Disorder @mydisorderedbrain - Tumblr Blog

i don't know if we will survive, because i don't know if i will survive

im trying, i swear i am,

but i just keep failing

#depressed #sad #never good enough

how did i end up back here again

#depressed #sad #drowning #not again

if i let myself feel everything, i don't think i will be able to keep going and i will just sink

#depressed #sad #drowning

here i am, back again, back against the wall, nowhere to go

mydisorderedbrain

old habits never die

i wish i could go back in time, before i met you, and kill myself like i had originally planned.

it's not that i want to die,

i just don't want to exist anymore

#depression #empty

i'll never be enough

Why does it always happen like this...one minute everything is good and fine, and the next everything crashes down.

It feels like i'm continuously building a tower: the more i build, the higher i get. But the tower is made of popsicle sticks, and at any moment, the tower could come crumbling down.

#depression #bpd

now is not the time, but it all makes me want to die. idk how to handle all these emotions other than to hurt myself. but i don't want to hurt you more so idk what to do

the grief is so immense right now

There's nothing left to say,

I'm just so tired

#suicidal #tired #depression #bpd

old habits never die

If you could kill yourself without any consequences, without hurting any of the people you love, would you do it?

Because I would.

#depression #bpd #the sadness never leaves #tired