my hell in a nutshell.

this is just a bloq about my life and stuff I like. feel free to follow or not. idc. tbh.

[myhellinanutshell]

someday I will end me because of the lack of love.

I don’t want to be alone anymore. The loneliness is slowly eating me up from the inside. it’s burning into my flesh, my thoughts, my brain. The love I crave feels unreachable. So why should I even try anymore?

I feel so sad these days. So lonely. I’m feeling like a puzzle piece that doesn’t connect to any other piece. I feel so many bad things but I can’t cry anymore. I’m just searching for an excuse not to follow the plan of ending it all. but I don’t find one.

I’m sleeping most times of my free time, so I don’t have to live actively

-my head, February 2023

[myhellinanutshell]

I feel like i can’t communicate with other people anymore. Every conversation feels so forced and most of the time I don’t even know what to talk about in the first place. When I’m with a lot of people I zoom out, wishing I would be anywhere but here. Can someone teach me how to be a human being?

[fairydropart]

A little late, but here are two happy mycena rosea for Funguary! 

[calendafifi]

[law-of-abstraction]

Vintage French postcard, “L’amour de Pierrot,” c. 1905.

[memeuplift]

[criptoas]

Gail Potocki

[thewindowofthesummerhouse]

Justin O'Neal

[valentina-poem]

[starinterrupted]

kurt speaking up for what he believes in is so f*cking incredible how did such a great person exist honeslty

[slayomicuntbell]

Doja Cat

[myhellinanutshell]

I guess your girl is going to therapy again.

[myhellinanutshell]

Hey Brain, can you stop working for one fucking second? Thanks.

[myhellinanutshell]

You know that feeling, when your body is completely numb, but your brain tells you to feel something?

[myhellinanutshell]

Everything feels so fucking unreal.

Today a friend told me , that my ex got a new girlfriend for a month or something. I actually hook up with my ex two weeks ago and I didn’t know that he had a girlfriend. Why do I feel so bad even if it’s not my fault. Why do I feel so much pain? please help me.

[theculture]

Doja Cat’s appearances on ‘Genius Verified’ | @theculture​

[justinhubbell]

To those we love

To those we lost

And those of us

Whose paths have crossed.

- - -

About this: I’m in therapy. I am in recovery. I am healing.

This triptych is part of a book I’ve been working on.

I’ve been suicidal since the third grade. What I’ve learned over the years is, being suicidal is nothing to be ashamed of. It’s not your fault. You’re not “broken” or “worthless” or any of that.

We have the power to change our relationship with anything. We can find balance within ourselves. It’s there.

If you were looking for, or needing a sign? Here it is.

If you needed permission? Take mine.

It might take you a few tries, yes, but there are many people who can help. It’s a slow process but you are worth it.  Don’t give up!

I love you and I’m proud of you!

-Justin