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(≧∀≦) smitty’s no1 fan!!! | she/her | nhl & umich fanatic

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“Forever”

summary — quinnifer hughes i miss you, i’m sorry

warnings/tags — angst angst angst! nhl inaccuracies, more angst, slight toxic relationship, gender neutral, new layout, slight song changes, small text, he misses you and he’s sorry too

note — saw @mxqlss’s post and started writing. honestly wanted to make it angstier and just sadder in every way but i’m okay with how it turned out for a first time nhl and smau fic

word count — i’m so sorry, i cba to check but it’s below 1k

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Turning onto your side in the middle of the night for what felt like the millionth time did nothing to ease the gaping hole you felt in your chest. You felt sick to your stomach but then again, so did he.

Another night questioning if he remembered that you were both happy together did nothing to ease the pain in your chest or lull you back to sleep. So, like every other night for the past year, you pulled yourself out of bed, made one of those soothing teas he liked and opened your laptop to the wallpaper of you and him.

Quinn always believed in “Forever” and “Happily Ever After’s”. Shame you always had to fight him on everything, including that.

He had always lied that it was fine (you not believing) but you had wondered what his reply would be if he was honest. Would you both be better for it?

After everything you thought he’d hate you but instead he called and said “I miss you”..

Summers at the lake house were bliss, the boys had always said that you were good to each other. It was where he’d first said those three words and your reply had been “I know, you too”.

You only saw him one in December after he’d called and said those words. You were still confused.

Broken dishes became a metaphor with “I still love you, I promise” becoming commonplace after your fights. He always was so disappointed.

“Nothin’ happened in the way I wanted”. That’s what he told you after a loss but you could never tell if he meant the games or.. you.

And now every corner of his your the house is haunted. You don’t know why he let you have it, or why he broke his own rule that said you’re not talking. Fact is, you missed him and you were sorry.

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“You’ve been sitting there listening to her song on repeat all day Quinn.”

“I know.”

[mxqlss]

I LOVE THIS SM OMFG ?!?!?!?

[mxqlss]

SOMEONE PLEASE WRITE ANGST TO I MISS YOU IM SORRY. NO HAPPY ENDING, JUST HEART WRENCHING ANGST THAT WOULD LEAVE ME SOBBING EVERYTIME I READ IT.

[mxqlss]

you know what i love seeing. i love seeing my tiktok hockey moots edits on here. i always see them and they make me smile knowing that its literally all over every app im on 😋

[mxqlss]

hes so pretty i wanna curl up into a ball and cry cause of how cute and majestic this man is.

[mamaestapa]

GUYS BEST IDEA EVER (thanks tiktok, see this is why it shouldn’t be banned. it gives me ideas) ANYWAYS

frat car wash but with the umich hockey team instead😭😭

(it’s dumb ik but imagine them washing your car shirtless and shit like UGH-)

[mxqlss]

OKAY BUT I LOWK AGREE? I WOULD BE LAUGHING ABOUT IT BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM DYING ON THE INSIDE 😭😭

[bkaulitzz]

[mxqlss]

“i wanna touch him” - jade 2024!!

[mxqlss]

dawg i wanna change my user but idk what 😟

[mamaestapa]

OMGGG LITERALLY ME RN

like it’s so hard to think of something😭

[mxqlss]

ACTUALLY THO CAUSE IM STRUGGLING TO FIND ONE THAT SUITS ME 😭

[mxqlss]

dawg i wanna change my user but idk what 😟

[bkaulitzz]

bill munching on the soup he made 😋😋

WOW OK.

[mxqlss]

munch munch!!

[nom-nommmm1]

hi stinky take a bill photo that reminds me of garlic bread bill for some reason 😋

I’m not Jade.

[mxqlss]

garlic bread bill 🥰🥰!! hes offering you food yum yum

[mxqlss]

i need heart wrenching angst I dont want angst with a happy ending (as much as i love those). I want one that would make me bawl everytime i read it no matter how many times ive read it.

[mamaestapa]

i do have like one user idea but its a scrap cause i thought of profile ideas more than users.. 🤷

it is a scrap cause all i could think of was go blue (@goblue) but i did have header ideas cause i got REALLY bored

and then like profile ideas..

im actually going nuts 😭 (btw i did finish that mark edit im just sending this first before i put the edit here on tumblr)

OMG OMG I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ALL OF THESE SO MUCH

i will definitely be using one of these!! (once i think of a catchy user lol) AH thank you i love you sm🤭🤍

[mxqlss]

GLAD YOU LIKE IT!! here are the headers i used

and then pfps 🫶🏼🫶🏼

[mxqlss]

i got slime in my hair. 😟

[mxqlss]

im actually gonna take a fat nap rn cause im tired.

