time publishing fic in 5 years, and my first time ever writing smut or reader-insert, so i know it's probably a bit clunky!! any constructive criticism is more than welcome; please tell me how i can improve, b/c i'll definitely be writing more jake/reader in the future!
Synopsis: Zeno cared about you, that much was true. But was he ready to tell you about well… Anything? Absolutely, fucking, not.
Warnings: Anger, light smut.
Authors Note: Although this is the same AU of my series, it is a Oneshot and will not affect those chapters! I just wanted to write more about Zeno, to be real.
Pairing: Zeno / Fem! Reader
Zeno liked to be careful with you. To guide you by your waist, to smudge clumsy kisses on your face. Going up your jaw, tracing your cheek and up your nose.
“Zeno,” you giggle out, fingertips lightly dusting his shoulders and smushing the muscle that lay there.
He mumbled some response back, hands and lips too busy guiding their way across the soft expansion of your body.
“—yeah?” He finally got out. Voice deep and laced with something more— some visceral need for you mixed with lust and love that it made him numb and thick headed.
Thick headed enough to have you in his lap— in his car, just outside your work place.
The workplace Victor resided in.
Where patients were excitemented on.
Where you had no idea of half the monstrosities— half of the lies that made up the foundations of that place —“Zeno?” Your mumble broke him right out of his concentrated thoughts, his hands, ungloved and thick, made their way to your waist. Stroking, feeling the soft skin that laid there.
“Mmh?” He grunted out, lightly lifting his hips up too meet yours in pure wanton need. “What do you need, baby?”
Instantly a shiver went up your spine, your legs tightened their good around the sides of his legs and your hand splayed out on his jawline, making their way up to the glasses that lay across his face. Dark and hidden pupils stared right back.
“Can— can you take these off?” The reply was instant.
“No.”
It was so quick, so sudden you jumped back out of reflex. The hardness in his voice made your hands recede, the lust and need that was once there moments ago replaced with confusion— embarrassment.
The shift was so sudden it felt like something had snapped between you—one second soft and warm and close, the next… sharp. Closed off.
“I—” you started, but your voice came out smaller than you meant it to.
Zeno didn’t move at first. His hands were still on your waist, but they’d gone still. Not guiding anymore. Not gentle.
Just there.
Watching.
You pulled back a little more, enough to put space between your faces, your knees pressing into the seat instead of into him. Your fingers hovered awkwardly near his collar before dropping to your lap.
“I just… wanted to see your eyes,” you said quietly.
It wasn’t a demand. It never was with you.
Just a soft want.
Zeno’s jaw tightened.
“You don’t need to,” he said.
Still too blunt. Too final.
Your chest tightened faintly at that. You nodded, even though something in your expression dimmed.
“Okay,” you murmured.
That should have been the end of it.
It usually was. You didn’t push. You didn’t argue.
But the quiet that followed felt… wrong.
Heavy.
Zeno exhaled slowly through his nose, dragging a hand down his face before leaning back in the seat. His other hand fell from your waist, leaving behind a strange cold where his warmth had been.
“You shouldn’t ask for things like that,” he added.
That made you look up again.
“…Why?” you asked, softer now. Careful.
He didn’t answer right away.
His gaze shifted away from you, toward the windshield, where the faint glow of the building lights reflected across the glass.
Because if you saw too much, you might start asking the wrong questions.
Because if you looked too closely, you might realize exactly what kind of man he was.
Because he didn’t want that.
“…Because you don’t understand what you’re asking,” he said finally. “This isn’t.. We aren’t anything. I’m not some nobody who you can act soft on.”
The words landed heavier than he intended.
You went quiet.
Not confused this time.
Just… embarrassed.
“Oh,” you said after a moment, barely above a whisper.
Your hands folded into your lap, fingers curling into the fabric of your skirt like you were trying to hold onto something.
“I’m sorry.”
That hit him wrong.
Zeno’s head turned back toward you immediately, something sharp flashing behind his glasses.
“You don’t need to apologize.”
“But you’re upset,” you said, still not looking at him.
“I’m not—” He cut himself off, jaw tightening again.
You thought he was.
You always thought you’d done something wrong when his tone changed like that.
It wasn’t your fault.
It never was.
But you didn’t know that.
“…Just forget it,” he muttered.
You nodded again.
Of course you did.
And that—
That quiet, immediate compliance—
It made something in his chest twist in a way he didn’t like.
The drive to your place was quiet.
Not the comfortable kind you’d grown used to with him.
This one sat between you.
Unresolved.
You kept your hands folded neatly in your lap, staring out the window at the rain trailing down the glass. The city lights blurred past, soft and distant.
Zeno drove with one hand on the wheel, the other resting tense against his thigh. His jaw stayed tight the entire time.
He shouldn’t have snapped at you.
It was a simple request.
Innocent.
But that was the problem.
You were too innocent.
And he was… not.
When he pulled up outside your apartment, the engine idled for a moment longer than necessary.
Neither of you moved right away.
“…Thank you for the um,” you sniffed. “ride,”
Polite.
Like always.
You reached for the door handle.
“Wait.”
The word came out before he could stop it.
You paused, looking back at him.
Zeno’s fingers tightened slightly against the steering wheel.
He wasn’t good at this part.
Explaining. Fixing.
Anything that required softness instead of control.
“…You didn’t do anything wrong,” he said, voice lower now.
Measured.
You watched him for a moment.
Trying to read him the way you always did.
“It’s okay,” you said gently. “I understand.”
You didn’t.
Not really.
But you said it anyway.
Something about that made irritation flicker again—brief, misplaced.
“Don’t say that if you don’t mean it,” he snapped.
Your expression faltered.
“I— I do mean it.”
“No, you don’t,” he said, sharper now. “You just say whatever keeps things easy.”
That one landed.
You went still.
Your fingers slowly slipped from the door handle.
“I wasn’t trying to—” you started, but your voice wavered.
Zeno dragged a hand through his hair, frustration bleeding through now.
“That’s the problem,” he cut in. “You’re not trying at all. You just… go along with whatever anyone tells you.”
Silence.
Heavy.
Immediate.
Your throat tightened.
“That’s not…” you started again, but the words didn’t come out right.
Your gaze dropped, shoulders drawing in just slightly.
“I didn’t think it bothered you,” you said quietly.
Zeno exhaled sharply.
“It doesn’t—” He stopped again.
Because it did.
Just not in the way you thought.
You nodded once.
Small.
“Okay.”
And that word—
That soft, accepting okay—
felt worse than if you’d argued back.
You opened the door this time.
The rain had softened to a light drizzle, cool against your skin as you stepped out.
“Goodnight, Zeno,” you said, still gentle. Still kind.
Like he hadn’t just—
“Sweetheart.”
