Michaels Raw Thoughts

Welcome to Michael's Raw Thoughts. This is where the unfiltered truth lives. Here, the 'goody two shoes' facade crumbles to reveal a queer, emo, furry soul navigating complex family dynamics, challenging stereotypes, and the messy beauty of living authentically. No filters, just raw thoughts from a mind that sees things a little differently.

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

Who I Am

Hey, all. I'm Michael, and this is pretty much what it says on the tin: my raw thoughts. No sugarcoating, no pretending to be anyone I'm not. You'll find me wrestling with a lot of contradictions—the tech entrepreneur who's also a closeted emo furry, and the kid from East Tennessee (but eyeing the skyline of Seattle) who’s anything but a good boy.

Why I'm Here

I'm here to get some of the noise in my head out into the world, to find people who might get it, and to explore this whole "living a lie" thing I've got going on. This is a place for honesty, defiance, and a whole lot of realness. Think of this as the digital equivalent of my brain dump, so expect it to be a little messy, a little intense, and hopefully, a little real.

What I'm On

If you want to find me elsewhere, here's where you can find me:

X: https://x.com/MichaelSte52587

Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/user/MichaelSteel2008

Trevorspace: https://www.trevorspace.org/profile/878109-michael-steel/

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCg-nzPCOaUphZdXk1Mxptxg

Consider this your invitation to peek behind the curtain. Welcome to the raw.

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

yapping

You know, it's kinda crazy how much right-wingers get mad about people getting GAS and yet they'll easily roll into liposuction when it's too obvious that they love chicken tenders, steak, and sweet tea. They get mad about trans people getting hormones, but they'll take chemicals to help them achieve their chairs weight limit. And the only fucking time they give a flying fuck about mental health is to call queers "mentally ill". You know what, yeah, some are mentally ill thanks to you douchebags! They love to point at the problem (in this case, trans people with mental health struggles), erroneously use transitivity (the irony is not lost on me) to generalize it to all members of that group ("If OnE tRaNs PeRsOn Is StRuGgLiNg, ThEn ThEy ArE aLl MeNtAlLy IlL!"), and do abso-fucking-lutely nothing to help (conversation therapy isn't therapy, its torture)

[ode-on-a-grecian-butt]

[official-lucifers-child]

so make it

Cunt

[circus-p-nut]

Cunt me in

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

I nerded out on a chatbot about the 2SLGBTQQIAAP+ community.

So I'm getting sent to religious counseling soon and I'm preparing by being well versed against their arguments, but I just nerded out on the chatbot I was talking with and this came out so I'm going to leave it for you guys to hopefully get something out of.

2S - A term specific to indigenous people referring to those who fit into a traditional"third gender" role in their communities.

L/G - these two are representative of both males (cisgender and transgender) and women (again cis and trans) who are attracted to the same gender. The romantic counterpart is called " homoromantic ". A bit of queer history, it turns out that in the beginning of public knowledge of AIDS, lesbians, who during that time were often held in disdain by the gays, were actually the most willing to help nurse AIDS victims and donating blood. For their contributions, they were honored with the L preceding the G.

B- Bi spectrum. This letter is best known for the flagship term "bisexual", meaning having sexual attraction to two genders, covers additionally, biromantic, having romantic attraction to two genders, and bigender, identifying as two genders.

T- ⚧️Transgender⚧️. This term is used for those who's gender identities are not consistent with that assigned at birth. At this point it's necessary to define gender and differentiate it from biological sex. Biological sex is an immutable biological characteristic that is defined by genetic material and is not necessarily ones gender. Gender, is a social construct that attempts to classify people into groups, most often by anatomy. Falling under the umbrella of trans people can be those who are nonbinary, genderfluid, agender, and so many more.

Queer - this term is used as a catch-all for the community, but also refers to those who reject traditional gender and sexuality norms.

Questioning - contrary to popular belief, this term doesn't directly refer to those who are questioning their sexuality and gender identitie, although it certainly includes them. It actually is a catch-all for those who are questioning traditional gender and sexuality norms, and it's closely tied to the term Queer, so much so that in more abbreviated versions of the acronym, they are both represented by one Q.

