Being Vegan And Gluten Free Sucks

For dumbass medical reasons I can no longer eat bread. For bullshit conscience reasons I can’t eat animal products. Trying to lose weight to qualify for a necessary surgery that no one will give me because I’m afab and fat.

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For one glorious moment I thought maybe I could have gluten again (accidentally ate a slice of cake that was vegan but not vegan and gluten free, my mistake), but then I ate a naan bread and had to lie down for four days.

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White dragon fruit tastes just as good in a smoothie but… does not quite have the same look

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Weight check in

Starting weight: 18st 7lbs/259lbs/117.5kg

Current weight: 17st 9lbs/247lbs/112kg

It can be a bit hard to get an accurate picture of my weight, since if I get a flare up then I swell up like a balloon and retain water, so my check ins aren't very frequent (only when I'm pretty sure I'm not massively inflamed).

I don't have a Goal Weight passed 12st 7lbs because that would put me in the highest bmi range that the NHS is willing to operate on.

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New Weight Check In

Weighed myself again and I’m down to 17st 5.25lbs

Nice to see that I’m steadily making progress, even when I’m feeling a bit swollen

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Today’s Food Diary

Breakfast: tropical smoothie

Lunch: pea soup, quinoa crisps, vegan sausage egg bite, strawberry Alpro yogurt

Dinner: gf buckwheat pasta with bolognese, two passion fruit mochi

Snacks: little bar of vegan white chocolate

Doing better than the last two days of extreme swelling and considerable pain, but I’m battling an infection and there’s something fucked with my inner ear because I have no balance anymore.

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Today’s Food Diary

Breakfast: meal replacement shake made with water because we were out of soy milk

Lunch: was a weird one, went grocery shopping after a play group I had to be in a wheelchair for the whole thing. Even after that I was exhausted so I ended up napping until 4.30 when I had a vegan yogurt, a vegan jelly, a packet of lentil crisps and a flapjack

Dinner: vegan chicken fajitas with mixed veg and vegan cheese in gf wraps

Snacks: bowl of vanilla cashew ice cream

My pain and swelling has been fucking awful today, maxed out on all my pain killers and spent most of the day in bed

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Today’s Food Diary

Breakfast: dragon fruit smoothie

Lunch: lentil and pepper soup, lentil crisps, small gf tiger roll with Vitalite, violife cheese, and quorn vegan ham

Dinner: chickpea pasta with vegan bacon, vegan cheese, and basil pesto

Snacks: the rest of my Easter egg and two mini doughnuts taken with my pain meds, two mini mochi after dinner, a wham bar and some nerds while working on my pip appeal.

Technically I’m supposed to have a meal without ‘carbs’ (complex carbohydrates, no rice or potato etc) but I was out of egg bites and too sore to sort out anything else, no one tell my dietician.

I was basically bedridden today. Swelling in my legs, knee pain, muscle soreness and stiffness. The cause? Walking slowly around my parents garden to set up the Easter egg hunt yesterday 🙃

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Easter’s Food Diary

Breakfast: pink berry smoothie

Lunch: vegan cheese omelette and hummus crisps

Dinner: sweet potato base pizza with violife cheese, vegan bacon and olives. Roasted potatoes and vegetables, apple juice

Snacks: passion fruit juice, half of an Easter egg (~50g apparently), marshmallow krispie cake, chocolate cake decorations.

I’m pretty pleased with how restrained I was (previously I would have inhaled my Easter egg in the morning and snacked on sweets throughout rather than having a bit of it as my treat before bed), and how easy I found it not to immediately binge on it.

I made the cake for our Easter dinner, but since I wanted to get creative I used a gluten-full recipe, which is why I ate some of the decorations (chocolate flowers and krispie cake/chocolate nest) instead of the actual cake.

I think it looks awesome though

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Today’s (yesterday’s) Food Diary

Breakfast: pink berry smoothie

Lunch: lentil crisps, vegan sausage, cheese and pepper omelette

Dinner: beyond burger with chips and a sparkling mango rubicon

Snacks: passion fruit juice, quinoa crisps

Considering that it’s Easter and I have so much chocolate in the house I’m kind of impressed with myself for only snacking on juice and an extra packet of crisps. No one tell my dietician about the juice though.

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Avocados should be 80 calories max. The fact they’re so much more is bullshit.

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Today’s Food Diary

I am still so fucking sick— secondary infection and all, compounding with all my inflammation and asthma. So I didn’t really get up until midday, eating has been a bit fucky today as a result.

Breakfast: the last two egg bites because they were quick and easy and I didn’t want them to go off.

Lunch: housemate “really felt like frying onions” so we had hot dogs for lunch. Two gf tiger rolls and veggie patty sausages with fried onion and vegan cheese, ketchup too

Dinner: pesto potatoes and vegan chicken

Snacks: hot chocolate

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Today’s Food Diary

Breakfast: raspberry and peanut butter porridge. It was alright, but I always feel like I’m not getting enough protein if I can’t at least add protein powder, and it’s only one serving of fruit.

Lunch, attempt 1: lentil crisps, egg bite and two spoonfuls of the worst soup I’ve ever made.

Lunch, attempt 2: two mini gf wraps with leftover fajita mix and grated vegan cheese.

Dinner: soba noodle soup with tofu pieces and veggies

Snacks: fruit tea, mini doughnut, a glass of guava juice and two glasses of lychee juice

More juice than I normally would have (no one rat me out to my dietician) but I do have a monster of a cold and a sinus infection so I’m just chalking that up to extra vitamins and fluids.

After we put the small child to bed my mum came over and we reviewed all the evidence and the first draft for my mandatory reconsideration letter. Feeling slightly less doomed about it now.

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Today’s Food Diary

Still sick, probably developing sinusitis, less insatiably hungry though.

Breakfast: dragon fruit smoothie (because I needed that shade of pink to cheer me up)

Lunch: lentil and pepper soup (the last of it), lentil crisps, egg bites, and mango

Dinner: soy piece korma, dal, rice and popadoms

Snacks: guava juice, and a mini doughnut

[multifariousmayhem]

me: maybe i am not chronically ill, maybe people are right and i just need to push harder and stop being lazy

me going through a massive flare: fucking hell

[fibromyalgicaf]

The fact that experiencing pain long-term actually increases your sensitivity to pain instead of you getting used to it is absolute bullshit! I demand a refund

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Today’s Food Diary

We’re all sick with a cold so I didn’t really have three distinct meals as ate little and often around my symptoms and a very sad, ill toddler. I’ve grouped things into four anyway.

Breakfast: white chocolate and raspberry porridge with linseed, Pom bears

Lunch: lentil crisps, lentil and pepper soup, egg bite, mini doughnut

Dinner: aubergine and vegan chicken wraps (two), with homemade coleslaw, mini doughnut

Snacks: booja chocolate ice cream, Pom bears

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We all have the plague. Not The Plague, thank goodness, but one of the upper respiratory ones that seem to fester in nurseries.

So obviously I’ve swelled up like that girl from Charlie and the chocolate factory and my throat is like sand paper.

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Friendly reminder that being chronically ill is exhausting

Having chronic pain is exhausting

You're ALWAYS suffering. Even if it's not too much, it's always there

You're always tired

You're always exhausted