You paused.
Turned back slightly.
Zeno’s hand was still on the wheel, his posture rigid.
Explicit. Leon Kennedy x F!Reader. First time receiving oral sex, emotional vulnerability, praise, established relationship.
You'd told him once.
It was late—late the way nights get when the world has finally stopped demanding things from you, when your body goes loose and your mind unspools and you say things you'd never say in the daylight. You were tangled up in him on the couch, half-asleep, your guard somewhere you couldn't remember leaving it, and the words just drifted out of you like smoke.
No one's ever gone down on me before.
You said it the way you'd say you'd never been to the ocean. Or that you'd never had anyone stay the whole night just because they wanted to. Like it was a small thing. A blank spot on a map you'd stopped trying to fill in. You'd made peace with it so long ago that the peace had become part of you—smooth and worn, something you'd forgotten used to have edges.
But Leon heard the edges.
He heard the thing beneath the throwaway tone—not self-pity, not bitterness, just a quiet, aching kind of acceptance. The kind that comes from wanting something for so long that you've learned how to live without it. The kind that says I've already grieved this. I've already closed the door.
He didn't say anything. Just pressed his mouth to the top of your head and held you a little tighter and let you fall asleep against his chest. But something settled into his bones that night. Not a plan. Something quieter. A promise he made to himself in the dark, the kind you don't break.
It took him two weeks.
Not because he was nervous—or not only because he was nervous—but because he wanted it to matter. Not just the act itself, but everything around it. The timing. The setting. The way he'd look at you beforehand and the way he'd hold you after. He wanted to build something you could step into fully, without flinching, without watching the clock, without bracing for the moment it would end.
He wanted it to feel like the opposite of every time you'd been made to feel like an afterthought.
The right moment chose a Sunday.
Rain came in soft and silver, blurring the windows until the world outside looked like a painting left out in the weather—indistinct, unreachable, belonging to someone else's life. Inside, the bedroom was gray and warm and held its breath. You were on the bed in that old shirt of yours, the one washed soft as a memory, your phone casting quiet light across your face, your legs stretched out over rumpled sheets like you'd finally, finally let yourself be still.
Leon leaned against the doorframe.
You didn't notice him at first. Too caught up in whatever was on your screen, your brow slightly furrowed, your lips parted the smallest amount. He took the moment the way you take a photograph you know you'll need later—carefully, storing it somewhere deep. Your hair dark against the pale pillow. The way the shirt had slipped up above your thighs without your noticing. Your toes curling against the sheets, slow and absent, like a cat dreaming.
"Take a picture," you said without looking up. "It'll last longer."
"Thinking about it."
Something in his voice made you glance over. What you found there stopped you. It wasn't his usual half-smile, his dry and gentle deflection. This was something else—something unguarded and serious and so tender it made your chest tighten. His eyes were dark and focused on you the way they got when the world had narrowed to a single point, except the point was you, and the focus wasn't tactical. It was devotion.
"What?" you asked, suddenly aware of your bare legs, of how small you must look curled up there.
He crossed to the bed and sat at the edge, near your hip, and the mattress gave beneath him the way it always did—tilting you toward him like gravity had already decided where you belonged. His hand found your ankle, his thumb tracing a slow, absent line along the bone, and even that small touch sent warmth spreading up through you like the first sip of tea on a cold day.
You set your phone down without thinking about it.
"Remember what you told me?" His thumb kept moving—steady, rhythmic, an anchor. "A couple weeks ago."
You blinked at him. "I tell you a lot of things, Leon."
"That no one's ever…" He didn't finish the sentence. Just let it hang there, soft and precise, and watched your face as understanding bloomed across it.
Heat rushed into your cheeks. Your chest. Your stomach—a deep, spreading warmth that had nothing to do with shame and everything to do with the way he was looking at you. Like you were something worth being careful with. Like the thing you'd told him hadn't made him pity you or dismiss you or look away. Like it had made him want you more.
"Leon—you don't have to—"
"I know I don't have to." His voice was quiet. Certain. His thumb never stopped its slow arc on your ankle. "I want to."
Something behind your ribs cracked open. Something you'd sealed shut years ago and forgotten was there.
"You're sure this is—" You swallowed. "The right time?"
He looked toward the rain-streaked window. Then back at you, and the corner of his mouth lifted—not a smirk, just something soft and real. "Got nowhere to be. You?"
You shook your head.
"Then yeah." He said it simply, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. Like of course this was the right time. Of course it was him. Of course it was now, in this room where the rain had made the rest of the world disappear.
You searched his face. For obligation. For the hollow politeness of someone doing a favor. For any crack in the sincerity that would let you say it's fine, you really don't need to without feeling like you were turning away the one thing you'd always wanted and never let yourself ask for.
You found nothing but earnestness. A kind of hunger he wasn't trying to hide, dressed in the gentle care he always brought to you—like he was holding something fragile and knew it, and was grateful for the weight of it.
"Okay," you whispered.
He leaned down. The mattress shifted beneath him, one hand bracing near your ribs, and he kissed you.
Not a beginning. Not a gateway to something else. Just a kiss—warm and slow and full in a way that made your eyes sting. His mouth soft against yours, parting your lips just enough, giving you time to meet him there. His other hand slid from your ankle up the outside of your leg—your calf, your knee, the curve of your thigh—leaving trails of heat that sank through your skin and into something deeper, but the kiss stayed the same. Unhurried. Each time his lips left yours and returned, it felt like a question. Are you still with me? Can I keep going?
He kissed the corner of your mouth. Then the other corner—unnecessary, devastating in its tenderness—and you felt your throat tighten. Your jaw, just below your ear. The place where your pulse lived, just beneath the skin. He pressed his lips there and stayed, and you felt the thrum of your heartbeat against his mouth, felt his slow exhale warm against your damp skin, and your pulse kicked harder like it was reaching for him.
"I'm going to take my time with you," he said against your jaw, close enough that you felt the words more than heard them, each one a small warmth. "And I need you to tell me if anything's too much. Or not enough. Can you do that for me?"
You nodded, not trusting your voice.
He lifted his head. Met your eyes. "And I want to hear you. No biting your arm. No hiding." A beat. "Please."
That please—soft, almost bare—undid you more thoroughly than any demand ever could.
"Okay."
He kissed your forehead. The bridge of your nose. Your mouth again, briefly—a quiet seal, a promise—and then he began to move downward. Your chin. The hollow of your throat, his lips barely grazing you. Your pulse one more time, pressing close and lingering, and then lower still—tracing the collar of your shirt like he was following a path he'd walked in a dream.
His fingers gathered the hem and pushed it up. Slowly. The fabric bunched as it went, and cool air touched your stomach, your sides, raising goosebumps in its wake—every inch of you suddenly, impossibly aware of itself. He didn't take the shirt off. Just gathered it above your chest and left it there, your arms still in the sleeves, the cotton bunched soft around your collarbones.