Intersex - this term refers to those who's biological anatomy doesn't fit nearly into the two categories of "Male" and "Female".

A-spectrum - this term refers to those who's identities are characterized by the absence of the expected desire or identity. The flagship term is "Asexual" which is used to describe individuals (like myself) who have little to no sexual attraction. Other a-spectrum identities include aromantic, having no romantic attraction, and agender, having no gender identity or affiliation.

Ally- this term is used to refer to those who are not represented by any of the other labels, but have still advocated for queer rights and are supportive of those who identify with alternative sexualities and gender identities.

Pan-spectrum - this term is used to represent those who are the opposite of their a-spectrum counterparts. The three best known ones are pansexual, having sexual attraction to all genders, panromantic, having romantic attraction to all gender, and pangender, identifying as all genders.

the plus sign represents all of the lesser known identities and sexualities that makes the queer umbrella less of a 10 colored rainbow, and more of a spectrum that one see when diffracting white light.

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

about what was supposed to be the "+". I use the markdown editor and I failed to account for the fact that the plus sign is a delimiter for an unordered list. If you're confused, just look it up. Or comment, I'd be happy to explain

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

I nerded out on a chatbot about the 2SLGBTQQIAAP+ community.

So I'm getting sent to religious counseling soon and I'm preparing by being well versed against their arguments, but I just nerded out on the chatbot I was talking with and this came out so I'm going to leave it for you guys to hopefully get something out of.

2S - A term specific to indigenous people referring to those who fit into a traditional"third gender" role in their communities.

L/G - these two are representative of both males (cisgender and transgender) and women (again cis and trans) who are attracted to the same gender. The romantic counterpart is called " homoromantic ". A bit of queer history, it turns out that in the beginning of public knowledge of AIDS, lesbians, who during that time were often held in disdain by the gays, were actually the most willing to help nurse AIDS victims and donating blood. For their contributions, they were honored with the L preceding the G.

B- Bi spectrum. This letter is best known for the flagship term "bisexual", meaning having sexual attraction to two genders, covers additionally, biromantic, having romantic attraction to two genders, and bigender, identifying as two genders.

T- ⚧️Transgender⚧️. This term is used for those who's gender identities are not consistent with that assigned at birth. At this point it's necessary to define gender and differentiate it from biological sex. Biological sex is an immutable biological characteristic that is defined by genetic material and is not necessarily ones gender. Gender, is a social construct that attempts to classify people into groups, most often by anatomy. Falling under the umbrella of trans people can be those who are nonbinary, genderfluid, agender, and so many more.

Queer - this term is used as a catch-all for the community, but also refers to those who reject traditional gender and sexuality norms.

Questioning - contrary to popular belief, this term doesn't directly refer to those who are questioning their sexuality and gender identitie, although it certainly includes them. It actually is a catch-all for those who are questioning traditional gender and sexuality norms, and it's closely tied to the term Queer, so much so that in more abbreviated versions of the acronym, they are both represented by one Q.

Intersex - this term refers to those who's biological anatomy doesn't fit nearly into the two categories of "Male" and "Female".

A-spectrum - this term refers to those who's identities are characterized by the absence of the expected desire or identity. The flagship term is "Asexual" which is used to describe individuals (like myself) who have little to no sexual attraction. Other a-spectrum identities include aromantic, having no romantic attraction, and agender, having no gender identity or affiliation.

Ally- this term is used to refer to those who are not represented by any of the other labels, but have still advocated for queer rights and are supportive of those who identify with alternative sexualities and gender identities.

Pan-spectrum - this term is used to represent those who are the opposite of their a-spectrum counterparts. The three best known ones are pansexual, having sexual attraction to all genders, panromantic, having romantic attraction to all gender, and pangender, identifying as all genders.

the plus sign represents all of the lesser known identities and sexualities that makes the queer umbrella less of a 10 colored rainbow, and more of a spectrum that one see when diffracting white light.

