Mychaela Nixon

[gang-shitt-deactivated20180617]

I like my music at a volume where i can’t hear you.

[strange-little-writer]

I feel like people always capitalize on Perks of Being a Wallflower just for the sake of being an “aesthetic book reader”. They make gifs of things in movies, and quote certain things because they think they’re deep, but they never even talk about what they mean. It’s overly cliched, and not because the book itself is cliche, but because people never talk about the twisted shit that actually went on, and how important the character growth in it was. They never talk about it. Instead they quote “we accept the love we think we deserve”, and they never talk about anything else. Like living. Like the Epilogue, which is the most important chapter I’ve ever read in literature.

[black-hippie-moonchild]

Perks of being a Wallflower Zodiac

Charlie Kelmeckis (Cancer, Virgo, Capricorn, Pisces) “We accept the love we think we deserve.”

Sam Dutton (Taurus, Leo, Libra, Scorpio) “You can’t just sit there and put everybody’s lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love.”

Patrick (Aries, Gemini, Sagittarius, Aquarius) “Why can’t you save anybody?”

[cinnamon-water]

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines

he wrote a poem

And he called it “Chops”

because that was the name of his dog

And that’s what it was all about

And his teacher gave him an A

and a gold star

And his mother hung it on the kitchen door

and read it to his aunts

That was the year Father Tracy

took all the kids to the zoo

And he let them sing on the bus

And his little sister was born

with tiny toenails and no hair

And his mother and father kissed a lot

And the girl around the corner sent him a

Valentine signed with a row of X’s

and he had to ask his father what the X’s meant

And his father always tucked him in bed at night

And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines

he wrote a poem

And he called it “Autumn”

because that was the name of the season

And that’s what it was all about

And his teacher gave him an A

and asked him to write more clearly

And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door

because of its new paint

And the kids told him

that Father Tracy smoked cigars

And left butts on the pews

And sometimes they would burn holes

That was the year his sister got glasses

with thick lenses and black frames

And the girl around the corner laughed

when he asked her to go see Santa Claus

And the kids told him why

his mother and father kissed a lot

And his father never tucked him in bed at night

And his father got mad

when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook

he wrote a poem

And he called it “Innocence: A Question”

because that was the question about his girl

And that’s what it was all about

And his professor gave him an A

and a strange steady look

And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door

because he never showed her

That was the year that Father Tracy died

And he forgot how the end

of the Apostle’s Creed went

And he caught his sister

making out on the back porch

And his mother and father never kissed

or even talked

And the girl around the corner

wore too much makeup

That made him cough when he kissed her

but he kissed her anyway

because that was the thing to do

And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed

his father snoring soundly

That’s why on the back of a brown paper bag

he tried another poem

And he called it “Absolutely Nothing”

Because that’s what it was really all about

And he gave himself an A

and a slash on each damned wrist

And he hung it on the bathroom door

because this time he didn’t think

he could reach the kitchen.

[eternyte-deactivated20210209]

[lambsprout]

“and the universe said…”

[thefuuuucomics]

[compulsive]

[hurtingtruth]

[not-safe-for-democracy]

[mychaelan]

IM BORED

I need new friends to chat with. Add me on snap: mychaelanixon

[boringangel]

olivia de recat for the new yorker

[philosophicalbisexual]

This made me so sad

[rabbittongue]

[insanely--crazy]

[mychaelan]

[sweet--l0ving]

[halseycon]