And you were grateful—deeply, wordlessly grateful—because having it on felt like having something to hold onto. Something between you and the terrifying vastness of being completely seen.
His hand settled flat on your side, just above your hip. You could feel the warmth of his palm like a sunbeam—steady and present—against the cool air on your skin. His mouth found your stomach. Just below your navel. Warm. Dry. In no rush at all. Not a prelude to anything. Just a kiss—a gift given for no reason except that he wanted to give it.
Your muscles tensed beneath his lips, involuntary, and you felt him pause. Felt him exhale a long, slow breath against your skin, like he was settling in. Like he had nowhere else in the world to be.
He kissed you again. Slightly lower. Then again, and again—a slow, warm trail descending from your navel, each press of his mouth lingering long enough to sink beneath the surface. You could feel the heat of him spreading outward through your belly, your hips, pooling somewhere low and trembling between your thighs. He was learning you—the landscape of you, the way your breath stuttered when he passed a certain place, the way your muscles fluttered and couldn't decide whether to tense or yield. He was learning you the way you learn a language you want to speak fluently, and the care of it—the attention—made something ache somewhere you'd forgotten existed.
His hand slid from your side to your hip, fingers curving over the bone, and he shifted lower on the bed. You felt the fabric of his shirt brush against your inner thigh as he settled between your legs, his weight pressing the mattress down around you—making you aware of every place you were soft and open and desperately alive. He paused. His breath warm against your lower stomach. His thumb drawing a slow circle on your hip.
Giving you time.
You took a breath. Let your knees fall open a little wider.
And felt the faintest hum against your skin—quiet, involuntary, like he was pleased and couldn't keep it inside.
His fingers hooked the waistband of your underwear. He didn't pull. Just tugged gently, enough to make his intention clear without crossing it. His eyes rose to meet yours, checking.
You lifted your hips.
He drew them down slowly—past your thighs, your knees—until they slipped from your ankles and were gone, somewhere beyond the reach of your awareness. Cool air touched you everywhere, and your body's first instinct was to close—to pull back into itself, to retreat behind whatever walls it could find—but his hand was already there. Warm and flat against your inner thigh, pressing gently outward. Not forcing. Not demanding. Just a quiet, steady reminder.
Stay. I'm here. You're safe.
He kissed the inside of your knee. Then higher—where your thigh met the crease of your hip—his stubble a rough whisper against the sensitive skin there, sending a sharp, bright sensation straight through you that made you gasp. He did the same on the other side, slow and unhurried, and by the time his mouth drifted to where you were already aching—where you could feel yourself tender and swollen, the emptiness between your legs almost unbearable in its need—your hands had found the bunched fabric of your shirt and were holding on like it was the only solid thing in the world.
The first touch was barely anything.
Just his mouth against you—warm and soft and so light it might have been a breath, a whisper, a question asked in the dark. Your breath left you in a broken sound, and your hips shifted toward him without your permission, chasing something your body recognized before your mind could catch up. His hand pressed flat against your stomach—not firm, just present, an anchor, the heel of his palm resting just above your pubic bone, and even that small, steady pressure sent a throb of need through you so sharp it made your eyes sting.
Then he began in earnest. And you understood why he'd asked you to let him hear you.
Because your first instinct was to silence yourself. The sound that came out of you was raw and startled, torn from somewhere deep and guarded—a place you didn't know could make noise—and it filled the quiet room like a bird suddenly taking flight. Your hand flew to your mouth on instinct, clamping down, and you felt him stop.
Not pull away. Just stop.
You felt the cool air replace the warmth of his mouth, and the loss of it was its own kind of anguish—your body already reaching, already grieving the absence of something it had known for only a moment. He waited below you, still and patient, and in that silence you felt what he was offering. Not a demand. Not even a request. Just permission. Just a door held open, waiting for you to walk through it on your own.
Slowly, your hand dropped.
A soft sound left him—not quite a sigh, not quite a word, something closer to thank you—and then his mouth returned. Slower now. Deliberate. Exploratory, the way fingers trace a page in braille, reading you by touch and response and the small, involuntary language of your body. His tongue was warm and slick against you, and the sensation was unlike anything—concentrated and overwhelming, dissolving thought, dissolving everything that wasn't this exact point of contact.
Something worked. You felt it happen—a place, a rhythm, a specific slow stroke followed by a flick of pressure exactly where you needed it—and your back arched off the mattress and a sound tore out of you that you didn't recognize. It was desperate and unguarded, like something that had been locked away your whole life suddenly kicking open the door.
He stayed there. Found it again. Repeated it—slower, then faster, then slower—listening to every broken breath, every shift of your hips, every half-swallowed noise you made. Adjusting. Attuning. It was methodical in a way that should have felt clinical but didn't. It felt like being known. Every nerve ending you possessed narrowed to a single bright point, the rest of the world falling away until there was nothing—nothing—except his mouth, his hands, the building pressure low in your core like something being wound tighter and tighter.
Your hands moved before you decided to let them—tugging your arms free of the bunched cotton, sliding down to the crown of his head, threading through his hair like they belonged there. He paused for a heartbeat, and then pressed into your touch. Leaned into it. His eyes were closed, his jaw soft and focused, and when the tip of his tongue dragged a slow line that made your grip tighten and your thighs try to close around him—the pleasure too sharp, too much, your body not knowing how to contain something it had never been taught to hold—he didn't pull away. Just shifted, hooked his arm under your thigh, opened you wider, and pressed closer.
The new angle broke something open in you. You could feel yourself yielding to him in a way that felt unbearably intimate—like he was reaching places that had never been reached, touching something that had never been touched, finding rooms in you that had been locked since before you knew you had doors.
The pressure built. Slow, then faster, coiling hot and tight and trembling in your stomach. Your breathing shattered. Your hips moved on their own—small, desperate rolls, grinding against his mouth without shame, without thought, your body chasing something it had never been allowed to chase before. You could feel yourself approaching an edge—some precipice you'd only ever stood at alone—and your whole body drew taut, vibrating with it.
Your hand tightened in his hair and you heard his name break in your throat, and he didn't change a single thing. Just kept going—steady, unhurried, relentless in his gentleness—even as you came apart beneath him.
It didn't shatter. It surrendered.
Your whole body went rigid—your back arching, your hand pulling his hair hard enough that you'd feel guilty about it later—and then every tense, guarded muscle you had simply let go. The relief was rhythmic and overwhelming, your body clenching and releasing around nothing while his mouth stayed with you, working you through it, refusing to leave you even as you shook apart. The sound that came out of you was loud and wild and nothing like the quiet, controlled person you'd spent years learning to be. It was the sound of walls coming down. Of something being released that had been held so long it had forgotten it could be let go.