[donniesgaptooth]

beautiful ibook i found at the flea market

[gayteensupreme]

"queer-owned business" means nothing anymore. OpenAI and Palantir are both queer-owned businesses.

[gayteensupreme]

if this is how you find out that both sam altman and peter thiel are gay im sorry

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

wepl, I never saw it like that

[liberalsarecool]

Killing everyone as they protect pedophiles.

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

Corporate Greed is truly sickening

For a personal finance assignment I had to draft a budget for a burger flipper making $11/hr. I mean you can easily allocate numbers but it's making it viable in this economy that actually matters. I took some basic ranges that financial experts said allocations should be and allocated the $880 this poor soul sweat for as such. For example, they recommend that no more than 25% of ones salary goes to rent/housing. $880 times 25% yields a measly $220. Doubleling it for a monthly total for rent yields $440. Can anyone tell me where to find suitable housing for a person at the rate of $440  monthly? I thought as much. But unless you're an accountant, from the IRS, or an overall finance nerd, you probably didn't spot the error. I was allocating gross pay, which the lore behind the name I hear is that it's gross what you could have made. Well , after compensation for governmental scalping, I mean taxes, I was left with a pathetic $740.34. Are we fucking serious?

Performing the rent operation again, turns out that they only have $185.09 to set aside every two weeks for Big Daddy Landlord (I literally don't give a fuck about what you thought about that.) for a total of $370.18. And that's not even minimum wage where I'm at. Over here in blood red Tennessee, a business can get by with a disgusting $7.25. I fucking kid you not. To quote from Green Day's Boulevard of Broken Dreams, "Read between the lines, what's fucked up and everything's alright." Let me explain. When you see a state that allows systematic exploitation of employees by their employers for the benefit of the business, that tells you that there's a lobby in the legislature advocating for such abominable wage levels. I have an interesting proposition.

State legislators should be required to live on the minimum wage that they set, or are going to enact, for at least one month. For one month, they are locked out of their funds, given a minimum wage job at the level they are arguing for, and forced to make ends meet. No couch surfing at their assistants house, accessing their funds via proxies, or turning to criminal activity. All of these, and more, would be defined as fraud and would be punishable by impeachment in addition to any criminal charges they might face. But, I didn't come here to talk about the government. I came here to talk about the sickening greed of corporate monoliths.

To this extent, I've developed two metrics to measure the disparity between the lowest paid wage and the net profit of a business. The first one is called LTN, or Least To Net. The way LTN is calculated is by dividing the lowest salary that a business will pay, by the net profit of the business. LTN compares the worth of a lowest salary employee to a business with the total that the business gets in revenue after covering all expenses multiplying by 100 to get a percentage. The second one is known as DTP, or Dent To Profit. This one is a little more complex than LTN. DTP is calculated by subtracting the result dividing the difference of the net profit and the product of the total number of employees and the lowest salary from the business by the net profit from 1 and multiplying the result by 100 to also make it a percentage. I'll express it as more of a math problem. DTP= (1-((N-(WE))/N))×100 where N is equivalent to the annual net profit, W to the lowest salary offered by the business, and E to the total number of employees. What this metric explains is how much of the net profit would be lost if every employee, from janitorial and fry cook to the C-Suite, received a bonus equivalent to the lowest annual salary. The goal of these two metrics is to expose how much wealth is being hoarded from these businesses at the expense of their employees. I'm going to make something very clear at this point. I have no problem with big companies. I have a problem with big companies that have gotten big at the expense of their underpaid employees. That's what I'm attacking in this musing. That being placed aside, let's look at two offenders. The first one to be called to the stand is Alphabet Corporation. Alphabet is best known for its daughter company Google, as well as owning the link of Waymo self driving vehicles and running the popular cell phone operating system Android. The LTN of Alphabet Corporation is a miniscule 0.0000263% and their DTP is 4.30%. Now, let's talk about what this means. Let's look at the LTN first. First, I want you to think about the fact that before we get to nonzero digits (1-9 for the idiots out there), we must pass four zeros. Now, let's look at the number itself. Two hundred and sixty-three ten millionths. To compare it to a $100 bill, that is literally nothing. Not even going at one hundred of a penny. Now to the DTP. 4.30%. This number indicates that if Alphabet out of the kindness of their non-existent heart decided to give everyone on their payroll a bonus that was equivalent to the lowest annual paid wage, they would have around 95% of their net profit retained. Let's look at another one, the golden arches, McDonald's. Our LTN is 0.0002947% and our DTP is 44.20%. So for this one the LTN is looking a little better, but it's because of a little factor that I'll reveal in a bit. If we compare the DTP to Alphabet's, it looks nicer, but I hate to break it to you but McDonald's only reports those who work directly for the giant arches home base, not those burger flippers. Not those highschool students, college students, and those people desperately trying to make it in life. I'm not trying to tell a sob story, just what the truth is. I didn't come with this musing to make you take a side, just to help you see what is happening.

