my adhd says

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You know what’s gonna cure my depression? Money. Enough money to do whatever I wanna do. Fix all the things in my house. Afford more therapy. It all takes money.

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Can some body make a cap cut template where it’s phoebe from friends saying “what are the chances?!” Hmu if you need more info

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A guy looking at a wood burning stove and calling it a “vintage heating system”

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Having a meltdown/shutdown because he put a topping on my lemon poppy seed muffins without checking if I wanted it topped with anything. It literally looks like mold I cannot eat it and all I want to eat today is lemon poppy seed muffins. I haven’t eaten anything at all yet today and now I feel like I can’t eat even though I am actually very hungry. I wish I could just be normal and eat them with the topping but the combination of how unappetizing it looks and changing the muffins without me knowing is really not making that possible right now. I had in my mind what I wanted to eat and the topping was not part of that. I don’t want to spend more money that we don’t have going out and buying another box to make either. Nothing sounds good except for normal lemon poppy seed muffins without any topping.

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The thing about me is I love giving myself a little task to forget ✨

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my favorite AI painter

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When you get several positive comments and one constructive criticism comment from work, but you have rsd so you can only focus on the what you did wrong

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What’s one thing I can do today to work towards my goals…

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Me: *avoids confrontation at all costs*

Anyone: *does or says something that makes my husband feel bad about himself*

Also me: I just wanna talk 👊🏻

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I’m depressed and none of my friends ask to make plans to see me… so this is your reminder to invite your depressed friends to things; even if they are never able to attend, please keep inviting them; even if they aren’t friends with/haven’t met your other friends, please invite them; even if you haven’t spoken to them in months, please start inviting them; even if you live a little farther away, please try inviting them; even if you just want to do something chill, please try inviting them; even if you don’t like their partner, please keep inviting them. You may be struggling with depression too but when your depressed friends see on socials that you are always going places with other friends yet you don’t ask them, after seeing it 5848383x it can be very hurtful. No one wants to hang out with the depressed bitch just makes the depression worse.

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The funniest thing to me is the friend or acquaintance that comes off as really smart and in touch with being politically and socially correct but then when I say I’m Pansexual they seriously think that means I am sexually attracted to inanimate objects (i.e. pans)

Oh sorry did I say funny I meant disappointing and hurtful.

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So I’ve been doing this thing where I stop trying to be the initiator of plans with friends. Like yes I will occasionally have a small get together for some type of holiday or event but other than that I’ve mostly stopped asking people if they want to hang out with me. Well you know what happened? 99% of my friends (which is already a small circle) have not attempted to make plans with me. Like ok I know we are all busy, we are still in a pandemic, and I’m a depressed bitch who almost never leaves her house but DAMN I’d like to be invited to things! Like I get that I maybe won’t get along with your “group” because I am a neurodivergent weirdo who can read peoples intentions easily, but if you’re friends with me isn’t there a chance that I might be able to be friends with your friends??? I think for a while I convinced myself that it was me actively hiding but it’s not. It’s me not being the one to make the plans so no plans happen… I’ve been so fucking depressed and so fucking lonely. Talking with people online is fun and I do chat with these friends online too but it feels like no one wants to hang out with me. I see them posting all these lunches, meet ups, get togethers and I just don’t have a group like that I guess. Anyone who I would consider my friend group actually has their own friend group that I am not in. Another factor of course is that some of my friends live far away and I don’t expect to see them so it’s cool. But I do have some folks who are local or close to local yet still I only see them if I am the one to make the plans. I’m not saying I would actually attend all these lunches and events but fucking hell I wouldn’t mind being invited occasionally. And I’m sitting here like I think they know “invite your depressed friends even if they might not come” but none of them fucking do it for me and it hurts ngl. Maybe I’ve framed myself as the one on one friend because that’s my preference but just to be invited and have the option would mean so fucking much to me. Because i work from home I have very few reasons to leave my house and tbh I wouldn’t mind knowing there are other chances. Like even if on the day of or day before they were like “hey going to lunch today/tomorrow would you wanna meet up with me & with (insert name of person I don’t know but I know my friend is friends with)?” I might be busy or too depressed or too overwhelmed; but I might also be dying to get out of the house for a couple hours. So yea if I’m honest with myself my feelings are hurt and I feel like I don’t have friends like 90% of the time. My husband is my best friend and we hang out all the time which I adore. But he is literally the only person who makes plans with me and that’s just fucking sad. My friends who live near don’t even have kids (I don’t either) and they still don’t make time for me unless I’m the one asking them to. I’ll probably beat myself up about this later and tell myself not to act like a victim and I have to make my own life happen. But I’m in my feelings right now and thinking about this I’m just hurt. I have thought about making new friends but at this point I have to work more on my anxiety before I can make friends with a total stranger that I have no mutual friends with. I know I isolate myself but no one fucking tries to hang out with me so I also feel like I’m just being isolated by others. I’m 100% sure this is related to my adhd and my potential asd is some way and it fucking sucks.

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The bravest thing you can do is share your art

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Adidas needs to drop a Freddie Mercury collab!

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I barely recognize myself when I smile

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Me: *sets boundary*

Them: what do you mean? Why are you doing this?

Me: *knowing I don’t owe anyone an explanation* this is all I’m able to commit to with my current mental health status

Them: wow so disappointing

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Salami on a cheese grater