It felt like a deliberate laying down of arms. Every defense you'd ever built had been taken apart not by force, but by patience, by care, by someone who refused to look away from the parts of you that you'd been taught to hide.
He didn't pull away.
He stayed with you through it all—his mouth slowing but not stopping, easing you down the same way he'd built you up. Carefully. Gradually. Like he was carrying you down from somewhere high, one careful step at a time, afraid of nothing except dropping you. You felt aftershocks ripple through you—your body twitching with each gentle stroke, the sensation almost unbearable now, too bright—but you didn't want him to stop. Couldn't bear the thought of losing the warmth of him, the connection, the impossible reality of being held like this through something so enormous.
When your body finally went slack against the sheets—your chest heaving, your fingers still tangled in his hair, your mind quiet in a way it hadn't been in years—he pressed one last soft kiss against you and then rested his cheek against your inner thigh.
Just breathing.
His breath came warm and uneven against your damp skin, and you could feel the slight movement of his jaw. The reality of it—that he had stayed, that he had wanted to stay, that this was something he'd given you not out of obligation but out of something that looked terrifyingly like love—made something crack open inside you that you didn't have a name for. Something that hurt and healed at the same time.
The rain was still falling. The room was still gray and soft and sealed away from the world. And you were still trembling—small quakes rolling through you at random intervals, your body slowly, slowly remembering how to breathe.
You tugged weakly at his hair. "Leon. Come here."
He pressed one more kiss to the inside of your thigh—unnecessary, devastating—and then moved up your body, slow, his hand trailing warmth along your side as he went. He settled beside you, propped on one elbow, and looked down at you.
His mouth was glistening. His hair was a ruin from your fingers. And there was a flush across his cheekbones that you had never seen before—faint and pink and so human it made your throat ache.
You stared at him. "Where did you learn to do that?"
The corner of his mouth lifted. "There's a manual."
"Leon."
He exhaled through his nose—not quite a laugh, just something soft and close. "I don't know. I just…" He reached up and brushed a strand of hair from your forehead, his fingers impossibly gentle. "I listened."
Your throat closed around something that felt too big for words. You reached up and touched his jaw, your thumb grazing his lower lip—swollen still, warm. "You didn’t have to—"
"Don't." Quiet. Not sharp. Just tired—so tired—of hearing you talk about yourself like you were something to be accommodated. His hand covered yours against his face and held it there for a moment, stilling it, and then he turned his head and kissed your palm. Slowly. Like it was something he'd been waiting to do.
"You're worth taking my time with," he said, his mouth still against your hand. "That's all."
The words settled into you deeply, finding all the dry and cracked places and filling them in. You didn't know what to say. You didn't know if there were words for what you were feeling, for what it meant to be someone's enough. So you just lay there, trembling and quiet and held, with his cheek against your palm and the rain falling silver against the glass, and let yourself believe it.
Just for now. Just for this one gray, soft, impossible afternoon.
You let yourself believe that you were someone worth being careful with. And he let you see that he already knew it was true.
So, this is my very first fic on Tumblr and my first time writing anything remotely like this. First time posting anything I've written at all, actually. I'm nervous, but this one felt important to get out of my head. If it made you feel something, I'm glad. Thanks for reading. 💛
when you're over three published chapters into your fic when you realize that Reader should have been sent out with Leon to the field, not stuck in the office to fill in for Sherry
SERIES SYNOPSIS: While you've worked for the DSO as an office rat and occasional liaison for random agents for a handful of years, you never had the pleasure to meet Leon Kennedy, the DSO's greatest, and your closest friend's pseudo brother. That is, until a phone call from Sherry in the middle of the night pleaded for you to fill in for her as she gets called out to the field while Leon is on a mission of his own. The more time you spend as his eagle eye, the more things start to make sense as you begin to understand the myth of the man. But what you don't understand, are the feelings that you begin to develop for him, despite only talking to him through a headset. And while you struggle with the morality of having feelings for a man old enough to be your father, you make the unfortunate mistake of stumbling across something dark and hidden in the DSO chain of command, causing the balance of your life to fall apart.
WARNINGS: re9!leon, older man/younger woman, angst, strangers to friends to lovers, dsoagent!reader, hurt/comfort, leon is bad at feelings, sherry is the best wing woman, swearing, canon typical violence, other tags tba
WORD COUNT: 2,336 (once I get passed this section and into the good stuff these chapters will get longer I swear)
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Leon entered the half-dark foyer of the facility, cautiously looking around the area for any hostiles. You watched as he pulled back the side of his coat to reveal the largest revolver you'd ever seen. It had a black grip while the rest of it was a normal gunmetal grey, but the barrel of it was monstrous; long and massive. You could think of one other thing of Leon's that probably matched—
"What kind of hand cannon even is that?" you asked out loud, more mesmerized by the sheer size of the fire arm than looking for an actual answer.
However, Leon looked up to you through the camera in the corner of the room, the revolver still in hand.
"You mean this old thing?" he asked, brandishing it by tilting it slighly to give the camera a better view, the metal glinting in the low light. "It's a Russian RSh-12. DSO issued."
You couldn't help but scoff. "The DSO gave you that thing? I'd have an easier time believing you if you said that you took it off of someone on a mission out in Siberia. How come I've never seen anyone else with one of those?"
"Because I earned it."
While the words were supposed to be humorous, the infliction in his voice told you otherwise. They were almost bitter, like it was a burden that he was given the revolver. You couldn't help but wonder why, but you knew better than to ask, at least not right now.
"Well, it looks pretty cool."
"I can't lie - it is. Can you see anything else on the cameras before I go in?" he asked, effectively changing the subject.
"Of course. Stand by."
You spammed through the working cameras while Leon took in his part of the facility, and as you skipped through untouched board rooms and offices, the first camera in a lab room had your mouth dropping open. You blinked, still processing what you saw. One by one, you jumped through the various cameras that still worked, looking at the mutilated bodies of researchers and scientists eviscerated through the various rooms. What could they have possibly cooked up in this lab to create something that could do something like this? You couldn't help but stare wide eyed at the carnage, but more intriguing what that you didn't see any sign of a bioweapon wandering the halls.
"It looks like Freddy Krueger went HAM in the basement," you whispered, still partly scarred by what you just saw as you flipped back to the camera that was on Leon.
"That bad? Any sign of what did it?"
"Negative. Just…remnants."
"Guess we'll just have to see for ourselves."
"Mmm great. Go to the end of the hallway and take a right. There's a stairwell on the east end. It looked mostly intact. The horror film is three flights down."
Leon gave a slight nod to the camera before continuing into the compound, heeding your instruction.