[mxqlss]

guys is it just me or it could be the way i say things I used to think tumblr was pronounced tum-blah..

[mxqlss]

i need $34.99 for one youtooz. one week for $20 i cant even get it cause its gone in a week wnd five days

[mxqlss]

BEFORE - RM2

part of the sunshine au

Sypnosis .ೃ࿐ In which Sunny is grateful that all of Rutger's past lovers made him who he is now.

Pairing .ೃ࿐ Rutger Mcgroarty x Sunny

𝐀𝐔 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 .ೃ࿐

Song Choice .ೃ࿐

When you think of all the late nights Lame fights over the phone Wake up in the mornin' With someone but feelin' alone

Before Rutger had met Sunny, he was in relationships that didn't sit right with his teammates. Either his girlfriends were rude when Rutger was there around or they just controlled him and he let it happen since he loved them so much

Rutger would constantly fight over these things in his relationships, when he got home late, went out partying, everything. He would sometimes wake up in the morning with his lover but it made him feel so alone cause he didn't have someone who wanted him for him and could deal with his golden retriever personality instead of using him.

A heart is drawn around your name In someone's handwriting, not mine We're sneakin' out into town Holdin' hands, just killin' time

When Sunny was enrolled in UMICH she would go to the hockey games to support her best friend, Mark Estapa. She knew everyone else, they just didn't know her, except Rutger Mcgroarty. Sunny was hanging out with some friends of hers and they knew Rutger, introducing Sunny to him. From that day forth Rutger knew her.

In class one day, Sunny was sitting with one of her friends until someone in the row in front of her was drawing hearts, Sunny being curious tried to look over and saw that, that person had written their name with Rutger’s, hearts all over.

Sunny knew she liked Rutger but only confided it within Mark, she didn’t want Rutger to ever find out, and knowing Mark, he wouldn't tell a soul about his best friend's secrets even if his life depended on it.

One day, Sunny and Rutger were holding hands coincidentally. it wasn’t a thing where they were dating but it was something to them that brought them comfort. They were sneaking around and holding hands to kill time before and after exams or stressful games.

Your past and mine are parallel lines Stars all aligned, and they intertwined And taught you the way you call me baby Treat me like a lady, all that I can say is

everyone knew that Rutger and Sunny liked each other but never made their moves on each other because they didn’t want to ruin the friendship they both loved, adored and cared for.

“I’m telling you! Both of you are meant for each other!” Mark said he was talking to Rutger, thinking Sunny was sleeping in Mark’s bed. When Sunny had heard it, her face turned red.

weeks later Rutger was in the same position. He was in Sunny’s dorm to surprise her after coming home from a long roadie, till he heard Sunny and Mark talking as they got to her dorm.

“Suns, all I’m saying is that look at the way he looks at you, the way you look at him. You both like each other! All I’m saying is that he likes you!”, “Mark, how would you know? It could’ve been those looks where they look at you like they love you but it’s in a friendly way.”. when Sunny opened the door she was met with Rutger standing there in her dorm. “is it bad to say that marks right about me liking you?”

Rutger had let out a soft nervous smile as Sunny stood there in shock, after what seemed like an eternity she smiled and let out a soft breath giggle as she walked up to him, wrapping her arms around his waist and giving him a tight loving hug. Rutger then smiled at Mark as Mark smiled back and walked away to his dorm, Rutger then smiled at Sunny, hugging her back.

All of the girls you loved before (ooh) Made you the one I've fallen for Every dead-end street led you straight to me Now you're all I need I'm so thankful for All of the girls you loved before But I love you more

when Rutger and Sunny had called it official, all his teammates knew how he was actually happy and that he was with someone who brought out the best and him. Sunny was finally happy, and it made Mark happy that he saw how happy Rutger had made her.

Sunny is glad that Rutger’s exes made him who is now. Every dead end Rutger was at, girl after girl, Sunny was the only girl he needed. Rutger was the only boy she needed, she’s thankful that all of the girls he loved before made him the loving, affectionate boy that Sunny now can call hers. Yeah maybe the girls he loved before, loved him but one thing was for sure, she loved him more.

And all Rutger needed was his sunshine.

jess's notes ⋆·˚ ༘ * I've been planning this AU for like a week now.. and I'm so excited to finally do this au cause I have so many ideas for it. If you have any AU ideas you can go ahead and ask away in my inbox!