Soldier boy x Fem! Reader
Summary: Reader is a scientist who is forced to work at lab that they keep soldier boy frozen, she talks and cries to him when she is alone, thinking he can't hear her but he hears everything.
it was their first week here, the cheap motel room they booked with her money.
the walls were gray and a bit dirty, there was two beds and a small tv, and microwave. It was maybe one of the worst motel rooms in the city but felt like heaven for her after 2 years spent in lab.
For Ben, well he didn't say much, She realized shortly after coming here. Well there were times, where he speaked and even joked, asking her questions or answering her questions. But it was limited. whenever she asked something about his past, or he remembered something, He would suddenly stop talking and stare at wall without blinking, deep in thought. Afraid of triggering his PTSD, she kept her mouth shut even she wanted to listen and talk to him about it.
He was outside in the first day, coming back with his bag looking heavier at evening, saying he paid a visit to old friend. She didnt asked what was in the bag, thinking he would show it sooner or later.
At night they laid side by side in the beds. Almost 1 meter between them. She would think that he will be vanished in the morning, that he was a dream.
but he was there everytime. Looking at her sometimes. Sometimes asleep. She evem felt him adjulsting her blanket one night, Covering her feet. She felt no fear, which was so weird for her, not being afraid of someone who would explode at any second. And it confused her,
somethings about her confused Soldier Boy too.
She was applying makeup, a cheap eyeliner and lipstick, that she bought from a store today, after seeing her reflection on the mirror for the first time, she felt a bit self concious around Ben. Her skin were dull from bad diet and lack of sunlight for years. Unlike Ben, who looked perfect even with that hair and beard, or being there for 40 years.
well, he was Soldier Boy after all.
With this thoughts in her mind She applied lipstick on her cheeks too, and liked the effect.
putting down the lipstick, she looked at her hair, It looked lifeless like her skin and grew too long for her taste. She was thinking about cutting it for the last 2 or 3 days.
She decided to do it. picking up the scissor from counter. And started.
After about half and hour, While she was cleaning the sink Soldier Boy knocked the door firmly.
"-oh, im sorry do you need to use bathroom?" she said looking at him, he was wearing giants t shirt and sweatpants she bought for him from thriftshop, Homelander drink can in his hand. He looked almost normal,
Instead of answering he looked at her face.
Her hair was shorter now, (He never liked on women, thinking it made them look like man.) Her cheeks and lips pink. Eyes brighter.
But it was okay on her, beautiful even. He found himself thinking this often in last days.
But this wasnt like anything he felt before, and it made him so confused, he had affairs with countless women, they literally threw themselves on him. And he was attracted to them. Loved their curves, long hair And their femininity. The way his heart beated fast when they were close to him.
He didnt really give shit about anyone before, Never felt bad about things he said or did. But he found himself holding back last days. Whenever he was angry around her,
Because he hated the way she jumped in her chair when he raised his voice, angry at news about attacks on the tv.
He never wanted to see her like this.
He wanted to protect her.
He wanted to be close to her (in a different way).
Hide her in his arms from the world that she was so afraid of.
Lost in his thoughts he didnt realize he was staring at her face, and not answering.
-"Yes doll, i was wondering what were you doing there hiding?"
-"I wasnt hiding, i was cutting my hair."
-"Thank you." she said. Looking at floor.
the silence was awkward, so she smiled at him and got back the cleaning,
After watching her for a while he asked suddenly;
-"You can cut my hair too?"
He wanted her to cut his hair?!, Her heartbeat quickened.
Hearing it, Soldier Boy smiled softly. She blushed harder when she remembered that he was hearing it.
-"y-yes sure i used to cut my brothers hair all the time. You want me to cut it now?"
-"Okay, you need to sit here." she pointed the old chair.
He walked towards it, her heartbeat was getting quicker.
-"calm down doll im not gonna eat you."
-"s-sorry i just still cant believe you are awake."
-"you sure this is the reason?", he winked.
she picked up the towel from counter quickly, wrapping it around his shoulders.
He took a deep breath, shoulders relaxing, this was one of the weird things about her too, Making him calm whenever she touched him.
When she started to brush his hair with her fingers, He couldnt help the sigh that left his lips, Closing eyes. This felt good.
After few seconds, he tried to stiffen his posture, not letting his guard down, but it was impossible.
-"Where is your brother now?" he asked suddenly, eyes still closed.
-"he is gone." she said. He could see sadness taking over her face even his eyes closed.
well he felt like shit now.
-"back there, i felt this." he said then, trying to change the subject. He needed to wipe that sadness off her face
-"Your hands, touching my face"
-"I-it was for checking your body temperature y-you know, i-its the easiest wa.-"
-"sure thing doll" he said, winking again, smiling at her who looked like a tomato.
-"im sorry if it made you uncomfortable Ben,"
it was far from uncomfortable actually, like being touched by an angel, made him feel warm even for a few seconds.
but he didnt tell her that.
20 mins later their hair was mixed on the floor, dark brown and light brown together.
-"You like it?" she asked, taking off the towel from his shoulders
-"Yes doll," he said patting her head. "You will be the only one to cut my hair from now on" he said, smirking.
She smiled at him, looking at the floor again.
-"O-oh i almost forgot, i bought razors for you, your beard i mean, if you want to shave it of course." She told him as he was about the leave the bathroom
-"how you like it? do you think i should shave it?"
-"y-you look good both ways."
-"you too", he said looking at her hair.
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notes: Next part too will be about their days in motel (they will get closer!) then we will see butcher and hughie :)
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