The facility was essentially unlocked now that you got the door to the outside unlocked. It was like everyone left in a mad panic, not caring what was left open, and only worried about making sure the front door was locked. You watched as Leon all but meandered through the rooms, checking corners for any creepy crawlies, but there were none to be found. At least, not on the office floor. Leon took the right at the end of the hallway, spotting the stairwell door that you mentioned.
Now that he was in, you couldn't do much other than watch his six on the cameras and make sure there wasn't anything ahead that he needed to watch out for. So, that's that you did; sat there and watched him. You hadn't necessarily had a second to really take him in, but now, you could.
You couldn't lie, he looked really good for a forty-eight year old. He definitely kept better care of himself than any other agent his age that you'd met. Granted, you didn't think there were any agents in the field his age, and he still had hair. You couldn't remember the last time that you had ever seen a man as attractive as him, and damn it if the softly graying hair and salt and pepper beard make him that much more attractive.
Your mind drifted back to how much his words, the borderline compliments and quips affected you. Most times, you were a steel wall when it came to the men in the office trying to crack a genuine reaction from you. Sure you had closer colleages that you enjoyed going to lunch with and talked about their kids and what they did over the weekend, but never did you have someone cause that protective shell to crack.
Was it worse because it was so much older? Probably. Didn't take much to put two and two together, but you knew it was his specific combination of a person. The sureness in everything he did, the cold exterior, and even with that all, he managed to support you where you lacked in the knowledge for the job.
You hated it.
"You weren't kidding when you said it looks like a horror movie down here."
Leon's voice had you dropping back down to earth, and you could have cursed yourself for not paying attention. He was moving through the carnage of the lower levels, stepping gingerly over the bodies that laid there torn to shreds. You tried flipping through the cameras to find something and make yourself useful, but just like before, you couldn't find anything.
"What? Did you think I was lying?"
"Not lying, maybe exagerating, but yeah…not lying."
"Mm, well, take note that there's only a handful of working cameras down there, so I won't be able to track every movement. Treat it as if you're going in blind."
"Wouldn't be a normal mission if you were. I'll holler if I need anything. Sierra-Zero out."
Leon's feed cut out, and he proceeded to disappear outside of the range of the working camera's visibility. Anxiety began to fester as a cold weight in the bottom of your stomach, but instead of letting it disable you, you turned your efforts towards shuffling through Imperfina's documents that they left local on the site's PCs. Short logs and messages between coworkers about what they were getting for lunch that day or who they thought was getting the boot at the end of the week. Mostly mundane conversations that embodied the cogs of corporate life, but a thread from one scientist to another stood out to you.
gwest: The potential buyers are coming into today - is the deck ready?
fbrown: yes all is complete and ready to go
gwest: Perfect. I also plan to display the specimen live for them, so make sure she's prepped and ready for transport.
fbrown: what are you talking about? you're not actually talking about show boating the thing, are you?
gwest: Of course I intend to present the weapon's potential. Why wouldn't I? As long as she's sedated during transport, there won't be a problem.
fbrown: sir, we don't know the true extent of how she reacts to the sedation. if we're going to be showcasing her abilities live, we still need to consider our guests' safety.
gwest: It'll be fine. There's no reason to worry about their and our safety. Let me know when she's prepped.
fbrown: will do
A new specimen? Could that have been what ravaged this entire factility? Your attention shifted to the most recent documents, searching for anything indicating the buyer visit before you stopped at the first video. The date and time was the only description, the thumbnail just a black screen. Curious, you kept scrolling, but there were no other videos. You couldn't help but grimace. You couldn't help but think about what the last video held on this place's server could hold.
Nevertheless, you clicked it. Last week's date and a time flashed across the black screen for a few seconds before it cut to something that looked like an arena with dummies standing and strung up around the room, a large steel door situated at the far left of the room. You leaned forward, brows furrowing together. Why the hell would this place have an arena?
"Subject Theta-257, infected by Prion-82. Duration to date: eight days, six hours, and twenty six minutes. Subject first experienced rapidly progressive dementia; forgetting where she was within the first twelve hours of infection, followed by loss of personality completely by day two. By day three, she exhibited intense muscle spasms and twitching characteristic of Umbrella's T-virus. Subject has not slept since the start of day three. Day four brought forward incredible exhibits of strength through bouts of rage, and by day five, she has to be kept under sedation to maintain control."
What the fuck were they cooking down there? Subjects infected with prions? The only prion disease you were aware of was the mad cow disease or whatever it was called, and you knew these things were something that terrified scientists and doctors solely because of their incurrability. Why would a pharmecutical company be experimenting with incurrable diseases?
You paused. A chill shot down your spine. Wait—
A man's voice in the video grabbed your attention, drawing you back to what you were supposed to be watching on screen.
"Commence demonstration. Release subject Theta-257 into the testing site."
The rolling metal door on the left side started sliding open, and you couldn't help it when you held your breath. From the dark of the room, a woman in a white hospital gown wondered out. Her black hair was shaved to her scalp, and her pale skin glowed in the florescent light. Even from how far the camera was filming, you could make out various bruises and scabs that littered her body, and you could guess some of them were probably caused by the way she twitched and jerked around, slicing herself on the elongated black nails that grew from each of her fingers. Deep purple bruises hollowed around her eyes caused by the numerous days without sleep. How long can a person go without sleep?
She stumbled out, head twitching around at sounds you couldn't hear, her eyes unfocused. You shifted your focus as a red laser honned in on one of the dummies across the arena. You watched in pure horror as the woman took off towards the dot with inhuman speed before tackling the dummy. Her arms flew through the air as she tore at the plastic and foam, ripping it to shreds in under a minute.
Your mouth dropped open in terror, eyes wide and glued to the screen. What in the fresh fuck.
A new red dot reappeared on a dummy across the way, and the woman didn't hesitate as she repeated the actions, again and again. She tore through a group of seven figures in under ten minutes, and by the end of it, she stood in the center of the room, seemingly unfazed.
"While still officially in the late discovery stages, Prion-82 is available for pre-order, and has an estimated timeframe of eighteen months before it's available–"
The man kept babbling, but your focus never left the woman in the center of the area. She stood there, simply staring at nothing, but slowly, her twitches became full-body spasms. Her shaking became uncontrollable as it racked her body, her head snapping in directions that shouldn't be possible. You only blinked, but in that moment she was racing towards the camera. She scaled the wall in an instant, up and over the camera, no longer in site, but you could hear what happened behind it.
Terrified screams and chaos ensued in the background. The sounds of limbs ripping from their sockets in wet pops filled your ears as the woman tore through whomever was standing in attendance at the demonstration. Your stomach roiled at the noises of carnage and destruction. The sound of something like a door slamming open made you jump, but you didn't hear anything else other than bare feet running away from the room.