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

If we get the Terminator it's 1000% our fault

I was checking my email and a headline from a newsletter I follow caught my eye, "AI chose nukes 95% of the time!". Not shocking. Concerning? Absolutely. Surprising? Abso-fucking-lutely not. Why? you may ask. Well here's why. We're literally teaching LLMs to think like this. Here's what I mean. AI, like humans, learns as a result of pattern recognition. To make that more practical, I'll use the old programming acronym GIGO. What you input is what you get in output. Many LLMs like Open AI's Chat-GPT, Google Gemini, Anthropic Claude, and their other lesser known counterparts, are trained on vast sums of data scraped from many places on the Internet. One favored category is forums. Forums are favored because they sometimes have answers from credible people (those who don't necessarily recommend jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge to cure depression, iykyk) but guess who else likes to congregate on platforms like Reddit, Quora, and 4chan? Your tinfoil fanfic writers. Not to mention the perpetually paranoid person who is adamant that the government is spying on us but also for some reason uses Windows 11 (hey buddy, we already know this, but have you heard about Linux? If you don't trust the government, I'd say great choice.) Anyways, I'm getting a little off track. The point I'm making is that these guys put out a lot of stuff about AI and nukes and robot overlords. And that's not including the Wattpad and AO3 stories that somehow seem to always end with a humanoid falling in love with a human and it gets pretty spicy from there. (What?! You haven't seen that? Don't look for it. I stumbled across it. I don't recommend) And with a smittering here and a smattering there, that stuff adds up faster than charges on a spendthrift teens credit card. All that ends up training the next generation of LLMs. Who when put to war games choose to use nuclear weapons to "win". And with that, we have the setting for a novel. "It was a dark and cold and cloudy day, much like every one before it for the past 5 years. [MC] stuck their walking stick in a little notch in the permafrost. It was on a day about 5 years ago, the sun was shining and the birds were singing. No one expected anything like it. But little did they know that the world would change forever as the US brought online their AI war agent. " Okay I'll stop. It's a pretty scripted story. And guess what. This essay is probably going to contribute to what it talked about. Fucking ironic, no?

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

PCB knives.

i found these on Reddit. Credit to whoever did this work of art.

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

506 days

So. 506 days. That's about how many days I was closeted to my mom. The start date is the closest I can get to the day that I realized my sexuality. Yesterday, 1 April 2026 at about 17:55, due to certain circumstances that transpired, I decided, against what I wished, that it was expedient to disclose my sexuality to my mother. She seemed open to the concept but is very much set against me identifying under the queer umbrella, and that's nonnegotiable. While I'm so much more than asexual, I've only revealed that part of my personal life. I don't know what the road looks like from this point on, but after a month of life changes, it probably won't be pleasant. At the end of the day, I have to choose between faking who I am and who my mom wants me to be.

[thememedaddy]

[poorrichardjr]

That would be the grifters ....

[thememedaddy]

[poorrichardjr]

That would be the grifters ....

[mychaelsrawthoughts]

Holy fuck, they're not wrong.

[record-guy59]

[thoughtkick]

“If you don’t love yourself you will always be chasing after people who don’t love you either.”

— Mandy Hale

[makingdonalddrumpfagain]