The video went black not too long after that.
You couldn't close out of the window fast enough, minimizing everything as you leaned forward, resting your face in you hands. You felt dirty just watching. You couldn't imagine what kind of person you would have to be in order to work in a facility like this, knowing the kind of sins that you're committing against innocent people in the name of padding your bottom line.
With a sigh, you lifted your head again to search for any indication that the woman may have escaped the facility, but you found none.
Fantastic.
"Base to Sierra-Zero. Be advised; BOW is still roaming the halls and is extremely dangerous. Video has been forwarded to you. Proceed with utmost caution."
The line remained silent for a moment before you heard the telltale click on the other end.
"Prions? I've never heard of such a thing."
"That's because they're a gray area in the scientific world, and for good reason. They're so deadly and infectious that no one dares to experiement on them."
"So how did Imperfina manage to do so?"
"I'm still trying to figure that one out. I'll keep digging."
"Alright. So we really can't let it get loose then."
"Correct. Containment breach would mean devestation on an unforseeable level."
"Of course it does. Like it would be anything different," he paused. "Hey."
"Yeah?"
"This is why they issued me the hand cannon."
You couldn't help the snicker that slipped passed your lips.
"Right. Well, it's gonna come in handy, so, be ready."
"Always am. Let me know if you find anything else in those files."
He stopped talking again after that, and you went back to scouring the various logs and videos saved in the building's local server, searching for something that was going to aid him beyond a screen.
Summary: Ten years have passed since you've seen or spoken to Leon Kennedy. He was once a mentor, a partner, a friend... now a ghost from your past. Life was once good. Nearly perfect. But running from him was easier than facing your truth. How will things change now that your infected and standing before the man you're in love with?
Word Count: 4k
Warnings: Fem!Reader, reader is infected with a virus, age gap (but not specified so can be whatever you want!), torture, violence, angst (at least I hope lmao), reader kinda just gives up on being cured and pushes herself past her limit.
A/N: With all the love on my last story I thought I would give it another shot. Hopefully this can compare!
Song Listened To: Hurt by Dead Poet Society
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Breathe. Just breath.
You remember those words clearly. They resided in a permanent part of your mind, ready to play during every mission. They were the same words you spoke to yourself right before your life changed.
At that time you were shaking and crying. Trying to capture an ounce of sanity as your home darkened and wrought death.
The town you once lived in was calm and precious, untouched by the world. That day changed it. Now forever a stain on your memory and a crater in the earth.
"Just breathe," You said, to yourself again.
The hospital was far from your home town. And you were no longer that terrified girl.
The one who found a cop's pistol and used it on the officer when hunger outlasted his life.
The one who survived until the very end, barricaded in a store with cries and broken screams trying to claw themselves in.
The one who muffled her own cry at the sound of their bodies dropping.
When you forced yourself to open that door, you opened your life into an entirely new direction. Standing there, in the heat of a fight that started long before you, were two men.
Chris Redfield and Leon Kennedy.
Names you would remember until the day you die.
Your breath began to silence with each beat of your heart. Your eyes darting between each creak and shift of the abandoned building you now found yourself in fifteen years later.
There was no reason to think of how it all started. Not now. Not when you were deployed hundreds of miles away from them. In your own mission, saving your own survivors, carrying out your own objective.
But they say life flashes before your eyes in your last moments. And very quickly, you realized that was the true start of your life.
The DSO had swarmed you in an instant. The two men running to your aid and grabbing you to steady the fear within you. It wasn't just fear. There was rage. One that the DSO graciously took advantage of.
The organization picked you up and dusted you off. Forced an ultimatum between servitude or a life sentence. It was an easy choice.
And then they assigned you to him.
Leon.
Even now, just the thought of him or his name, it both soothed and ignited a spark within you. And then pain flared somewhere in your chest. A gut wrenching reminder that you would never see him again.
You would never make amends.
Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.
The act became increasingly difficult. But the tears flowed all the same. You bit into your teeth to ground yourself.
"Kid, you alright?"
"No," You said, aloud to the memory.
Leon had placed his hand on yours. The two of you sitting side by side on the bench in the DSO gym. He ran drills and pushed you past your limit. Always encouraging you to do better.
Collapsing on the bench right after was the only thing your body could handle. The drills and sparring exhausted your body, but it didn't stop your mind and the constant turmoil it enjoyed.
You had nodded, eyes still on the ground, but revelling in the feel of his hand on yours.
"Yeah... yeah, I'm good."
He didn't buy it. He never did.
Leon knew you better than anyone. He took the time to learn you and understand how you worked—something no one else ever did.
"Nightmares?"
You had chuckled softly under your breath. He had a habit of just knowing. It was both infuriating and entirely impressive.
You nodded again, this time picking your eyes up to meet him.
He stared back with fierce intensity. He never shyed away from you and never gave you the benefit of hiding from him. He stared with full understanding and in turn, urged you to do the same.
So, you met his eyes, always. Never one to back down from his challenges and never missing an opportunity to catalogue every shade of his iris. Every twitch in his brow. Every inhale of his breath.
You fell for him fast.
You knew it but ignored it.
Leon became your rock and you the same for him. He sympathized with your situation. Being forced into this life and having to endure trauma after trauma was a quick ice breaker.
He was your closest friend and then he became your family. He let you put down your roots with no intention of digging them up.
Him and Chris made room for you in their lives and settled you in this found family with the others. Sherry you met as soon as you joined the DSO. Jill and Claire when Leon finally managed to schedule a time between everyone's schedules.
They welcomed you.
What life took away, it gave back a tenfold. Or rather Leon did.
Another tear slipped down your cheek and soaked your leg. Your head bowed over the bonds holding you to the chair.
A weak light lit your body from above. From your intel, the hospital was meant to be abandoned. The mission was to extract Umbrella information and save the remaining patients that you could.
Now you became one of them.
The time with Leon and the others grew from days to years. You lived through everything with him. Even his relationships.
When your feelings for him became harder to ignore, it was the same time Leon found himself a girlfriend.
The first one was hard, but you managed through it. You ignored his smiles at his phone during work. His soft voice behind the break room door for a quick check in with his love. Even seeing the two of them in public, holding hands, you made yourself scarce.
Even if it couldn't be you, you wanted him to be happy. And unfortunately, you were not much of an actor when it came to hiding anything from him. You couldn't let your heartbreak stop him from his happiness.
When they broke up it was a weight off your shoulders. It was a guilty feeling, but now you could have him to yourself, even if it was temporary.
That didn't last long because then he met her.
A woman far more grounded than you. Someone that in your eyes was perfect and very much deserving of the man you loved.
That hit you far harder.
Of course he would eventually find someone. It wouldn't be you. He was older. He didn't see you that way.
"What, you don't like her?"
You remember his question and the hurt behind his eyes. Again, you weren't much of an actress in front of him. Especially right after being told they were moving in together.
"No, no, I do. I guess... I wasn't expecting things to be moving so fast."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
And what did you mean by that? You weren't expecting him to settle down? To marry? To be with someone that he loved?
You gave a weak excuse to his question back then. One you honestly can't remember. And then you slowly faded.
When a position came up in a new location you jumped on it. You told Leon about your promotion and of course he was happy for you, but he could feel the shift start between you two.
He made you promise to stay in touch and of course you did not.
After the first year you cemented that wedge between you and cut yourself off from him.
You blamed it on the time difference. The demand of your job. The exhaustion of the day.
He got the message.
That was a eight years ago.
You heard from Claire two years later that Leon and his then fiancee broke up. She urged you to come back. She knew you and the feelings you tried to hide.
But you had already burned that bridge.
You felt your body begin to tremble under the restraints. The serum they pushed into your veins coursed a new path throughout your body. Nausea swept up you throat and coated you mouth. You bit your tongue to keep from yelling out.
The tile across from you screeched at the opening door.
You lightly raised your head just enough to see your captor. His name evaded your thoughts. This virus within you kept your mind clouded.
From what you could grasp at, you remembered him being a doctor that specialized in bio-chemistry. He also had a taste for the suffering of others.
Another big bad scientist trying to make their mark on the world.
The shtick was getting old. And of course only now did you find yourself on the other end of it.
"The DSO, right?" The doctor busied himself across the room. He tried to stay patient with himself despite the excitement of nerves ticking at his hands. "I haven't had the pleasure of making an Agent's acquaintance."
Acquaintance? I'd say we're on our third date judging by the restraints.
You pushed the small chuckle back. Even eight years later and you could still hear Leon's voice in your head.
"Something funny?"
The amusement left you and instead you decided to cut to the chase. "What's the plan? Kill me? Experiment on me? All the above?"
Your words grew a smile of wonder on his face. "Why so impatient? Scared are you?"
In truth, yes. But you weren't going to give him the satisfaction.
You attempted a shrug. "Bored more than anything."
He tutted. "Well... we can't have that."
And then he crossed the room. A syringe propped upright in his hand. His other reaching to close around your neck.
This is the part where you wished you could say you escaped. That you did something heroic. Something that Leon definitely would have done. But you were outnumbered with the weakness in your veins and the ambition of this doctor.
You didn't escape.
And it would be a long while before you do.
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2 Years Later
Leon leaned against the steel doorway to catch his breath. He rechecked his clip to assess the number of bullets he had left.
Two infected laid behind him. Their blood oozed from the bullet holes and their fingers twitched in the aftershock of death.
"Leon, you good?"
Chris jogged up beside him with Claire in tow.
"Yeah," He gritted, feeling the pull of his ribs. "Just not twenty-one anymore."
Chris snorted. "Tell me about it."
Claire scanned the room before joining their side. The facility that housed them travelled miles underground. It resided in a quaint village with a citadel that offered itself as the entrance to this lab.
The DSO sent Leon out with two objectives in mind: eliminate the target and apprehend the sample. However, they didn't give him details into who he was meant to find. The provided a blurred photograph, one that he memorized. A woman, from what he could gather, with the lower half of her face covered.
Chris and Claire happened to meet him in this remote village by chance. They were following their own lead on the new Umbrella activity.
"Maybe a rogue agent?" Claire pondered aloud as they made their way deeper into the lab. "Something isn't right about this one."
She was right and the two men couldn't ignore it. There was a strange feeling surrounding this mission. It didn't add up.
"Do we know if the target is attached to Umbrella?" Chris aimed his question to Leon.
The latter shook his head. "I was only given a photo and nothing else."
"Interesting."
No one liked the sound of that.
They made their way to a sealed door. It was vast in its radius with concealed wires travelling to the panel at its side.
Chris placed his hand on the cool metal.
"Don't think you can punch this one open," Leon quipped.
Chris ignored him except for a curt snort. He met Claire at the security panel and assessed the numbers in wait of being pushed. Claire produced a sheet of paper she snagged back in the Citadel. A note from one of the scientists with a code written in a rush.
She entered the numbers and air pushed from the door as it unsealed. It swung open with Leon at the center of its entrance.
Leon immediately aimed to fire.
In the center of the room stood the target with her gun aimed at a man now laying on the ground. A bullet square between the eyes.
Chris fired first, but the woman dodged.
She shot the door panel on her side and a shielded pane of metal began to descend from above.
Leon moved quickly and rolled into the room before it could close—leaving behind Claire and Chris.
The woman slammed Leon into the metal behind him. It loosened his grip on his gun and had it scatter across the floor.
Leon hit the woman in her gut, sending her back. He still couldn't get a good look at her. The bottom half of her face was still covered.
She moved quicker and swung her fist at his chin. He took the hit and grabbed at the mask covering her face.
She pushed him away when it began to slip.
With a new distance created, the two rushed to the floor in search of their discarded weapons.
Leon grabbed his gun and snapped to attention on his target.
His eyes found his target's face and the air escaped his lungs.
"Y/N?"
Standing before him, breathless and in pain, was... you.
Your name stopped you. How long has it been since you have heard your own name? And from his voice no less.
For the first time in this fight you finally looked at your assailant.
He looked different. Older from when you had last seen him. His hair now an ashen colour with streaks of silver. Stubble sculpted around the his jaw and peppered across his chin. The same lines across his forehead had deepened over time. Similar to the creases under his eyes that gave way to the years of exhaustion.
The only thing thats stayed the same were his eyes.
Those deep blue eyes. The same ones that you had stared into endlessly a lifetime before. The same ones that offered support and comfort after every fight with yourself or the world. The same ones that levelled you and kept you in place as they did now.
"Leon."
He mirrored your fervent stare. His eyes demanding answers to a thousand uncertain questions. He lowered his gun. Now thawing from the initial freeze of shock.
You did the same.
A bang from behind the metal wall nearly broke your focus on the other.
It bent under the force and finally gave way to reveal two other figures. The man entered with an air of smug following him.
"Broke that one down, didn't I?"
Chris.
It had been five years since you've seen him. The two of you crossed paths in another country, going about your own missions. He settled you under his wing the second he met you. He took you in like an older brother would.
When he followed Leon's gaze to you, his brow furrowed then settled.
"Y/N," He said it with certainty.
The sound of your name coming from your family after all these years hit you hard in your gut.
You opened your mouth to say something, anything, but Chris didn't need to hear it. He met your silence and wrapped you in his arms in an instant.
"I thought—we thought..." He didn't have to finish because you already knew. They thought you were dead.
And well... they weren't too far off.
Claire entered behind Chris, confused from the display of her big brother cradling someone. She looked to Leon for answers but his hard stare remained past her on the scene in front of him.
Chris finally pulled back to allow Claire to see who he was embracing.
Much like her brother, she rushed head first into your arms without a second thought. She pulled you in tight.
Chris called to Leon to join the reunion, but he didn't move. He couldn't. You were alive. You were there in front of him. You were breathing. You have been dead for two years and yet you stood right there.
Chris eyed Leon and his hesitance, but said nothing on it.
Claire pulled back but she kept her hands on you to keep you there. To keep you real.
You could see the shift in her eyes, from sadness to relief to hope and now to confusion.
Before she could begin her interrogation, a screech reverberated down the metal corridor.
It stilled the warm moment and froze it into focus.
A hoard of infected found their way to you.
"Safety hatch," You finally said.
You broke from Claire's embrace and led them to the other side of the room. It was larger than initially thought. A lifted platform stood in the middle with computers and notes circling around it. A single examination chair in the middle.
Your eyes lingered on it a moment too long.
You turned to catch Leon's eyes on you, but you brushed him off and pushed on.
Chris opened the hatch that led out onto a catwalk. It stood over a large vat with a fan of steel blades whirring at the bottom.
The others shivered at the cold air blasting from below, but you didn't. Not so much as a flinch. Leon noticed.
When you crossed to the other doorway it opened onto a metal platform hanging over a vast room. The depth below was unseen from where you stood and the wall across stretched far enough to squint. Conveyor belts and trollies hanging via pulleys were the only things that connected each side.
You were more or less on the outside of the facility with this expanse in between sections to ship valuables between them.
You had memorized this place in depth.
That familiar nausea bubbled up from your gut. You made for the railing and expelled whatever was left of your stomach. Which wasn't anything.
Your appetite was the first thing to go when it started. Now as you huffed over the railing you watched the black substance drip from your lips and to the bottom of the chasm.
Claire rushed to you but you waved her off.
You felt for the anomaly in your chest. Your body no longer gave signals of pain. Instead it acted out when something was wrong.
Their eyes stared in the back of your head as you finally stood. You turned just as you fished the bullet out of your chest.
It seemed Chris had a better aim than you remembered.
What a sight you must have been in that moment.
Alive after two years of being pronounced dead. On two feet after pulling a bullet out of your chest. And face pale with black substance smudged across your lips.
You were scared to look up and take in their horror, but you pushed yourself to do so.
The bullet dropped from your fingers. The only sound being it clanging against the metal platform.
There wasn't as much horror as there was devestation in their eyes. Now if anything you wished they would run away screaming.
Their eyes stayed on your chest where you pulled out the bullet. Thick veins of black had spread out from the wound and up towards your neck.
A heavy silence encompassed you.
Words stayed lodged in your throat. This wasn't a conversation you ever thought you would have. You weren't sure how to explain.
Claire stepped forward. "It's you isn't it," She said with a saddened certainty. You could make out the sheen growing in her eyes. "You are the target."
There was no point in denying it. You nodded and slowly the words began to untangle and allow you to try and explain.
"They weren't lying when they told you I died back at Redwood Hospital." It was hard to look at them so you dropped your gaze. "Our intel was corrupt and I was captured. They created this virus meant to make people invincible. But it didn't work. Instead it keeps someone alive until the virus takes you over completely."
When you finally did look up, you locked eyes with Leon.
"I was injected two years ago."
For the first time you couldn't see behind his eyes. You couldn't see the thoughts circling his head or the emotions he felt in that moment. He kept them guarded from you.
"You could have told us. We could have helped you." Chris stepped forward, diverting your attention.
You tried for a small smile to lighten the heavy news, but it did nothing. You placed your cold hand on his arm, wishing you could feel the warmth under his skin.
"I was dead as soon as I entered that hospital."
Chris shook his head and began to argue. "The DSO should have helped you—"
"No," You cut him off. Your voice held no anger, no exhaustion.
Just acceptance.
It made Leon sick.
"They had no reason to."
It was the hard truth but it was one you learned to accept. You heard about Leon and Sherry's infection. It all came to a head a few months ago from when you found out. In the exact time they discovered Elpis.
The difference, however, is that you are not Leon Kennedy.
You are, and always have been, an expendable agent. The DSO made sure to let you know that once you escaped and went to them for aid. You were, and still are, their puppet.
"Come on. We're close."
They didn't question you as you led them down the platform and entered a control room that stood in the center of the room.
It was meant to oversee the deliveries between each section, but in its abandonment it became a safe house for you.
They took in their surroundings.
Leon once again noting not a single can of food or bottle of water. It set his jaw.
Claire met you at your table filled with the buildings blueprints. "How long have you been down here?"
She tried to keep her question just between you two but you could tell the men were listening in.
"A few months."
You didn't mean to be short with her but the questions were starting to pile on to the point you weren't sure how to answer them.
She noticed your agitation so softly asked her next. "Why is the DSO after you?"
You couldn't help the scoff. "Let's just say... I'm well past my expiration date. They wanted me cleared before I detonate in public."
She looked as if she was going to say something else so you cut her off. You couldn't focus on the heartbreak consuming you. And her soft eyes and voice trying to coax you out of your acceptance of death was only making matters worse.
"You will find your sample if you follow this path west and then begin to travel down," You said as your finger traced the blueprints. "It's held in a vault but as long as two people have the key and turn it at the same time it should open no problem."
You pulled out the keys you managed to find a month ago and held it out to them.
Chris grabbed one and Claire the other. "Wow," He tried for a joke. "You really have been busy."
You looked out the corner of your eye to see Leon. He still continued to watch you. His expression still a mystery to you. He stayed uncharacteristically silent.
If everything was normal he would be talking your ear off. Bad jokes. Even stupider quips. His voice forever an anchor in these horrific situations you found yourselves in.
Then it dawned on you that maybe this was who he is now. All those years a part could have shaped him into this cold man without any feeling behind his eyes.
You looked back to your plans just to allow yourself a moment to breathe.
Just breathe.
"There is a generator on the other end that houses the power to the entire facility. If rigged and detonated it should take out the whole building."
Chris nodded in approval. "Good. Claire and I will find the sample. You and Leon head to the generator."
"No," You said, far too quickly. "I can manage on my own—"
"End of discussion," Chris finalized. He then placed his hand on your shoulder and lowered his voice. "I haven't given up on you. Survive this or else."
It would take an eon to argue with Chris when he set his mind on something. So, you didn't argue. You accepted his love and every bit of loyalty behind it.
"Okay," Was all you could say.
He and Claire left, not before she squeezed your hand.
The door shut behind them, leaving you and Leon alone.